Xia You Arbor: Looking to Heaven

Chapter 109 What Do You Think About Me (3)
Qu Ningyuan likes Xia Tong's little action very much. Whenever she looks at him secretly with timid and clean eyes, he always wants to go over to hug her, love her well, and tell her that he is willing to give her the whole world , he will not let anyone hurt her, he wants to protect her well, let her look at the world bravely with those beautiful eyes.

"Xia Tong."

"Ok?"

"Have you considered what I told you last time?" Qu Ningyuan was slightly annoyed when he asked, but he was still too impatient, and shouldn't be asking now.

"I... I haven't figured it out yet."

Sure enough, Qu Ningyuan felt a little frustrated, but still looked at her thoughtfully and smiled, "It's okay, I won't force you."

"sorry."

"You don't need to apologize, I'll feel like you're rejecting me when you say that." Qu Ningyuan raised his hand to stroke the bangs on his forehead, and changed the subject, "Tomorrow is my 20th birthday, can you spend it with me?"

That day Xia Tong brought a large box of chocolates back to the dormitory, and her roommates surrounded her as soon as she entered the door. Recently, everyone has gotten used to Xia Tong bringing back a lot of delicious food to share with them when she goes out.Yan Rui was lying on the bed under a thick quilt and watching Jin Yong's "The Deer and Cauldron". Xia Tong walked over and put the remaining half of the chocolate on her quilt. Yan Rui looked up at her and continued to read. Reaching into the box, he picked up a piece of chocolate, peeled it off and stuffed it into his mouth, muttering, "You're back?"

"Ah."

"Did you have fun?"

"Ah."

"Why don't you eat?"

Xia Tong looked at the chocolate on the bed, and said lightly: "I don't have an appetite."

Yan Rui blinked, and looked at her in disbelief: "What? Will you lose your appetite?"

"Ah."

Yan Rui put down the book and asked with great concern: "What's wrong?"

Xia Tong hung her head and said nothing, Yan Rui waited for a while, then asked again, Xia Tong still didn't say anything.Yan Rui threw the book angrily, and shook off the chocolate on the bed: "If you don't want to say it, don't sigh in front of me, it's annoying."

It's like this every time, with a lot of things in my heart, but I don't want to say anything to myself, do I consider her a friend?bastard!

Xia Tong didn't expect Yan Rui to lose her temper so much, she panicked: "Don't be angry, I...I...I just don't know what to say..."

Yan Rui turned over angrily and ignored her, Xia Tong kept sitting on her bedside to apologize.In the end, Xia Tong didn't apologize anymore, but just sat quietly on the head of her bed, with her head hanging down like a child who had done something wrong, but Miss Yan Rui lost her temper, felt wronged, and just didn't want to talk to her.

Xia Tong sat beside Yan Rui's bed for a long time, until everyone in the dormitory fell asleep, and she still hadn't left.In the winter night, it was still very cold in the girls' dormitory. Xia Tong was already frozen stiff after sitting in a thin cotton coat for several hours.

In fact, Yan Rui didn't sleep either, she was just sullen and couldn't bear to talk to her, so she could only mutter bitterly in her heart, idiot Xia Tong, why don't you go to sleep, really, what should I do if I'm frozen?
"Yan Rui, are you asleep?" Xia Tong called her softly.

Yan Rui didn't speak, and after a long time, she muttered: "I fell asleep."

"Well, then I'll tell Yan Rui a secret who is sleeping." Xia Tong lowered her head gently, her eyes turned red before she could speak, "I know someone who always has a lot of secrets and a lot of secrets in his heart." It’s a lot of suffering, but he always doesn’t say anything. I’m like you, I always hope that if he speaks out, it won’t hurt so much.”

"Every time I say it to lie to him, I always say: Look, I'm asleep and I can't hear anything, so just say what you're unhappy about. I say that every time." Xia Tong's words were still mixed and broken: "But, even if I lied to him like this, he wouldn't tell me. He just hugged me and cried sadly."

Speaking of this, Xia Tong paused for a while, feeling two lines of tears sliding down her cheeks, cold and cold, but the narration continued: "I always blame him, why do I always bear it alone? Later, I also There are a lot of secrets, and I also have a lot of unhappy things, but I can't tell them."

In the darkness, no one could see anyone, and Xia Tong's voice trembled unconsciously: "I finally understand, it's not that he doesn't want to tell me, it's just that he can't say it. He doesn't want people he cares about to see his fragility , painful, ugly, selfish, he wants him to be a beautiful person in my heart, at least in my heart alone."

"Yan Rui, you are a happy girl. Maybe you will never understand this feeling. Yes, you should never understand this feeling, never."

It's really painful, it's really painful!Xia Tong's confession could no longer continue, the curtains blocked the flashing neon lights outside the building, and only one or two rays of light sneaked into the room through the gaps, smearing a few dark shadows on the wall.Yan Rui, who had been pretending to be asleep, suddenly felt a heavy, dull pain in her heart.It wasn't until many years later that Yan Rui realized that that feeling was called heartache, and that girl eventually turned into an unspeakable pain, a wound that would bleed when she touched it...

The next morning, Xia Tong woke up with red and swollen eyes. After applying cold towels for a long time, they were still swollen. It was obvious that she had been crying most of the night.There was still class in the morning, so Xia Tong had to borrow Yan Rui's black-rimmed glasses to hide her ugliness on her face. Yan Rui made fun of her for being dumb, and she was even more dumb when she wore big black-rimmed glasses.Xia Tong grabbed the glasses and looked ugly with them, and ugly without them. After struggling for a long time, she finally decided to wear them.As a result of wearing it, many students in the class laughed at her along the way, saying that she pretended not to be mainstream, but looked like a nerd. Xia Tong listened silently, but still insisted on wearing glasses.

When she was sitting in the seat, Xia Tong couldn't help but glanced back. Qu Weiran had already arrived, and she was sitting on the seat to do the test paper. Her bangs were slightly drooping to cover her eyebrows, her handsome face showed no expression.As if he had noticed her gaze, he raised his head and looked over. Xia Tong was startled, and quickly looked back, his heart pounding.

Since we broke up in the snow that day, she hasn't spoken to him anymore. In fact, it's not that Qu Weiran ignored her, but that she stopped looking for him, so the two of them seemed to have lost contact.Think about it, between the two of them, it seems that she always takes the initiative to find him. If one day she doesn't take the initiative, will he never come to her for the rest of his life?When Xia Tong thought of this, she felt aggrieved and wanted to cry in fear. She blinked her eyes vigorously to let the sourness in her nose recede, and beat herself on the head twice vigorously.

"Aren't you looking for trouble again, idiot? Knock, you're already stupid, and you'll become stupid if you knock again." Yan Rui came over and placed a huge cardboard box on her desk, "Here you are."

"What is this?" Xia Tong asked suspiciously.

"This is a set of rock climbing tools made in the United States. It's the best kind anyway. I can't speak English."

"What are you doing for me?"

"Didn't you say last night that you didn't know what to give for Qu Ningyuan's birthday?" Yan Rui raised her eyebrows and said, "I happen to have a set of this at home. I don't know that it was given away a few years ago. It hasn't been disassembled. No one uses it at all. Put it away." It’s better to give it to you as a gift in the box. Anyway, Qu Ningyuan likes rock climbing, so I just make the best use of it.”

"But... But this should be expensive, right?" Xia Tong asked worriedly.

"Is it expensive? I don't want my money." Yan Rui said it as a matter of course, "Otherwise, you can help me copy my class notes and homework for three months to pay off the debt."

Xia Tong rubbed her nose, hesitated for a while and said, "There are so many homework recently, let's copy for a month."

"Two months."

"No..."

"Four months."

"Two months then." Xia Tong compromised, looked at Yan Rui and smiled, "Thank you."

"Thank you, let's copy for two more months."

"No!" Xia Tong held the gift box and shook her head vigorously, Yan Rui flicked her head: "Yes! Not only do I need to copy notes and homework for me, but also help me with laundry, cooking, cleaning and carrying my schoolbag..."

"You beast!"

"Thank you for the compliment!"

Xia Tong held the gift box and looked at Yan Rui with a grateful smile. She really treated her well, and to have such a good friend like her, it was really because she smashed a dozen wooden fishes in her previous life.

Xia Tong decided to take the big gift box back to the dormitory first, but she was stopped before passing the flower garden of the library.Xia Tong turned around gently, and saw Qu Weiran standing not far away looking at her, Xia Tong was secretly happy, she didn't expect him to come to her, she couldn't help running over with small steps, raised her head, very He asked softly, "What's the matter?"

Qu Weiran looked at her carefully, narrowed her long and narrow Danfeng eyes slightly, raised her hand, took off the black-rimmed plate glasses on her face, looked at her swollen eyes as big as walnuts, and said in a low voice: "Sure enough Cried."

Hearing this, Xia Tong blushed a little, he still cared about him very much, Xia Tong couldn't help but pursed the corners of his mouth and smiled secretly.

Seeing her shy smile, Qu Weiran couldn't help softening his heart, and his eyes became much gentler. He sighed, half-lidded his eyelids, and just wanted to comfort him softly, but saw the big box in Xia Tong's hand: "What's this?"

"This is a birthday present for Qu Ningyuan." Xia Tong answered honestly.

Qu Weiran, who was exuding an elegant and gentle aura just now, seemed to be stabbed in the nerves suddenly, and the aura on his body immediately became eerie: "Prepare him such a big gift? What is it?"

"It's a set of rock climbing tools...I didn't buy it. Yan Rui's family happened to have this, and he...he likes rock climbing very much, so I..." Xia Tong explained in a low voice, and finally became more and more confident, "You If you're not happy, I don't have to give it away..."

(End of this chapter)