Refusing to marry a wealthy family: the young mistress fled 99 times

I am a timid person. I always think about many things, but I dare not do them.

For example, I want to call you "Jie", for example, I want to act like a baby to you, want to do a lot of intimate things, and want to tell you "I love you".

I love you.

I love you who are confident, proud and energetic;

Love that cold, punctual, meticulous you;

love your daring;

Love your tenderness and affection...

love all of you.

But my love is so small compared with your love.In addition to loving you, I also love my relatives, friends, and myself. The responsibility of love makes me unable to respond to your love.

I don't respond to you, it's not that I don't love you, but I love you too much.

I am afraid that my love is less than your love, so I don’t talk about love; I am afraid that my love will not be able to give you the best happiness, so I dare not love; I am afraid that my love will disrupt your peaceful and peaceful life. So - silent until now.

The first time I found out that I love you was the few days when you flew to America.

It was the first time I tasted parting, and I realized how important you are to me.You are already such an important existence in my life without realizing it.

When I accepted my sister's entrustment, I told myself that you are my brother-in-law and the person my sister loves deeply.I can love all the men in the world, but I just can't fall in love with you.

However, I still fell in love with...

Responsibility made me choose to escape. I have never dared to face my love for you. I even lied to myself that you never loved me.

Only if you have never loved me, the burden in my heart will be better.I resolutely left you and left, thinking that as long as I leave you, I can forget you—but this love is far deeper than I imagined.

When I was in "Senelle", I dreamed that you caught me every day and asked me why I betrayed you?

I seem to be a sinner.I fell in love with my brother-in-law, cheated him, and betrayed my sister, and even my love for Mu Xicheng changed.

I always thought that my love with him stayed 4 years ago and never changed.But when I didn't even know it, I was already far away...

I love you, Su Shijie.

If I announce my love for you to the public, what will my sister do, what will Mu Xicheng do, what will my mother do, what will the world think?

This guilt is like a big snowball, tumbling and getting bigger and bigger, driving me to a desperate situation.

Finally, you took me back to your side.

I am overwhelmed with pain to see your hatred for me.Maybe you never loved me - I've been lying to myself so that it's okay.So I chose to keep blinding my eyes, unable to see everything you did for me.

I'm really a coward.

A coward who can't even afford love...

Su Shijie, why do you want to fall in love with me?You can fall in love with a woman who is thousands of times better than me!

I always think that if you hadn't met me and fallen in love with me, you must be very happy now.Instead of being dragged into the vortex of hatred by me, living so hard every day.

This kind of self-blame makes me feel overwhelmed with pain every day.

All the pressure in my heart is not from you falling in love with me, but from the fact that I am not worthy of your love at all.

Su Shijie, you said that love is your business alone.

I'm glad that love is your business alone...

I'm glad you can forget about me and like other women.

!!