After I touched the computer of the beautiful boss

Chapter 510 Kneel in front of Xiaoxuan!

I took a taxi to the place where we used to live, and after I got out of the taxi downstairs, I wondered if Xiaoxuan had gone to the hospital, but I saw her car downstairs, she didn't leave, she was still at home.

I went upstairs, rang the doorbell, and soon heard the voice inside, "Here we come!" The door opened, and I saw Xiaoxuan, holding the door with her hand, and she froze there when she saw me , Her eyes looked at me fiercely, and suddenly she closed the door suddenly, and closed it hard, leaving a crisp sound.

I looked at the door she closed, and I stood there for a while.I continued to ring the doorbell. I felt very uncomfortable, very uncomfortable, and my whole mood was terrible.

After a long time, the door opened again, and it was the nanny who opened the door.

After the door opened, I saw Chengcheng, but I didn't see Xiaoxuan. Chengcheng looked at me, frowning, shaking his head. It was too much like his mother when he was nervous. They all said tremblingly: "Dad, Dad—" He called me, I squatted down suddenly, and hugged me, I was kneeling on the ground, I hugged him and said, "Baby, I'm sorry, Dad came back to see you, baby, it's because dad is bad, dad is not good!"

Chengcheng also cried, he cried and said: "Dad, why don't you want your mother? Mom loves you very much, she loves you very much, loves you very much!" Chengcheng is already sensible, and he is educated in the West. Saying this directly, was eager to tell me that his mother loved me.

I nodded and said: "Well, Dad knows, I know, it's all because Dad is bad, it's Dad who is bad, sincerely, Dad will never leave you, and will never want you, be good!"

"Then you don't love mom anymore, but mom loves you, can you love mom a little bit, mom doesn't love others, she only loves you, she told me—" My tears kept flowing, I don't know how much I have shed, tears are all over my face, and I am a man who makes that crying sound.

Chengcheng also cried, and he wiped my tears with his little hands.

We hugged each other, my body trembled, I, Lin Jiayi, have come to this day, I am really a bastard, I deserve it, I asked for it.

There are so many women who love me, my children love me, but I hurt them, I really don't know what to do?

At this moment, I heard Xiaoxuan's voice, she said: "If you are still a man, don't cry, the child is innocent, I don't like to see my son cry!"

I didn't dare to look at her, I nodded with my head down.

Chengcheng said: "Mom, do you love Dad, right? You said you love, you love Dad, right?"

I can't control it, I let out a little hard cry, head down, tears fall on the ground, why should I hurt them, God, why should I hurt them.

"Don't cry!" Xiao Xuan also cried.Her voice was a little loud, and she said again: "Are you still a man?" Yes, am I still a man?What kind of man am I?

I stood up slowly, but I still didn't look at Xiaoxuan, and Chengcheng said again: "Mom, tell me what's on your mind!" As soon as I stood up, I suddenly knelt on Xiaoxuan's lap In front of me, my legs were not under my control at all, and they were attracted to the ground like a magnet, and they were attracted to Xiaoxuan. It seemed that God forced me to kneel in front of her, to punish me, to forgive my sins, to repay me. The pain Xiaoxuan suffered day and night was the grievance I suffered.

When I knelt in front of her, she pushed me down and said, "What are you doing? What are you doing?"

I knelt there and said, "Xiaoxuan, I'm the one who's sorry for you, I'm the one to die, I'm the one to die, Xiaoxuan, Xiaoxuan—" I couldn't speak.

Xiaoxuan kept crying, but she suddenly stopped, and started to hold me by the hand and said: "Get up, get up, what do you mean if you kneel down to me? I can't bear it, get up!" I was pulled by her, I stood up quietly, and when I got up, I stood there blankly, I slowly raised my head, Xiaoxuan bit her lips with her teeth, suddenly covered her mouth with her hand and looked at me and said: "You go, don't come back again , don't come here again, don't come to see the children anymore, we will be fine, you go, go, okay?" I closed my eyes, shed the last tears, I clenched my fists, I felt my whole body Stiff and helpless, I can't do anything, I can't even comfort Xiaoxuan, I want to hug her, but it's impossible, I can't do anything, nothing.

I stood there quietly, and then I lowered my head and said, "Xiaoxuan, I'll give you all my money—" As soon as I said that, Xiaoxuan cried and said, "Are you out of your mind? Who needs money?" Your money? Don't look down on our mother and child, okay? We are fine, we are not short of money, you go, go, you know? Yirou is for you, she is married, I can do anything, you also Didn't hurt me, since the day I met you, I know that in this life, I can only be like this, then I was not very sensible, very naive, when I understood things, I was already like this, I can't get rid of that Kind of thing, Lin Jiayi, don't hurt them anymore, don't hurt the women now, okay?"

I gritted my teeth and nodded, yes, maybe they all hate me.

Standing there for a long time, Chengcheng took my hand and said, "Dad, have you eaten yet?" I hurriedly put my arms around Chengcheng and said, "Well, Dad has eaten, honey, have you eaten?" You know ?How wonderful it is to have a child who loves you and a son who cares about you, how happy and wonderful it is to be a father, how comfortable that feeling is, the feeling that a child loves his father, that is so beautiful.

Chengcheng said in a low voice: "Dad, Mom actually loves you very much, she is like this, she always doesn't like to speak her mind, she only hugs me when she sleeps at night and speaks her mind in a daze, she said last night It’s a dream, I’ve been calling your name—” I nodded and said: “Baby, no matter what happens, you must know that Dad loves you, you will always remember this sentence, I am your dad, you are mine Son, no matter what difficulties you encounter, you must contact Dad. Dad will give you his phone number later, and he will never change it again. Can you call Dad anytime?"

"Father, do you still want to go?" Chengcheng said eagerly.

I said, "I won't leave for now, I won't leave!"

Chengcheng pursed his lips and nodded, "Then you take me to play!" I nodded.

I said, "I'm going to see your mother, wait a minute!" He nodded, then stood up and whispered, "Daddy, you have to hug mom!" I smiled, squeezed his face and said, "Well , so smart, in the future, he will definitely be better than Dad!" Chengcheng smiled.

I walked to the door, and I opened the door. After the door opened, I saw Xiaoxuan sitting in front of the dressing table looking at herself in the mirror. I closed the door gently, and she looked at herself in the mirror. She squinted her eyes and smiled. I walked up to her and said: "Xiaoxuan, I take this step, I know, from now on, I am no longer me, but, but do you know? If that person is you, it is you, I will be the same -"

"You, don't say it anymore, don't say it anymore, you go and ask your sister, if she knows, will she feel heartache? Will she feel heartache? She kept asking me that day, asking me where you were, and asking me what you did What, ask me about your situation, you will never know how we treat you, Yirou's life is over, my sister is so pitiful, I went to see her, the guard next to her was in tears, she thought you left, You won't have her in the future, do you know? What can I say? I lied to her, and she can tell at a glance, what can I say? "

Yes, what can I do?Our group of people has come to this day, and everything has already surpassed love itself. If it is just love, I don’t want to write more, it may not be so touching, not so great, but when the beginning of love finally comes to an end Life, when you come into the life of a group of people, how can you not be moved by that love?How not to be moved by it?

I said: "I know, it's all my fault, it's all my fault!" It seems that I can only say this sentence, I can only say that all this is my fault, what else can I say , yes, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, wrong wrong wrong, it's all wrong.

She said: "Don't worry, I will be strong, and I will take good care of the children, but I hope you can spare time to play with the children every year. If you are a man, you should do this. After all, you are his. dad--"

I said: "I know, Xiaoxuan, no matter how uncomfortable I feel, I want to be with you and never leave you, but I—" I was panting, feeling like I was about to suffocate, but in fact I wanted them all, how could I There will be such a feeling, yes, I can't live without them, they make me feel this way, how strange it is, how incomprehensible to me, I know there are priorities, but when they treat me like this, I It has sunk, immersed in it and unable to extricate itself.

My hands were trembling, and when I was about to touch her, she looked back at me, and her look scared me, making me stop all thoughts immediately.

"Is it necessary?" she said.

I nodded, and she stood up and said, "I'm going to the hospital, have you visited your mother?"

I nodded again.

She said: "Then you can play with the child. Also, I don't allow you to take my son to meet other people, and you are not allowed to call other people's mother, you understand?"

I nodded again, and she started to take her bag and go outside. I wanted to tell her that Xiaomo was there, but what should I say, should I tell her not to go?She would think too much, I simply didn't say anything, she left, only me and Chengcheng were left.

I sat next to Chengcheng, thinking in my heart how Xiaoxuan would feel if she saw Xiaomo in the hospital.