Raise you just to eat you

"Brother!" Gu Lin's eyes widened in surprise, never expecting him to be so angry: "Can you calm down first!"

"Calm down?" Gu Xin shook off his hand, walked up to Li Ji and grabbed his collar: "Li Ji, this is the last time I warn you, get away from Gu Lin, the farther you roll, the more good!"

"Heh..." Li Ji sneered, with red blood on the corner of his mouth: "Gu Xin, you didn't come on Xiaolin's birthday, right?"

Gu Xin frowned, not knowing what he wanted to say.

"Li Ji!" As if knowing what he wanted to say, Gu Lin interrupted him with a pale face: "Stop talking!"

Li Ji glanced at him, and continued: "You can put Gu Lin aside for your career. The love between two men is indeed shady, but have you ever thought about what happened to Gu Lin who was just ignored by you?" How does it feel, you can release him on his birthday, but what about when he comes out? Are you going to let him face it alone?"

"Thousands of miles away, you don't care about any big or small things that happen around him, but you still want to bind him firmly by your side selfishly, Gu Xin, this is what I want to be with you from a long time ago. In a word, you are definitely not a man who can bring happiness to Gu Lin."

"Have you said enough?" Gu Xin looked at him with a cold face: "It's not your turn to talk about the matter between us."

"Perhaps I didn't have the qualifications before." Li Ji smiled and looked up at Gu Lin behind him. Because of what he said just now, Gu Lin kept his head down and did not interrupt them. The white light hit The same pale face made people feel distressed just by looking at it.

Wiping the blood from the corner of his mouth and standing up, Li Ji walked slowly to Gu Lin's side: "Gu Lin, didn't you always want to know what happened that night?"

Gu Lin froze for a moment, then looked up at him in surprise, with a panicked look on his face: "Li, Li Ji, don't..."

Li Ji shook his head, and suddenly reached out to rub his hair: "We did it, it's true."

Gu Lin's eyes widened, only to feel a loud "bang" in his brain, subconsciously raised his head to look for Gu Xin, but saw the same unbelievable expression on his face.

"elder brother……"

His throat was so sore that he could hardly speak, Gu Xin stretched out his hand, but he couldn't touch that person's body, even if it was just the corner of his clothes...

Brother, brother, talk, don't look at me like this, what are you talking about!You say you don't believe me, come here and beat me, scold me, don't look at me like this, please...

It's not that he didn't see his fragile and panicked expression, nor couldn't feel his uneasiness and fear. Gu Xin stood where he was, and wanted to hug him in his arms to comfort him like before, but he lifted both feet with heavy steps. Can't get up.

Li Ji watched from the side, and suddenly stretched out his hand to wrap Gu Lin in his arms, and slowly ran his uninjured arm along his back comfortingly.

Gu Lin was hugged by him without moving, and his obedient attitude was no different from when he was beside Gu Xin. Gu Xin clenched his fist and slammed it hard on the wall next to him.

……

It's cold, it's really cold, and the whole body is terribly cold.

Gu Lin nestled on the sofa, wrapped in a thick quilt, but his body still couldn't stop shaking.

Li Ji made him a bowl of ginger tea, and watched him finish the two mouthfuls, his face became a little rosy, and he reached out to touch his hot forehead: "Gu Lin, the fever still hasn't subsided, I really don't want to go Hospital?"

"No." Gu Lin shook his head and wrapped himself deeper in the quilt.

Gu Xin had already left a long time ago, without saying a single extra word, afraid of seeing him showing a cold and disgusted look, Gu Lin kept avoiding and hid in Li Ji's arms until he heard the slight sound of closing the door.

His mind was so chaotic, he wanted to vent his anger when he saw everything, so Gu Lin locked himself in the bathroom and flushed against the cold water for almost three hours.

Finally, when Li Ji knocked open the door, he saw that he was lying curled up in a bathtub full of cold water, and then he had a fever, burning hot all over but shivering from the cold all the time, Li Ji watched beside him, feeling distressed sharp.

In the end, he fell asleep in a daze, wrapped in a quilt and lying on the sofa, his cheeks were still flushed, Li Ji picked him up and sent him to the bedroom, looking at his frown that was still tightly frowned even in his sleep.

Besides, Gu Xin, after coming out of Gu Lin's place, went directly to Mu Qing. Mu Qing was watching the dish boredly at home, and was not too surprised when he opened the door to see him.

Although the two hadn't seen each other for a long time, they were in no mood to celebrate when this happened. Mu Qing took out two cans of beer and threw them at him: "Meet Li Ji?"

Gu Xin didn't say a word, he raised his head and finished pouring in one breath: "Mu Qing, you know everything, right?"

"Almost." Mu Qing sat opposite him: "It was quite scary when Li Ji got into a car accident, but now it's nothing serious."

"Car accident?" Gu Xin frowned: "What car accident?"

"You don't know?" Mu Qing looked at him in surprise: "You don't know anything, what are you doing here!"

"I..." Gu Xin kicked the corner of the table irritably: "My mind is in a mess right now, and I don't even know how to face Xiao Lin."

Mu Qing pondered for a while, lowered her head and took a sip of beer: "Gu Xin, to be honest, you really care about what they did, right?"

Gu Xin froze for a moment, unable to refute.

"You didn't listen to Gu Lin's explanation, and just ran out like this. Do you know what he thinks in his heart?"

"Yes, what Gu Lin did was wrong this time, but who caused it, have you ever thought about it? The love between you has been blocked by time and distance. Gu Lin has been protected by you since he was a child. He must be more panicked than anyone else when he encounters such a thing. He hides it from you and dare not tell you. It is because he is afraid that you will feel sad and blame yourself. When he needed comfort the most, he handed him over to others, Gu Xin, when did you become so selfish?"

"I don't know! I don't know anything fucking!" Being accused by Li Ji and Mu Qing one after another, Gu Xin was completely confused about who was right and who was wrong, and all the emotions he had accumulated all night finally exploded at this moment come out.

"I'm fucking selfish! I want him to belong to me alone. If it's possible, I'd like to imprison him directly! Mu Qing, you don't understand, you don't understand at all..."

"There are too many obstacles between us, I want to give him a stable and comfortable life, I want him to live under my wings forever without any harm, but now I don't have the power at all, I can't do it Everything I promise, I can’t let him just look at me forever! You know, when I see someone hugging him, when I think of him being hugged by someone else, you know how much self-control I used Do you have to control yourself not to kill that person!!"

How long has it been since I saw him so emotionally out of control?Mu Qing can't remember clearly, but Gu Xin is the one with the calmest personality among the four. He has to set himself an extremely picky and hard-to-reach limit in everything he does. The slightest flaw is such a man, the few impulses that are rare in half his life are all given to his favorite brother.

It's just that no matter how pure and strong the feelings are, they can't stand the ruthless destruction of time. Gu Xin has been developing abroad for the past few years. He is the one who is the farthest away, and the one who has changed the most. Keep running towards your goal.

As a bystander, Mu Qing really wanted to fight for Gu Lin's injustice, but after thinking about it, let's forget it. As far as the point is concerned, the knot they made themselves must of course need to be untied by themselves.

Mu Qing stretched his waist, leaned on the sofa and looked at him: "Let me tell you a story, there was once a child who kept his favorite pet in a beautiful cage, and waited for him to bring it back after traveling through mountains and rivers. When there was enough food for the pet to eat, his little pet had already starved to death in the cage, his whole body was stiff, as cold as that gorgeous cage, he burst into tears holding the pet, and it was only at that time that he began to regret it , why didn’t you take it out to search together, even if you experienced more pain with each other along the way.”

After Mu Qing's story was finished, the whole living room was silent.

Gu Xin sat with his head depressed, maintaining the same posture and sitting stiffly. Mu Qing yawned, not intending to be depressed with him anymore, and patted his shoulder to signal him to think it over.

"That's all I've said, Gu Xin, think about it for yourself."

Selfish?is it wrong?

Gu Xin raised his head, feeling confused about his unshakable determination for the first time. When did it start? The distance between the two of them gradually widened, not only in the body, but also in the gap between the hearts. That's the biggest gap.

Gu Lin, Gu Lin, Gu Lin, Gu Lin...

All that comes to mind are Gu Lin's face, the innocent and pure eyes when he was a child, the coquettish voice with a soft voice when he was skinny, the shyness with a slightly flushed face when he told himself that he liked him, and the emaciation when he was hugged by others thin body...

Gu Xin covered his eyes, as if by doing so, he could stop the sore and painful feeling in his eye sockets.

I like it so much, I like it so much that I don’t know how to maintain this feeling, I like it so much that I can’t help but feel a throbbing pain in my heart just looking at it, Gu Lin, Gu Lin, what should I do with you...

……

The slender body curled up awkwardly on the sofa, because the sofa was too small, the whole person was twisted into a very uncomfortable position, the floor under his feet was rolling everywhere with beer bottles, and the whole living room was filled with an unusually strong smell of alcohol taste.

Mu Qing frowned and looked at Gu Xin who was sleeping dead on the sofa, and walked to the window and pushed it open hard. He would really spit out the sour smell if he smelled it again.

(206315138, this is the group number, I found out that some children don’t even know it, I clearly wrote it (tot) on the introduction, there is no threshold, just enter casually, and then just bring a stepping stone, whatever the name in the text ←_← , in this case, children who are too late to read the meat chapter can ask me directly)