life struggle

An embarrassing solemnity flashed across Wu Xiaojun's face, he hesitated for a moment, and glanced at Bai Lingyan out of the corner of his eye.

Niu Shuxian urged, "Minister Wu, you haven't enjoyed taking pictures all morning. The camera seems to be stuck in your hand and you don't want to lose it. Give it to me."

Bai Lingyan smiled mysteriously, "Sister, Xiaojun is putting away his backpack, don't worry!"

Wu Xiaojun saw that he really couldn't escape this time, so he took advantage of Bai Lingyan and Niu Shuxian's conversation, went down the donkey, handed the camera and backpack to Niu Shuxian, turned around and walked quickly to stand beside Bai Lingyan.

Niu Shuxian held the camera in her hand, looked at the two people who were looking around, absent-minded, with serious and unnatural expressions, and said with a smile, "It's a bit far away, isn't it just to take a picture, it makes you nervous. Look at it all." Following my gestures, get closer to each other, with relaxed expressions and a little smile. Lingyan, tilt your head slightly towards Minister Wu. Minister Wu, put your right hand on Lingyan's shoulder, turn your body slightly, good, good, good. Just don't move!" Immediately after pressing the shutter, clicked a few times, then put away the camera, and said complacently, "My photography skills are absolutely extraordinary, I guarantee you satisfaction. After washing, don't forget to give me one."

Bai Lingyan said happily, "Definitely, definitely."

Wu Xiaojun looked at the two people with happy faces, and felt as light as letting go of a heavy burden in his heart. He was no longer as cautious as before, and his words increased. He joked with them from time to time, which made the two of them very happy.

Following the continuous flow of people, the three visited several scenic spots. Niu Shuxian suddenly discovered that Bai Lingyan and Wu Xiaojun were walking side by side at some point, chatting and whispering, in a good mood, talking and laughing The two have a very good understanding, and it is a bit redundant to be a third party who acts as a light bulb.If these two people are okay, the devil will believe it. I have to set their bottom fire.Thinking of this, he joked, "As the saying goes, things of a kind gather together and people are divided into groups, and whoever you look for, I think you both have good eyesight, so it's not love at first sight, right? Tell me honestly, how long have you been together?" .”

Bai Lingyan blushed suddenly with embarrassment, and said coquettishly, "Sister, it's love at first sight and disappearing, we are just good friends."

"Come on, sister, men and women are either enemies or lovers. There is no such thing as a so-called pure and true friend. Sister, to be honest, the two of you are a natural husband and wife. There is definitely a drama. Don't believe me, just wait and see!"

"Sister, Xiaojun has a girlfriend. If she hears this, it will be enough for him to drink a pot before she hears it. Don't you think so?"

Wu Xiaojun stood beside the two of them, covered his mouth with a smile, and didn't answer anything.

Niu Shuxian said with a grin, "Lingyan, you said he has a girlfriend, I'm afraid it's you. You can see that Minister Wu has agreed. Seize the opportunity and get along well. My sister supports you." Turning her face, she saw several people not far away To the young men and women who are whispering to each other, "Don't both of you pretend to be innocent in front of me. If it weren't for me, you would have been like them."

Wu Xiaojun knew that he liked Bai Lingyan from the bottom of his heart, but if he liked Bai Lingyan, he didn't have the feeling of love with Qin Meixiang, Shao Yingying, and Luo Xiao at all.Don't do bad things, don't be afraid of ghosts calling the door, calm and cool naturally.The more Niu Shuxian talked about the relationship between the two, the more at ease and calm he felt in his heart, and he joked with Niu Shuxian, "Sister Niu, originally what Lingyan said was right, but after your repeated remarks, you really put the two of us together. I was trapped in it. If you can’t get out, you will become the real instigator, and you will be caught up in it.”

"This is the truth. Minister Wu is too good at making excuses. The two of you talked about friends and you dragged me into it. It doesn't matter. If you can't get out, you will stay inside. I don't have to evade any responsibility."

Bai Lingyan shyly said, "Okay, don't talk about such useless things. It's noon, hurry up and go back to eat! It just so happened that my dad came home yesterday, let's buy some food and cook for ourselves at his place. What do you think? Sample?"

Niu Shuxian said, "Okay, Minister Wu, do you have any objections?"

Wu Xiaojun smiled wryly, "Sister Niu can do whatever she says, and I will follow up."

Bai Lingyan's father lived in the same community as Feng Weiwei, and Wu Xiaojun was no stranger to going there often.And from the moment he entered the gate of the community, his heart beat extremely violently, and his face was burning hot. He always felt Feng Weiwei's exquisite and graceful figure swaying back and forth in front of his eyes, and his tender and sweet smile was like a magnet. Fascinating, the scene of having a hearty and blissful copulation with her keeps rolling in my mind, and my feet are so light that I can't control them.He strongly controlled the external complex emotions caused by his inner tension, quietly slowed down, and walked behind Bai Lingyan and Niu Shuxian, avoiding the subtle changes in his face and actions from being noticed by them.

When the three of them walked to the front of the building where Feng Weiwei used to live, Bai Lingyan turned her head and smiled at Wu Xiaojun, and said in a low voice, "You are familiar with this place, don't you miss it?"

Wu Xiaojun looked at Niu Shuxian's back in front of him and pouted at Bai Lingyan, and said embarrassedly, "Don't make jokes, it's not good for people to hear." Then he deliberately asked loudly, "Lingyan, which building is it, it's time to arrive Bar?"

"It's here, it's here, the building in front is it."

In the mid-70s, Bai Lingyan's father, Bai Yijia, transferred from a regular job as a cadre in northern Jiangsu, and was later assigned to the Pingxi Machinery Factory, a unit owned by the whole people established during the country's "First Five-Year Plan".For him, being able to work in such a unit is a dream, a very lucky thing, and he is naturally ecstatic and proud.However, the parents, wife and two young daughters are all in a remote mountain village on the south bank of the Qinghe River in Beimeng County, and they have to live a separate life.He not only wants to do a good job in the factory, but also always thinks about taking care of his family. He often travels back and forth between the two places in his busy schedule.

Bai Yijia and his wife, one is away and the other is at home. Although they are not living well, compared with other families, they are not so nervous, and they are quite comfortable.The only regret is that there is no boy, and I am very anxious and worried.At the beginning of the second year of Bai Yijia's work, his wife Sun Huiying became pregnant again, and specially asked a fortune teller to count her, and this time she gave birth to a son.The two were happy, like looking forward to the stars and the moon every day, looking forward to the early birth of their longing son.During that time, Bai Yijia could say that she ran home every Sunday and brought nutritional supplements, lest Sun Huiying would make a mistake.

To their surprise, Sun Huiying gave birth in October, and a baby girl fell to the ground. The two of them were extremely disappointed like a deflated ball, and their spirits were depressed for a while.Taking care of the family and her two daughters had already exhausted Sun Huiying. She really didn't want to raise this girl anymore. Before the child was full moon, she urged Bai Yijia to find a home and give the child away.Bai Yijia's heart ached when she saw his wife, who was full of vicissitudes.After hesitating again and again, although he was reluctant to give up his own flesh and blood, he finally gritted his teeth and made up his mind to ask his comrades to take the child away overnight and send him to a suitable family hundreds of miles away.

After Bai Yijia's parents knew that Sun Huiying had given away the child, they were very annoyed and scolded them viciously.After a day and a night of walking along the banks of the Qinghe River and across the mountains, I went to Banshi County to pick up the child after several twists and turns.Bai Yijia and his wife couldn't hold back their parents, so they had no choice but to raise the child, but they were reluctant to give the child an official name, and they only called it "Sinni".They have only one purpose, which is to hope to have a son as soon as possible and continue the incense of the Bai family.It was not until the rare and belated precious son Bai Yonggen came to the world three years later that he reluctantly named the third daughter "Bai Lingyan (Bailingyi)." The whole family almost devoted all their energy to the only boy they loved. Compared with the younger brother, he was left out in the cold.The mother is fierce and the father is cold, lack of parental love, withdrawn personality, timid and cowardly, lack of nutrition, hypoplasia, frailty and sickness make her the deepest and unforgettable memory of her childhood.

After the birth of her son, Bai Yijia no longer had to worry about the future, so she was overjoyed and energetic, and devoted herself to moving the household registration of his wife and children back to the city, so that they could live a normal life with the whole family reunited.He reported to the factory many times that it was difficult to do it due to policy restrictions, and he still failed to achieve what he wanted, and gradually lost hope.Later, the situation in the countryside changed a lot, so I gave up the idea of ​​transferring my wife and children to the city.He is the only one in the factory who has no accompanying family members and no right to housing allocation. He has been living in a single room in the collective dormitory of Soviet-style tube houses for many years.

Bai Yijia and Feng Weiwei live in adjacent buildings with the same structure. They used to be collective dormitories for employees.In recent years, many old comrades have spontaneously occupied a single room or two adjacent rooms for the convenience of family visits. There are many people involved, and the management in the factory is full of difficulties and resistance.Bai Yijia's room is on the left side of the northernmost end of the second floor, and the stove is placed at the top of the corridor.The entire room in the house is very small, with a steel bed, a light blue factory tool cabinet, a red painted three-drawer table, a large wicker box under the bed, and other sundries.

The three of them walked into the house, and Bai Lingyan told Wu Xiaojun and Niu Shuxian to sit down and rest, while she was busy lighting a fire and cooking.

After Wu Xiaojun walked all morning, he felt really hungry. Before Bai Lingyan could shovel out the stewed chicken from the pot, he unceremoniously picked up a piece of chopsticks and put it in his mouth.Bai Lingyan rolled her eyelids and looked at him, "How can you be in such a hurry and eat directly from the pot?"

Wu Xiaojun made a grimace on purpose, and smiled, "I'm sorry, I made you laugh. I'm eager to taste your cooking skills."

"Okay, don't just sell your mouth, take this plate to the water pipe and rinse it."

"Okay, I'll make sure you're satisfied."

Niu Shuxian said, "The two of you really seem to be living together. One doesn't regard himself as an outsider, and the other has no scruples to order others around. It's a tacit understanding!"

Bai Lingyan said, "They are all old acquaintances, and they usually like to make jokes, so there is nothing taboo about them."

"Lingyan, generally speaking, girls won't bring boys to their homes until the relationship develops to a certain extent. It can be seen that the relationship between you is extraordinary. Do your parents know?"

"I didn't think so much, and I didn't have so many rules in my heart. In my eyes, as long as they get along well, there is no difference between boys and girls."

"Tell me the truth, do you like him or not?"

"Based on my own feeling, my personality is very suitable for him, and his personality is also very suitable for me, and we can talk about it. He already has a girlfriend who belongs to him and can't give up. Happy ordinary friends, as for love, there is nothing to talk about."

"You figured it out, he really has a girlfriend!"

"Well, it's the best way, it's more at ease in my heart, there will be no misunderstandings and awkwardness, no need to look forward and backward when meeting, worry about this and that, talk about everything, how good it is to be happy!"

"It's true, but you can't get too close to him too casually, so as not to cause unnecessary trouble. At least don't do things that interfere with their relationship, so as to avoid misunderstanding between them because of you, and hurt both of them." human emotions."

"That's okay. In fact, we rarely see each other."

After Wu Xiaojun washed the dishes, he went to the toilet to urinate before returning to the room. Bai Lingyan had already filled the soup and was waiting for the plate in his hand to be filled with vegetables.Everything is ready, everyone sits around the table to eat and chat.

After the meal, Niu Shuxian went directly to the dormitory of the affiliated hospital to pack her things, while Bai Lingyan and Wu Xiaojun went back to school.On the way, Wu Xiaojun said, "Your cousin has a very cheerful personality. What she said made me laugh and cry, and I couldn't deal with it. Sometimes it was quite embarrassing."

"That's right, we went to school together since we were young, and we have a very good relationship, so we naturally speak freely. You just laugh off some things and don't take them to heart. By the way, how is your girlfriend Luo Xiao now?"

"Some time ago, I had some conflicts with my old classmates at the internship site Xiangzhou Pharmaceutical Factory, and I was in a bad mood. Now everything has passed, and the internship is going well. I originally planned to take advantage of these few days to visit her. , you stopped me. It’s okay, there’s plenty of time.”

"I'm really sorry for delaying your rare date. When she comes over one day, I'll treat you both to dinner. She just arrived in a strange place, and the environment and people are unfamiliar. Naturally, she will be very nervous. It's just when she needs you. You You should encourage her, comfort her, and give her confidence."

"I think so too."

"How is your student now, has it changed?"

"After several times of prostitution by me, the rules are much more honest now. If this continues, within three months, she will definitely turn her into an excellent student."

"Yes, very worthy of recognition."

When Wu Xiaojun returned to the dormitory, he felt a little tired all over his body, and he had nothing to do in the afternoon, so he decided to take a good night's sleep while no one was quiet in the dormitory.He made a quick trip to the bed, pulled the quilt away, and suddenly found a piece of paper dropped to the ground.I was very puzzled, when I left, I folded the quilt well and left nothing behind, why a note suddenly appeared, who put it?Sit up and bend down to pick it up, and I was overjoyed immediately, feeling tired and sleepy.Get out of bed immediately, dress neatly, and walk out of the school gate...