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Chapter 6 Love and Hate

Leng Fei's hometown is in a village in the countryside of Nantong.The village is small and poor.

Ever since Leng Fei could remember, he knew that his mother was a mental patient, crazy, good and bad.Regardless of spring, summer, autumn and winter, as soon as my mother fell ill, she would walk around, talk wildly, and deny her relatives.

When she was healthy, she hugged him, kissed him, wept silently, and murmured to herself; when she was ill, she beat him mercilessly and scolded him, saying that he was a disaster and brought her pain and disaster.

At the worst, he was almost strangled to death by his mother.But when he watched his mother's ignorant and shameless crazy behavior, he silently forgave his mother.

His father always had a bitter look on his face, Leng Fei had never seen his father smile.His bony body seemed to be full of sorrow and resentment.He often faces the starry night sky on sleepless nights, silently smoking inferior tobacco leaves, leaning there silently thinking about something...

Leng Fei wanted to ask his father what he was thinking, but he didn't dare, because his father once reprimanded him angrily for such a question.This made the young and inexperienced Leng Fei feel very wronged, and also buried his incomprehension and resentment towards this indifferent father.

Little Leng Fei couldn't figure out why other people's children could have a harmonious family, but all he had was a muddled mother who went crazy everywhere, and a mother who always bored him with a dark face. An emotionless father?

Leng Fei often feels that this world does not belong to him, and happiness seems so far away from him, far out of reach.

The father doesn't seem to care much about the mother, and sometimes he speaks rudely to the mother and fights violently.This made Leng Fei very disgusted with this indifferent father, thinking that he ### killed his mother and drove her crazy... In his very young heart, he bought resentment towards his father...

But he also woke up in the middle of the night and found his father sobbing secretly under the quilt.He secretly thought, you are a big man, you treat my mother like that, and you have the face to cry, what a despicable man...

Although his mother is a lunatic that everyone hates, Leng Fei loves his mother. The mother gave him life, and when she is awake, she can also give him short-term warmth and love.

Although when his mother's illness broke out, she would beat him and scold him mercilessly, and even said that he was not her son, but a disaster star, but he did not despise her, and would always silently walk around this place without shame. After the death of his mother, he tried his best to protect her...

When he grew up, he learned from his grandmother why his mother was crazy and why his father was indifferent to him, which made him feel the helplessness of life and the cruelty of real life.He felt angry and unfair for his mother's fate, and also felt the hardship and heaviness of life for his father's helplessness and endurance.

According to my grandmother, my father always suspected that he might not be his own son, but that his mother conceived him after being insulted one night.Because of this, the mother became mad and the father wanted to divorce all the time, but because the mother was a patient, the law stipulated that such couples were not allowed to divorce. Therefore, he was brooding and kept silent. Seeing Leng Fei was like seeing an enemy .

In high school, Xiaoling and him were in the same class and at the same table. His outstanding talent and outstanding literary talent made her fall in love with this premature young man from the bottom of her heart.

Xiaoling also learned about some things that happened in Leng Fei's house from other people's mouths, which made Xiaoling, who is very sympathetic, care more about Leng Fei and get closer to him.

Leng Fei, who seldom received maternal warmth since he was a child, also felt Xiaoling's actions, and he also liked staying with Xiaoling very much, laughing and playing with her.

In Leng Fei's emotional life, for the first time, there was a sincere and cordial laughter of a wonderful young girl.The emotions of the two are sublimated in the pure friendship and released in the innocent joy.

In an unrequited joy, they impulsively tasted the first caress in life, which brought unforgettable hardships to their later lives.

Because Xiaoling was too addicted to the relationship between men and women, her academic performance dropped very sharply.The teacher told her parents about her situation.

Xiaoling's parents were very angry. When they came to the school, they not only beat Leng Fei severely, but also changed Xiaoling to another class, and warned Leng Fei: "You bastard, if you dare to approach my house again Xiaoling, if I delay her study, I will break your leg."

It was at that time that Leng Fei felt the greatest humiliation in the world. He decided to leave Xiaoling and not disturb the peaceful life of Xiaoling's family anymore.

This made Xiaoling unacceptable, she shed tears and said to Leng Fei: "It's too unfair for you to do this, how can you leave me?"

"Then what do you want me to do? Xiaoling, you have also seen the attitude of your parents. They simply cannot accept me. My family, my background, will cast a permanent shadow on you and your family, you I will live in the strange eyes of others all my life. This is even more unfair to you. It is also unfair to your parents. I understand them. They ask me this way, and I don’t resent them. Xiaoling, forget about me!"

"Fair? Is it fair for you to leave me like this? My heart is yours, and my body is yours. Now you think it's unfair? What do you want me to do in the future?"

"Xiao Ling, I know I'm sorry for you. I'm the bastard who made you wronged. But now that we are separated, it is much better than letting you live in the shadow of me as a bastard forever. After a long time, you will slowly Forget about me. Letting you carry such a heavy burden of life with me, my heart really can't bear it. Your parents are right, I have been a disaster star since I was a child, and anyone who meets me will be unlucky Xiaoling, let's separate, it's good for you and me. I will repay you for your kindness to me in the next life."

"No, Leng Fei, don't be like this, don't leave me, okay? I am willing to follow you, suffer and suffer, and never blame you. It doesn't matter what my parents' attitude is, they can't decide our life. You and I'm together, I love you, that's the most important thing. I don't dislike your family, I don't dislike your background. You are innocent. I love you!"

Xiaoling's crying, almost pleading eyes and words made Leng Fei's heart almost shake.But the voices of Xiaoling's parents rang in my ears again, and the eyes of the students shook mockingly in front of my eyes again...

"No. Xiaoling, I have harmed you now, but I must never harm your future life, and let you live under humiliating eyes all your life!"

After finishing speaking, Leng Fei was afraid that he would really weaken under Xiaoling's heart-piercing gaze, so he resolutely left without looking back.

Looking at Leng Fei's leaving back, Xiaoling was in despair, she cried bitterly at Leng Fei: "Leng Fei, you are not a man. I hate you! I don't want to see you again!"

All of this is seen by Xiaoling's best friend Xiaoqin who is hiding aside.She was moved to tears by the scene of the breakup of the first love couple.

It wasn't until he graduated from high school that Leng Fei failed the college entrance examination. After thinking twice, he insisted on doing a paternity test with his father, only to find out that he was indeed his father's son, not the one who insulted his mother.

With trembling hands, the father held the thin and small appraisal form, knelt on the ground and yelled frantically, tears streaming down his face immediately.

The mother knew the truth during her brief sobriety, and after receiving the most sincere and guilty hug from her husband, she died of joy.

The father locked himself and his mother's body in the same room for a whole day and night, as if it had been a lifetime.

When my father opened the door of the house that had been tightly closed all day and night, and walked out of the house, he was wearing the clothes he wore when he was married to his mother that had been pressed at the bottom of the suitcase.

And the mother was also changed into the bridal dress worn by the father when she was married.

The mother's funeral becomes the celebration of the father's wedding.

On this day, Leng Fei finally saw his father's happy smile.

On this day, Leng Fei also saw his father's most sincere crying and confession as a man.

On this day, Leng Fei saw the remorse of a husband frantically slapping himself in front of his wife's body.

On this day, Leng Fei realized the heaviness and hardship of life.

After burying his mother, Leng Fei resolutely bid farewell to his father and hometown, and came to Suzhou.

Suzhou, which is developing rapidly, has given him everything he has now, and pushed Tan Yueyue in front of him.But the reality made him flinch in front of this beautiful and passionate girl, not daring to cross the threshold.

He was really afraid that Tan Yueyue would become another Xiaoling...