After I touched the computer of the beautiful boss

Chapter 373 Chatting Intimately and Quietly

Bai Ling thought for a while and said, "I'm so afraid of mentioning this, I can't think about it—" When she thinks about it, she wants to cry, I understand, I understand that kind of feeling, but this time, she didn't cry or anything, the sadness is certain.

"Actually, I was very sorry for you at that time. At that time, I still didn't believe in love, including yours. I didn't believe it very much, you know? We met a lot in society. Five or six years ago before I met you I don't really believe in love anymore. During that time, I felt very tired and numb. It didn't matter. I just felt what the future would be like, what about men, what kind of love, it didn't exist, it was all fake, so I said When I met you, I might not believe it right away. I just wanted to make my father happy. I was a very selfish woman, you know? Xiao Lin, I felt that you might just be curious, so I—” She It's nothing to be able to tell me what's on my mind, to be able to tell the truth, and that's what I thought at the beginning, maybe that's it.

Later she got married, for her father.She wanted to find someone to live a good life, even if there was no love, but even if she lived a well-regulated married life step by step, that was her choice at the time!

I said: "Well, I know, so when you got married later, I understood it, it's not that I didn't understand--" She said, "Well, but I had a hunch at the time, I felt that the child was yours, and after the child was born, it would be yours. Especially like you, especially those eyes. You know that mothers look at their children very carefully, and you can say that they see a lot of microscopic things. I counted the time, and it feels like yours. In fact, I hate those things, I don’t like them, I can't forget you, I can't forget you anyway, although it will be because of misunderstanding, I think you are with other women, I hate you to death, and there are reasons for revenge, but I can't control myself to think about you, I think about you every day. When I think of the worst, I thought about suicide. One night, I was there with a fruit knife. I thought, if I cut it, it's over, don't go to anything After thinking about it, I don’t have any troubles, so I’m relieved, but do you know? Just when I picked up the knife, I drank alcohol at the time, and my mind was irrational. At this moment, little Karu, he—” Bai Ling continued Some couldn't take it anymore, she wiped her eyes, and said firmly: "He took small steps, he just knew how to walk, he wobbled to my side, and just started talking, she came to me and grabbed my hand The knife in my hand, I don’t know how he knew it, so he climbed onto the sofa and knelt there, holding my knife tightly with his two small hands. At that time, I looked at him and looked at him coldly and said: "Baby, if mother is gone, what will you do in the future? Will you live a good life? When you grow up in the future, you know that mother has suffered too much pain, and being tortured by a little man can't live anymore. That The person may be your father, can you help your mother to avenge you? Go kill that little man, he treats me like this, I hate him, my only love was ruined by him, you must help my mother to avenge ——' He shook his head, and then cried, so small, how could he know what I was talking about, and then I hugged him and cried with him, I held him and cried for a long time—”

How can I blame me for what happened at that time, it was all because of her, but she misunderstood me, she didn't understand what I did, she thought that I could disregard her life for love, I don't care about her life or death, But how to do it as a man who loves her.

Don’t say that it’s just selling my body, I’m willing to do any number of things, maybe this is the difference between men and women, men think these are nothing, and won’t leave anything in their hearts, while women But I take these things very seriously, and feel that there is something more important than life, and that is love.

Women seem to be born for love, they are too obsessed, too infatuated, love seems to be the pursuit of a lifetime, nothing can be more important than this.

And men are completely different.

I hugged her quietly and said, "You know? Actually, I didn't think that much at that time. I just wanted to save you. You were in prison. I didn't feel good for a day. Every second of thinking was painful. I would rather bear that for you, but what do you want me to do?"

Bai Ling hurriedly said: "Xiao Lin, I never told you. In this life, I owe you. I used to think that men can't love women, but in this life, I owe you a lot. I think my love is great. A lot, but one day I understood that there is still such a man in this world, he loves more than me, he surprised and shocked me, you have paid too much for me, I really don’t deserve it You, Xiaolin, the more you treat me like this, the more I want you to be with Yirou, do you understand? It would be nice to let you be your mother, I can really do it, I hope you will be with her, her Young, beautiful, cute, gentle, and very kind to you, don't care about her father, and, I hope she can give you a child—"

I interrupted her and said: "Bai Ling, don't talk about this anymore, it's tiring to talk about it, promise me, we will be together well, don't talk about anything else, I will spend my whole life with you, I will spend my whole life with you If anyone can know, I just want them to know that there is love in this world, there is true love, but you should not blame love too much, make things difficult for it, and make things difficult for it. Here, we are in this environment, this time is not the past, not the past era, in the current era, we have to treat love with a different perspective, who can be innocent? But who is not innocent What about it? We need to be more tolerant, no one is perfect, so don't feel how you are in your heart, you are the best, I can see it clearly, I treat women differently from ordinary men, especially beautiful women Not to mention beautiful women, even ordinary women are the same. The heart is the most important thing. I have decided that in the years to come, no matter what happens, no matter what happens, as long as I still have the strength, I will With you, at that time, I have to do one thing, I want to let the whole world know that I love you, I want to write a book for you, write a novel, and then publish it on the Internet, I want to Write you out, let many people know that you—"

Bai Ling hurriedly said: "No, you are not allowed to let many people know about our affairs, do you want to write about our affairs as well, if that happens, you will be arrested, this is a very rogue novel ——" I laughed and said, "It depends on how I write. If I write something that touches people, then nothing will happen. Do you understand? I believe that everyone yearns for the beautiful, and no one does not Will be moved by beautiful things, do you think other people are stupid? Do you think they are not like this? They are very private with the people they love, and they can do everything, even better than us. What's the matter, we are just a normal love life, and many people are exaggerating!"

She asked curiously: "Then how are you going to write about me? Will you write about all the bad things about me, Xiao Lin, can you promise me one thing?"

I said, "What's the matter? Tell me!"

Bai Ling said: "Can you write me better, and don't write the bad ones, just write the good ones, okay? You write me love you more, otherwise people will scold me, sure Will tell me!"

I said hey: "Do you really care? That's not okay. I want to write truthfully. The novels written by others are fictional. I want to pursue truth when I write novels. I want them to be very moved after reading it." , I will believe in love, and I will say that there is love in this bad woman, so there are more good women, so I am full of confidence in life—”

Bai Ling was about to cry and said: "No, you villain, you can't write Bai Ling badly, I want you to write her like this, write that she is a very kind, beautiful, gentle, and passionate woman, remember, you must To write that she is very proud, very sexy, has a good figure, and she can’t like you very much from the beginning, and she will be cold to you at the beginning, we are indeed like this at the beginning, right?”

I thought for a while and said, "Well, that starts with sex, then to love, to the inability to extricate oneself from love, to the end of the world, to the end of time—"

She pinched me hard and said, "It's not sex, it's you, I'm not!"

I was laughed at by her, and this conversation made me feel so happy, so happy.