love is inevitable

When I found Zhang Youze's location, he was squatting beside the toilet with a pale face, his eyes were slightly closed, and his brows were frowning in pain.I walked in slowly, glanced into the toilet, and saw a pile of excrement. I felt my stomach churning. I closed the toilet lid, and after pressing the switch, I went to help Zhang Youze.

According to my idea, Zhang Youze just had a few drinks with Su Liangwen, so as not to get so drunk, he squatted down gently, looked at the pale person beside him, and asked in a low voice: "Ju Zhang, are you okay?" ?”

Zhang Youze heard my voice, raised his head slowly, glanced at me, and said, "I'm going to show you a joke... I... I'm fine." He was about to stand up while speaking.

I helped him to walk out the door, and after a few steps, I walked into the bedroom. The room was so clean and tidy, the sheets, pillows and quilt covers were all in cool tones, and everything was neatly arranged.I supported Zhang Youze to lie on the bed, his body had just blocked the bed, and his face showed a distressed expression.

"Are you okay?"

"It's okay...just a little dizzy..." Zhang Youze replied to me.

"I'll get you a hot towel, lie here and don't move." I stood up from the head of the bed, and just as I was about to turn around, Zhang Youze grabbed my wrist.

The heart beat violently, and the person on the bed said softly: "Don't go, sit down and accompany me."

Looking at this picture of Zhang Youze, I gently withdrew my hand and said calmly, "So you can't drink."

"Drinking is something that depends on your mood," Zhang Youze frowned, and the corners of his mouth forced an arc, saying: "When I was young, my father liked to drink, and my mother worked tirelessly to make wine for him. Every time I went to Beijing If you look at me, you will bring me a few bottles, that kind of wine, you can't get drunk."

I looked at Zhang Youze, and it was hard to imagine that he didn't have the slightest airs at the moment, and he didn't have any concealed smile on his face, just looking at me so lightly, talking about him.

"We seldom make wine by ourselves, but my father likes to eat the persimmons made by my mother. Every time the persimmon tree in the yard is full of persimmons, my father will jump and jump happily." Childhood thing.

"Hehe, when I was in college, I most hoped to have a house of my own, but I didn't realize the hardships of life until I graduated. When I first went to Beijing, I only had 300 yuan and a quilt. Everything I got, I worked hard for..." Zhang Youze didn't look at me, but just lay quietly on the bed, telling everything about himself.

"I understand, look at me now, although I have never been to the imperial city, but the current life is hard-won for me." Thinking of the students around me going abroad, taking the postgraduate entrance examination, and looking for a job, I can't help but sighed.

"Duo Duo, do you know? My first residence in Beijing was only forty square meters in size. As a working class, I couldn't afford to pay that much at once..." Zhang Youze slowly opened his eyes and looked at me explain.

I didn't know what he meant by telling me these things, I just gave a soft "En" and listened to what he was about to tell next.

"Pride and self-esteem were still valuable at that time, but for that house, I still sold my pride and self-esteem." There was a sense of vicissitudes in Zhang Youze's voice, as if he was recalling the past.

"I know that sooner or later we all lose to life," I said, taking a soft breath.

"Duoduo, the brilliance that outsiders see about me, the rights and status that I bring in my hands, are actually all obtained by me relying on giving up my self-esteem and continuous hard work. They are far from expecting the hardships behind the success."

I nodded lightly and said, "I know, I understand." It's just that I don't know why Zhang Youze suddenly told me this today.

"Duoduo... I'm a little thirsty..." Zhang Youze opened his eyes, looked at me and said.

"Well, wait a minute, I'll go pour some water right away." I hurriedly stood up from the bed, found a cup and poured some warm water, and then walked towards the bedroom. After entering the bedroom, I suddenly realized that Zhang Youze's eyes were tightly closed. staring at me.

He looked at me like that, and I felt somewhat uncomfortable, so I whispered, "Try the water temperature, and tell me if it's hot."

Zhang Youze took the cup in my hand, and his fingertips touched me lightly. I retracted my hand calmly and said, "I'm going back first, you have a good rest."

"Duoduo..." Zhang Youze stopped me, "I don't mean anything else, it's just... I just feel too lonely."

I felt a sudden shock in my heart, looked at Zhang Youze's pale face, walked to his bedside, and said, "For the sake of your drunkenness, I'll fry an egg for you, otherwise you'll definitely feel hungry in the middle of the night. "

A delighted smile appeared on Zhang Youze's face, and he said, "Thank you."

I turned around and walked out of the living room, only to find that Zhang Youze actually lived in a high-end well-decorated house. The house was about 130 square meters. Looking down from the window, I could see the flickering lights of Philadelphia's busiest city center.

I understand everything Zhang Youze said, and I finally understand why when I first saw him, his gentleman was alienated, step by step from a poor college student to where he is today, there is always something wrong Known trade-offs.

As a friend, the only thing I can do is to fry two scallion eggs to comfort his heart with a protective mask.

Unfortunately, without shallots, I could only walk to the bedroom with two fried eggs, but Zhang Youze closed his eyes slightly and fell asleep with sleepiness.

I couldn't bear to disturb him, just as I took a step, Zhang Youze's voice rang in my ears again: "Duo Duo,"

"I thought you were asleep, look, it's still hot." I put the plate in front of him and said, "I've seen this plate in the supermarket, there are more than 100 of them, and I can't bear to buy them. How about you? The cupboards are full, and you should be happy."

Zhang Youze raised the corner of his mouth, took the plate and chopsticks in my hand, and said with a smile: "These kitchen utensils welcome his hostess at any time, you can do whatever you want."

hostess?I glanced at my face in embarrassment, and said: "Wei Liang and I have been together since the first half semester of college. In Philadelphia, she is my best sister. I just want to ask, is Su Liangwen sincere to her?" ?”

Zhang Youze raised his eyes and looked at me, and said with a smile: "You still have to learn how to change the subject, but what I can tell you is that when they part, your friend can get a sum that is enough for her to spend the rest of her life." money."

That is to say, Wei Liang will always end up with the reputation of being a mistress?

"Well, thank you. I didn't expect a small person like me to meet a big person like you, and you don't hesitate to teach me. Thank you very much."

"If you really want to thank me, I don't mind eating two fried eggs every day, hehe," Zhang Youze ate with a big mouthful, and glanced at me while eating.

"It's getting late, I should go back too." I looked at Zhang Youze and said.

"Duo Duo, listen to me. I saw your professional skills last time. You can find a more formal job. If you stay in that printing shop, it may affect your career." Zhang Youze put the dinner plate on the table. On the bedside table, looked at me and said seriously.

"I'll think about it, thank you."

"Duo Duo," Zhang Youze hesitated to speak, "Do you think I'm a difficult person to get along with?"

"No, I think you are quite approachable."

"Then if I treat you in this state, will you feel a lot of pressure?" Zhang Youze looked at me and said word by word.

"Hehe, it's me who should be under pressure, how many people want to hug your thigh, like me..."

"You know that's not what I meant," Zhang Youze interrupted me, "Before we met Xia Haoyu, you had a crush on me. If he hadn't come out halfway, would it be different now?"

"Zhang Bureau..." I looked up at him and said with a smile: "There are many things in life that cannot be assumed, just like you at the beginning, choosing the life you have now, I am very grateful for the words you warned me ,But……"

"Don't say it." Zhang Youze stretched out his hand and made a gesture to interrupt me, "I have always believed that I have enough confidence to express it to you, but...don't reject me now, everything will change, and I will Wait until you change your mind."

I looked up in a daze, but saw Zhang Youze's firm eyes, he said: "I respect your choice, and I respect my own choice, if you find that Xia Haoyu is not as beautiful as you imagined, here I am... ..."

"Thank you, it's time for me to go back. You should go to bed early. I have cooked rice porridge in the microwave on a regular basis. I can eat it tomorrow morning. Goodbye." I walked out of the bedroom without looking back, and walked quickly towards the door. Until the elevator door closed, my heart was still beating rapidly.

Scenes related to Zhang Youze appeared in my mind one after another. When we met for the first time, when I returned my bag, when he walked towards me in the cold wind, etc., I was always on guard against him. He got along, but never realized that he has always maintained a sincere heart in front of me.

But I also understand that my heart is so small that it can only accommodate one person.

Zhang Youze is a good man, but he is not my beloved. I can only bless him and myself.

I glanced at the time on my phone. It turned out that it was past ten o'clock in the evening. I hurriedly opened the door and walked out of the apartment building. A gust of cold wind blew in my face, but it made me feel much more comfortable. I smiled excitedly at the sky He smiled and prepared to take a taxi back to the community.

But just two steps away, I saw a figure standing not far away, his hair trembling in the cold wind, his eyes met mine, and his eyes were filled with disappointment.