Living with a beauty

Xiao Hanyin's words were like an invisible hand tightly grasping my chest, making me unable to breathe.

I suddenly didn't know what kind of expression I should put on to face Xiao Hanyin, so I could only stare at her with straight eyes, and after a while, I asked word by word

: "What... what do you mean?"

Xiao Hanyin had already turned her body at this time, and she got up little by little and sat up from the bed, with tears streaming down her eyes, she looked out of the window and said

: "We... can't be together anymore."

After finishing speaking, Xiao Hanyin paused, then slowly turned her head to look at me.

: "Actually, I will...leave Beijing soon..."

Every word that came out of her mouth made me feel almost suffocated. I sat up from the bed, feeling that everything around me was pressing against me in a trance, and a sense of powerlessness was overwhelming.

I don't know how long it took, I came back to my senses, showed an awkward smile and said:

: "You're kidding.. right? Do you want me to tell you something again...?"

But after I said this, Xiao Hanyin still had no expression on her face, only tears silently dripping down her cheeks.

There was a sharp pain in my chest, and I lost all strength in my body.

I don't know why, Xiao Hanyin's performance that day flashed in my mind one by one, and finally the picture was frozen when she looked at the stars in the night sky.

I froze for a moment, suddenly thought of something, and looked at Xiao Hanyin with a gloomy heart.

"Actually, your dad didn't say what you said to me that afternoon at all..."

"Actually, he came to you to separate you from me, right...?"

The more I spoke, the more my cheeks became hot, and the sense of shame that had disappeared flooded my body again.

Xiao Hanyin's mouth moved slightly after hearing my words, and a sad expression appeared on her tear-stained face.

Seeing her expression, I suddenly laughed at myself, and lowered my head in frustration.

If I think about it, it's my fault that I believed Xiao Hanyin's words so naively. If Hanyin's father was really so enlightened, how could he say such things to me?

Presumably Hanyin's father must have said something to Xiao Hanyin that afternoon. Xiao Hanyin originally asked me out and wanted to break up with me, but for some reason he changed his words temporarily.

Since that day, Xiao Hanyin has always been secretive in calling me on the phone. The reason for not going to work these days is probably because she has been struggling with this problem.

And she just said that she was leaving Beijing. Could it be that her father forced her to go home?

Thinking of this, I moved my body, climbed to Xiao Hanyin's side and sat down, couldn't help holding her shoulders with both hands and asked nervously

: "Really, are you talking because your dad said something to you? Where did you leave Beijing?"

At this moment, my mind is full of questions, and I urgently need Xiao Hanyin's answer.

And Xiao Hanyin just lowered her head silently when I asked her like this, and didn't make any sound from her mouth.

Finally, after an unknown amount of time, Xiao Hanyin raised her head, her shoulders moved slightly, and she shook off my arm.

I was taken aback for a moment, and saw her looking straight at me, bit her lip, and then said slowly

: "It's me, it's me who wants to separate from you..."

I was stunned, my head seemed to be hit hard by someone, and I couldn't speak with a buzzing sound.

I never thought that such words would come out of Xiao Hanyin's mouth, so it has nothing to do with her father, everything is Xiao Hanyin's own idea?

I couldn't accept this explanation, shook my head and muttered

: "Impossible...why...why? Why do you want to separate from me?"

When I said this, my tone became flustered, and my nose started to feel a little bit sour.

And Xiao Hanyin tilted her head to one side, not daring to look at me.

After a while, she sucked her nose and said in a trance

: "I'm so tired...with you..." While talking, Xiao Hanyin shrank into a ball, her head buried tightly in her arms.

"I am so tired.."

Her voice was so ethereal that people couldn't hear it clearly, as if it came from nowhere.

I never expected Xiao Hanyin to say that, and looked straight at her with red eyes.

tired..?Xiao Hanyin is with me.. Do you feel tired?

I shook my head, unable to understand her statement.

"Is it because of this reason that you want to separate from me?"

I stared at her in a daze for a long time before I sadly said what was in my heart.

After listening to my words for a long time, Xiao Hanyin slowly raised her head.

The silver-white moonlight coming in from the window happened to shine on her face, and Xiao Hanyin nodded and said softly

: "Well, let's break up.."

As her voice fell, my tears flowed uncontrollably at that moment.

I stupidly stretched out my hand to wipe it, and there was a wet touch on the back of my hand.

I opened my mouth, but found that all the voices were stuck in my throat, and I couldn't say anything.

In the end, all my strength was gathered at one point, I stood up, looked at Xiao Hanyin beside me and said

:"it is good."

After finishing speaking, Xiao Hanyin's body trembled violently, and she could vaguely see her biting her lower lip hard, but did not speak.

And I felt more and more heat in my head, and I said angry words in a trembling voice

: "If you feel tired being with me, then leave."

"Anyway, your father must think that I, a poor boy, is not good enough for you. You will suffer sooner or later if you follow me."

When I said this, I felt a stabbing pain in my heart, and Xiao Hanyin still shrank after hearing my words, but she could tell that her body was trembling non-stop.

I was a little sad to see her like this, I gritted my teeth, but I still tried not to change my words.

I went to the side window and took off all my clothes, then stood still and looked at Xiao Hanyin, Xiao Hanyin lowered her head, unable to see the expression on her face.

I was cruel, walked into the bathroom with my clothes in my arms, put the wet clothes on my body, and then stood in front of the door for a while, opened the door and walked out.

Until the moment the door closed, Xiao Hanyin in the room still didn't speak.

While I was standing outside the room, I suddenly felt that the door behind me blocked something forever. I turned my head and was stunned, then ran like crazy and rushed into the elevator not far away.

And just at the moment when the elevator door was closed, the door of the room opened suddenly, and Xiao Hanyin ran out in a panic with tears all over her face. After seeing the empty corridor, Xiao Hanyin was stunned, and then she leaned limply on the Looking at the wall beside him, tears welled up like a fountain.

When I got out of the hotel gate, I lost my way and just ran forward desperately with my head down.

The clothes on my body were wet, just like my mood at this time, soaked in cold and biting water.

I don't know what Xiao Hanyin meant when she said she was tired, maybe it was just an excuse that Xiao Hanyin randomly found out, an excuse to break up.

The moment she said the word "breakup" to me, I felt nothing but sadness in my heart.

After I didn't know how far I ran, I finally felt that all the strength in my body seemed to be exhausted. I walked to the side of the road and stopped a taxi in a panic, and got in powerlessly.

The driver saw that I seemed to have been hit by something, so he didn't ask any more questions. By the time he sent me home, it was already very late.

My mind was empty, and I walked upstairs at one o'clock.

Opening the door, the room was pitch black except for the light coming from the bathroom.

I closed the door gently, and just as I took a small step inside, I saw Miss Liu Xue poking her head out from the bathroom door.

Seeing it was me, Miss Liu Xue was stunned for a moment, then said in a low voice

: "Little...Little Zhang. Why did you come back so late?"

After speaking, the little beauty Liu Xue seemed to notice that something was wrong with me, and she had a strange expression on her face.

And I looked at her feebly, moved my mouth, and still didn't say anything, walked straight into my room and closed the door.

After the door closed, I lay down on the bed, and tears began to roll in my eyes.

The more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I feel. How could the nice little Hanyin use such an excuse to separate from me?

And why did he agree in a moment of anger just now, say that kind of thing to Xiao Hanyin, and leave her alone in the hotel?

Thinking of this, I fantasized more and more how wonderful it would be if everything that happened today was just a dream, but the sadness that surged up in my heart made me feel more and more uncomfortable, and finally I couldn't help the tears overflowing.

In the darkness, there were bursts of animal calls from outside the window, as if they were whines in the middle of the night.

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That night, I didn't sleep. In the dimness, Xiao Hanyin's appearance and what Xiao Hanyin said were intertwined in my mind like countless replayed movies, and the more I thought about it, the more I felt. I feel something is wrong, Xiao Hanyin must have some difficulties to say this to me.

Even though I was thinking like this, I felt that the strength in my body was being taken away bit by bit. When I woke up in a daze, the sky was already surprisingly bright, but I couldn't open my eyes no matter how hard I tried.

I reluctantly stretched out my hand and touched my forehead, it was amazingly hot.

It seemed that I had a fever because I was wearing wet clothes and hadn't changed.

The world in his eyes seemed to be covered with a white frame, making it difficult to see clearly.

And I turned over feebly, and took out my phone. There was no display on the screen of the phone, as if it had run out of battery.

I threw the phone aside and sighed sadly.

But not long after lying like this, the door of the room was suddenly pushed open from the outside, and a figure walked in in a panic.

I tilted my head, and saw the little beauty Liu Xue coming to my bed, and said nervously

: "Little Zhang... Hanyin... she resigned!"