bad youth

A little nurse came over and saw the people standing in the yard, so she quietly asked me, "Are you from the underworld?" I shook my head and said, "No, what's the matter?" The little nurse said, "Nothing. , It’s scary to see you.” I was even more surprised: “Why?” Thinking about myself, these people didn’t do anything wrong in the hospital.The little nurse said: "I don't know, I just feel that you are different from others, and you have that feeling of not being angry and majestic, which makes people respect and fear."

I didn't expect that I would be described as "not angry and self-aggrandizing". Normally, I would have laughed, but now I feel quite helpless.The little nurse said again: "It's time to visit in a while. You guys are going to see who gets in, or only three people can get in." I looked at Qi Siyu, who was kneeling at the door, and said, "Let her in." It's the last chance.Whether Ye Zhan can wake up or not depends on success or failure.Ye Zhan's parents next to him panted lightly, obviously becoming nervous.

When the time came, when the three of them went in, Mother Ye's legs shook and she almost fell to the ground.With the support of Qi Siyu and Father Ye, Mother Ye stood up again.The three walked in together, and the door of the intensive care unit was closed heavily.One hour, only one hour.If Ye Zhan doesn't wake up, we will never hear his voice or see his smile again.

At the moment the door closed, the emotions that had been pent up for several days suddenly exploded.Fidgeting, I stood up and paced the corridor, thinking about a question I had never thought of.If Ye Zhan really can't wake up, what should he do in the future?I looked out the window, they were still standing in the yard motionless, everyone was waiting for this critical moment.

The attending doctor who performed the operation on Ye Zhan before also came over and asked me why I didn't go in for a visit. I said that another friend went in.The attending doctor sat on the row of chairs, sighed and said, "I'll wait and see if a miracle is possible." I hurriedly asked, "Doctor, is there any precedent for waking up at the last moment?" Doctor Said: "Of course there are, but there are very few cases. It still depends on the patient's own physical fitness and will to survive." I thought to myself, Ye Zhan's physical fitness is not bad. He even survived such a serious injury before. Is it because the will to survive is not strong enough for the delay in waking up now?

If that's the case, why didn't Ye Zhan want to wake up?I was lost in thought, what is he running from?Such a sunny and kind boy should be full of enthusiasm for life. When he started to escape from this world, what was the reason?I asked the doctor next to me: "The patients who finally woke up, did they say what they were thinking about when they were in a coma?" The doctor said: "In theory, their brains don't think about anything. Their nerve centers under the cerebral cortex were severely damaged, and they completely lost their autonomous consciousness." I said speechlessly: "Then what is it actually?"

The doctor said: "I remember a patient who was in a car accident told me that the last impression he had before he fell into a coma was seeing the truck with its snow-white headlights hitting him, and then he didn't know anything. So I I once thought that this patient was reluctant to wake up, probably because he was afraid of seeing the truck with snow-white headlights again. Simply put, he was escaping from reality and in a state of self-protection. It is as if we suddenly wake up after a nightmare. When you wake up, you will deliberately stop going to sleep, drink saliva, watch TV, etc., to prevent yourself from entering that nightmare again. And these people who have passed out after being seriously injured cannot wake up even after undergoing surgery Come, is in a state of self-protection, afraid of seeing the scene of being hurt again."

I nodded, probably understanding what the doctor meant.When did Ye Zhan pass out?To be beaten up in the classroom by those jerk students, or hanged by them in the lecture theater?In terms of beatings, a student like Ye Zhan, who has been fighting since childhood, should have nothing to bear. That is when he is hung above the lecture theater, with four or five hundred students laughing around him. That kind of pressure should not be able to be tolerated by ordinary people. bearable.According to the doctor's analysis, Ye Zhan was afraid that he would see this scene again when he woke up, so he was reluctant to wake up.I asked him again: "Then how can we tell the patient that the danger is over and that he can wake up with confidence?"

The doctor shook his head: "If I knew, I would have saved many vegetative people..."

I said angrily: "Ye Zhan is not in a vegetable state yet! It's not the last moment, so you can't just draw conclusions!"

"Okay, okay." The doctor said: "It's not a vegetable yet. But you have to know what it means to have severe damage to the nerve center under the cerebral cortex. You will lose your consciousness, thinking ability, and hearing ability, and you will be completely isolated from the world... …Hey, why am I talking so much to you? Don’t talk, don’t talk, it’s the seventh day, basically there is no hope.”

I became even angrier: "You have been doing this for a long time, are you all very numb?"

"Which doctor is unwilling to save the patient in his hands?" The doctor sighed for a long time.

I froze for a moment, with mixed feelings in my heart.

Time passed minute by minute, and there were still 5 minutes before the end of the visit. I was so nervous that I almost suffocated.The doctor rubbed his hands from time to time, hoping for a miracle in this visit.I clenched my fists tightly, and I didn't dare to have the thought of "what if Ye Zhan can't wake up" in my mind.Ye Zhan will definitely wake up, definitely will!

After hearing a "click", the door of the intensive care unit finally opened.The doctor and I stood up at the same time, looking into the door nervously.Ye Zhan's parents and Qi Siyu came out, their eyes were red and swollen, and their faces were full of despair and helplessness.I immediately understood what was going on, but I still held a little bit of hope in my heart, just a little bit, a little bit.I asked tremblingly, "How is Ye Zhan?" Father Ye shook his head, and heaved a long sigh, a middle-aged man choked up silently.Mother Ye staggered and fell directly to the ground. "Auntie!" Qi Siyu cried and went to help her.Mother Ye patted the floor with her hands, crying bitterly: "My poor son..." Father Ye squatted on the ground wiping his tears, that was truly hopeless.

My heart has sunk to the bottom, as if the whole world has lost its color.Trembling, I walked to the door of the intensive care unit, knelt down silently, and tears slid down my cheeks silently.There is no hope, there is no hope!

God, do you really want no miracles to happen?I rubbed the door of the intensive care unit, already crying badly. I just attended Yang Mengying's funeral yesterday, and today I got the bad news that Ye Zhan would never wake up again.God, how in the world are you going to torture me?I banged my head on the door of the intensive care unit, and felt no pain at all, which was far worse than the pain in my heart.

God, what on earth do you want me to do to let such a kind boy go?

I would like to grow up and not be able to kneel down, in exchange for his warm smile, how, how?

Tears are running down my face. I have cried too many times these days, but I have never been so desperate as I am now.

Several nurses tried to persuade us not to be too sad, but no one listened to them, they were all crying in despair.But they in the yard didn't know that Ye Zhan would never wake up.

"Don't be too sad." The doctor sighed and said, "According to our professor, vegetative people will live in the safest place they have constructed, where no one or anything can harm them. It can be said that they like that place and feel that living there is very happy, so they don’t want to wake up. You have to think about it, he lives very happily and happily in another world, otherwise he would have woken up a long time ago.”

After hearing these words, Ye Zhan's parents cried a little less.Yes, isn't it a good thing that Ye Zhan lives in a place where he thinks he is happy and safe?The doctor said again: "The world he built must be more beautiful than this world. You should be happy for him, because he will no longer have sorrow, trouble, or sadness..."

Hearing this, my heart suddenly trembled. The world that makes Ye Zhan unwilling to wake up is... is...

I stood up and said tremblingly, "Doctor, can I go in again?"

The doctor looked at me suspiciously and said, "No, the hospital has regulations, you can only visit me during the allowed time."

I walked over, suppressed my emotions desperately, and said: "Doctor, please, let me go in once, I want to talk to him again, maybe... maybe..." I dare not put the words after "maybe" Speaking out, I am afraid that Ye Zhan's parents will have hope again after hearing this, and if the hope fails in the end, it will hit them too hard.

"This..." The doctor was still a little embarrassed.

"Please!" I knelt down in front of the doctor, tears welling up again: "After today, he will be completely in a vegetable state, won't he? Let me talk to him again, please, please !"

"Hey, don't." The doctor immediately helped me up: "Go in, you don't need to kneel down. Oh, then go back quickly, if something happens, I can't take responsibility." Then he greeted a nurse next to him , let her take me in.

In the compartment inside the intensive care unit, I put on a mask, a hat, a disposable sterile suit, and shoe covers, and tremblingly walked towards Ye Zhan's hospital bed.The ventilator was still operating steadily, Ye Zhan still had his eyes closed, his face pale.

"Ye Zhan..." I called out softly, bent down, leaned on his bed, looked at his face, and said, "Can you hear my voice? I'm Wang Hao." Ye Zhanyi Motionless, completely unresponsive, seems to have been isolated from this world.

"Ye Zhan, I know you can hear me." I breathed heavily, but managed to soften my voice: "Besides, I also know where you are. I've been to that place too, right?"

Ye Zhan remained motionless.I continued: "In front of you is a blue, calm, endless sea, and under your feet are white flowers and soft sand. The sun shines on your body warmly, the breeze gently brushes your cheeks, and the whole world is extremely empty. And there is only you here. You can sing, run and jump here, and no one can hurt you anymore, and no one can approach you anymore. Isn’t that right, are you in a place like this?”

It was very hot in the ICU intensive care unit, and I was sweating after a while.Ye Zhan still had no response, and I continued: "You hid here alone, did you forget me? Didn't you say that I am the person you trust most in this world? I have been looking for you for a long time For a long time, riding the wind and waves, wading through mountains and rivers. Ye Zhan, have you seen that? That lonely boat on the ocean, I stepped on the deck of that boat, riding the wind and steadily heading towards you. Ye Zhan, You can avoid everyone, but not me."

"Ye Zhan, you said that we will be good brothers for life, so how can you leave me and hide here alone? Now I have leaned on the shore and gently jumped off the beach. Ye Zhan, look Me, I searched for a long time to find you. How happy I am now, don't you want to talk to me?"

"Ye Zhan, talk to me. I am your best brother in this world, and I am willing to bear all the suffering and sorrows with you..." I stared at Ye Zhan nervously.I don't know if it works for me, but I'll give it a try.

"Ye Zhan, I'm so tired. I've been wandering on the sea for seven days and seven nights just to find you and talk to you. Don't you want to talk to me? You're sitting on the beach, enjoying the sun and the breeze, don't you want to Share this with me?"

"Hmm..." Ye Zhan's mouth moved suddenly.My heart suddenly accelerated several times the heartbeat!

"Do you... want to eat coconut?" Ye Zhan said softly.

Tears came out of me suddenly, the blood in my whole body was boiling, and my hands and feet were even trembling non-stop.

I couldn't wait to say: "Eat, of course. I will eat as much as you pick for me, and you will feed me to death if you have the ability!"