life struggle

From then on, Mr. Zhou lost his soul and fell ill for many days. He closed his eyes on New Year's Eve. 【 】This matter spread quickly and caused a great sensation in the local area. It became a hot topic of discussion among people after dinner.Most unfilial people would bow their heads in shame every time they heard others mention this matter, speechless, and quietly left from the crowd.

Once upon a time, when Wu Pingshun was angry and impatient, the story of Mr. Zhou's murder of his son appeared before his eyes, haunting his dreams, but after all, it is a new society, and feudal methods will definitely not work, but he can be sued in court. I thought about it again, but youdao is that it is difficult for an upright official to decide on housework, and the public is generally not able to ask, so they are helpless, so they have to let nature take its course.

After that, in order to reduce unnecessary troubles, other people gradually came less, and the burden naturally fell on themselves.Xiaojun has followed him since he was a child, and he is also a good hand at taking care of the land. Although he has been in school, he has never been delayed in work during the busy farming season.

The past is vivid, ups and downs, and it is heartbreaking. The unfinished service to the army has always been a heart problem for Wu Pingshun, and it is an unshirkable responsibility and burden.As Xiaojun grows up day by day, that is, in the past few years, he will start a family and start a business, and he will fall down with a stone, and the only thing to do is to provide for the elderly.The sons of the married family do not understand their own pain and difficulties. They each take care of their own small family. .

The crops have not yet been harvested, and the land has not yet been plowed. The "Admission Notice" requires that you report today and tomorrow, which has been delayed by one day. If you don't send Xiaojun to school tomorrow, you will definitely die. Going to college is already very difficult and cannot be delayed.

At this time, the door rang, and it was Xiaoyun, the eldest daughter, pushing a bicycle over with a quilt on the back seat.Parked the car, took off the quilt, "Father, haven't you eaten yet, have you finished breaking the corn in the South Depression?", asked twice, and when Wu Pingshun lowered his head and smoked in silence, he knew the momentum was wrong, there must be something wrong .It took a long time for Wu Pingshun to realize, "Xiaoyun is here."

"Xiao Yun, don't ask anymore, your father is angry. Let's quarrel with your elder brother early in the morning." Xiao Yunniang came out of the kitchen with her job bowl in hand and said.

"Oh, I'm so mad, it's been eight generations of bad luck to have such a child on the stall." Wu Pingshun stood up and washed his hands and face.

The busy farming season is the most difficult and tiring season for rural people. They get up early and stay late, don’t pay attention to clothes, eat without regular meals, make do with three meals, and rush to harvest and plant.Wu Pingshun walked to the dining table in the courtyard and sat down feebly, "I'm so full of gas, I don't have any appetite at all."

"Father, let's eat a little. There are still many things to do. Xiaojun's luggage is not ready yet. Tomorrow you have to send Xiaojun to Pingxi to go to school. As for the thousand land, it will take another two or three days. The car ride is very tiring and uncomfortable." Yes, I can’t stand it without something to eat. Besides, it’s Xiaojun’s first time traveling in a car, so what will he do if something happens to you in the car.” Xiaoyun said while eating, tears almost streaming down his face.

Under Xiao Yun's persuasion, Wu Pingshun reluctantly picked up the bowl, drank a bowl of noodle soup, ate a piece of steamed bun, and then hastily dismissed a breakfast.

After the meal, the four discussed together about preparing luggage for the army. "Tuition fees, accommodation fees, and books cost 300 yuan, plus transportation and living expenses. You need to bring at least 00 yuan. A few days ago, I just sold a calf for 800 yuan and wheat for 500 yuan. Yes, a total of 1600 yuan is still not enough. I will borrow some from you brother Xiaoliang at noon, and it will be enough. For other quilts and clothes, you can see what else you need. Just prepare some if you can get them at home." Wu Pingshun said .

"There is no need to prepare clothes. The padded jacket, outer cover, and shirt that my third brother wore before are all ready. After I get them back, I haven't worn them yet, so I don't need to prepare them."Xiaojun said.

"I brought a quilt with me when I came here. It has just been unsewn and is relatively new," Xiao Yun interjected.

"When the third child went to school, the quilt given by the school was still good, so just take it with you. Two quilts are enough." Xiaojun's mother said.

At this time, someone was talking outside the courtyard, and it could be heard that the third child, Xiaosen, had returned.Xiaosen entered the yard, stabilized his bicycle, took off the plastic bag in the basket, walked over and asked, "Xiaoyun is here, have you had breakfast?"

"Just finished eating. I was talking about Xiaojun going to school. Tomorrow is the last day to report. I'm preparing something." Seeing the third brother come back, Xiaoyun stood up and took the things in his hand.

"I'm on night shift today, and I'll be here right after the house inspection. Are the crops in the field finished? I think many families are plowing the land." Xiaosen asked.

"Not yet. I thought that Xiaojun and I would rush to take home all the corn today, but we took back a cart early in the morning, and Xiaofu and his wife got mixed up. I almost pissed people off." Wu said. Ping Shun said with a sigh.

"What's the matter again?" Xiao Sen asked eagerly seeing Wu Pingshun's ugly face and wrong words.Xiao Yun recounted the whole morning.

Xiaosen is 37 and eight years old, of medium build, with a daughter-like face, which can be described as fair and clean. Although he is middle-aged, he is handsome and scholarly.Although he is away all the year round, he is a typical career type, keeping his ears to the outside world and focusing on children's books.He is skilled in business and easy-going, and there is an endless stream of people looking for him to see a doctor. He is second to none in the pediatrics department of the county hospital, unmatched, and has an excellent reputation.But apart from concentrating on seeing a doctor, he really knows very little about other things, which are quite barren and lacking, such as social relations, favors coming and going, climbing up and down, and less participation.I have always been ignorant and unable to figure out any clues about the slightest things in the family. This is well known to relatives, friends and neighbors. And give and forgive the past.

After hearing this, Xiaosen was silent for a while, staring at his father who was full of vicissitudes of life, thin and yellow, disheveled, torn shoes and open toes, and covered in dirt, "It's not just once or twice, there's nothing to worry about, there's nothing wrong with that." It’s worth getting so angry, let’s get ready to serve in the army, there’s no time left. How much is the tuition fee? When I came back, I brought 500 yuan with me to pay for the army’s tuition.” From the coat He took it out of his pocket and handed it to Wu Pingshun.

"The money is almost ready, you should take it back. It is my business to serve in the army. I am still the same as you were in the past. I will not ask for anyone's money. Everything is covered by me, so as not to save money in the future." Leave some excuses." Wu Pingshun said weakly, bowing his head.

"What's the matter, shouldn't I take some? Besides, I already have this ability now. Although I have been working for almost ten years, you didn't ask me for a penny, and I didn't help you with the housework. A little bit. Do you want this money? My colleagues and relatives asked me how I should explain it. Besides, I didn’t tell Chunyan that the daughter-in-law’s affairs were not considered, and the right didn’t matter.” Xiaosen saw that his father didn’t want it. , very helpless, and also understood his father's difficulties, the two of them bowed their heads and were speechless for a while.

Today's scene makes Xiaosen seem to have returned to 11 years ago, and the taste and bitterness are not inferior to that of those years. Eleven years ago, in order to make up for his travel expenses, his father took his beloved big yellow ox overnight to a market town fifty miles away to sell it at a low price. He didn't even want to eat a biscuit. A pair of sneakers, and the rest will be used as travel expenses and living allowances for him.However, in order not to owe others favors, not to be short-mouthed, not to give up in front of others, and to be able to speak confidently in front of others in the future, all gifts from relatives and friends are not wanted.At this time, it is not the same as in the past, colleges and universities have begun to charge tuition fees, it is not the era of national all-inclusive, and the cost of living is also high. The previous food stamps are gone, and there is no scholarship. The cost must be much higher.However, the father doesn't want it, it is for the sake of serving the army, and he would rather peel off his own skin than let the child be wronged.

"Father, if you don't answer, the third brother is quite embarrassed. Just go ahead, don't say that sister-in-law doesn't know, even if she knows, what can she say? Besides, sister-in-law is also a person of honor. It is a big deal to serve the army and go to school. I'm afraid you'll be uneasy if you get even one point, and you won't care about it, so don't think about it so much." Xiao Yun interjected from the side.

"Well, since that's the case, I'll continue. I don't think about whether you will be unhappy because of the killing between you in the future, but I really don't want to embarrass Xiaojun in the future."

This matter has always been in the hearts of several people at that time. It has not been made public for several years, and it has always been a matter of Zhang Chunyan's guilt towards her uncle. Whenever someone mentions Xiaojun's helplessness in school, she feels very ashamed.

If you want to be angry, it is difficult to stop if you don't get angry. You have to do your work, but it is difficult to stop your wish.Under the comfort of his daughter and son, Wu Pingshun felt much better. After a simple meal, the few of them went to the field to harvest the crops together.

At noon in early autumn, the sun is shining brightly, sweeping away the mist and rain in the morning, it is cold and cool, revealing warmth.

There are many people and strength, two acres of corn, by [-] o'clock in the afternoon, all have been broken, and everyone is sweating, flowing down the cheeks, and need to be wiped with the sleeves from time to time, accompanied by the dead leaves of the crops. The dust is scattered, forming lumps of mud, covering the hair, face, body and shoes, with spots and dots, and it feels like a beggar in ragged clothes and itchy skin.When the last piece of corn was loaded onto the cart, everyone breathed a sigh of relief. It was finally harvested. Even if it rained, they would not be afraid of rotting in the ground, making a season's hard work for naught. This is the biggest wish of every farmer.At three o'clock, the four pushed back and forth, went home, washed their faces, and ate some food.Wu Pingshun and Xiaojun went to the ground to chop corn stalks.Xiaosen, Xiaoyun, and Xiaojun's mother peeled corn husks at home.

At four o'clock, the second daughter, Xiaomei, came and brought a set of mattress noodles, "Mother, eldest sister, the child is small and often disturbs people, and I haven't had time to sew it. How about it, you still have useless ones that you have played." Cotton, sew it for a while and let Xiaojun take it away, so as not to be cold in winter."

"Okay, Xiaoyun, go and tidy up. The needles and threads are in the drawer of the main room, and the cotton is in the urea bag in the inner room. You two will sew the quilt for Xiaojun." Xiaojun's mother said.

After a while, Xiaoyun got ready for her needle and thread, but because the yard was full of corn, she had to spread plastic cloth outside the door to sew a quilt.A group of children were attracted to watch, the aunts and aunts who had nothing to do with the neighbors, and some young daughter-in-laws with children in their arms also came to join in the fun.

"Xiaoyun, Xiaomei, you are making a quilt for your younger brother Xiaojun. Look at how nice your family is. It is really enviable to have two college students. These are all the blessings of your parents in their previous lives." Neighbor Qiao Er grandma said.

"Second grandma, what blessings are there? The greatest blessing is that parents don't endure hardships and hardships. Speaking of my eldest mother, she is also full of children and grandchildren, but what's the use? Isn't it better to wake up at midnight all day and climb in the middle of the night, and suffer from the cold?" Starving, doing housework, working in the fields, and going to school for the army, the others are all young and vigorous, and no one gives them a hand, pushes them, and adds fuel to the fire from time to time. Raised a bunch of beasts." Xiaomei always speaks straightforwardly, to the point, with thorns in her words, and unforgiving, when she saw her second brother Xiao come over when the needle was raised, she immediately lowered her head, pretending not to see, Casually back to the two words.

"Xiaomei, you can't say that it's equivalent to graduating from school in the army. You don't have to be a farmer anymore, and you don't have to shuttle around the fields all day like a monkey. You don't earn money after suffering. You can find a good job like your third brother. Live the life of the people in the city, you don't have to worry about anything, you just wait to enjoy the happiness." Aunt Ma said happily.

"Third Aunt, those things are all for the future, but Xiaojun is not at home, so I can't help my eldest mother to work and earn money, and I have to pay tuition fees, food and clothing, and the expenses are not small. My eldest mother is old You can neither go out to work, nor start a small business. You can only rely on the ten acres of land to grow grain and sell it for money. You also know how difficult it is for us to farm now. How can we grow it without people and strength? Think about it I want to cry, how will I live my life in the future." Xiao Yun said, the circles of his eyes were red.

"Xiaoyun, Xiaomei, are you sewing the quilt? Is Xiaojun at home?" Xiaoqi walked over and asked.

"I just came back, and I got some blisters on my hand from chopping corn stalks, and they broke. I was peeling corn husks in the yard." Xiao Yun said with his head down.

Xiao Qi didn't say a word after hearing this, and went directly to the courtyard.

"Xiaojun, I heard that you are going to Pingxi to go to university tomorrow. I have never been to school, I can't read, and my family's conditions are not as good as your third brother's. I can't give you anything. I will give you ten yuan as travel expenses." said together.

"Well, since you are illiterate, don't say it's illiterate. Your family's condition is not good, and it's not easy to pay for the two. You should take the ten yuan back to buy oil, salt, sauce and vinegar. We always gave it to me Said, no one will ask for anyone's money." Xiao Jun heard that his words were awkward, and his words were stinging, and he neither took his money, but replied him in a nonchalant way.

Xiao Sen bowed his head and said nothing, he knew that the second child's words were aimed at him.Over the years, the second child has often said such things. No matter what, he opened his mouth and said, "I don't let me go to school. If I went to school, I would have been admitted to university long ago, and I wouldn't have to worry about farming all day long. My child I have to find ways to get him to go to school, even if he doesn't go to school, I will try to get him to go to school."In fact, this is not the case. The eldest and the second child were born in the 50s. Compared with other families, since Wu Pingshun is doing a lot of construction in Pingxi, he can earn some savings to support the family. Naturally, the two children can also be sent to school. read.However, the eldest son Xiaofu often got into fights with others at school. Everyone from the school teacher, the principal to the village cadres suffered from headaches and was later expelled directly.The second son went to the third grade from elementary school, and every time he took the exam, he was the last one in the class. Later, he developed a fear of going to school. Whenever he mentioned going to school, he would cry and cry. Wu Pingshun had no choice but to give up.After Xiaosen graduated from university, he was directly assigned to Yuanzhen County Hospital. He lived on his wages and lived the life of a city dweller. He was respected and admired by many people. Xiaoqi was no exception. and annoying nonsense.Many things may be said unintentionally, but the listener intends. If you say it once or twice, others may not care, but if you say too much, you have to attract others' attention.What's more, every time something unpleasant happened in the family, especially when there was a dispute with my father, such words would blurt out, which had to be annoying.

"Xiaojun, if the second brother gives you the money, you can continue it. This is a little kindness from the second brother. You see, the second brother is also quite embarrassed." Xiaomei came over and said holding the quilt she had sewn.

"Tell him to leave quickly. I won't want it, and I won't afford it. Don't delay my work." Xiaojun said angrily.

"Xiaojun is a college student. He is relatively strong and has a backbone. I am illiterate. No one can think highly of me, and I can't climb high. Besides, after going to school and earning money, he spends it himself, and no one else can take it. Points. We are very rich, I am poor, no matter how much I earn, it will all be given to him, who will give it to me." I followed the east and west.

"Second brother, let's go, don't talk anymore, it would be bad if you want to talk again."The more Xiaomei heard it, the more she felt that something was wrong. If she went on, she was afraid that Xiaojun would not be able to bear it and would go to war again, so she urgently dissuaded her.

"Xiaomei, take a look at tidying up the things that Xiaojun is going to bring, put them in a bag, and I will take them when I go back later."Xiaosen saw that the momentum was wrong, so it was inconvenient to say more, so he stood up and said to Xiaomei.

"Xiaoqi, how can you talk like this? Are you here to give Xiaojun some money, or are you here to make fun of others? What do you want to do? Xiaojun can get admitted to university, no matter what you say, it is a good thing, Xiaojun going to school is better than going to prison, right? If you talk like this, everyone will think it is not pleasant, and no one will ask you for money. Xiaojun has not left yet. Look at how many things are going on today. In the morning you The eldest brother and his family are looking for trouble for him, Xiaojun and you have not recovered, and you are making irresponsible remarks, how will you get along with each other in the future." Xiaojun's mother couldn't help it, and said from the side.

As soon as I heard my mother talk, I became excited. "What's so great about going to college? There are more people going to college than rabbits. It has nothing to do with me. No matter how much money he earns in the future, no one else can spend it. I was born to be a miserable and poor person, and I was delayed and entrapped for a lifetime by others. If I hadn’t been harmed by others, I’m afraid I’d be the secretary of the county party committee now. I think I’m honest, and everyone, big and small, look down on me and bully me Me. Whoever earns the money spends it comfortably and at ease, and takes others' hands short."

"Xiaoqi, the more you talk, the more outrageous you become. Whoever bullied you, wants to bully you, and I have never wanted you since I was a child. I have dragged you so much, is it easy for me and you? You still have a little conscience and don't talk about it." Xiao Xiao Jun Niang spoke vigorously, tears streaming down her face.

"Roll, roll, roll, roll", Xiaojun couldn't hold back his anger, so he picked up a broom and rushed towards Xiaoqi.

"Second brother, let's go quickly, look at our sissy. Xiaojun, what are you doing, put down the broom." Xiaoyun just finished packing the things outside, walked to the door of the aisle, watched Xiaojun use the broom to pounce, hurry up He rushed over, grabbed Xiaojun's hand, and scolded Xiaoqi.

Seeing that the situation was not good, he had no choice but to take advantage of the situation, ran out of the door cursing, and left.

"Mother, Xiaojun, forget it. He's the kind of person who cares about it. It's meaningless. Don't let us find out. Besides, Xiaojun is leaving tomorrow. After this time, he will leave later." It's hard to say what it is like, and there are very few opportunities to meet. Maybe leaving tomorrow is the beginning of your no-return period when you leave this village. The road is longer and the time is longer. There are very few opportunities to deal with them and even us. Less. Be open about everything and don't take it too seriously." Xiao Yun persuaded patiently.

An unexpected turmoil temporarily calmed down. At this time, Xiaomei also packed up the things that Xiaojun was going to bring, packed a large ammonium bicarbonate fertilizer bag, put it on the back seat of Xiaosen's bicycle, and tied it with a rope. Be strong.

Unknowingly, as the sun sets, the people working in the fields return to the village one after another, and Xiaosen, Xiaoyun, and Xiaomei also return home.