Xia You Arbor: Looking to Heaven

Chapter 49

Now you're back, but it's not you I'm waiting for.

When the story was finished, it was already three o'clock in the morning, and the lights in the room were still brightly lit. Shu Yawang curled up on the sofa, her head drooping weakly, her eyes were empty and confused.

Her good friend Zhuzi was already crying, she hugged Shu Yawang tightly, not knowing what to say to comfort her, the two of them sat under the bright light for a while, Zhuzi couldn't help asking: "What happened later, what happened later?" gone?"

"Later?" Shu Yawang lowered her eyes slightly, and said with a wry smile, "Didn't I meet you later?"

Five years ago, she bought a train ticket going north, and secretly left home alone. When the train started, she felt that she had nothing.

It was on that train that she met Bamboo.At that time, Shu Yawang was looking out the window and weeping silently, and then felt that someone behind her gently poked her shoulder.

Shu Yawang ignored her, but the man persistently poked her shoulder and asked, "Miss Xia?"

"My surname is Shu!" Shu Ya looked at her with tears in her eyes, and finally realized that the person who poked her was Xia Mu's young head teacher!

"Uh..." The teacher was frightened by Shu Ya's stare and twisted his fingers helplessly. After a long while, he carefully leaned over and asked, "Um... are you crying?"

"No." Shu Yawang turned her head and denied.

"Oh." The teacher scratched his hair and asked with a dry smile, "Well, Miss Xia..."

"I told you that my surname is Shu! You are so annoying!" Shu Yawang was so angry that she flipped the table. She was already depressed and extremely sad, but when this idiot teacher disturbed her, she burst into tears!
The teacher pointed at her fingers helplessly, looked at her in surprise, and bit her lips aggrievedly, she just wanted to ask where she was going...

Thinking of that meeting, Shu Yawang couldn't help laughing, glanced at Zhuzi and said, "You used to be really stupid."

Zhuzi smiled a little embarrassedly: "You cried so badly back then, it scared me."

That time, she went to S City to work as an intern teacher. After the internship, she took the train home and met Shu Yawang. She will take the initiative to go up and say hello to her.After learning that she had no destination, he invited her to work with her in W City.

Zhuzi pursed his lips and sighed softly: "Time flies so fast, six years have passed in a blink of an eye."

Shu Yawang lowered her eyes, unable to see her expression clearly, she only heard her say slowly: "Yes, it's been six years..."

She raised her head, looked at the night near dawn outside the window, raised her hand to gently hold the kissing fish necklace around her neck, squinted her eyes and said softly: "Xia Mu, it's about to come out."

Xia Mu, as soon as this name was mentioned, Shu Yawang's heart ached deeply. Over the years, she would always dream of that indifferent boy with those empty eyes; she would always dream of him standing with a gun In the pool of blood, he looked at her with those empty and cold eyes and said, "Yawang, no one can bully you."

The hand holding the kissing fish necklace involuntarily tightened a little.

"Then, where is Tang Xiaotian?" Zhuzi asked cautiously, "Have you seen Tang Xiaotian in the past six years?"

Shu Yawang was slightly taken aback, then lowered her head and remained silent for a long time.

Zhuzi looked at her silently, and she also sighed softly, not asking any more questions.

The sky outside the window was getting brighter, and the alarm on Shu Yawang's phone suddenly rang. She came back to her senses, turned off the alarm, got up and said, "It's getting late, I'm going to work."

"Go, be careful on the road. Remember to eat breakfast."

"Ah."

Shu Ya looked out of the house. It was a bit cold in the winter morning. She pulled up her collar and walked to the bus stop sign with her head down. It was still early before work, and there were only a few people at the stop sign. The No. 23 bus to take came over, got on the bus, and swiped the card. Most of the seats on the bus were empty. She chose a back seat and sat down. The bus started slowly, and she sat in a daze.Half an hour later, the car stopped at a station not far from the company.

Shu Yawang got off the car, walked into the breakfast shop not far from the station, and ordered a dumpling.She sat on her seat and waited. Through the glass window of the store, she could clearly see the people across the road. She watched from a distance, a little absent-minded.Three years ago, she met Tang Xiaotian across there. At that time, she had been away from home for three years, and she didn't tell anyone where she went.Once in the middle, because I missed my mother so much, I couldn't help calling her. Shu's mother was crying secretly on the phone, telling her to take good care of herself, and come back when she feels free.

Shu Yawang could only nod repeatedly on the phone, and Shu's mother told her: "After you left, Xiaotian still wrote to you every day, and came home every day when he was on holiday. He said he didn't dislike you, and he waited for you to come back." .”

Shu Yawang held the phone tightly, bit her lip and whispered: "Tell him not to wait for me. Don't wait."

"Yawang, Xiaotian wrote you a lot of letters, shall I send them to you?"

"No, Mom, don't send it to me." Shu Yawang quickly refused, she was afraid of seeing Tang Xiaotian's letter, she was afraid that she would miss him uncontrollably, that she would not be able to persist, and that she would betray Xia Mu who was in prison.

But even if she refused, Shu's mother still sent her a large box of letters.She didn't dare to open it, not even one of them.She wrapped them layer by layer and hid them deeply under the bed.

How many times had she tried to open them?
She couldn't remember...really couldn't remember.

Later, one morning, she went to work as usual, but she saw someone she couldn't see on the street of W City.She saw the man in the green military uniform running towards her regardless of the traffic on the road, and she turned around in a hurry to hide.

She saw him looking around on the road, looking for her, and kept looking for her in the vast crowd.She saw him walking towards her, she quickly hid, she thought he found her, but he didn't, he was just tired of looking, just leaning against the other side of the wall.She squatted down and hid behind the wall, covering her mouth and crying secretly.He leaned against the wall, bit his lip, his eyes were slightly red, and he looked at the crowd sadly.

Shu Yawang thought that the encounter was just by chance, and that he would leave City W soon, but she didn't expect that every day after that, she would see him standing there, looking around, searching, and waiting.

For three whole months, he went there to wait for her every morning, even when Uncle Tang came.When she saw Uncle Tang beat him again, her heart ached like before, but this time, Tang Xiaotian didn't listen to his father, didn't leave, he still stood there stubbornly waiting for her.

Shu Yawang watched as Uncle Tang shook his head and left with a sigh, and couldn't hold back anymore and walked out.

She looked at him from a distance, Tang Xiaotian seemed to feel it, and when he turned his head, he found her in the crowd.

She walked up to him step by step, and he kept staring at her as if he couldn't believe it.She stood still in front of him, and he stepped forward with open arms, hugging her tightly.

Shu Ya didn't move, she let him hold her as obediently as before, she couldn't help crying, she missed his hug, missed him.

Tang Xiaotian also cried, and they could not say a word for a long time, because they all knew that they were not the original Tang Xiaotian and Shu Yawang; because they knew that they could not be together again; because they knew that their fate ended here That's it.

Shu Yawang said softly: "Xiaotian, go back."

"Yawang, Yawang, Yawang." Tang Xiaotian cried and called her name, with deep helplessness and despair in his voice, this resolute man, his tears wet her shoulders.Shu Yawang bit her lips tightly and said, "Go back, go back, please."

"Yawang, come with me, I will stay by your side, I will not go anywhere, I will stay by your side, never let you wait for me again, I will stay by your side, never let anyone bully again You, let me stay by your side..."

Shu Yawang shook her head, cried loudly, and cried, "It's late, it's really late, Xiaotian, it's really late, I can't be with you, I'm waiting, I'm always waiting, I'm waiting for you I waited for a long time, but in the end I still couldn't wait for you to come back."

Shu Yawang looked up at him, tears streaming down her face: "Now you're back, but I'm not waiting for you anymore."

"No, no." Tang Xiaotian hugged her tightly, unwilling to let go!
"Xiaotian, you said before that you were never afraid that I would go farther, see better scenery, or meet better men. Now I have gone far, far away, and I will go back I won’t go, I will never come back to you again.”

Shu Yawang pushed him away and took a step back: "Xiaotian, I have never formally told you, let's break up."

"Don't wait for me, don't look for me again, you will only make me suffer more..."

After Shu Yawang finished speaking, she bit her lip and turned around, crying bitterly while running forward quickly...

Tang Xiaotian didn't chase after her. He clenched his fists, looked at her back, and slowly squatted down, covering his cheeks in pain...

The breakfast shop was bustling with people ordering loudly from time to time. The corners of Shu Yawang's eyes were already wet. A fat figure approached her and brought a soup bowl in front of Shu Yawang: "Miss, your dumplings."

Shu Yawang recovered from the memories, took a deep breath, and smiled politely: "Thank you."

She lowered her head again and ate the dumplings bite by bite. Accidentally, teardrops fell into the bowl with cross rays of light, causing ripples...

The people who fell in love at first cannot stay together in the end...

The people who fell in love at first, went their separate ways in the end...

The one who fell in love first...

next time we meet,
I can't hold you tight anymore,

The one who fell in love first...

next time we meet,
I can't kiss you deeply again.

The one who fell in love first...

(End of this chapter)