President he is paranoid

It's just that I don't know how long I can hold him... Jun Haixin thought silently in his heart, is it one year, two years... or five years? !And the answer, she didn't know.

After hugging enough, Jun Haixin took a deep breath and let go of his hands, "I'm going back to my room first." After saying that, he turned and walked towards the stairs.

"Hai Xin!" Song Yi called out, "Tomorrow night..."

"I won't come back tomorrow night, I will sleep outside." Jun Haixin replied.Just because I don't want my loved ones to see my pain.Even if she locks the door of the room at that time, I'm afraid my sister-in-law will spend the night worrying outside the door.

Talking about playing, Jun Haixin stepped up the stairs.Song Yi looked at Jun Haixin's back worriedly, but she was full of worry.

Although she was really relieved that the eldest son had found Mingyi, but when she thought that her sister-in-law had no news of Mingyi so far, her heart rose again.Especially, my sister-in-law is now 40 years old, and after the new year, she will be 41, but Mingyi is gone.

Sometimes Song Yi can only comfort herself, maybe in a few days, my sister-in-law's fate will suddenly appear, just like Jinchen met Xiaoxu, it happened without anyone's expectation.

Thinking of this, Song Yi's mood will be a little better.

Jun Haixin walked into the room, lay on the bed exhaustedly, took out the white medicine bottle from her pocket, she glanced at it, and then threw the medicine bottle on the ground again.

By tomorrow, the medicine will have no effect at all, and tomorrow... how much pain will it be? !

The pain became more severe every time. Every time, she thought it was the ultimate pain, but she didn't think that the next full moon would only hurt more than this time.

And when the full moon came, when Jun Haixin stayed alone in the presidential suite of the Jun Hotel again, she found that the pain she endured this time was indeed more severe than the last time.The pain not only flowed through the blood, but also seemed to have an invisible hand twisting the bones and muscles in her body.

Compared with the pain of the last full moon, the pain this time is not only a little bit more painful, but it seems to increase the pain by a fifth.Of course, this one-fifth is only her rough estimate.

Before she was 40 years old, although the pain of each full moon would increase, it would only increase slowly, very slowly, so slow that sometimes she could not even notice it, but after the age of 40, the pain increased rapidly A lot.

It is precisely because of this that many members of the Jun family can't bear to commit suicide!

Jun Haixin smiled miserably. In the room, the sound of music resounded to cover up her painful wailing.Knowing that the sound insulation in the hotel room is very good, even if she shouted in the room until her voice broke, no one would hear her, but she still turned the music to the loudest.

She thought it was because she didn't want to hear her own wailing.The more she listened, the more pain, struggle, grief and indignation she would feel, and the more she would lose the courage to continue living...

Although she often feels that death is a kind of relief for her now, she thinks that she may still have a chance to meet Mingyi, thinks that she may still be able to get the satisfaction she has never had before, and thinks... If she If she really died, it would be a deep blow to the family who had always loved her.

As for Bai Zhuyun, if she died, what would happen to him?Did he die with her?Or send a bouquet of flowers to her grave every year?Or dig her bones and ashes out of the grave to be completely wiped out?

She believed that Bai Zhuyun would do this kind of thing.

But no matter what he will do then, it has nothing to do with her.

In her life, she didn't find someone who loved her life, but she was crazily loved by someone.Every time she watched some people say on TV that it is better to be loved than a lover, she would feel an indescribable sadness in her heart.

Sad for herself, and also for Bai Zhuyun.

When you can't love someone no matter what, that kind of being loved will only make each other entangled.

In the luxurious presidential suite, Jun Hai's heart ached, while at the other end, in the almost closed room, only one light was on, Bai Zhuyun was naked from the upper body, holding a dagger in his hand, and scratching at his body, sharp The blade easily cut through the skin, leaving pools of bright red blood.

His face was covered with sweat, and his white hair was slightly damp from sweat against his forehead and cheeks.His face was pale due to blood loss.

At this moment, he already has seven or eight wounds on his body, and each wound is bleeding, the bright red blood is dripping on his body like this, dripping on his pants and the floor of the room. It looked particularly shocking.

But he didn't seem to feel any pain at all, and there was a gentle smile on his face, and when there were more wounds on his body, the smile on his face became stronger.

"Hai Xin, are you in pain now? If you hate me so much now and don't want to see me, I don't have to go to see you, but I can be with you in pain." Bai Zhuyun murmured softly , as if at this moment, Jun Haixin was right in front of him, and he was talking to her.

Before the age of 25, he only bleeds for himself, but after the age of 25, he only bleeds for her.

There are countless scars, large and small, on this body. Except for some scars when he was young, every other one was scratched by him for her, because he wanted to be with her in the pain, and he wanted to use this A way to imagine that she is with him.

One knife, one knife...

More and more blood gushed out from his body, and the grayness on his face became more and more obvious.

"Hai Xin, Hai Xin! If I, Bai Zhuyun, can give you the love, can I give you your life?" He suddenly stabbed his arm with a knife, "Why don't you just take another look at me? , why don't you even give me a lie? Even if you are lying, even if you are deceiving me, as long as you tell me, I will give everything for you regardless of everything!"

As long as she says that she will fall in love with him one day, then he will be willing to live in this false fantasy, and then hope that one day in the future, she will really fall in love with him, even if this fantasy To the moment of his death is still a fantasy, and he is willing.

As long as she is willing to say...

As long as she is willing to say...

In the silent room, there were only his gasps, and no one answered his question.Will there be such a day?Will she be willing to tell him this lie one day?Or is it that he will never wait for this day?

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