Xia You Arbor: Looking to Heaven

Chapter 140 Seeing You Again, It's Alone (3)
Shan Shan smiled vigorously, but tears kept falling down: "Mom, it's okay, you've been with Shan Shan for so long, it's really okay, Shan Shan will be good, be a good girl, and live a simple and happy life. I won't take revenge, I won't argue with Shan Yi'an, I won't settle accounts with my father, I won't be bullied by others, I won't like people who belong to me, I won't do anything you worry about..."

"Don't hold back! Seeing you working so hard, I feel so distressed. Mom!" Shan Dan threw herself on her mother's thin chest, crying loudly, "I like you so much, I really want you to be with me...but, but... ...Mom, mother...you go, I will be good!"

Tears flowed slowly from the tightly closed eyes of Shan Shan's mother, as if they could not stop, they fell one by one, as if she had heard her daughter's words, and said goodbye to her with great relief and reluctance.

That afternoon, Shan Shan’s mother left her forever in the warm sunshine of Chicago.

After the funeral, Shan Shan cut off her long double ponytails, because the mother who combed her hair the most is no longer around. She must be strong and fulfill her promise to her mother. She will not return to China or accept adoption, and live alone. Work hard to smile, work hard to be simple, and work hard to be happy.

(three)

In the early morning, the alarm clock in Shan Dan's room rang, she sat up abruptly from the warm bed, put on a sweater and thick down jacket, and rushed into the bathroom on the first floor in a daze, and rinsed herself with cold water tremblingly , finally woke up.

Open the door of the bathroom and look outside, every corner outside the room is clean and spotless, under the warm winter sun, it is as clean as shining, just stare stupidly, and say in disbelief : "Is this my home?"

Tang Xiaotian came out of the kitchen, wearing a navy blue woolen sweater with sleeves rolled up to his arms, and holding a half-wet rag in his hand. His handsome face shone with a hardworking brilliance under his neat short hair!His image instantly became extremely tall in Shan Shan's eyes!
"Wow, I must have picked up a snail brother to go home!" Shan Shan ran over excitedly and said, "Brother snail, you are so kind! My home is shining!"

Tang Xiaotian didn't say a word, looking at her smiling face, he suddenly thought of another girl, who used to be the same as her, always smiling for small things as if she had obtained great happiness.

But now, he couldn't even see her shallowest smile.

Thinking of this, Tang Xiaotian was so distressed that he could hardly breathe. He held his breath and frowned tightly.

"Brother Xiaotian, what's the matter with you?" Seeing that he suddenly fell silent, Shan Dan couldn't help but stepped forward to touch him.

Tang Xiaotian took a deep breath, shook his head lightly and said, "It's okay."

"Oh." Shan Shan withdrew his hand and took a step back quietly.In fact, she found out last night that Brother Xiaotian seems to have changed a lot now. When he was a child, he always exuded a warm temperature and righteousness, making people unable to help but rely on him. But Brother Xiaotian now, But it seems to be covered with a cold and oppressive protective cover, making people afraid to approach it.

Just looking at the clock on the wall, it was almost 8 o'clock, she hurried to the sofa to pick up her schoolbag and said, "Brother Xiaotian, I'm going to school first, you can leave it to me to find someone, I am familiar with several major hospitals in Chicago, don't worry."

"Okay." Tang Xiaotian nodded slightly.

After a morning class at school, Shan Shan called the nurses and doctors in several hospitals where her mother had been hospitalized, and asked them to help find that man named Qu Weiran.

After class, Shan Shan rushed to the house of Mrs. Liu, who was working part-time. Mrs. Liu immigrated here three years ago, and she taught English by Shan Shan, and occasionally let her run errands. The city where my daughter went to school sent some things, and the reward was good, so I just accepted it.

Just adding today's part-time job fee is enough to raise enough electricity bills. After paying, I returned home and happily opened the door: "Brother Xiaotian, I'm back!"

There was no one in the room to answer, just calling again, still no one answered.

The smile on Shan Shan's face slowly fell, and he murmured in disappointment: "Not here."

The room was obviously clean, but it was still the same as before, deserted and empty, making people want to cry at any time.

Shan Shan raised her head, took a deep breath, and when she lowered her head again, her face was full of smiles again. She hummed a little song, and hurriedly put the fresh vegetables and fruits she just bought into the refrigerator, and then boiled a pot of water , made a cup of thick milk tea, poured it into a thermos cup and stuffed it into a schoolbag, looked back to see that it was already six o'clock in the evening, and if I didn't take the last bus to the neighboring city, it would be gone.

Shan Shan sat on the wooden steps in front of his house with his schoolbag on his back, waited for a while, then bowed his head before giving up, ran to the station, and got on the last bus.

There were not many people on the bus, only one-third of the passengers were seated, and they just sat down in the middle seat, curled up in the soft double seat alone, pulled the scarf over their faces, and the hat on the coat Take it up, cover up your beautiful oriental face, shrink your whole body, and reduce your sense of presence in the car. This kind of behavior can make you feel more secure.

The car moved slowly, the inside of the car was pitch black, the street lights outside the car window were dimly shaking, Shan Shan lowered his head, holding his mobile phone to call home every half hour, but no one answered.

Just put the phone in his pocket, lowered his head and wondered if brother Xiaotian would leave?
No way, isn't he still looking for someone?
What if he found it himself?
Then you should tell me.

Ah, why aren't you at home?She thought that someone would be waiting for her when she came home today, just like a long time ago, when her mother was in good health, she always sat on the sofa in the living room and waited for her to come home. As soon as she opened the door, she could see Yes, that warm smile will wash away her exhaustion, and a single sentence: "Only, you are back." can make her happy as if she is in heaven.

Shan Shan raised his hand and knocked on his head vigorously, what were he doing, what was he being hypocritical about!Hmph, she's not a child for a long time, she's used to it, no one will wait for her at home anymore, right?

I'm used to it, don't be sad, don't be sad.

Be happy.

(End of this chapter)