Golden branches around the East Palace

Chapter 206 Enlightenment

This kind of Lian Qianqian can't help but make An Xizhen feel surprised. She has known Lian Qianqian for a long time. Although she hasn't dated many times, in her impression, Lian Qianqian has always been a generous and cheerful girl. She has met her before. Some other great ladies are different.That's why An Xixi likes to associate with her.

But now Lian Qianqian suddenly lost her anger, which made people very puzzled.

An Xixi retreated the people who were serving in the hall, and pulled Lian Qianqian to sit down: "What's wrong with you? Why haven't you seen each other for a few days, as if you lost your soul?"

Lian Qianqian looked at An Xixi, who was still bright and charming, and couldn't help sighing. After a long time, she replied listlessly: "Xi'er, I suddenly feel that life is so meaningless."

"How do you say it?" An Xiyi didn't understand the meaning of life.For her, first, to live.Second, live happily and freely.As for other things, it was beyond her cognition and consideration.

"The last time I ran away willfully, I let my parents worry about me, which is really unfilial. My parents raised me so much, but I always let them worry about me. I feel very sorry for them, so I want to listen to them and obey them No matter what kind of person they choose for me to marry in the future, I will not complain. After all, they are all for my own good. Moreover, they love me so much, they will definitely not see me being wronged "Even Qianqian was depressed for a long time, and there was no one around her who could speak her mind. With An Xixiong, she finally had a chance to speak her mind:

"But my heart is like a restless monster, always wanting to break out of the cage and see the light of day again, and let me live in a way I can't imagine yet. This kind of thought is terrible, but the more I suppress it , the more depressed. I have resigned myself to be a good daughter, and I know that this may be the best choice for me. But I can't break through the obstacles in my heart. Xi'er, I feel good Contradictions, but I can't tell my parents these words, I don't want them to worry about me anymore. They have done enough for me."

Even after Qianqian finished speaking, the two of them remained silent for a while.

An Xizheng digested Lian Qianqian's words for a while before she could appreciate the meaning.

She has not received the training of an authentic lady, so from the very beginning, her goal is to rely on her own ability to make her life more comfortable.She has a different starting point from Lian Qianqian. She has accepted the cruel existence of more than 20 years in her previous life. Even if she has the opportunity to live a comfortable life, she will think of the obstacles that may be encountered in advance, and then clear them up step by step, and finally achieve what she wants. the goal of.For her, this is an instinct that belongs to her.

But Lian Qianqian is different. Lian Qianqian is a lady who has received more than ten years of feudal ideological education. Even if her ideas are a little out of the ordinary, she still wants to conform to this era in her heart.She was bound by the times and wanted to break free.So she struggled extraordinarily, but was powerless.

Perhaps in the eyes of many people, she is simply moaning for nothing.

But if you put yourself in her shoes, An Xizhen still admires Lian Qianqian very much, because her thinking has broken through the limitations, but she doesn't have the ability to realize the life she imagined.

　Today I will update two chapters first, and tomorrow there will be an update of ten chapters~ Dear friends, please continue to support Qiqi, and Qiqi will work hard!

　　
　
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