bad love

I don't know what the hell I'm thinking right now, no purpose, no center.The weeds in my life seemed to have been cleared away, but it couldn't hide the self-evident desolation.

Baiman often came to play with me and brought me snacks and drinks. She said that since I am Wen Jichen's younger sister, I must be her younger sister.Whenever I hear such words, my heart twitches involuntarily.She always told me innocently how many words Wen Jichen had spoken to her today and how many times she had been called by her name.

However, Wen Jichen never said a few more words to me.

Time is wasted by me day by day, and it seems that a semester has passed.After the marriage, the stepfather and mother went out for their honeymoon for a period of time, and during that time, Wen Jichen hardly came back at night.He always waited for me downstairs the next morning, and the gap between them was like a mountain.

"Doudou, Beicheng's family has a Christmas party on the weekend, let's come together!" Wang Yanxi said cheerfully while packing her schoolbags when she arrived at school early in the morning.

I opened my eyes and asked, "Will Baiman and brother go?" Actually, if they go, I won't go, that's my plan.

When Wang Yanxi heard Bai Man's name, she curled her lips: "The one you walked recently was quite close to her. Of course they went, although I really don't want to invite that little bitch. Forget it, anyway, it's fine." Have fun." She sat down and said to me.

"That... can I not go?" I was a little embarrassed.

When Wang Yanxi heard it, she instantly cried and said, "Who will play with me if you don't go!"

I'm downcast, all right.

"Haha, there is a huge swimming pool in his house, but the water is very cold, so no one swims that day." Wang Yanxi still said excitedly.

When I went home at night, my stepfather and mother did not come back.I guessed that Wen Jichen would not come back today, so I planned to turn on the computer and play for a while before going to sleep.Usually Wen Jichen picked me up early in the morning, and I was the only one to go home after school. Wang Yanxi couldn't shout at all because she cared about talking to Gu Beicheng after school.When I think about it, I really don't have many friends at this school.

As soon as I turned on the computer, I heard the sound of the door closing downstairs. I thought it was my mother coming back, so I hurried down to check it out. I really couldn't stand being alone.

In the end, when I went downstairs, Wen Jichen came to meet me. I looked at him, and he looked at me too.

"Brother, you are back." I pretended to be calm and greeted and planned to escape.

I don't know when, I started calling him "brother", and it has become a habit.

"Well, sleep at home tonight. Dad and auntie went on a business trip, and they asked me to take good care of you." Wen Jichen's tone was very light, he was always so gentle, but his words were quite polite.

I nodded and turned to go upstairs.

"Have you eaten yet?" Wen Jichen asked behind me.

I nodded again and continued walking up.

After ten o'clock, I lay in bed and couldn't fall asleep. Andy said "good night" to me on WeChat.He said that when he returned to China, he felt that his stepfather didn't love him, and he said that he wanted to grow old alone.Whenever he said something like this, I couldn't help but sarcasm and talk to him.However, the number of times I insulted him with words became less and less, even he himself wondered.

At this time, I would laugh and say, why are you so cheap, you have to be scolded to feel at ease.

He asked me if I was unhappy, and said that my words had changed very little, and I also lost my usual insults to him.

I said no, I just couldn't find myself a little bit.

I don't want to talk to him anymore, because I don't even know myself.

I turned over and heard the sound of Wen Jichen making the bed in the room, and I listened carefully.After a while, there was no movement, probably sleeping.

I feel sad, but can't say why.

Going to and from school as usual, just like that day, taciturn, he didn't speak and I didn't speak either.In this way, on the weekend, Wang Yanxi came to Tixiang Caotang.

"Wen Jichen went with Bai Man. I came to pick you up because I was afraid that you would get lost in Beijing alone." Wang Yanxi said very righteously, because she gave up the chance to appear with Gu Beicheng.

The taxi slowly drove into the villa area. I don't know what this place is, but at first glance, I can tell that it is lived by rich people, the richest of the rich.

I was wearing a winter dress with a small fur. This is what Wang Yanxi dressed me up before going out. She also put on delicate makeup for me and took me to do my hair.She said that she must choose a rich and reliable boyfriend for me on this day.But as soon as I got out of the taxi, I got goosebumps on my legs from the cold.For this reason, I have been greeting the eighteen generations of Wang Yanxi's ancestors all the way.

Together with Wang Yanxi, they entered the local tyrant's house, passed through the three-story small bungalow, and came to the backyard of Gu Beicheng's house.There is a large swimming pool here, and the transparent blue liquid looks sparkling under the light.After entering the backyard, I miraculously didn't feel cold anymore, and Wang Yanxi also seemed to be relieved, stepping on small high heels and doing warm-up exercises on the spot. "How about it, isn't it cold? There is a carpet air conditioner in his backyard."

I admit that I am an idiot, I have never seen such a world, long white tables, bar counters, high stools, and all kinds of wine.They surround the swimming pool, with a path in the middle for people to walk, and a large open space at the end of the swimming pool, which is the dance floor.

As soon as Gu Beicheng saw Wang Yanxi, he quickly walked in front of us, and they kissed each other in front of me. "Hey, which beauty are you bringing?" Gu Beicheng didn't recognize me when he saw me.

"Liu Xiangsi." Wang Yanxi looked at him in disbelief.

Gu Beicheng was surprised, "I haven't seen her for a while, she's even more beautiful than last time. Well, she's on par with my wife." His compliments sounded like teasing to me.

I smiled silently.

I looked around, looking for the familiar figure.

"Are you looking for Wen Jichen?" Gu Beicheng looked at me and asked.

I nodded.

"He's over there." Gu Beicheng pointed, and I looked in the direction he pointed.I found that Wen Jichen was surrounded by a group of women. I was surprised that they wore less clothes than me, and their breasts were almost ready to be seen.Showing thighs and backless, I shivered when I saw it.

Those who dare to love the winter, they don't know the cold.

I didn't plan to look for him, and I didn't see Baiman.When Wang Yanxi saw Gu Beicheng, the two of them flew together, so who cares about me.I was bored and sat on the high stool alone, and asked the waiter for a glass of dark beer. I couldn't believe it was poured from a bottle this time.I looked at Wen Jichen in the distance, and took a sip of wine sullenly.

I sat for a while, and the bottle of dark beer was finished.

I want another bottle, yes, I'm going to get myself drunk!

"Beauty, are you alone?" When I opened the second bottle in a daze, I heard a man's voice.

I turned my head and saw a white face.His hair has a light luster like black jade, and his angular face is extremely handsome.I squinted my eyes to take a closer look.He smiled and stretched out his hand to me: "Hello, my name is Chu Peiran." Under the influence of alcohol, I stretched out my hand without thinking: "Hello, I'm Liu Xiangsi, please give me your advice."

The corner of his mouth raised a nice arc, and he firmly grasped my hand.I frowned and broke free from him, and in a blink of an eye I saw Wen Jichen looking in my direction indifferently, his sharp eyes were not looking at me, but Chu Peiran beside me.

With a smile, I took two cups and put them in front of me and Chu Peiran, and poured the dark beer into the two cups. "Come on, cheers!" I laughed and raised the glass to touch Chu Peiran's, raised my head and drank it down, "let the Adam's apple move back and forth rhythmically".

After drinking a glass of wine, I became even more dizzy.

It doesn't matter if you're dizzy, I don't know anyone here, Wen Jichen is my brother but he's not by my side.Sitting alone felt awkward and boring.I blushed and put my hands on my forehead, however, I didn't know how full of spring I was at this time. "It's so hot!" I frowned and took off the fur on my body. The pattern on the back of the dress was a hollowed-out tiger, and I felt a chill on my back.

I walked past the swimming pool at an S-shaped pace, and I saw Wen Jichen walking towards me, under the eyes of a group of women.How unlike my brother he is.

I was dizzy and dizzy. Actually, I was awake, but I couldn't see the way.

I vaguely saw Baiman passing by me, but she didn't greet me.Suddenly, I felt that I had kicked something hard like a chair leg, and my foot was empty, and I fell into the swimming pool.

The cold water chilled me to the core.

I do not know how to swim.

I feel cramps in my feet, how beautiful the blue liquid is, sparkling in the moonlight.I stayed in the water, my eyes were still open and I saw Baiman's complicated expression, I was still thinking about struggling, I felt that I couldn't float, I was struggling like a landlubber in the water that was ice to the marrow, I wanted to stand stand up.

My legs were also cramping and I couldn't move.The cold water hindered my breathing and entered my nostrils. When I closed my eyes, I seemed to vaguely see Wang Yanxi grabbing Baiman's shoulder and slapping him. It was a mess...

Life is tragedy, and if it is not the end, it is the endgame.

I still remember the past days, the time is always lazy, the memories are also very dull, there is no one who reminds me, say I remember clearly.Probably that day when I first arrived in Beijing, that handsome man shouted "Liu Xiangsi" from a distance. I only remember the sky that day, which was very blue.