bad love

Chapter 210 Three

In the middle of the night, I lay on Lin Haonan's side and tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep. My mind was full of images of Wen Jichen and An Ruoyi together... I frowned tightly, and I couldn't see anything in the dark with my eyes open.

Suddenly, for a second, I wish Wen Jichen could hide it from me, even if he really had something with An Ruoyi... Then it's good not to let me know...

I thought of when I was talking on the phone with Wen Jichen the day before yesterday, his warm voice said that he would miss me...

Thinking about it, the nose began to sore involuntarily.The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable it became, like being punched hard in the chest, and even my eyes began to be extremely sore. In the end, tears still flowed out, dripping on the pillow of Lin Haonan's bed,

The more I cried, the more vigorous I was, and even my body trembled.

The secretion in my nose made me so stuffy that I couldn't breathe, but I didn't want to get up and wipe off my nose with a tissue, so I could only open my mouth and breathe as quietly as possible so that Lin Haonan beside me couldn't hear me.

What a shame...

I just became so fierce and violent, and I just nestled next to him and cried...

It's really embarrassing...

It was clearly the midsummer season, and the cicadas were howling hotly at night, and the temperature of the air conditioner in the room was just right, but I was so cold that I was shivering all over, wrapped tightly in the quilt.

The colder I am, the more I cry.

Suddenly, my whole body became warm, and a masculine aura enveloped me.I heard Lin Haonan sigh softly behind me, he said: "Don't cry..."

He couldn't find any useful words to comfort me, so he could only hug me tightly.

The tighter he hugged me, the more I cried. The sound was like a mirror smashed on the ground. The sound was like broken. Lin Haonan was so distressed that he began to wipe the tears off my face with his hands.

"How do you think he could do this?" I asked crying.

"Well, it's his fault." Lin Haonan wiped away the tears on my face again, heard the buzzing sound in my nose, still couldn't help getting up to get a box of tissues.

Turning on the bedside light, I sat up from the bed, Lin Haonan sat cross-legged across from me, and handed me the tissue.

I reached out and grabbed it, took out a tissue and wiped my nose.The huge snot sound made the atmosphere a bit humorous and awkward. Lin Haonan couldn't help laughing again when he looked at me.

"You can still laugh!" I blamed him with tears in my voice.

Lin Haonan was still smiling: "Okay, I was wrong."

I cried for a while, but after being teased by Lin Haonan several times, I couldn't cry anymore.Immediately bursting into laughter, I chased him and beat him all over the room. He said that I cried like a very simple and honest little brown bear.

"You are like a brown bear! Your whole family is like a brown bear!" I ran after him and hit him with a pillow.In fact, Lin Haonan ran much faster than me, but he deliberately pretended that he couldn't outrun me, and stopped to let me hit him with a pillow.

I also hit hard, even though it was a pillow, it was unambiguous at all when I hit him on the head. His hair was messed up by me, but he still had an extraordinary temperament and delicate features.

In the end, I was tired from the fight, and my anger towards Lin Haonan almost disappeared, and I even stayed in the room feeling a little hot.

We lay back on the bed again, Lin Haonan seemed to be struggling with whether he should hug me again, but seeing that my mood was still stable, he lay obediently beside me, with a distance of [-] centimeters between .

When a person stops, his mind will think a lot.

In just these three hours, I figured out a lot.

Wen Jichen and I felt that there would be no result. It was impossible for him to marry me, and it was even more impossible for me to marry him.Although we have physical and spiritual relationships, the moral and ethical boundaries are separated by a thick mountain.

I don't know what price will be sacrificed for crossing this mountain.

If Wen Jichen and An Ruoyi get married, it should be a good thing for the two of us.

If this is the case, it is painful, as long as I am alone is enough.

Thinking about it, I couldn't help feeling bored again, I moved aside abruptly, wrapping my arms around Lin Haonan's strong arms.I dare not hug his waist directly, I just want to feel that there are people around me.

I could clearly feel Lin Haonan's body stiffened, and after a while, he relaxed again and pulled his arm from my embrace.I thought he was going to reject me, so I just planned to turn my back.

He stretched out his arms and hugged me, and I rested my head on his shoulder.

He sleeps with me in his arms and doesn't touch any sensitive or near sensitive places.I thought to myself, if he is not gay, he is such a good man.

"Are you still feeling uncomfortable?" In the darkness, he asked suddenly.

I shook my head against my will, and somehow suddenly remembered the girl I saw during the day, the world is really unfair, right?Sometimes, I look down on the world that is always bullying.

Just like at this moment, I look down on Wen Jichen's behavior after I left.

This world always messes me up, but there is always a soft place in my heart that still feels sorry for its shortcomings.So I still love this world that has disappointed me so much.

Like, I love him.

When people encounter more emotions, they will become sentimental.Once a person becomes hypocritical, even the articles he writes and the words he speaks are hypocritical and full of literary flavor.

It always puts the readers in an embarrassing situation where they seem to understand but do not understand.

But many of my readers just love this feeling.

I closed my eyes and wrapped my arms around Lin Haonan's waist.His warm body gradually calmed down my chaotic mind, but... I slowly.

Slowly, I felt something strange.

Is he gay?

Isn't he?

Does he love andy?

The answer is, he doesn't love it.

I felt his body temperature rising gradually, and felt his hands on my shoulders slowly exerting force, and his body was becoming stiff.What is he holding back, he is restraining his own needs and desires...

I remembered he was gay, but I forgot he was also a man...

I opened my eyes in embarrassment, what should I do now?There is a bar within a hundred miles, I'll find him a duck?

Lin Haonan seems to be a very sensitive person, he knows his own reaction, and he also noticed my worry. "Don't worry...it's okay..." Lin Haonan comforted me.

"Oh, you Liu Xiahui." I laughed and laughed.

"I can't help it. My parents raised me to be a good character." Lin Haonan joked with me if he didn't seem to.

In fact, I feel that I am quite selfish. It stands to reason that I should stay away immediately at this moment. It is good for him and me, but I am greedy for the warmth of my embrace. The emptiness left by Wen Jichen's betrayal needs someone to fill it up .I was reluctant to leave, so I could only let him endure.

"Lin Haonan, tell me the truth, do you like men or not?" I asked.