bad youth

"I was thinking about where it would be better to open a room. Although we are all students, we don't have much money. But I think Qi Siyu must not be wronged, at least take her to a clean and hygienic hotel. Just thinking about it, Qi Siyu suddenly said: "Let's wait until the high school entrance examination is over. Anyway, there is still time." I just remembered that the high school entrance examination is one week away. Relatively speaking, the high school entrance examination is indeed more important, so I nodded and agreed to her. Then I sent She went home and comforted her along the way. When she was almost at the door of her house, Qi Siyu said, "Ye Zhan, you won't perform abnormally because of this exam, right?" I was taken aback and said, "I don't know, maybe Right." It was really chaotic at the time. If I went to the examination room in this state, I would definitely lose my name. I thought Qi Siyu was concerned about me, but she smiled and said, "It's okay if you don't perform well, you can study in Beijing with me." It's seven.' I didn't know that she thought so, and I was very angry and funny at the moment."

"Qi Siyu's studies are not very good. She has always hoped that I can study in Beiqi with her. Not only him, Hou Shengshuo, the boss of Seven Dragons and Six Phoenixes, also wants me to study in Beiqi. He said that all my friends are in Beiqi. It can be more beautiful there. In fact, I think Chenggao is better. The number one key high school in Beiyuan City has no future if you are always a gangster... I told Qi Siyu to stop thinking about it, and each took out his best The grades are fine. Then I made an appointment with her to find a room after the senior high school entrance examination, and told her not to let others know about it, and I left after watching her go upstairs."

"Then we all entered into a tense state of preparing for the exam. I have to say that the state of those few days was really terrible. The whole thing about Qi Siyu was in my mind. From time to time, my back felt cold and nervous. Me and Qi Siyu is at the same table again, and I have to meet every day. This matter is lingering in my heart, and I am immersed in pain and self-blame every day. Qi Siyu checked a lot of information about drug abortion on the Internet, and the things on the Internet are always It's sensational. After she saw it, she told me about it in fear. I was infected by her emotions, and the tension in my heart increased infinitely. But I can only comfort her by pretending to be okay. I know that I must not show weakness Otherwise, Qi Siyu will be even more helpless..."

"The high school entrance exam, which was full of nervousness and anxiety, was finally over. I didn't have time to evaluate myself, so I called Qi Siyu out the next day. The two of us have split up and lied to our parents, saying that the high school entrance examination is over and the students will go out for a few days together. In order to look good, I let Xiaochun and the others come out to testify, while Qi Siyu asked a few girls to testify. Of course, we claimed that we were going to travel together, so other students were also willing to testify for us. After we came out successfully, I told Qi Siyu my plan, I plan to open a room in Dongyun Hotel, which is considered to be a relatively high-end hotel in Beiyuan City, with good sanitation, environment, facilities, and conditions, and it is in the city center. If you have a problem, you can go to the hospital in time."

"Dongyun Hotel?" I said suspiciously, "It's the hotel where Shi Dong killed the old dog." Recalling, that hotel is really good. Although it is not the best in Beiyuan City, students can stay there. Check-in is already a luxury.

"Yes, that's the hotel." Then Ye Zhan sighed for a long time.Liu Yanfu glanced at me and motioned me not to interrupt.

Ye Zhan continued: "It's a pity that Qi Siyu refused to go to Dongyun Hotel. She said that she didn't want to be seen by others. If she did this kind of thing and was discovered by others, her whole life would be completely ruined. I thought it made sense, so I asked her Where do you want to go. She said far away from the city center, the farther the better, it is best to go to the suburbs in the suburbs, where no one can recognize us. I tried to convince her that if I go there to open a house, if there is something wrong, send it to It took me a long time in the hospital. Qi Siyu said that I was a crow's mouth, why did I curse her for problems, and she swore: "There will be no problems, we will definitely not have problems." Qi Siyu became self-willed and I couldn't help her , especially in the current situation, everything is up to her, she said to go to the suburbs, then go to the suburbs."

"We took a taxi and told the driver to drive northward until we left Beiyuan City and came to a place that was so desolate that we didn't know it. It was similar to an urban-rural junction. I walked in to a low and simple hotel. There were four or five middle-aged women standing in the courtyard of the hotel. They were all heavily made-up, and they were not serious at first glance. They laughed wildly when they looked at Qi Siyu and me, and discussed in whispers Looking at Qi Siyu's buttocks and chest, I gave them a hard look, went to the bar and asked for a room. The room is very cheap, there is no standard room, each room costs 20 yuan, and you can live up to 12:[-] noon the next day. I think it’s really cheap, even if you stay for more than ten days, it’s fine.”

"When the waiter led us into the room, there was a huge musty smell, which almost made me vomit. Looking closer, there was a poor-quality wooden bed in the middle of the room, covered with a layer that was no longer visible. Dirty sheets in primary colors, an old electric fan is placed beside the bed, I don’t know if it still works. A dilapidated TV is placed on the opposite side of the bed. An antique from a second-hand market. I stood there blankly, unable to believe that I would spend the next ten days here. The hygienic conditions here are really bad, and there is no bathroom. Qi Siyu, who was about to have a miscarriage, How can you live here?"

"The waiter put the thermos on the ground and brought in a potty from outside. He told us in dialect that we should urinate in the potty and defecate in the toilet outside. We must not pee in the washbasin, otherwise we will be fined. I think Looking at the washbasin under the TV cabinet, thinking that someone had urinated in it, I almost couldn't help but spit it out. I asked the waiter to take out the bedpan as well, we didn't use it at all, and I had to use it even in the middle of the night I went to the toilet outside. But Qi Siyu stopped me and left the potty. After the waiter left, I asked her what was going on. She said that the baby can be poured into the potty during abortion. I looked at the potty smelling The gas dirty bedpan, shivering all over firmly."

"Qi Siyu put her bag on the bedside table, and I tentatively asked her if she wanted to change places. There is not even a bathroom here. But Qi Siyu said that if you come, you will be safe. This place is far away from the city center, and No one around knows us, it's the best place. I know I can't hold Qi Siyu back, or I've never held her back, so I just let it go. I sat on the bed for a while, and felt that the room was as hot as a steamer. My whole body was covered in sticky sweat. I ran to the bedside to turn on the electric fan, but the fan was still running, but unfortunately it made an unpleasant sound. I saw Qi Siyu pour a glass of water and eat the first one Medicine. The doctor said that taking one pill a day and taking the last one on the fourth day will make the baby flow. I was nervous for a while, so I went to turn on the TV. As a result, there was no signal on the TV, and every station was A snowflake."

When Ye Zhan said this, I remembered the fragments he told me that flooded into his mind, the dirty sheets, the worn-out TV, the squeaking fan, it seemed that this hotel was like a kennel up.It's just that the blood on the floor hasn't appeared yet, so it must be the fourth day after the miscarriage, right?Could it be that Qi Siyu was really out of luck and suffered a hemorrhage?I didn't dare to think about it anymore, listening to Ye Zhan continue to talk about what happened at that time.

"Actually, I'm not in the mood to watch TV, but now watching TV is the only way we can pass the time. I went out and called the boss up. It took him a long time to fix the TV. Unfortunately, there are not many channels in it, only the central one. Center [-]. I locked the channel to Center [-], and I sat on the bed with Qi Siyu and watched TV. I don’t know if Qi Siyu watched it, anyway, I didn’t watch it at all. There was a dirty sheet under my buttocks, and I couldn’t see it for a moment. I don’t want to sit on it, but I get used to it, as if I’m one with this room, because we are equally dirty, who looks down on the other?”

Ye Zhan talked endlessly, his words revealing sadness and depression.I followed him back to the hotel room at that time, the room smelled like a steamer, there were stinky bedpans on the floor, the electric fan beside the bed made unpleasant noises, and the old TV set was always They all play the central program.The sound of prostitutes teasing came from the yard, and occasionally there could be a few cicadas chirping, but there was not a trace of wind in the air.Sitting side by side in this room, a young man and woman are paying the price for the mistakes they made when they were young and ignorant.How long will it take for this summer to pass...

"Watching TV for a while, Qi Siyu put her arms around my shoulders, saying that she was sleepy and wanted to sleep. I hugged her on the bed and fell asleep on the dirty sheets. Qi Siyu fell into a deep sleep, and I But I couldn’t sleep, I kept my eyes open and looked at the ceiling above my head. From time to time, strange little bugs crawled across the ceiling. I was worried that they would get into my mouth or ears after I fell asleep. I just kept my eyes wide open, and my head Thinking about what will happen three days later, what will Qi Siyu's child look like?"

"I don't know how long it took, Qi Siyu woke up leisurely, saw my eyes wide open, and asked strangely: 'Did you not sleep?' I nodded and said, 'I didn't sleep.' Qi Siyu put his arms around my neck and said "My husband, I'm afraid." Then her whole body began to tremble. I hugged Qi Siyu tightly, I couldn't let her find out that I was actually afraid, I couldn't let her know that my body was shaking too. I sang to her softly, comforting her and myself..."