Hunting Love Amnesia Beloved

Chapter 254 She Can't Take Risks

Guan Xichen took Tang Ruotian back to the place where she used to live. Tang Ruotian didn't object. She had always avoided saying some things. Now that she saw him, she made it clear.

When entering the room, Guan Xichen suddenly reached out and hugged Tang Ruotian.

Tang Ruotian was taken aback by his sudden movement, and subconsciously wanted to resist.

Guan Xichen buried his face in her neck, and whispered: "Tiantian, don't move. Just let me hug you like this for a while, just for a while."

He had to make sure that she had come back now and returned to him intact.

Tang Ruotian closed her eyes, smelling the familiar breath coming from him.

Once, his embrace was her most trusted harbor.

Sometimes she wondered, if she hadn't met Gu Yunqing, would she have been with Guan Xichen?

Now that I think about it, the answer is no.

Guan Xichen is still nostalgic for the past, but she has already moved forward.

Guan Xichen hoped that she would still be the girl who could act like a spoiled child to him and let him dote on her, but after the tempering of time, she was not the girl who didn't understand anything but only knew how to ask him for everything.

In his mind, Guan Xichen couldn't help but flashed the shock in Guan Xichen's eyes when he saw her slap Gu Yunming hard on the face and hit Gu Yunming's leg with a gun.

She already knew clearly that she and Guan Xichen couldn't go back.

"I'm sorry." After a while, she said quietly.

"I said, you never have to say sorry to me." Guan Xichen gently supported her hair, the hair that was originally waist-length was now short, and he stroked her hair with some pity.

"Xichen, if I don't say sorry to you, I will feel even more guilty." She is very selfish and knows how to make Guan Xichen accept her apology.

She pushed Guan Xichen's arms away, took a step back slightly, raised her chin, and looked at the man quietly.

Throughout her girlhood, this man was with her.Gave her an unforgettable first love.

This man was once the person she most wanted to marry, the man she had loved for ten years and hated for three years.

After meeting him again, she still hated him. She knew that because of the three-year separation, when he left without saying goodbye, he felt guilty towards her. She also knew that he still loved her, so she used him despicably.

Let him help her escape from Gu Yunqing's side. When she fell in love with Gu Yunqing, she never thought about him.

When she found out that Gu Yunqing's love was just a scam, she came back selfishly and used him to take revenge on Gu Yunqing, making him a topic of discussion in City A.

She was really sorry for him.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..." she murmured.

The three words she hates most now are sorry.

I'm sorry, these three words are actually the three words that make people feel the most powerless.

Because there is no way to take actual actions to express apology or guilt, I can only say these three words.

"Tiantian..." Guan Xichen saw Tang Ruotian's eyes looking at him, and there were too many things in those eyes - nostalgia, nostalgia, farewell, and more apology.

The last thing he wanted was to see her apologize.

Tang Ruotian stopped him, "Xichen, can you let me finish? Now I really don't have the face to tell you anything other than sorry. All the things I have done for these days I apologize to you. I'm sorry. Will you forgive me?"

Originally, she had already found out that Gu Yunqing was related to Guan's fake perfume. When she learned the truth from Claudia, she selfishly begged Guan Xichen not to tell about Gu Yunqing and Guan's fake perfume, and to share the fake perfume with him. Everything that happened was put on Guan Zhihao.

She is really selfish.

He never felt that there was anything wrong with what she did, and there was no excuse for it.

But looking at her expectant eyes, he smiled bitterly in his heart, and said solemnly: "Okay, I forgive you."

This is what she wants to hear the most, no matter what he thinks in his heart, it doesn't matter.The important thing is that as long as she wants it, as long as he has it, he will give it.

Nothing else matters.

He is not in good health now, even if he has an operation, there is a possibility of recurrence in the future.

Guan Xichen lowered his head and looked at the distance between him and her, which was just one step away.

Closer than friends, farther than lovers.

He was suffering in his heart, thinking absentmindedly, if he had a healthy body, maybe he wouldn't stay in such an embarrassing situation.

In, can't.He couldn't bear to retreat.

Looking at the smile on her face, he used to cherish this smile the most. When he was enduring the pain of chemotherapy in the United States, this smile accompanied him through the pain of chemotherapy, and it was the source of his dreams.

Suddenly, he had the urge to let go of all rationality, he took a step forward, and his girl took a step back as if frightened.

He held the slender shoulders with his hands, and there was enthusiasm in his eyes, which seemed to burn everything, "Tiantian, don't leave me! Let's get married, okay? Have you forgotten? You once wanted to marry the most The person I love is me, let's pretend that there is no three-year separation, no Gu Yunqing's participation, let's get married, okay?"

"Xichen, it's impossible for us." Tang Ruotian said with difficulty.

"I am now pregnant with Gu Yunqing's child..."

"It's not a problem, I can take this child as mine. Let's get married!"

Tang Ruotian bit her lip, her face was troubled.

But that embarrassment was like a sharp sword, piercing Guan Xichen's eyes sorely.

What he hated the most was her embarrassment.

But this time he knew she was in a difficult situation, but he still wanted to force her.

He couldn't bear her, knowing that it was despicable for him to ask her now, but he still couldn't bear it.

He couldn't bear to give up the chance to spend his life with her.

This is the only chance.

"Xichen, I'm sorry." She whispered.

"I can't marry you."

"Why? Are you still thinking about Gu Yunqing? Gu Yunqing is going to marry Shangguan Minyue soon! If he really cares about you, how could he still abandon you and marry another woman when he knows you have a child?" Guan Xichen Never been so sharp.

"Did you see that he came to save you today, so you decided that he still has you in his heart? Tiantian, don't be so naive! Don't you understand Gu Yunqing's methods? He just doesn't want you to die, he I want you to live well, living in worry, fear, and guilt every day. Even, he came to save you, just for the child in your belly!"

"Stop talking!" Tang Ruotian said loudly.

The corners of the eyes are moist.

"I know, I know everything you said. But so what? I know he just wants to torture me. Before I knew that I killed his parents and brothers, I hated him every day, but The more I hate, the more I love. After knowing the truth, I found that I don’t even have the qualifications to hate him. I also know that since he is willing to let me go, I should be cool, kill the child in my stomach, and find a man to talk to Fall in love and live a good life. But I can't do it!"

"Guan Xichen, I also think I'm so cheap! Do you know that after I left him, I've been thinking about him every day here." She stroked her heart with her hand.

Her expression was a little dazed, and her sharp voice lowered, "I wonder if he is eating well? Is he drinking so fiercely? I wonder if he really can take his own happiness for revenge? I wonder if he is here again. It’s okay to miss me even for a minute.”

Her voice was getting lower and lower, until it was almost inaudible in the end.

Looking up at Guan Xichen's complicated eyes, she smiled bitterly and said, "Look, I'm just so worthless."

She sniffed and said in a low voice, "how can I marry you like this?"

Even if she is like this, he still wants her.

Tang Ruotian seemed to have seen through her thoughts, she wrinkled her nose, and she looked a bit playful like before, "Don't say this, you want me too. Guan Xichen, you know, if you really stay with you By my side, I'm not happy. And you won't be happy either. The last thing you want to see is me being unhappy, right?"

In the last sentence, she rarely showed a bit of willfulness.

Guan Xichen's eyes flickered, looking at the girl who chuckled at him, he really realized this time that he and her really couldn't go back together.

"Just let you stay alone like this, and then live a lonely life with the memories of you and Gu Yunqing? Sweet, I can't bear it." Guan Xichen had already suppressed the enthusiasm just now, and looked at her with doting eyes.

Tang Ruotian was taken aback, didn't Guan Xichen understand what she meant?

Guan Xichen raised his hand and stroked her hair, acting intimately, but not ambiguously.

"Silly girl, what are you thinking? Don't you still think that we can do nothing but lovers?"

Tang Ruotian blinked her eyes, as if she didn't know how to deal with it.

Guan Xichen sighed slightly, and said in a low voice, "You still love Gu Yunqing, don't you?"

Seeing his clear gaze, Tang Ruotian rolled her eyes, "It doesn't matter if you love him or not, I can't be with him anymore."

Guan Xichen chuckled, laughing at Tang Ruotian's duplicity.

Obviously just now she told him that she loves Gu Yunqing.

Now it doesn't matter whether you love it or not.

"Tiantian, you see that a person's life is only a few short decades. Since you still love Gu Yunqing, what are you thinking about? Take him back. Be brave and fight for yourself and him to be together once. Opportunity."

After Guan Xichen finished speaking, he turned around and walked out. The smile on his face had already stopped, but there was still a smile in his voice, "Tiantian, I wish you happiness."

He stepped out of the room, out of Tang Ruotian's world.

As soon as he stepped out of the room, uncontrollable pain hit him. He suddenly vomited a big mouthful of blood. Looking at the blood in his fingers, he suddenly realized that he gave up so easily three years ago, what did he give up? .

Abandoned his most cherished girl to leave his world.

Now, he doesn't even have the chance to have her.

Guan Xichen looked at the vast night and laughed softly.

The low-pitched laughter echoed in the night for a long time.