bad love

I suddenly feel very bad, and I don't know why.I just feel that if he is so angry with me, I will feel very uneasy.I walked to the door of Wen Jichen's room and reached out to knock on the door, thinking about it or forget it.

I lay in bed unable to sleep, thinking of Chu Peiran during the day and Wen Jichen at night.

Chu Peiran is so kind to me, every day with him is warm and happy.But no matter what, Wen Jichen's throbbing heartbeat was never there, probably because I'm cheap.

Who is not cheap when encountering relationship problems?

I shook my head, trying not to think about the things that bothered me, but I still couldn't sleep.A heart hangs there, and finally, several times of torture.I knocked on Wen Jichen's door.

Wen Jichen was not reading a book, and he looked calm when he opened the door.

"Brother... can I go in?" I looked at him in a soft voice and said flatteringly.

Wen Jichen looked at me for a while, then let me in with a sigh.

Thinking about it, since I met him and Baiman in the bar last time, I have never set foot in this room again, and I have only a handful of conversations with him.Thinking of the incident at the bar, I felt a slight stab in my heart again.After so long, Chu Peiran still couldn't make me feel relieved.

"What's the matter?" He sat on the edge of the bed, and I sat on the chair next to his desk, his tone was cold.

I couldn't hold back, lowered my head and asked, "Are you angry with me?"

I could feel that he was obviously relieved, and his expression was not as stiff as before. Could it be that my flattery had an effect?He sighed deeply, and said helplessly: "How could I be angry with you, I must be crazy." He seemed to be talking to me, and he seemed to be talking to himself.

In short, I couldn't understand, and I looked at him suspiciously.

He looked at me and asked, "Do you take the bus to school by yourself every morning now?"

I nodded.

Gradually, the air was filled with embarrassment, Wen Jichen and I sat there quietly without saying a word.People are like this, you have thousands of words to say to him, but when you see him, you seem to lose your ability to speak, and you can't say a word.

However, he has something to explain and I have something to ask.

"How much did you pass this exam?" Wen Jichen finally broke the silence.

Ah... ask the grade again.

I was dumbfounded and asked hesitantly, "Which one are you talking about...?"

He looked straight at me: "Mathematics."

At this moment, I couldn't help raising my arms and shouting in my heart: O God!Give me a life that is not as good as pigs and dogs, and give me a high IQ! "17..." I lowered my head and almost found a hole in the ground.

I just watched Wen Jichen's expression from plain to slightly open-mouthed in surprise.

"You are really not suitable to be my sister." After a while, he said this sentence.

Yes, you have a high IQ, you don't have to study hard and you can learn well.You have so many girls pursuing you, the school principal's daughter can cut her wrist and commit suicide for you, of course I am not suitable to be your sister, and I am not worthy of it either.I thought so angrily in my heart.

Wen Jichen saw the wild thoughts in my head, and said softly, "I was at the bar that day... There was a reason."

"Oh, it's nothing, you are quite worthy." I pretended not to care, and said relaxedly.

He clearly knew that I did it on purpose, but he still held my appetite and didn't continue talking. I can only blame myself for being cheap. "Actually, it's better for you to tell me the reason, because after all, I'm your sister. When I went out at night, I saw you hugging and kissing the senior sister who beat me up." I lowered my head angrily.

He finally couldn't help laughing.

My unsound logic!

After I returned to the room, I lay quietly on the bed, thinking about what he said.

"Actually, Baiman is not just in the same class as me in junior high school. She and I grew up together. In the past, she was not like what she is now. She used to be very straightforward, and she didn't have any intentions of intrigue among girls. Every day with me She is called a brother, but she changed a lot in junior high school." Wen Jichen said calmly.

I listened quietly.

He continued: "I didn't expect that she would hide for so many years. Since junior high school, she would tell me that she likes me very much every day. I thought she was joking, so I didn't pay much attention." He paused for a while, thinking about it. "Later, when I entered high school, my temper became more and more out of control, and it got worse and even endangered your life and her own life."

My eyes widened suddenly, I was surprised.

I have never thought or encountered that there are actually people in the world who would do things that endanger their lives because of their feelings.

"That night, I wanted to explain to you the problem between me and Chu Peiran. Then she suddenly called, and it was someone else who said that she had cut her wrists and committed suicide, and that she was mad at the bar after smoking ice, and her life was in danger. I When we got there, she suddenly became normal again, she said she wanted to die, and begged me to kiss her once. So... as you saw." Wen Jichen was a little regretful about the kiss, his expression was very calm .

I felt as if I was so far away from this world that there were so many complexities hiding in something I thought.I thought, if I were Wen Jichen, and this kind of thing happened to my partner who grew up with me, I would do the same.

Wen Jichen looked at me for a long time, and said softly, "Actually, I have never really wanted you to fall in love with others, such as Chu Peiran."

I didn't answer, and I also understand the ambiguity in the middle.

In fact, at that moment, my heart was already shaking.But when I think of him embracing Baiman in the bar that night, I can't let go of it. That picture lingers in my mind like a ghost, and the memory is still fresh.

I didn't speak, I understand that Wen Jichen and I have reconciled after tonight's conversation.

Before going to bed, I said to myself.

Liu Xiangsi, you who are indecisive, you must be ruthless once.

The lights in the next room were bright, illuminating the entire room.Wen Jichen took out the exquisite box from the cabinet, and there was nothing in it, only the photo.

It is still the girl's quiet and beautiful smile, as if smiling at all the mundane and dusty things in the world.Wen Jichen looked at the girl with gentle eyes, and couldn't help touching the cheek of the person in the photo with his slender fingers. "Do I like you? Doudou." He treats this flimsy photo like a treasure, as if he especially wants to protect Liu Xiangsi.

Those voices echoed in my head.

"Wen Jichen, don't be stupid! She is your sister! You can't do it!" Bai Man yelled these words to Wen Jichen in the middle of the dance floor of the noisy bar.

Wen Jichen turned a deaf ear to it, and coldly threw a sentence at her: "Today is the last time." After speaking, he strode out of the bar.

When he saw the snow-covered silver tree, Liu Xiang thought about what he said to him, her tears, her expression, and her helplessness.He really wanted to rush up and hug her, but she fell into someone else's arms.Wen Jichen frowned and watched her cry in Chu Peiran's arms, the corner of her long white coat fluttered by the cold wind, he felt a bit of coldness in his heart, that sour feeling was really uncomfortable.

He turned and left without looking back.