Ping An Biography

There is a faint scent of sweet-scented osmanthus in the air, a simple desk, an old window, a very familiar scene, at least very familiar in memory.The former Zhang Ning spent countless days and nights in this corner, where he grew up.

I also thought of the moment when I just woke up from this room and faced a new life, the first thing I saw was the surprised face of Zhang Xiaomei, what a cute face; There are more secret feelings in my heart, maybe there is another person's shadow on her body, that little girl who always stays at a certain age, Zhang Ning can't remember her appearance at all now, there is only a hazy impression in my heart, even In the dream her face was blank.Sometimes Zhang Ning would have some strange illusions, since he could be reborn, maybe Zhang Xiaomei was reborn by her.

The person you saw for the first time, the person you loved for the first time, is it hard to forget when you grow old?Love, this word is relatively big and complicated, and Zhang Ning did not fully understand it, but he is sure that he loves Zhang Xiaomei, the person he loved the most in this world in the fifteenth century... maybe it is family affection, maybe it is more, in short, it is not Jane. Simply want to do something to her.

Sometimes his feelings are very selfless, and he just wants Zhang Xiaomei to live a good life in peace; sometimes he becomes a little extreme, wanting to keep her in his own life, not wanting to lose her, even if she leaves his own world. If life is good, Zhang Ning will also feel bad.

When he was feeling complicated, he suddenly heard the familiar "creaking" sound from the stairs. Zhang Ning listened carefully and identified that it was Zhang Xiaomei who came up.He put away the auspicious talisman in his hand and hid it in his bosom, and continued to sit calmly.

Sure enough, it was Zhang Xiaomei who opened the door and came in, she said a little unhappy: "Brother really wants me to see that second young master?"

Zhang Ning's left face twitched slightly reflexively. He looked at Zhang Xiaomei's white and pure face. She was as pure and beautiful as an angel.

"I know you can't bear to part with me." Zhang Xiaomei murmured.

Soon Zhang Ning came back to his senses, and his heart was overwhelmed.After all, there is no blood relationship, so some of my secret emotions are not dirty?But he soon thought again: his surname was Zhang since he was a baby, and if something shocking happened, he would be cast aside by the moral and public opinions of the whole society without any suspense; Towards an era in which morality is greater than law.In short, the consequences may be more serious than imagined.

He paused and forced a smile: "Of course I don't want to part with my little sister, but you are going to get married when you grow up. All the girls in the world can't stay in their mother's house forever. Do you need your brother to teach you this truth? Some girls are ten Get married in two or three, and my younger sister will be sixteen this year."

"Oh." Zhang Xiaomei sighed anxiously with her childish face like an adult, went to sit down opposite Zhang Ning, propped her chin with her hands and stared at Zhang Ning with big bright eyes.

Zhang Ning turned his head to look out the window, speechless.

"I also understand what my brother said." Zhang Xiaomei murmured again, "But, I just want to be with my brother, I want to watch you study at home, I can wait even when you're not here, I have a thought. "

Rourou's affection teased Zhang Ning's fragile psychology, but he didn't speak.

Zhang Xiaomei said again: "Why don't you push off the matter of the Su family first, and let's talk about it later."

When Zhang Ning thought about it, it was also a solution, and he couldn't help but agree. He suddenly turned his head and looked relieved. When he stretched out his hand, he realized that he didn't know what to do. He stopped in mid-air, and then slowly shrank went back.

The emotions between words and deeds made Zhang Xiaomei feel the truth, and she was also overjoyed, and blurted out a little emotionally: "It would be great if I could marry my brother!"

"What did you say?" Zhang Ning frowned suddenly.

Zhang Xiaomei hurriedly moved the stool over, hugged Zhang Ning's arm, leaned her head on his shoulder, and said softly: "I'm talking nonsense. But if I don't marry, it's the same if I stay with my brother all the time. At best, the eighth woman would gossip about me, and it's none of my brother's business."

At first it sounded very attractive to Zhang Ning, but his inner recognition made him realize that he was also very selfish.

But Zhang Xiaomei is relatively simple, but Zhang Ning knows that it is not that simple.He selfishly wants to possess, anyway, the younger sister is willing, but he easily realizes that one day she may blame himself, and even spurn and hate him; I made a mistake in my decision-making, and maybe I will complain in my heart when my younger sister understands life better. After all, you can’t find a good husband’s house everywhere. After passing this village, there may be no such shop. Otherwise, why are there so many people who hate to marry in modern times? Leftover women?

Who is the most important person in a woman's heart is a constantly changing variable.Normally, one day in the future, for Zhang Xiaomei, she should no longer be the person she cares about the most, but just her brother, a close relative of her natal family, nothing more; She is immature, but she is the one who treats her best in the family, so she has a sense of dependence... that's about it.

"You're talking stupid again." Zhang Ning gently pushed Xiaomei Zhang away, and said earnestly, "In the future, you need to learn more about how to behave and understand what should be done and what should not be done, so as not to be wronged by your in-laws."

Zhang Xiaomei was pushed away by the gesture of refusal, and a wronged expression appeared on her face, which made Zhang Ning feel uncomfortable.

"Brother! Are you tired of me? I wish I could get married soon!" Zhang Xiaomei was pushed away as if she was about to cry.

"Why am I tired of you..." Zhang Ning looked at her with complicated emotions, and said in his heart that it is too late for me to love you, and there will be no change at any time; if I can change one day, I promise you now.Why should I refuse, can you understand?

He lowered his head and said slowly: "I don't ask you to rely on me so much now, I just want to call me brother happily when you see me many years later, let's talk about old things and make things common."

Perhaps Zhang Ning unintentionally revealed contagious sentimentality, and Zhang Xiaomei suddenly burst into tears, as if she was so sad.

Zhang Ning said comfortingly: "Our parents passed away early in the past, and the brothers and sisters depended on each other. The little sister is so pitiful; in the future, you will have a new life, with your own husband and children. They are all your relatives. Life will be different." Successful."

Unexpectedly, the more comforted she was, the more she cried, and she just cried and didn't speak.

Zhang Ning said quickly: "Uncle will arrange a meeting with the Su family, you don't need to come out, just stay quietly at the back of the hall and watch." He stood up after speaking, "I'm going back to Wuyuan, I have official business. You can listen at home The words of the elders are not asking you to leave the Zhang family right away."

"Brother won't you go with me?" Zhang Xiaomei wiped her tears and hurriedly pulled Zhang Ning back.

"I don't need to go..." Zhang Ning thought in his heart that I went to see that young master just for cruelty, as if he was his rival in love, but he couldn't compete with him. "The Su family's background shouldn't be a big problem. I know Su Liangchen. People with fame have been innocent for three generations. The fame of the students proves a lot of information. It's mainly my younger sister's own impression. Whether words and deeds are appropriate, etc. Don’t worry, just get to know slowly.”

The little girl looked at him pitifully. Her eyes were bright, and her smile and frown were contagious. Zhang Ning deliberately didn't look at him, and went straight downstairs.

In fact, Wu Yuan has nothing to do, the whole interview and organization is going to be over, so why bother so much.Since Emperor Hongxi ascended the throne, there has been no new layout. Everyone is waiting to be abolished, waiting to liquidate the accounts of various properties, those who have connections to seek new errands, and those who have nothing to do have to find another way out, that's all.But for the time being, the properties below Wu Yuan have not been taken back, so they can stay there for a while longer; even on the day when the text is abolished, Zhang Ning will still have the rank of a doctor in the Nanjing Ministry of Rites, and the Tian Zhu officer is also an official and receives his salary as usual, but he has no real power for the time being. .

It was a quiet morning with nothing to do, with a little sadness.

He led the horse and walked on Liren Street, and suddenly remembered his childhood friend Zhou Qiang, the best friend who ran away from home with him, and played together since childhood.But after I was a teenager, I seldom contacted him, and I never contacted him after leaving his hometown to work in the city.

Recalling the past, putting aside black and white, right and wrong, Zhou Qiang was actually a kind of betrayal; but Zhang Ning never hated him, because the things before the betrayal were wrong and did not conform to social rules.It is just a joke. The relationship between people is ultimately just a relationship, because of various reasons, various purposes, and various rules. If you break away from specific rules, you are nothing. Life is a lone walker. .

Suddenly, Zhang Ning seemed to have returned to the early morning many years ago, and his "brother" who accompanied him was gone, leaving him alone in a strange train station, confused and unaware of the meaning of life.Obviously he has suffered betrayal, but he has to bear the infamy of teaching other people's children, and even he can only admit it.

He shook the reins, raised his head and hummed a couple of ditties, and continued walking leisurely.The world is not all gray. There are right and wrong, black and white, and rules. We can only abide by the rules. Even the masters who make the rules don't do whatever they want. They need to abide by the larger rules "objective laws"... So Zhang Xiaomei's I did the right thing, at least I acted without mistakes, so I don't need to think about it. Maybe the hidden emotions I had for her at the beginning were superfluous.

Liren Street is already very lively, the decent people who pay attention to ostentation and the unkempt peddlers are bustling together, and the lives of all kinds of people are mixed together to form a market society.The sun was in the clouds in the east, revealing a hazy halo, and the streets and alleys seemed to be shrouded in a thin layer of mist in cloudy weather.