After I touched the computer of the beautiful boss

Chapter 110: Suddenly feel sorry for her

She smiled and said: "But you are so stupid, one day you will mature, you will experience this society, you will know, don't be so stupid, you should be smarter, this society is not what you imagined, okay!" After she said that, she wanted to leave, standing by the sea in Xiliang, standing there, I looked at her, why am I so unwilling?Fuck, how could I fall in love with this bad woman, why am I so unwilling?I was really ruined by her, really ruined!

She was about to leave, and I said something behind her: "You are still so coquettish, huh!"

She turned her head and narrowed her eyes and said, "You're still such a little villain!"

I said, "I want to kill someone right now, ###shit!"

"Why do you swear so much?" she asked me.

I said, "You're a liar, you ruined me, and you ask me why I swear like that, I'll tell you, I'll tell you why, I'm not only going to swear at you, I'm going to ###, believe me Do not believe?"

"Little lunatic!" She looked at me, looked at me, and finally said, "Why bother to torture each other, why bother! Just live your life and take care!"

She's gone, she's really going to go, I know that after she's gone like this, I don't know when I'll see her again, but she's really going to go like this, I'm full of anger, she left me I suffered endless pain. Only I can understand this pain. Other than that, no one can understand that I was really ruined by her. Only those who have experienced that kind of pain, that kind of man’s pain Only men can understand.

I think from now on, I can't live a good life, I think I will sink, she doesn't love me, the most painful thing for me is, I fell in love with a woman, but she doesn't love me, I can't figure it out , How could she not love me, why didn't she love me, why didn't she love me.

Many years later, I think about my original state of mind, I think how naive I was, how fucking this kind of thing is, why should she love me, a man, you can only understand when you look back after going through a lot of things, in this world No one in the world can believe it, you can only believe in yourself, especially after many years, when I am in my 30s, I have experienced so much in the colorful world, and I understand this point, this world is not without love, love There are, but sometimes, you don't want to fight with love, everything is not as good as you think, there are good women in this world, and there are bad women, if you fall in love with a bad woman, your The pain comes, and that kind of pain is something you can’t get rid of, and you can’t get rid of it no matter what. It’s better to be a smart man, that’s much better.

They were leaving, I saw them leaving, but I didn't say anything, it was already dark, the lights on the fishing boats were flickering, such a night, such a Xiliang, such a beautiful scenery, if you can Let go of those things, how happy you will feel, how painful you will feel if you can't let go forever, but how many people in this world can really let go?So you have to torture yourself, torture others, play life, play yourself over and over again.

At that time, I didn't know where my life would be and what kind of life would be my happiness. It was already late at night, and I was the only one sitting on the chair on the boat smoking quietly.

I don't know when she was standing next to me.

I suddenly turned around and saw her standing on the boat, but she didn’t leave, she was standing there with her arms crossed, I was the only one on the boat, my father and mother didn’t live on this boat, and now apart from me Besides, she is also on this boat.I looked at her, she didn't speak and looked at the sea, the sea in the night can only see the ripples, the moonlight shines on the sea, everything is so quiet, and she stands there, her hair is blown by the wind, this is her want life?She once said that she hoped to come here to live such a happy life, but she is already married. Can she still want this kind of happiness?I looked at her body, she was still so sexy, so charming, it is a tragedy for a man to fall in love with such a woman, who made me love her?I don't think it's her fault, but looking at her body at this moment, I suddenly want it very much.

She turned her head to look at me, I also looked at her, she turned her head away, and I stood up, and then walked behind her, why can't I quit her, why at this time, I still want to be with her ###, but I think it’s best not to let me see her, I only have a body for her now, I don’t think there will be any more love, she took away my happiness, she let an innocent boy start It doesn't matter, from now on, I will never believe in love again.

My personality probably changed at that time. In fact, when I was with her cousin before, I was drunk. It was something that a boy couldn’t control. The later experiences were not what I wanted, and I also thought about it. Maybe everything Bai Ling did was not her intention, but deep down she is a pure woman, just like when I went to see myself, but you know I can't forgive her, I can forgive me myself, but I can't forgive her, what a tangled thing it is.

After that, I put her on the bed, and I closed my eyes. All this didn't seem to make me feel any better, not at all, what kind of pain should I have in my heart, but why should I think?Why is life like this?I really don't need to torture her like this, no!I closed my eyes, I was smoking a cigarette, suddenly I felt sorry for her, she was there alone, I think she should need a hug, a caress, just like before, I know she is looking forward to this, just like before This, she is like a child in my arms, being so loved and happy by me, scratching me in my arms, kissing me, kissing me gently with her small mouth, how happy she was at that time , how happy, and at this moment?She can't get what she wants, I don't even think about whether she wants it, she always likes to get that kind of pleasure in it, but I ignore her.

I slightly opened my eyes to look at her, and I saw her lying there looking at me, I closed my eyes and said, "Come up!" She said, "No, I don't want it!" I said abruptly: "Come up as soon as I tell you to come up, what are you doing? Come up quickly, do you hear me!" She nodded, then climbed onto my body, looked down at me, and then gently put it in there , and I looked at her and smiled, she didn't have any expression, she moved there cautiously, and then kissed my forehead, I felt that I was indeed cruel enough, but her pity couldn't make me love her, In my heart, I love her, but the pain is full of anger. I hate her as much as I love her. That kind of hatred cannot be resolved, but at this moment she is as happy as before on top of me. I can't help but forget the other things, I want to give her happiness, give her a different kind of happiness, this is Xiliang, this is the place of her fantasy, I shouldn't have so much hatred, I hug her , love her as before, kiss her forehead, she was held in my arms, at that moment, I became very gentle, I can feel how gentle I am, how much I love her, treat her as a The child, loving and cherishing my heart, I even completely forgot about those things, I didn’t think about anything, just being with her, holding her, kissing her, caressing her, loving her, just In this way, she also felt it, and she cried suddenly, leaning on my arms and crying, she cried, and I said: "Don't cry, you hear me, it's nothing, you know, I hate it, my heart also It hurts, but I can't stop loving you, I don't know what to do, I'm sorry, I can't let go, so don't take it to your heart, don't be sad, I'm just like this, I'm sorry!"

She kept saying: "I don't blame you, I don't blame you for anything, I don't blame you at all, I've been thinking about you, I can't think, I think crazy, I thought I could forget you, But I found that I can't forget you at all, and you are not bad, you just met a woman you shouldn't love, this woman makes you crazy, you are just like this, and nothing else, you know? You Don't blame yourself, don't be sad, okay?" She still came to comfort me at this time, I know she really loves me, no matter what, she is in love with a beloved man, but why can't I forgive her, what is my principle To be so strong, why do I have so many principles, can't I not have those principles?I don't want those principles, but I really don't seem to be able to, I can't control myself at all.

Bai Ling said: "Okay, I want you to stimulate me, I want you to take revenge on this bad woman, I can't forget you, I need you to torture me, I really need you, I'm going to die on you, Xiao Lin, please forgive me Please, don't hate me, I can do whatever you want me to do, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for you, I know everything, I beg you to forgive me, it's all my fault, I didn't know at the time You did that for me, I don’t hate you at all, I don’t hate you, baby, baby!” She cried again, I knew what she knew, she knew that I was with Yang Hongling to save her, she She knew this, so she came to me, but she also felt ashamed to see me, she no longer had the face to see me, she was so self-willed at the time, she thought I didn't love her anymore, didn't she think of this?She suspected it too, but why did she still do that?Maybe it's not clear in the end.

I said, "What do you know?"

"You, in order to save me and that woman, I know everything, I know, Xiao Lin, I am sorry for you, I will die for you, I don't want to live anymore!" I said, "Don't be so stupid, your father You have a high status in your heart, you have been doing this for your father all these years, don't you think about your father when you do this?"