bad youth

There was silence in the classroom, everyone was looking at Qi Siyu and Ye Zhan.Qi Siyu looked at Ye Zhan eagerly, gently tugged on his sleeve, pursed his mouth, his eyes were red, like a poor child begging his parents for his favorite toy.Ye Zhan, on the other hand, closed his eyes, stubbornly, firmly, cruelly, and slowly shook his head.

"Ye Zhan..." Qi Siyu burst into tears: "Why are you unwilling to even talk to me? Ye Zhan, didn't you love me very much before? Ye Zhan, hold my hand, just like It’s like pulling my hand secretly in class.”

With that said, Qi Siyu stretched out his hand to Ye Zhan.Ye Zhan still didn't respond, Qi Siyu touched Ye Zhan's hand with his own.Like an electric shock, Ye Zhan stepped back suddenly, with a painful look on his face.

"Ye Zhan...you can love me more, and pamper me again." Qi Siyu's tears were pouring like heavy rain, but Ye Zhan turned his face away, even I have never seen him so heartless. "Ye Zhan..." Qi Siyu was crying, bent his legs, and knelt down, "You can touch my face, hold my hand, I promise I won't be willful anymore..."

I was dumbfounded. I had never, ever seen someone love so humblely, who even gave up his dignity for the sake of the lover in his heart.

"Are you crazy?!" Zhou Mo rushed over, pulled Qi Siyu up, then gave Ye Zhan a hard look, and ran out of the classroom with Qi Siyu.Qi Siyu turned around and shouted eagerly: "Ye Zhan, Ye Zhan..." But he was still forcibly pulled away by Zhou Mo.Ye Zhan's face was pale, and he walked slowly to his seat and sat down.

I also sat in my place and turned to look at him: "Ye Zhan, are you okay?"

Ye Zhan shook his head, expressing that he didn't want to talk, and then slowly lay down on the table.I had no choice but to turn back.After reading the book for a while, I suddenly heard a bison-like panting sound behind me. I looked back strangely and saw Ye Zhan still lying on the table, and the panting sound came from his throat.Ye Zhan lowered his head at this moment, and I couldn't see his face.I shook his shoulders and asked eagerly, "Ye Zhan, what's wrong with you?" I glanced at him, and saw his back lying on the table, a large area of ​​sweat soaked out.The classroom is not hot, why is Ye Zhan sweating so much?

"Ye Zhan!" I roared and pulled his head up suddenly.Ye Zhan looked at me dully, his forehead was covered with fine beads of sweat, and his throat was still panting like a buffalo. It looked like he had a nightmare in the middle of the night and was suddenly awakened, or accidentally fell into a trap. Like some painful memory.

"Ye Zhan, Ye Zhan?" I shook him, trying to wake him up.Seeing him like this made me very uneasy.

"Don't come here, don't come here..." Ye Zhan suddenly trembled all over, and his eyes showed a look of fear.

I stood up with a bang, and concluded that Ye Zhan must have fallen into some terrible nightmare. I pressed his shoulders firmly with both hands, and shouted loudly: "Ye Zhan, there is nothing here, wake me up!" come over!"

Under my roar, Ye Zhan seemed to wake up a little bit, his eyes widened, and he recognized me in front of him.He was shaking like a frightened child. "Mice, I'm afraid...Mice, I'm afraid..." He murmured softly.

"It's okay, it's okay." I patted his back lightly and comforted him with words: "Nothing, we are in the classroom."

Many students in the class looked over, I shook my head at them, they all lowered their heads, pretending not to see this.

I held Ye Zhan in my arms, as if comforting a frightened child.Ye Zhan's trembling body slowly calmed down, and his breathing slowly returned to normal.Ye Zhan sighed softly: "Mouse, I'm fine."

"Huh?" I said, "How about we go outside and relax?"

"Okay." Ye Zhan nodded.The two of us left the classroom together, went down the teaching building, and started walking around the campus.

This is a path paved with cobblestones, leading to a small forest in Beiqi, with a river and a gazebo inside.If it is spring and summer, there is also green grass here, and many students like to endorse here.It's just that it's deep winter now, and the grove is covered with snow everywhere, and Ye Zhan and I stepped on it, making a creaking sound.

We found a stone table, we swept off the snow and sat on the stone bench.It was cold outside, and Ye Zhan and I were shivering a little.But seeing that Ye Zhan has almost returned to normal, the coldness is nothing.Ye Zhan and I chatted casually, about our stories in Chenggao, about the first time we met on the street, and the atmosphere gradually became happier.

I asked Ye Zhan to talk about his past.Ye Zhan began to talk about how he was bullied before, and then he gradually had a group of friends, and then a group of brothers, but unfortunately his own ability was limited and he could not grow stronger.I changed the subject and said, "Tell me about your love story. You are so handsome and kind. There must be many people who like you, right?"

"Yes." Ye Zhan nodded and said, "There are quite a few. I have received many love letters since elementary school, and I have also received a lot of gifts. But I still like gifts that are more thoughtful, such as the ones I received in Chenggao. Mu Xiaomu's 999 thousand paper cranes are actually useless, but Mu Xiaomu's sincerity really touched me. When I was in junior high school, there was a man named Lanlan who chased me and would talk to me every day. Saying good morning and good night, thunder and rain, rain or shine, also moved me very much..."

As Ye Zhan talked, with a happy smile on his face, he slowly opened his heart and told me stories about his past.

"Then it was Su Wan." Ye Zhan said with a smile; "Mouse, thank you for introducing Su Wan to me. Su Wan is a kind-hearted girl. Although her mouth is a bit big, I like girls who are carefree. .”

I found that when Ye Zhan talked about his love history, he ignored Qi Siyu directly, as if this person never existed.

"Ye Zhan..."

"what?"

"Haven't you and Qi Siyu been in love before?" I looked at Ye Zhan seriously, hoping to hear the truth on the one hand, and on the other hand to prevent him from falling into that strange nightmare again.I concluded that it must be a painful past for Ye Zhan.I don't want to expose Ye Zhan's scars, but I need to know the truth so that I can prescribe the right medicine and negotiate with the seven dragons and six phoenixes.

Fortunately, Ye Zhan still looked very calm, and said with a smile: "Qi Siyu? Didn't I tell you? We fell in love for a short period of time, and then we couldn't stand her unruly waywardness, so we broke up. It's okay. It's easy to say."

I looked at Ye Zhan seriously, or it could be said that I was staring at Ye Zhan.I found that Ye Zhan was using a method similar to "self-defense" to wrap his heart, temporarily sealing up that painful memory.Because I can't see the slightest lie in his eyes, as if things are really as simple and easy as he said.

But I know that's absolutely not the case, otherwise Seven Dragons and Six Phoenixes wouldn't treat him like that, and he wouldn't be in a nightmare in the classroom.I couldn't wait to know the truth, so I said seriously: "Ye Zhan, I want to know the truth."

"What truth?" Ye Zhan frowned and asked me.

"The matter between you and Qi Siyu." I said word by word: "I want to know what happened between you."

"We...we..." Ye Zhan's breathing became a little short, and at the same time he hit his head hard with his fist.

"What's going on?!" I quickly grabbed Ye Zhan's hand and said eagerly: "Ye Zhan, if you don't want to say it, don't say it, I won't force you." I was very worried that Ye Zhan would fall into that kind of situation again. The state of dementia, that incident had such a profound impact on him.

"No, no." Ye Zhan shook his head: "Mouse, I don't want to hide from you, I want to tell you the truth."

"Then just say it." I looked at him strangely.

"But I can't remember." Ye Zhan smacked his head: "I only remember that I did one thing that I was very, very sorry for Qi Siyu. I know that I was wrong, exaggerated, and hateful. .Because of that incident, I locked myself in the house for the whole summer vacation after graduating from junior high school; because of that incident, Qilongliufeng and I turned against each other."

"Why can't I remember?" I looked at Ye Zhan in astonishment, and couldn't believe that such a thing had happened.

"I don't know either." Ye Zhan tapped his head, "I think I know that thing, that thing is hidden deep in my mind, it's very clear, but for some reason I just can't remember it .Sometimes there will be some fragments flashed, but still can't be connected together as a whole, as if I have amnesia. But I always tell myself very clearly in my heart that I did something wrong in this matter, and I am sorry for Qi Siyu , I should apologize to her. But for some reason, I feel a sense of rejection when I see her, it seems to be a natural instinct in my body."

"You just said that there will be some clips flashing? Which clips are they?"

"Bloodstains on the floor, dirty sheets, old TV sets, squeaky fans." Ye Zhan said, "And Qi Siyu's terrified face. I don't know what happened, these fragments often flash in my mind , the soul seemed to be taken away, and the whole body was sweating profusely, and it took a long time to recover."

I asked, "Is it like you were in the classroom just now?"

"Yes." Ye Zhan nodded: "After Qi Siyu knelt down, I lost control of my emotions. After Zhou Mo pulled Qi Siyu away, I sat on the seat, and the whole person was a little bit wrong. It was you who pulled me away return."

"You yelled 'Don't come, don't come' in the classroom, what exactly are you not letting come?" I pressed on step by step.