Phoenix Queen

"My lord!" The woman was wearing a simple cloth shirt, with a few light blue flowers painted on her body, and a blue jade gourd the size of a thumb was hanging around her neck. She was standing barefoot in the lotus pond. The silt stained her calves, and occasionally some muddy water trickled down to the flowers on her plain clothes. However, she did not look dirty because of this, but she was made white, really like a lotus out of mud. It is not dirty, but it is more elegant... It makes people think of clear stream water at a glance. This woman's calves must be often soaked in water, otherwise, how can it be compared with white lotus root?

In the midsummer season, the lotus in the pond was in full bloom, and the woman was holding a large bunch of red lotus tightly in her hands, each flower was in full bloom, so gorgeous that her dimples overflowed from laughing. "Young Master!" She called out again, holding the lotus in one hand, and waving at the young young master on the shore with the other, with a faint joy in her eyes, if her feet were not stuck in the mud, I'm afraid, She had already jumped up.

However... Slowly, her smile faded, and finally, all the joy had disappeared. She lowered her eyes, and her eyes were full of disappointment. How could she see the slightest bit of joy before? Not long after, Her plain clothes were actually stained with a lot of light green. This green color must be due to the force of her hands, which made the root juice of the lotus flower overflow, which shows the fluctuation in her heart.

"Young Master..." She called out again, but this time, only she could hear it.

With a wry smile, the woman pressed her forehead, looked down at the red lotus in her hand, and stretched out her fingertips.The lotus petals were torn off one by one, and the red juice was smeared on the palm of the hand, such a red... boundless and dazzling.

I can't help but think of that day...

She looked up at the sky, wondering if she was trying to stop something from slipping from the corner of her eyes.

From the day she met Lin Ruansi, she didn't come here with a pure purpose... Yes, the woman in this deserted mountain forest at the moment is none other than Yu Qingge.

For Mu Yu, it was just a coincidence.No...it should be Mo Yi, there is no more Mu Yu in this world, only that handsome and sad white-haired man Mo Yi exists in the world now.

That day, she accidentally broke into the Hongluan Pavilion. She only wanted to find Lin Ruansi. She had too many reasons to sneak into the Huachu Palace.And Lin Ruansi is the opportunity she has been waiting for for several years. It is impossible for Yu Qingge to be separated from her. No one except herself will know how much energy she has spent on this, but she never thought of it... ...that intrusion.Almost took... that man's life.

Before this, Yu Qingge never thought of it.There is actually someone in this world who can make her feel distressed at the first glance. When she saw that man for the first time, his white clothes were stained with blood, and his silver-white hair was also stained with red plums. He lay peacefully on the bed , as if asleep, however.The woman with the same white hair as him told her that it was because of her intrusion.Having killed him, at that time...she couldn't stop crying, but now that she thinks about it...do you really feel that your conscience is disturbed?

No, Yu Qingge doesn't know...Even she herself can't say why, maybe...One thought at a glance, one thought for a lifetime.

So, when the white-haired woman erased his memory for the second time, she actually felt a faint joy, so, when... Ah Ning's memory was also lost, she felt relieved, so, That's why she knelt in front of Bi Niang, begging Bi Niang to give her a chance to take care of him, to make up for the murder she almost committed.

However... After getting along these days, she was no longer a compensation for him.

then……

Everything began to be out of her control, and she began to lie involuntarily.

Yu Qingge made up a world for him and herself, and unknowingly, their story became like this—she told him that his name was Mo Yi, and her name was Yu Qingge, and they had been together since childhood , childhood sweetheart, childhood sweetheart, lived a plain and happy life, until there was a famine in her hometown, and there was a flood, she and his parents died in that disaster, her father entrusted himself to him before he died, and She was already his fiancée, but in the first month of their marriage, he fell seriously ill. After waking up, his hair was gray and... he couldn't remember anything. As for Ah Ning... It was the child they picked up on the way.

Yu Qingge looked at the lotus in her arms, and then looked down at the blue jade gourd on her neck... It contained the blood of that man's red lotus. Only this thing could allow her to approach him safely, otherwise... ...every creature near him will wither...

Yu Qingge knew... that was because of the sadness in his heart, and the black lotus on his forehead would never disappear, otherwise, when his black lotus turned into a red lotus, everything... would come back to life again.

At some point, the tears from the corners of her eyes dripped onto the lotus in her hand, the petals were not wet, and fell into the pond along the flower stalk, Yu Qingge suddenly woke up, only to realize... that she had already burst into tears.

Taking a deep breath, Yu Qingge faced the wind with her face up, letting the wind dry her tears. Even though there was no smile in her eyes, she still tried her best to smile...

The man in white clothes and white hair on the shore, he is standing, everything around him is yellow and lifeless, as if the world has isolated him to a world only for himself, not far from him, the mountains are green, The water is clear... The man looked longingly at the green in the distance, as if he wanted to melt into it, but just as he took a step, at the moment when he was about to walk out of the withered yellow, the green in front of him suddenly disappeared again. Losing his vitality, he kept walking, and kept walking, so... more and more withered and yellow, he looked back and saw the dead things along the way, and the ink lotus on his forehead was stained a little more black.

The boy in white stared blankly at the withered and yellowed plants, his almond eyes couldn't hide the loss...Suddenly, he squatted down and stroked the withered and yellowed soles of his feet. With a cold face, and he... is no longer willing to move forward, and it is finally unbearable in his heart.

He was such a gentle man, but now his whole body is contaminated with toxins that he cannot control.How cruel is it for him?

"My lord!" Yu Qingge broke in at this time, she wrapped her arms around the man's waist, and held the red lotus flower that she had just picked in the pond with her other hand, perhaps it was the lotus that was next to her neck. The jade gourd did not wither for a while, "Mo Yi..." She whispered his name, stepping on the dry grass with her bare feet.Just walked out of the pond, until now, Yu Qingge's legs are still covered with mud, "What are you doing?"

The man stared blankly at Yu Qingge, then stepped back slightly, "Don't get too close to me."

Yu Qingge's face froze suddenly.Looking at Mo Yi at a loss, his face suddenly turned pale, "My lord..."

Even Yu Qingge was surprised, she never thought that she... would have such a sad tone.

"Stay away from me." Mo Yi took a few steps back, and he reached out to wrap his white hair. "Qingge, don't come near me..."

Yu Qingge bit her lower lip.Holding the lotus in her hand, she handed it to Mo Yi like offering a treasure, "Here you are..."

"Lotus?" With a wry smile, he shook his head, his eyes filled with curiosity, "Why did you send me a lotus?"

Yu Qingge thought for a while before replying. "Don't you remember? You... used to like lotus flowers the most, and you had a birthmark of a lotus flower on your forehead when you were born. Your father was so happy at that time."

"Really?" After asking, Mo Yi frowned, stretched out his index finger to press his forehead, and asked in a murmur, "Is...is this a birthmark? Is it present at birth?" Blank, extremely unfamiliar with those so-called past events.

Did he like lotus the most before?Is she his fiancée?Is his name Mo Yi?

Who is he?

Looking at the gorgeous and flourishing lotus flower on Yu Qing's singer, Mo Yi didn't have that kind of feeling in his heart.

However, when he looked at the phoenix tree in the distance, the feeling in his heart told him, that... is what he likes!

Looking at those golden phoenix leaves from a distance, Mo Yi's heart is soft.I don't know why, every time he sees this tree, he always has a feeling of wanting to think of something. Such a memory seems to be like breaking a levee. Unfortunately, every time the water is about to rush out, the dam will burst again. thickened again...

There must be something about this tree...

He must have forgotten something, so that he could not forgive.

If you want to remember...you must remember, "Qingge, tell me more about the past, okay? I want to remember."

Yu Qingge lowered her eyes, she didn't dare to let Mu Yu see her, staring at her muddy legs, she asked him, "My lord... are the memories from the past really that important? Can't it be from now on? Looking forward, why bother with everything in the past?"

"No, no!" Without thinking, Mo Yi immediately shook his head, pointing to his heart, and said, "Here, keep telling me... I did a wrong thing, it reminds me of something Come."

Yu Qingge listened, her heart felt cold and frightened...

She is a person living in a lie, and she is just a false shadow in his heart, like water waves, like smoke, unable to withstand a little external force, even with a slight blow... it will dissipate.

"Qingge, before I got sick, who else did I... know?" Mo Yiyao looked at the sky, "Have I ever promised someone something?"

Mo Yi looked at the clouds above his head, smiled wryly and stretched out his hand towards the sky. He couldn't remember anything, and he couldn't remember a single person in his mind. A vague shadow, he thinks that shadow should be Yu Qingge, however, no matter how he looks at it, he can't see her face clearly, the shadow in his dream can't be Yu Qingge...

Only when he fell asleep, did Mo Yi feel that the person in the dream... was himself.

Every night, he would dream again and again, with different scenes and different pictures, but... the shadow always gave him the same feeling.

So far, the dream that Mo Yi remembers most clearly is actually a wedding...

There is red everywhere, there is laughter everywhere, it is still the same shadow, dressed in red, full of festive sleeves, holding a lily lily in her hand, and slowly bowing down...

And at that moment, in the dreamland, he was in such pain that he couldn't even breathe, until he woke up from his sleep with suffocation. At that time, the pain in his heart actually made him think of committing suicide, as if... Life to him has no color at that moment.

He thought hard.Trying hard to think about it, unfortunately...

The wind blows down the flowers, only the lingering fragrance.

Even if he thought like a bug had gotten into his head, he still couldn't catch anything...

"My lord, lotus... this is your favorite." Yu Qingge sent the red lotus forward again.

"No, I don't want...I, I don't remember." Mo Yi shook his head, reached out and patted Yu Qingge's head, "Qingge. I'm sorry, I forgot something..." After a pause, he continued Said, "I...everything around me will wither, and this lotus will also, Qingge. I'm afraid you will too...so, stay away from me. If anyone between you and Aning is hurt because of me, then ... who else can I talk to?"

The tears that stopped and stopped, endured and endured, poured out again in an instant...

His tone is so lonely...

Before forgetting.Even though that white-haired young man is extremely weak, but.But he is full!Now...but he can only stand among a pile of withered and yellow vegetation, looking at the green full of vitality, but does he want to be with dead things forever?

Yu Qingge threw the red lotus in her hand to the ground, and threw herself into Mo Yi's arms, "I'm not afraid, my lord...Qingge is not afraid, and besides, I won't get hurt, I...I want to stay with you around."

Mo Yi sighed lightly.After hesitating for a moment, he raised his hand and gently wiped away her tears, "Don't cry."

Yu Qingge grabbed that hand, never wanting to let go...

The wind blew the man's white hair, only Mo Lian was so conspicuous.

After a while, Mo Yi said, "Qingge, I'm sorry, I forgot everything, you said you were my fiancee, but I can't remember anything... I don't want to marry you now, it's not fair .”

Yu Qingge opened her mouth, and rubbed her legs that still had some dirt on them. Suddenly, she quickly raised her head and looked up at the white-haired man. She was so focused that she could even see through his eyes. Seeing his own silhouette in his pupils, "I'm not afraid, son, there's nothing unfair."

Mo Yi was taken aback for a long time, but he still shook his head, "Sorry, Qing Ge, unless one day I can remember everything, otherwise... I don't want to! I hope you can forgive me!"

It's unfair, not to her, but to him!

What a gentle man this is, his eyes seem to be full of spring breeze, Yu Qingge thought that he would never reject others, he would never let others get hurt, but he didn't want... He could actually be so straightforward Shaking his head vigorously, leaving no... half a leeway.

"No...it's nothing." Yu Qingge smiled with difficulty. At this moment, she really hoped that he would never think of it.

"Qingge." Mo Yi squinted his almond eyes, looked at the woman in front of her who smiled uglier than crying, and asked after a long time, "Do you really know me? Do you really know me now? Do you want to marry me?" The person..." Is it really me at this moment?

……

Mo Yi paused, and the ink lotus on his forehead turned leisurely, he said, "Now...I am not what I used to be, you said I like lotus, but... now I like phoenix leaves, you say I like streams, but...I want to see the white snow-capped mountains more, all my preferences are different from before, and... I love you!" Mo Yi said with disappointment, "I like you , I like Aning, I like mountains and rivers, flowers and trees, but... those are not the feelings you should have for your wife...Qingge, I'm sorry."

"No...it's okay, I don't care."

No... no, it's not that it's different from before, but it's the exact opposite!

Even if he made up a new name and a new world, this man, except for his appearance and name, still hasn't changed at all.

Does this mean - no matter what, his preferences will not change, he still... likes that person, even if he forgets her?

no no no...

Yu Qingge shook her head again and again, at least she is by his side now!

However, there was always a voice deep in her heart telling her, even if she was standing by his side... But, he was still so far away from her, and that distance couldn't even be crossed, no matter how hard she tried Running towards him... The final result is nothing more than a traveler who encounters a mirage in the desert and spends his whole life chasing an illusory shadow.

"Young master... What do you want to do after that? Is there any place you want to go?"

Yu Qingge felt Mu Yu's body stiffen slightly, and the pain in his eyes also infected Yu Qingge, she ached because of his pain!

In a blink of an eye, this life is already a calamity.

"No... Unless the things close to me are no longer dead, otherwise, what right do I have to leave the barren mountain?" Mo Yi's voice was so far away, but the tone hit Yu Qingge's heart so heavily.

Son...

Do you know that, in fact, as long as you are happier, as long as you are no longer sad, as long as... the black lotus disappears and the red lotus reappears, no creature in this world will die because of you.

But...if you leave here, then...is there any place in the world where people won't talk about Prince Jing'an Xia Ying?

Young master, do you know... I don't even want you to hear this person's name.

Maybe... It's okay to be isolated from the world in this life!

However, with this thought, another person's shadow immediately appeared in Yu Qingge's heart.

She woke up suddenly, that's right, she still has unfulfilled wishes, and she still has to repay a person's kindness, how can she have the right to be isolated from the world forever?What's more...he might not want to!

Suddenly the pain welled up in his heart, Yu Qingge looked up at the sky, thinking of the woman with the same name as her, and said slowly in his heart——

Please give me some more time, at least, when he hasn't thought of that person, please let me see him more.

Even though one glance is calamity and one thought is longing, but... she does not regret it.

At this moment, Yu Qingge finally understood, back then... what kind of mood did that woman die with! (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to vote for recommendations and monthly tickets. Your support is my biggest motivation.)

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Finally, this chapter is actually the revised Chapter 180, which is the opening chapter of He Yindifeng's chapter!

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