life struggle

Taking care of yourself is easier said than done. 【*】Luo Xiao's sudden and hasty visit plunged Wu Xiaojun into conflict and confusion again.

Recalling the various situations I have been with her in the past year, her every frown, every move, every move, touches my heartstrings, her intelligence, her voice, and even every word I said to myself can be clearly remembered, vividly in my memory , still ringing in my ears, hard to let go.This time she came here specially because she was worried and worried about what she and Shao Yingying said in her heart, and all the hints had already explained everything.Really according to what she said, it is a good choice to become a life partner with her.

Yingzi's prudent and concise words and deeds, warm and simple way of dealing with people, honest and kind-hearted open-mindedness, seductive and chaotic mind, have already become an indispensable and important part of her life.Her joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys always affect my heart. I hope that all the beautiful moments can be shared with her. I want to be with her very urgently!Now that the situation is developing so fast, it is not impossible for me to develop in Pingxi in the future, and the pressure from my family is not as great as that of the third brother at that time.Let Yingzi walk into his spiritual space, which will be of great help to his future academic progress and career development.If Luo Xiao's attitude is treated indifferently, how to face it in the future will be a big problem. After all, they are sisters and cannot avoid this hurdle.Abandoning Ying and Fuxiao went against her own wish. She gave up without thinking about it, and it was very difficult to do it psychologically. It seemed that she would face another difficult choice that could not be avoided.

The next morning, Luo Xiao and Shao Yingying returned to Xinning's home.

Mother Chen Jie was overjoyed when she saw the return of the two flowery and jade-like baby daughters who were envied by the people of Liangquan Village. She went to the village committee to call her son, daughter-in-law and grandson back. Suddenly it became lively.It is rare for the family to have a happy reunion dinner. Chen Jie is as busy as welcoming guests, but she is never happy in her heart.

Luo Xiao looked at the little nephew who was able to walk swiftly just now, wearing beautiful children's clothes, walking around in the yard, touching this and looking there, he was very lively and cute, and couldn't help walking towards the child, squatting down, Smiling and teasing the child, "Qiangqiang, call me aunt, I'll give you candy."

The child looked at the stranger in front of him in amazement, rolled his bright eyes up and down, and yelled timidly, "Dud".

"Hey, Qiangqiang is really good." Luo Xiao responded sweetly, took out a candy and put it in the child's hand, then gently picked him up, kissed his tender, smooth and round face, and kissed him. Kiss again, feeling like my own child.Maybe it was because she was holding the baby in the wrong posture, Xiao Qiangqiang felt uncomfortable, her two calves kept kicking on her body randomly, and she looked at her mother Niu Chunping standing in front of the main room in horror.

When Niu Chunping saw it, she hurried over and said, "Qiangqiang, don't rub aunt's body dirty, come down quickly." As he spoke, he took the child from his hand, put it gently on the ground, and said with a smile, "Sister, I can tell from the way you hold a child that you have never held a child before. However, it can be seen that you like children very much. In the future, you should learn more. Don't be like me back then, flustered and ignorant .”

"Chunping, you really know how to joke. I'm still early. It's useless to think about it now."

"Girls make diapers, and prepare them for busy times. Because I studied in junior high school for two years, I didn't go to high school or college, and I didn't have any preparations. I just got married and had children in a daze. It's too early."

"It's not too early. My classmates in the second grade of junior high school got married and had children before they arrived. Now the child is in elementary school."

"It's true, we are all the same in the countryside. We should have children early when we have nothing to do at home. You have to work harder, find a partner as soon as possible, get married as soon as you graduate, and enjoy the taste and fun of being a mother."

"Xiao, Chunping, don't talk any more, come and eat quickly." Chen Jie shouted while clearing the table while standing in the room.

Niu Chunping's few jokes really said that in Luo Xiao's heart, seeing her younger brother's family of three happy and full of infinite sweetness, her future suddenly dangled in front of her eyes, and her maternal instinct prompted her to desire to have a real child of her own as soon as possible However, it will take a long time to wait, at least two or three years later.

It was a rare occasion for the three brothers and sisters to get together, and Shao Zili's family of three would return to the county until late.

Taking advantage of Shao Yingying's absence, Luo Xiao directly said to Chen Jie, "Mom, Wu Xiaojun is chasing Yingzi now, do you know that?"

Chen Jie was pleasantly surprised, her face stretched, and she said with a smile, "I don't know, I've never heard Yingzi say that it's a good thing. Mom can't wait for the two of them to be happy. It can be settled one day sooner. Mom's heart will be at ease sooner." .”

"Mom, let me tell you that the two of them are totally unreliable. Don't say that Yingzi is unwilling, even if she is willing, you can't agree."

"Xiao, Xiaojun, this kid is good-looking, good-looking, ambitious and able to endure hardships. My mother liked it very much at first sight. Both of them are medical students, and they will be able to take care of each other in their careers and discuss with each other. Don't worry that our Yingzi will be wronged, such a good thing is hard to find with a lantern, why don't I agree."

"Mom, you just see the surface and follow your feelings. In fact, you don't understand many things. For example, are you willing to let Yingzi go to our county? Xiaojun is a filial son, and he is the darling of his parents at home. Come here Can his parents agree? Also, it’s not like you don’t know about Xiaojun and Meixiang. Both of them have reached that level. If she shows up one day, what should Yingzi do? Xiaojun and Yingzi have different personalities. There is a big difference in the world, who can say whether they can live together in the future? You should think about it carefully."

Chen Jie listened quietly, thinking about these problems immediately in her brain, then suppressed her smile, and said slowly for a long time, "These are very practical problems, and they are also very difficult things to do. No matter how deep the relationship is, if the sky does not cooperate, and no matter how good the marriage is, it is difficult to make a marriage. A marriage of different parties is destined not to be a real marriage. The situation between me and your father can no longer be repeated on Yingzi. I really should talk to Yingzi."

Seeing that Chen Jie was already moved, Luo Xiao added fuel to the fire, "Mom, I have already told them both about this, but their reactions were very flat. If you don't clarify the stakes with Yingzi, if they If you two cook raw rice on impulse, it will be too late to regret it, and you will complain for a lifetime. Tell her thoroughly, and explain everything that may happen in advance. If she doesn't want to listen, show up You can only bear it yourself, and you can't blame others."

Chen Jie kept nodding her head and said "Yes", "That's right, that's right, I'll tell her tonight, and it's up to her to listen or not."

Shao Yingying was indeed in conflict during this period, thinking over and over again all the pros and cons, all possible aspects, but still couldn't make up her mind.I planned to ask Luo Xiao's opinion in person, but seeing that my eldest sister seemed to care about Xiaojun, she hinted that she should not develop deep with Xiaojun, let alone to the point of being in love. Great doubts arose about her starting point and intentions.If he has no idea about serving the army, it is understandable to say these things. If he has his own calculations, his motives are not pure, and he is deliberately against himself.Thinking of this, I felt uncomfortable all day, especially uncomfortable.

Before going to sleep, Chen Jie and Shao Yingying talked about this matter, they spoke sincerely and analyzed thoroughly, she kept her head down with a sullen face and remained silent.She knew that many of what her mother said were Luo Xiao's thoughts, and it was Luo Xiao who asked her mother to persuade her not to have any illusions about Xiaojun.Knowing Luo Xiao's true intention of coming this time, he came here in a hurry, invited himself and Xiaojun to eat, danced wildly to show himself in front of him, and moved his mother to stop him. A series of actions can be described as exhausting.There is only one purpose, and he is competing with his own sister for a boyfriend. This kind of behavior and practice is too vicious and immoral.Youxin and mother directly pointed it out, because the relationship between the sisters was hurt and mother was worried, so she suppressed the resentment in her heart and did not make it clear.He just said lightly, "Mom, I know what to do with my own affairs, so don't worry about it so much. You owe my sister too much, so you should take care of her when you have time."

Although Shao Yingying understood Luo Xiao's true intentions, she did not show any dissatisfaction in front of Luo Xiao. She still got along with her calmly as usual, and sent her to the return train, opposing Wu Xiaojun's indifferent and indifferent attitude. .

As the incident of Zhuang Wenjing and Wu Zhenjie gradually faded out of people's field of vision, the school's management of student dormitories and night attendance have also gradually relaxed.Wu Xiaojun was no longer so tense and busy, and everything returned to the normal state of the past.

Wu Xiaojun remembered that every time he met Shao Yingying alone, she always had a cold face and pitiful words, not as natural as before and spoke calmly.Every time she asked why, she just shook her head and didn't give any answer, which made him very tangled and uneasy.It was me who touched her sensitive nerves and made her have doubts. It's normal to deliberately avoid herself. Maybe it will get better after a while. It's better not to get to the bottom of it for the time being.Thinking of this, my heart is much more at ease.

One night, to Wu Xiaojun's surprise, Liang Yuhua called him out of the dormitory, went downstairs, lowered his head and hurriedly walked outside the school.Wu Xiaojun thought she had something urgent to help him, seeing her nervous expression, it was inconvenient to ask more questions, so he followed closely behind.

When the two came to the gazebo on Beijing Road, Liang Yuhua suddenly stopped, looked at Wu Xiaojun and asked in a eager tone, "Minister Wu, I feel very uncomfortable these days, can you chat with me for a while? "

Wu Xiaojun was stunned, and asked puzzledly, "What's the matter, do you have something on your mind, or do you need my help when you encounter a problem?"

Liang Yuhua did not answer directly, but gently took out two newspapers that had been prepared from his jacket pocket, spread them carefully on the connecting chair, and said softly, "Please sit down and talk."

Wu Xiaojun hesitated for a moment, and settled down when he came, and sat down naturally and generously.Liang Yuhua didn't have the slightest shyness of a girl's nudity, a faint and peaceful smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she sat down close to him.

"Minister Wu, first of all, I'm sorry for suddenly taking the liberty to ask you out to accompany me, please don't mind."

"It's okay, they are all classmates who know each other, you don't need to be polite."

"During this time, for some reason, a few girls in our dormitory suddenly made boyfriends, and each of them seemed to be a different person. They were in a hurry and smiling all day long. They were just happy, which was infuriating. It is showing their nobility and glory everywhere, ridiculing us for our low quality, no one chases after us, no boyfriend, which makes me and others very depressed."

Wu Xiaojun said with a smile, "I have heard this saying that girls are eager to find a boyfriend when they are freshmen because they have just been liberated and want to try something new! Girls are anxious to find a boyfriend when they are sophomore because they have finally discovered how empty and boring college life is. Boring. The rush to find a boyfriend in my junior year was often out of comparison, because the girls around me seemed to have boyfriends, and those who were eager to find a boyfriend in my senior year were often looking for long-term support or a springboard. I didn’t care at the time These are just jokes for a happy moment, I didn't expect it to show up in your dormitory so soon."

"You are right. In the female dormitory, there is a strange phenomenon. If one person in a dormitory starts to have a boyfriend, there will be a domino effect, and other people will follow up soon. Otherwise, there will be no one in the whole dormitory." Yes, it’s because of vanity and comparison. Seeing them proud, I feel ashamed. Is there anything inferior to them? Some of them are much worse than me, so why don’t I have anyone to chase after them? After much deliberation, the main reason is that I am too closed, my social circle is not open, and no one pays attention to me."

"There is nothing wrong with falling in love on campus, but it is not a good psychology and choice. I think that not falling in love is the best choice. Because some pain can be hung on the face to let others know, and some can only be buried in the The heart bears it alone. Sometimes what is on the heart is more painful than what is written on the face, because it hurts the soul and spirit. We often pay attention to those who suffer on the face, and show mercy and generosity without stinging; people, we will ignore or even be indifferent. The most difficult thing in this world is not that you reach out to help, but to truly enter the hearts of others. But it is really not an easy task. I think you still want to open up and put others’ It's better to be a little less vanity."

"What you said was very in-depth and insightful. After all, at this age, sometimes it is difficult to restrain emotions. For some reason, since the moment you helped me last time, I have never been able to let you go in my heart. I always dream When I met you, I paid attention to you by ghosts and ghosts every day. I always felt empty in my heart and restless when I didn't see you for a few days. That feeling was very uncomfortable. I thought and hesitated for a long time before I mustered up the courage to ask you out , I want to take a walk with you alone, talk and chat, to release the loneliness and pain in my chest. I don’t want to play around in circles, just say it straight, I want to ask you to be my boyfriend from the bottom of my heart, please don’t Rejecting me, shattering the good wishes I have always buried in my heart."