bad youth

I thought that after so long, Li Shanman would at least smile politely when he saw me.But I was wrong, her attitude towards me was the same as it was half a year ago - she didn't even bother to look at me at all, this feeling of being ignored is undoubtedly more hurtful.

So I began to waver again about whether to go to the class reunion or not.I was thinking, is it necessary to go to a party organized by "a bunch of people who don't want to see me in my life" for such a girl who doesn't even look at me?

I can even imagine that at that party, I sat in the corner without any friends, watching the old classmates drinking and exchanging cups, talking and laughing.Of course they also noticed me, maybe when they were in the cold, making fun of me became a lubricant to adjust the atmosphere. With the roar of laughter from the students, the atmosphere finally became lively again.

Yes, with my current strength, of course I can beat any classmate who speaks rudely.But then what?A party that was supposed to be good was broken up by me?In this way, I will be proud and proud?It doesn't seem to be interesting either.

So hesitant and hesitant, until the evening of the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, Zou Yang called my home.

"Wang Hao, you must come, I will find a way to arrange your seat next to Li Shanman!"

I held the receiver for a long, long time without speaking. It has been my dream to sit with Li Shanman for a long time...

"Wang Hao, it's settled like this. Tomorrow at 12:[-] noon in the VIP Building Hotel, the Rose Hall on the third floor, come early!"

After hanging up the phone, I lay on the bed, tossing and turning, and almost stayed up all night.I am not by nature a very decisive person, and I am even more hesitant in such matters.I can almost imagine how indifferent she will treat me after sitting next to Li Shanman, why should I put my hot face on her cold ass?After figuring this out, I decided not to go to the class reunion, why would I be unhappy with that?So I fell asleep soundly.

I slept until ten o'clock in the morning the next day, but got up to wash up by accident, changed my clothes, went out to take the bus, and went straight to Beiyuan City.Probably still unconvinced.It was already 11:12 in Beiyuan City, and another bus was diverted to go to the VIP Building, and it was almost [-]:[-].The VIP building is indeed very grand, it can still stand out among the buildings in the most prosperous Jiefang Street area, and all kinds of luxury cars are parked around it.I walked into the VIP building, and the welcoming lady at the door inquired about my room, and then led me to the third floor by elevator. "This is the Rose Hall." The welcoming lady made a polite gesture, and I nodded and walked over.

Just about to open the door, I heard the inside saying: "Brother Yang, it's already 12 o'clock, let's eat quickly, don't wait for Wang Hao!" Then Zou Yang's voice came: "How can it be, Wang Hao is also in our class Classmates. Since it’s a class reunion, it wouldn’t look good without anyone.” “Brother Yang, do you think it’s boring without Wang Hao hahahaha…”

I opened the door and went in, and the originally noisy private room suddenly fell silent.This is a large private room that can accommodate four dining tables, and the students are sitting on different dining tables.The table where Zou Yang was sat was full of influential people in our class, such as the class monitor, cultural and entertainment committee members, sports committee members, etc. Li Shanman was naturally at this table.There was a moment of silence in the private room, and immediately there was noise again. No one welcomed me, as if I didn't exist.Zou Yang stood up immediately, pointed to the classmate next to Li Shanman and said, "Get up, get up! Sit over there!"

The classmate thought that Zou Yang was going to sit here, so he stood up immediately and said, "Brother Yang, you should have said earlier, hey, come here quickly." Then he went to sit at the next table.But Li Shanman said with a smile: "Zou Yang, you want to sit with me, you have to hold my drink for a while!" There was a hint of coquettishness in his tone.Zou Yang is well-known in the class as tall, rich...fat, and the girls have always treated him very well.

But Zou Yang trotted to my side, pulled me to the side of Li Shanman, and pushed me to the seat.This move stunned the students in the class, and they all looked at each other in blank dismay for a moment.Zou Yang sat back at his original seat and said loudly: "Dinner is ready, the waiter is ready to serve!" The waiter began to serve the food in an orderly manner, but Li Shanman's face changed: "Zou Yang, what do you mean?"

"Nothing interesting?" Zou Yang said with a smile, "Wang Hao doesn't have a place to sit, so he just arranges a seat."

Li Shanman didn't say anything, but moved the chair aside calmly, deliberately keeping a certain distance from me, with a cold expression on his expressionless face.I had fantasized about this scene a long time ago, so my heart was actually very peaceful.I looked at Li Shanman, and suddenly realized that she was not that beautiful either, she was far behind Xia Xue, Tao Zi, and Zhou Molai, and she was even worse in dressing.Taozi's plain dress and plain face killed her by a few blocks.Probably because I didn't see much of the world when I was in Dongguan before, and I was addicted to seeing Li Shanman who was so pretty.hehe.I laughed at myself.

The cold dish was served first, and I picked up a piece of beef with my chopsticks and started eating.The sports committee member on the table was dissatisfied: "Wang Hao, why did you eat first?" He accused me of not being the first to move the chopsticks, and should let "reputable" people move first, such as Zou Yang.

Where there are people, there are rivers and lakes, and rivers and lakes are always divided into superiors and inferiors.The campus is the rivers and lakes, the classrooms are the rivers and lakes, the dormitory is the rivers and lakes, and the dining table is a rivers and lakes with strict rules.Whoever moves the chopsticks first, whoever toasts first, and whoever speaks first, all have a set of unspoken rules.

"Why?" I pretended to be stupid and said, "Should we still respect the Stove Lord first?" I picked up another piece of beef and threw it on the floor behind me, "Then respect the Stove Lord first, and hope he'll go to heaven." Good thing, let’s keep the lower world safe’!”

There was a "coax" laugh around, but I guess they didn't because of my humor, but because they thought I was stupid.As expected, mocking words came from different places: "Wang Hao, can you be more stupid?" Stove Lord kowtow?" "I've seen such a fool, but I've never seen such a fool."

Li Shanman next to her also showed a look of contempt, and let out a heavy "hum" in her nasal cavity.

"There are no rules at all!" The sports committee gave me a hard look.Zou Yang immediately said: "What are you doing? We are all classmates. They are all equal. It makes a difference who moves the chopsticks first? Come on, eat and eat!" Then he gave me a wink, which meant that he would always "cover" mine.I looked up at the other students, and saw that Sun Dafei, Zhang Weining, and Jiang Zirui were all eating with their heads down, without saying a word.There is also Lu Xiang, huddled in a corner, not even daring to raise his head.

"Wang Hao, you are late, according to the rules, you have to punish yourself with three cups!" The sports committee attacked me again.

Zou Yang quickly said: "I will do it for me." He went to get the cup. "No need." I reached out to stop him, poured myself wine, and drank three glasses in a row.One tael in a cup, three taels in one sip.This drink is actually nothing, probably because I was depressed, I felt very uncomfortable in my stomach, so I said, "I'm going to wash my hands." I got up and walked out the door.

He heard behind him and said: "Brother Yang, why are you protecting Wang Hao all the time today?" Zou Yang sighed and said, "We are all classmates, so don't keep targeting him. I was ignorant before, but now that I have grown up, I hope you will also ..." I didn't hear the words after that, because I had already opened the door and went out.The VIP building is so big, I couldn’t find the toilet after looking around twice, I felt a little dizzy looking at it, so I had to ask the waiter in the corridor for help: “Where is the toilet?”

The waiter pointed to the side, I looked up, and the bathroom was in front of me, I really didn't know what I was going back and forth.I went inside to use the toilet and came out to wash my hands by the sink.The place to wash hands is unisex, and men and women pass by here constantly.Not only did I wash my hands, I also washed my face.I feel so uncomfortable, I really want to cry, I don't know why I came here, I know that no one is kind to me... Yes, I came to see Li Shanman.Thinking of Li Shanman's indifferent expression and the movement of moving the chair to the side, I felt as if several knives were being stabbed in my heart.

It turns out that I still care, I can't lie to myself.I thought I was at peace, but actually I hadn't started to feel sad yet.I don't think Li Shanman is that beautiful either, but subconsciously, she tells me not to care about her so much.

Even if she just smiles at me politely, as long as she treats me with the same attitude as other boys, I will feel better.Li Shanman's indifference is more terrifying than the ridicule of other students.I don't like her anymore, but the pain is still there.I threw the beef on the ground, saying that I wanted to respect the Stove Lord, so I pretended to be crazy and stupid, so it was to cover up the sadness in my heart.I washed my face desperately, pretending that my tears didn't flow out.

My head was a little dizzy. It turned out that it is really easy to get drunk when I am in a bad mood.I punched the water with my fist, and the water splashed everywhere.I put my head directly under the water pipe and rushed up, trying to wake myself up.After rushing for a long time, I raised my head and looked at the mirror in front of me.In the mirror, behind me, there is still a person standing.

A girl with short wine-red hair was looking at me blankly from behind.

I thought I was dazzled, so I rubbed my eyes hard, but the girl was still standing clearly in the mirror.

My body was a little stiff, I turned my head slowly, and saw Zhou Mo.

We just looked at each other quietly, and the time seemed to be as long as a century.

"Wang Hao, what's wrong with you?" Zhou Mo asked softly.