The Era of Masculinity: Ambiguous Getting Fired

Chapter 31 Whose Consolation

Seeing the orange red on Ruobu's feet, Zi Han was inexplicably relieved.So he smiled faintly at Ruofei and said softly: "Look at your pale face, why don't you know how to cherish your body..."

"I...I, I'm sorry."

If it wasn't for the fact that I don't know why I said I'm sorry, whether it was because I was making love with Xiaoli behind Zihan's back, or because I kept Zihan waiting for a long time, or because of other reasons, anyway, if I didn't feel sorry for Zihan from the bottom of my heart.

"I made soup and put it at the door of your room, and you drank it while it was hot..." Zi Han gave Ruofei a meaningful look, then turned around and pressed the elevator button.

If it weren't for rushing forward to hug Zi Han, the loneliness and loneliness of the dark road came to my heart, and the tears couldn't stop streaming down, "Why do you treat me so well? Why?"

Zihan turned around, patted Ruofei's hand lightly and sighed, "You are tired, go to sleep after drinking the soup."

The moment Zi Han walked into the elevator lonely, tears flowed down her cheeks.Why should you be so nice to him?Why should you pity him?What is he?

Many situations were quickly played back in Zihan's mind.Parents' endless quarrels, lonely and boring childhood, mother's blood spilled all over the ground, and the unforgettable conclusion of the word "disaster".

"Look at you and see what is disaster water, this is disaster water!"

The mother pushed Zi Han, who was carrying a schoolbag and looked innocent, into the father's room, where two big bugs, naked and white, were intertwined lingeringly.Zi Han felt dizzy and nauseous for a while. Looking back, her mother sneered triumphantly, and when she turned her head, her father was panicked and angry.

"He's still a child, why did you drag him in?" the father yelled.

"You still know he is a child, so why did you bring this trouble into the house..." the mother yelled hysterically.

Zi Han frantically ran out of the house and ran frantically, the huge and heavy schoolbag made him unable to breathe.The image of a tall, stern and stalwart father has since disappeared in my heart...

Embarrassing, bewildered, cautious, yet ridiculous, the family of three didn't know how to get along since that day.

Any words spoken by the parents seem to have become the lines of acting, and the gap is not only in front of the parents, but also between himself and the parents like a crack.For Zi Han after that day, what she hopes for is to escape from home as soon as possible...

After finally going to junior high school, I can live in school and stay away from the ridiculous family stage.I only go home one day a week, even if I act in a play, even if I see through the lines and pretentiousness of the play, so what, there is only one day in a week, and I watched the play and acted accordingly...

But who would have thought that even if he was acting, he would not be able to continue acting when he was 16 years old.The mother's resentment reached the limit, she resolutely cut off her blood vessel with a knife, and ended her life in the most tragic way...

"Women are always a disaster, don't entangle women or be entangled by women so easily, don't make trouble like your father, you can't get out of it, and you will never be in peace..."

Zihan often wondered why her mother chose that weekend to create such a horrible incident, why she had to control the time so accurately, insisted on waiting for her to come home from school, insisted on hearing her say the last sentence with her own ears, very To see her close her eyes with my own eyes, to leave an unforgettable memory, so that my already fragile and sensitive nerves become more sensitive and fragile.

Zihan's original pity for her mother disappeared with the worst tragedy she created in front of her, and then she was filled with resentment.

Why do you have to push yourself into the dirty and embarrassing situation of your father, why do you want your father to feel ashamed in front of you? Is it only the father who is embarrassing? Is it possible to ruthlessly destroy the image of the tall, strict and stalwart father? Isn't it cruel before male children?

The mother never thought about this, and the mother satisfied her own jealousy and revenge by ravaging a pure boy's heart. Since then, the boy has not only resented his father but also resented his mother, not only for "" Disaster water" is afraid of all women at the same time...

Only for myself, full of compassion for myself!

But love also needs to be released. Since it can't be for women or men, then love can only be released for yourself.

Zihan loves every mood, every daydream, every drop of feeling, every consciousness, her loneliness and fear; Staring at the dark night in front of the window, lovingly admiring the firm state of my little brother in the bathroom in the mirror... caressing my body lovingly, panting lovingly in the dark night lovingly, letting myself release my swelling desire...

But why treat Ruobu "good"?If tonight was not like a wild cat in heat howling for joy in the desolate night, but when it came back it was full of hurt pain...

Did he see his own lonely shadow, or did Ruofei's indifferent, resentful and lonely eyes superimpose on his lonely heart and then attach to his body.In Zi Han's original state of strong narcissism, he added an irresistible desire to buy orange high heels, and tried every means to buy such a pair of uniquely colored, wonderful and charming shoes, in order to comfort the depths of his heart Is it for the comfort of Ruobu's lonely, lonely, fear and bewilderment?

From two o'clock in the morning to two o'clock in the afternoon the next day, I fell asleep soundly at the right time, if I finally opened my eyes.Both the head and the body were hollowed out, curled up on the bed like an empty shell lifeless, not wanting to move.

If I hadn't closed my eyes again out of boredom, thinking that I would just die quietly like this, and die quietly and lonely, maybe I would get rid of all the complicated troubles.

The clock kept swinging from side to side, and the setting sun gradually dyed the whole room red.When Ruofei opened his eyes again, a huge loneliness and panic gathered in his heart from all around.

Time, just like this, is passing away meaninglessly between opening and closing eyes; life, just like this, is easily peeled off by time while lying on the bed...

What if you didn't laugh while panicking?For a worthless man like himself who can be summoned by women and thrown away by women at will, so what if his life disappears in time at will, who will remember himself and who will pity himself?

Thinking of this, if I didn't cry.He curled up in the corner of the twilight, his body twitching violently and crying non-stop, like a sharp shining knife standing in his heart, it hurt his heart so much!It broke our hearts!