bad youth

"Yeah." I responded softly, feeling like a knife was piercing my heart.

From the moment I picked up the flower pot and smashed it at Zou Yang, I was determined not to let others slaughter me. Since then, I have been out of control, and I have come to today step by step. I have suffered humiliation and enjoyed glory, and finally hardened my heart. Ruthless, I was determined to make a big effort to make others look at me with admiration, but because of my father's gentle five words, I easily shattered the outlook on life that I had worked so hard to establish in the past.

No... did you fight?I clenched my fist lightly.How can you loosen the clenched fist so easily?

The autumn wind suddenly picked up, and it made me feel chilly, and it also made me feel cold in my heart.In my bones, I hate fighting, but in my blood, I desire to fight.As long as others don't come to make trouble for me, it seems that I can get along well with others; but when others try to step on my head, it can arouse the most primitive violence in my heart.

I don't want to go back to my three years in junior high school.Although I was expelled from Chenggao, I don't regret what I have done.But the five words my father said suddenly made me feel ashamed and guilty.It is conceivable how disappointed, sad and sad they were when they received the notice of expulsion from the school, but even so, they comforted me in turn, and never spoke ill of me from the beginning to the end, nor did they show any signs of boredom. Affection.

Now, they only have one request for me, that is, no more fights in the future, can I refuse?Do you have the heart to refuse?

However, when I think of others bullying me, and I can only choose to endure, I feel a faint unwillingness in my heart.To this day, when I recall my life in primary school, I still shudder. The picture of being bullied but powerless sometimes flashes into my mind in the form of fragments, and even makes me wake up from my sleep, laugh out loud, and laugh There was silence.

"It seems..." Father suddenly murmured to himself, "It seems that I am too selfish..."

I looked at my father in surprise, not knowing what he meant by this sentence. "Son..." My father put his arms around my shoulders, as if he and I were close friends, "I have more or less heard about your experience in junior high school..."

I do know that the fathers of my classmates are in the same factory as my father.My classmates told their fathers about me as a joke when they went home, and their fathers told my dad at work, and my dad went home and asked me if it was true.

I only heard my father continue to say: "At that time, I was also very angry. I was thinking why you didn't fight back, why didn't you fight back? Clenched your fists and hit them hard. I will pay for your medical expenses! One cannot live without dignity, especially when bullying befalls you, you must choose to fight back mercilessly!"

I stared blankly at my father, completely unexpected that he, who has always been honest, could say such a thing.My father laughed again: "In order to let you finish high school steadily, I forced you to stop fighting with others. It seems that I am too selfish. How about it, you can bear the ordinary things, and It is still very important to get along with each other in harmony. But if someone goes too far and makes you unbearable..."

My father's big hand slapped my shoulder hard: "Then you don't have to bear it anymore, give him a hard lesson!"

"Okay!" The corners of my mouth turned up, my heart suddenly opened up, and all my worries disappeared.

Dad, your words are enough!

"Oh, oh." The mother yelled from the side: "How can you teach your children to fight? Is there a father like you?"

"Go, go, go..." The father waved at his mother: "A woman's hair is long but her knowledge is short. Is this teaching children to fight? This is teaching children how to maintain a man's dignity! In this world, the dignity of a man is the most important thing." The most important thing!"

"Isn't that right, son?" My father really drank too much, and even smiled at me playfully, without any of his majesty as a father.

But... I really like my father now!

"That's right!" I yelled, hooking shoulders with my drunk father, and the two stood on the side of the road together, giggling.

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After sending my parents to the station and watching them leave by car, I returned to Beiyuan No. [-] Middle School.I'm not familiar with this school, so I went around the school twice and found that the layout of Chenggao is similar to that of Chenggao. Most of the high schools in the country are similar. It is nothing more than teaching buildings, teaching buildings, large playgrounds, basketball courts, Buildings such as libraries, men's dormitories and women's dormitories.

When it was time to start class, I found the head teacher's office. According to the procedure, he should have taken me to the classroom.The homeroom teacher is a middle-aged man in his 40s. He looks very good-tempered and has more than half of his hair bald. He smiled before speaking.But I won't be confused by his appearance, it is said that Beiqi's teacher is much more ruthless than Chenggao's teacher.

But even so, I heard that the teachers in Beiqi are not very able to calm down the students.No matter how chaotic the city is, the students always have awe of the teacher, no matter how brave they are, they will never attack the teacher, and there are often reports of students and teachers fighting each other in Beiqi.

The class teacher's surname is Hu, so we call him Mr. Hu.Mr. Hu obviously didn't know my background and thought I was just an ordinary transfer student. He only asked me where my family was from and how my academic performance was.I said I was from Dongguan Town, and my academic performance was average.

Teacher Hu didn't ask any more questions, and led me to the classroom.The classroom was in a mess. Teacher Hu patted the table twice before trying to calm down, but the sound of "buzzing" could not stop.Teacher Hu led me to stand on the podium, and said slowly: "Today, I would like to introduce a new classmate to you. The name of this new classmate is Wang Hao."

When the word "Wang Hao" was mentioned, the classroom became obviously quieter, and they all stared at me.I guess they must have heard of this name before, the name of the boss in the three schools has always been the fastest.I took a rough look at the classmates in the class, and suddenly found a girl with wine-red short hair, who was the "fifth sister" Zhou Mo in Seven Dragons and Six Phoenixes.Zhou Mo was looking at me with rather playful eyes, and we had met a few times, so he smiled at her and looked away.

Teacher Hu was very verbose, talking a lot of nonsense, about uniting and loving each other, helping each other, etc. I almost fell asleep listening to it on stage.After finally waiting for Teacher Hu to finish speaking, he stretched out his hand and said, "Wang Hao, sit there."

I followed his fingers to look over, and suddenly found that it was next to Zhou Mo.There was nothing next to Zhou Mo, and I didn't think about anything, so I walked over and sat down.All the students in the class made a "wow" sound, and they didn't know what it meant.

As soon as I sat down, Zhou Mo asked in a low voice, "Why are you here?"

I replied: "I was expelled from Chenggao, so I have to come here."

Teacher Hu said again on the podium: "Wang Hao, you haven't picked up the book yet, so watch with Zhou Mo. Go to my place to pick up the book after class!"

"Okay." I nodded.

After Teacher Hu left, the teacher hadn't come in yet, and the class became a mess again, with all kinds of gossip floating over.

"His name is Wang Hao? Could it be the boss of Chenggao?" "There are so many people named Wang Hao, it may not be him." "I think it must be him. I heard that Wang Hao was fired by Chenggao." "I I also feel a bit similar, looking at his eyes is quite scary." "It would be interesting if Wang Hao transferred to us!" "I heard that Wang Hao killed Maizi and Old Dog in Chenggao, but look at his He doesn't look like that kind of person." "I don't think so either, this Wang Hao is thin and small, who can he beat?"

"Not bad." Zhou Mo said blankly: "It caused a sensation when we first came here. Aren't you going to stand up and introduce yourself?"

"Forget it." I said, "I don't want to cause trouble, I just want to study hard. They better not think that I am that Wang Hao."

Zhou Mo looked at me with a strange look, as if it was ridiculous to say "study hard" from my mouth.

"Don't make wild guesses, this person is definitely not the big brother Wang Hao from Chenggao!" A somewhat familiar voice said suddenly.

Quiet the class.My heart skipped a beat, and I looked at the person who spoke, and sure enough, I guessed right, it was a classmate of mine in junior high school named Lu Xiang.Lu Xiang was very short, and he was sitting in the back row. He didn't see him when he scanned the class just now.Speaking of Lu Xiang, I also feel angry. This person is lower than me and thinner than me, but he bears the brunt of bullying me.

Of course, his bullying wasn’t physical bullying either. He would never be able to beat me in a fight, but he liked to stand behind Zou Yang and the others, cheering and cheering.When Zou Yang and the others bullied me, Lu Xiang was the best at yelling and saying things like "kill him, kill him". He laughed when he saw me being bullied, and he was more excited than coughing medicine.

Lu Xiang is not a thing.I used to have a crush on a girl in class, and I didn't dare to confess, so I could only confide in my diary and wrote a lot of words similar to 'I miss her so much'.Later, this diary was stolen by Lu Xiang. He stood on the podium in front of the whole class and read it aloud emotionally, pretending to vomit while reading.After reading the exciting part, Lu Xiang even jumped up and down and yelled, like a monkey in a circus.

So, although I hate people like Zou Yang who bully me directly, I also hate people like Lu Xiang who bully me indirectly.When I was being bullied, Lu Xiang's laughter was always particularly piercing, and he worked hardest when publicizing to others.

Because I was always bullied in class, I was careful about everything I did.But the more careful you are, the more likely you will be embarrassed. This is like Murphy's law. The more you don't want something to happen, the more it will happen.It is no exaggeration to say that even if I accidentally fart loudly, Lu Xiang can help me promote it for three days, and he must have said the version of "Wang Hao farted and collapsed into his pants", and he said it vividly , as if he was the hair on my anus and saw it with his own eyes.