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Chapter 37Apologies

Since the conflict between the two, for several days, Ling Yuhao spent all day on the school basketball court except for class, rarely talking to others, that kind of concentration on basketball made people feel like an idiot.He shoots for a while, dribbles for a while, and runs around the basketball court for a while...

Sometimes, I would see Tan Ping accompanying him, but he was often silent, as if he was thinking about something silently...

The last time she vented her passion was the first time in Tian Miaomiao's life. Afterwards, when she recalled the scene at that time, she felt sorry for Ling Yuhao from the bottom of her heart.

In fact, after Tian Miaomiao learned about Ling Yuhao's love for her from Tan Ping, she began to have strange mood swings in her heart. This was the first time she was aroused by a boy other than Hao Mingming in her heart. Ripples.

For some reason, she began to avoid and scrutinize Hao Mingming a little bit. She no longer fought with this brother who had been inseparable since childhood, like a child who grew up overnight and became sensible, and began to pay attention to the surroundings. The world is gone.

Tian Miaomiao's attention shifted involuntarily. From time to time, her eyes turned to the silent and lonely figure on the basketball court... Her heart was silently concerned about this figure who just broke into her heart. ...

This quiet change of Tian Miaomiao was observed by Yang Shiqing, and also felt by Hao Mingming, who has been guarding her infatuatedly...

Hao Mingming felt the unknowing changes in Tian Miaomiao's heart... His heart began to become melancholy and anxious, and his mood also became impetuous. Sometimes, he would even lose his temper inexplicably over little things.

This is not Hao Mingming's style in the past. He is a person who doesn't value anything except his sister Tian Miaomiao. No matter what happens, he will laugh it off and never take it to heart.

Hao Mingming's parents asked Tian Miaomiao secretly more than once: "What's wrong with Brother Mingming, is there something you are hiding from us outside?"

Tian Miaomiao said: "No, nothing happened outside Mingming! Maybe it's because the boy has grown up and has something on his mind that he can't tell others!"

When she said this, Tian Miaomiao seemed to be a little worried about whether Brother Mingming had noticed her thoughts...

One day, Tian Miaomiao suddenly realized that someone had quietly stuffed an unnamed letter into her schoolbag.She opened it secretly and knew that Yang Shiqing must have done it.

The letter was written by Ling Yuhao to himself.

Classmate Tian Miaomiao, hello!

I'm sorry for what happened last time.I really didn't expect you to be so excited and disgusted.The first time I grew up, I was overwhelmed by a girl, incoherent, unable to say anything clearly.

I was very puzzled at the time, I just wanted to say a few words to you, why did you get excited before I could say it, and didn't allow me to continue.It was also the first time I saw a beautiful girl crying in front of me, as if I had received a lot of grievances.But, I didn't do anything excessive to you!After you and Yang Shiqing left, Tan Ping told me that he just told you that I was depressed these days because of you, and that I couldn't even play the ball well. Only then did I understand that it was because of this that you were able to will do that to me.

In the past few days, I have repeatedly reviewed my behavior towards you, and I feel that I should not treat you like this.For this, I now sincerely apologize to you, please forgive my rudeness and humbleness.At the same time, I also want to solemnly declare that I am absolutely serious and pure. I am definitely not just playing around, looking for excitement, picking up girls to relieve the double pressure of psychology and study like some other students.

I know that you have lost your parents since you were a child, and I know that your current efforts are to change your painful fate.In my eyes, you are not an ordinary girl, you are not only beautiful in appearance, but also kind-hearted, and your academic performance is better.You are not like some girls who conquer men with your beauty, but change your destiny with your own efforts. This is why you attract me.

In fact, my life experience is not much better than yours, and even some honest gentlemen will put me in another book and despise me secretly.

My current parents are not my biological parents, they are just my adoptive parents.They were so nice to me, so good I could say, that I couldn't find fault with them, and whatever I asked for, they accommodated me.But in their eyes, I always read some pitiful elements.Maybe it's the impression left in my heart since I was a child. I always remind myself that you should be content.However, the shadow in my heart is always lingering.When adoptive parents talk and laugh freely with their biological daughters, the natural blood relationship makes me feel sincere envy and longing.But all of this, in this life, I can only be a longing that I will never get.

Or talk about my biological parents.

They were a very good couple, and they lived in peace in the village.When I was born, it brought them infinite joy.This joy should have never faded, and lasted forever.However, when I just remembered something, my father accidentally bought a lottery ticket for two yuan, and won a big prize, worth nearly 10 yuan. This was a great joy in our rural areas.A farmer who lived off the land became a rich man in a blink of an eye. The money in his hand made my father lose his normal mentality.As a result, he stopped planting the land, changed his clothes, and became more particular about what he ate and drank. He felt ashamed if he didn't go to restaurants to show off his taste for a day.As the saying goes: "If you are poor, no one will ask you, but if you are rich, you will have distant relatives." People who call my father as brothers and relatives line up behind him every day, and everyone wants to get something from my father.Money kept flowing out of my father's hands like water.

My mother couldn't get used to it, and felt that my father was too extravagant and wasteful, and he was too generous to those relatives, friends and those who were related to him. If this continues, the money can be spent for a few days!However, my father insisted on face, style, and that fantastic vanity.The most exasperating thing is that the father who wanted to enjoy himself got together with a flirtatious woman, and the mother was so angry that she was ill.The hateful father actually conspired with that woman to kill my mother in order to stay with that woman forever.I saw this scene from the window, and when the police officer asked me, I told the truth about what I saw, and my father was sentenced to death for it.From then on, people in the village said that I was as vicious as the wolf who killed my father.He has been like this since he was a child, and he must be an unfilial son when he grows up.My grandparents hated me too, so they gave me to my current adoptive parents.

I still don’t understand, did I kill my father, or did my father kill me, or did the 10 yuan lottery ticket kill my father?But who made me bear a bad reputation and ruined my life... My biological parents are not from here, so no one here knows about the matter between me and my biological parents, but it is pressed in my heart. Moments left me breathless.I'm really afraid that one day, someone here will know my life experience, so what will happen to my fate?Now, I am telling you the story that I have suppressed for many years, just to let you know that I know who I am, so that you can see clearly who I am.

Really, what Tan Ping said is right, I definitely don’t want to pick up girls on a whim to relieve our mental and study pressures, nor do I find a girl I like in school like some classmates do, and then get married Having a child, living an ordinary life, not like some classmates, for some boring sexual experience...

To be honest, I think that although your life experience and mine are different, the endings seem to be very similar. Both parents have passed away, leaving us alone to suffer some pain and helplessness in this world.Our hearts should be the same as those of other students, but because of God's injustice, we walk alone on the long road of life.Maybe, some people will say that we are too dissatisfied, but let them experience it for themselves, I don’t know how they will feel, maybe, some people are not as good as you and me... But what is the use of saying these things? ?Everything in the past can't be repeated...

Classmate Tian Miaomiao, I have told you so much to let you understand that that day, I really just wanted to be a friend with you, a very pure and sincere friend... But, because of my recklessness, you misunderstood me, Here, I apologize to you again, please forgive me!

Thank you!

Your classmate: Ling Yuhao

After reading this letter, Tian Miaomiao's eyes were already filled with tears. She now understood how mercilessly she hurt his lonely and heavy heart that day...

Tian Miaomiao knew that she would not be able to attend the next class, and was afraid that she would lose control of her excitement and make a fool of herself in front of the whole class, so she greeted the class monitor, hurried back to the dormitory, lay down on the bed, covered with a quilt, I cried a lot, letting the tears in my heart flow freely...

She finally understood why she always had an inexplicable feeling in her heart, wasn't it just like what Ling Yuhao said, she was enduring an indescribable loneliness and pain in her heart?This is a feeling that people who have never experienced this kind of life can't have, and because of her and Ling Yuhao's unique painful experiences, the unspeakable loneliness is permanently hidden in the seemingly peaceful heart...

When Tian Miaomiao got up from the bed, made the bed, washed her face and combed her hair, she had already made a decision in her heart...