After I touched the computer of the beautiful boss

Chapter 142: Like a Man

I nodded, and then I sat in the living room with my grandpa, we smoked a lot of cigarettes there, we analyzed there for a long time, and finally grandpa said: "Little Lin, you have to be a man no matter what, remember this, As long as things don't reach the last step, don't ever think that way, by the way, there is a place, have you gone?"

I said: "Where?"

"That's her mother!" Grandpa said.

Oh my god, we all forgot about that, which shows how long she has been away from home and how long she hasn't contacted here, and I've been looking around in the afternoon, but I just haven't thought about it, I said: "I Go there quickly, it should be there!" As I said, I went there excitedly, I was happy along the way, maybe Xiaoxuan went to her mother to talk about her marriage, it must be, we are sure She was overly nervous. She got there and chatted with her mother. After all, she went to see her mother that day. Her mother was in a bad mood. Maybe she was comforting her mother. This chatting time has been going on for a long time, so it is like this .

I drove very fast, wishing I could get there right away. There was no one living in the place where her mother lived, and there were no street lights. It was dark everywhere, and the villa was also black. I knew it was not good without turning on the light. If Xiaoxuan was there, the light must be on. Did she just leave?After she left, her mother fell asleep, so it was dark?

I hurriedly got out of the car and went there to ring the doorbell. After a while, there was a voice from inside. The voice seemed to be asleep. I said, "Auntie, it's me, Xiaolin, has Xiaoxuan been to your place?"

She heard my voice say, "Do you know where Xiaoxuan went? Why are you asking me? I don't care about everything she says—"

I said: "Auntie, listen to me, it's like this, Xiaoxuan is missing, her phone has been turned off, she went out during the day, and she hasn't come back until now, we are all looking for her, Auntie, if she came to you , please tell me, please!"

She paused and said, "Xiaoxuan is missing? How did she disappear?"

I said, "Yes, Auntie, has Xiaoxuan been here?"

The aunt said: "Wait a minute, I'll go out!"

I said, "Okay, Auntie!"

The light was turned on, she came out after a while, and the door opened, I went to the yard, she came down and said: "What's going on?"

I told her what happened again, and she said after hearing it: "Why did this happen? What should I do? This is true, why are you doing this? If something happens to Xiaoxuan, I can, I will , I——" She burst into tears. Seeing her like this, I hurriedly said: "Auntie, don't cry, you are obedient, don't cry, Xiaoxuan will be fine, she will be fine, maybe she went with her classmates Playing, forgetting the time, or other reasons, we were just worried, and didn't say she was missing!"

After hearing this, she said: "Didn't you say that you are missing? Ah, why did you say no, oh, Amitabha, the Buddha blesses Xiaoxuan to be safe, nothing will happen to her, please don't let anything happen, don't let anything happen to her." matter!"

I said: "Well, Auntie, don't worry, you can go back to rest early, Xiaoxuan has never been here, I will go to other places to see!"

She said: "Then if you have any news, tell me quickly, I will give you my phone number!" She gave me her phone number, and I was afraid that she would be worried about Xiaoxuan, so I said: "Well, okay, auntie, I'll go Look at her classmates, if there is any news, I will call you immediately, don't worry!"

She said, "Well, yes!"

When I left her and sat in the car, I always felt that Xiaoxuan’s mother was so strange, she had a little mental problem, she shouldn’t be in the house all day like this, something would happen after such a long time, I suddenly felt a little If she regretted telling her about Xiaoxuan's disappearance, she would definitely be extremely worried.

There was no news here, so I left in great disappointment. When I got home, I told my grandpa, who said, "Xiao Lin, don't worry, just wait a little longer!"

Yes, we continued to wait, but Xiaoxuan did not come back until the next day. That night, we hardly slept, and we couldn’t fall asleep. Grandpa smoked all night. The next day, he let almost all the navy The people who came to help us find Xiaoxuan really wanted to turn Bincheng upside down, but there was still no news.

In the end, I even doubted Bai Ling. I knew that it was unreasonable to doubt her, it was completely unreasonable, but I still called her. When she heard about this, she hurriedly said: " Xiao Lin, don't be nervous, I swear on my life, it can't be me, I didn't care about that incident back then, I—"

I hurriedly said: "No, don't get me wrong, I just want to tell you, if you have any clues, you can tell me, I don't mean anything else!"

Bai Ling said: "Well, don't be nervous, don't worry, don't think too much about anything, Xiaoxuan is such a nice person, nothing will happen to you, those people you suspect won't do it, you believe me, I will Knowing them, it is really impossible for them to know, no matter how courageous they are, it is impossible!"

I said, "Well, we've all thought about it, sorry, I'm probably too confused, I—"

Bai Ling said distressedly: "Don't be like this, Xiao Lin, be obedient, you have to believe that Xiao Xuan will be fine, and you can definitely find her. May I help you too?"

I hurriedly said: "No, it's okay, I won't bother you!"

She said, "I'll keep an eye out for you, and if I have news, I'll let you know right away!"

I said, "Well, okay!"

When I thought about this matter later, I wondered if Bai Ling felt uncomfortable in her heart, but most of the time, we might only think about ourselves. People who were in love once, after parting ways one day, you will not If you talk about love again, you will hurt each other instead. You say that others are selfish, you say that others don't consider your feelings, but in fact, why don't people who love each other hurt each other?Sometimes those who hurt each other can't find themselves.

Three days later, when there was no news from Xiaoxuan, my grandpa and I could barely hold on, and our mental state was extremely low. When I was alone, I would unconsciously want to shed tears, but I remembered what grandpa said to me , no matter what, you can’t cry, you can’t cry if you are a man, so I resisted it, but I really miss her, my little baby, we have been together for so long, she is still pregnant, and there is still a baby in her belly. With my children, when I think of this, tears still fall uncontrollably, and I can only hold back by myself.

I don't think I will ever be able to experience that kind of pain again. I can't bear almost every minute and every second. Xiaoxuan's disappearance is an extremely heavy blow to me. This kind of blow is like dying once. One day, I finally couldn't take it anymore, I completely collapsed, my spirit became extremely abnormal, I always felt that every day was lost, and my grandfather was also stupid, he was stronger than me, he just stood there blankly, always I was looking at a place alone, and I went out to look for Xiaoxuan every day during that time, took photos and posted them on the street one by one, and then advertised on the local TV station, all newspapers, and everywhere Advertisement, a huge reward on the Internet to find my lover Xiaoxuan, and many people provided a lot of clues, but there was no whereabouts of Xiaoxuan. Half a month later, we were almost helpless. One day, I saw my grandpa and cried , and then we two men cried a lot there. Grandpa cried that once, and never again. It’s just that people have changed and become silent, and I think I will keep looking for it, no matter what. At that time, as long as there is no whereabouts of Xiaoxuan, I will keep looking for it, even when I am old, I will look for it.

And so on forever.

A month later, we still had no news of Xiaoxuan, and I was becoming more and more afraid to accept that reality. It would be okay if she was kidnapped, I was afraid, I was afraid—when I thought of that, I would be very scared, heartache, and the whole People are going crazy, but you have to face this reality. You want to get news every day, but you are terribly afraid that it is bad news, but two have passed, three months have passed, half a year has passed, you know Time is something that makes everything dull. Time makes us powerless and helpless. No matter how painful the pain is, there are many things that you should accept, and you will still accept them.

Xiaoxuan's disappearance made me a completely different person. It can be said that this is the complete change. I feel that everything doesn't matter. If Xiaoxuan doesn't come back, life will no longer have any meaning.

I started to drink, drinking violently, drinking crazily, it seems that only by drinking can I anesthetize myself. When he came back, his whole person changed, he hid in the house every day, he didn’t see anyone, even me, he asked me to leave, and told me that if anything happened to Xiaoxuan, let me start my own life, Don't think about it anymore, he asked the guards to pass the message to me, he doesn't talk to anyone anymore, and without news from Xiaoxuan, he won't talk anymore.

I was very worried about grandpa. I didn't want to leave at first, but I couldn't go against what grandpa meant. I asked them to take good care of grandpa. Call me if you have anything to do. I rented a house in Bincheng by myself. At this time, I stay at home all day, sometimes I go to find Xiaoxuan during the day, sometimes I just drink alone, drink in my room, and sleep when I get drunk, you know what being strong at this time is all for others Listen, if you go to comfort others, it’s definitely possible, but when you face it yourself, no matter how strong you are, you can’t bear it, you can’t bear it at all, that kind of grief, that kind of suffering I don't know how much it hurts to be almost hurt by the body.

Because of this kind of drinking, my state has become extremely bad, like a psychopath, because Xiaoxuan is so beautiful, if a baby like her leaves, no one can accept it, and I can't accept it, I miss Grandpa's Not to mention that kind of pain, it is his heaven, his heaven is gone, the only thing that can make him live well, let us live well is because she has never heard from her, we still have Looking forward, you can still wait, you can still have a thought, I think if it doesn't appear for a lifetime, we can wait like this for a lifetime.

I think I will, I am willing to never get married for Xiaoxuan's life, just live alone like this, I think I will anesthetize myself with alcohol, only when she appears, can I get better, I pray for her return every day , her appearance.