There are too many routines for paranoid male gods

Chapter 321 Okay, How Long Will I Wait For You

"I've been trying, I've been trying, I want to forget him, but I can't forget him. I don't know what to do, I keep thinking, if only I met you from the beginning, from the beginning It’s good that the person I fell in love with at the beginning was you. In this way, there won’t be so many painful things, and in this way...everything will be different.”

Tan Qing said softly: "Fool, there is nothing wrong with this kind of thing. If you like it, you like it. If you don't like it, you don't like it. I didn't meet you before you fell in love with someone else. It's not your fault, it's my fault." I came too late. You don't have to force yourself to accept me. I treat you well because I want to treat you, not because I want you to accept me. Do you know?"

"Tan Qing, I watched a movie today, and there was a line in the movie. The girl asked why the boy was so nice to her, and the boy said, because he loves her. The girl asked, isn't it called love when two people are happy? Boy Say……"

"what?"

"Being in love is hard, more like you and me."

"..."

Li Shengxia's tears were still flowing, "At that time, I thought, I fell in love with Mo Nianchen, the love is so wishful thinking, you are so good to me, but I have been letting you down all the time, I know that falling in love is difficult , I know that I may never meet you in this life, I know that you deserve a better girl, but if you are willing to wait for me..."

"I want to try to respond to you. I want to try to see if we can be happy. Although it is difficult to fall in love, but you love me, at least I can try to like you."

"Actually, I like you, I have always liked you, otherwise I wouldn't tell you so many things about me, but...but that kind of like is always a little bit short...it can't reach love, it's very good , but it's not love."

"I know it all, stop crying." Tan Qing rubbed her head, "Fool, I don't have to ask you to respond to me. I never expected that we will love each other, as long as you let me continue to love you." It doesn't matter if it's love or not."

Li Shengxia shook his head desperately, "That's not the case. A person should pay so much for another person. He shouldn't have nothing. I should have rejected you. I should have rejected you earlier. I should have rejected you for any help to me. I refused to tell you anything about My affairs are far away from you, so that you don't feel that you have any chance. But I failed to refuse you, it was I who bound your life...it was I who made you what you are now..."

"There's nothing wrong with this kind of thing, Sheng Xia, don't blame yourself anymore. It's not your fault that you can't accept me. You rejected me a long time ago, and I insisted on staying. All of this I do it willingly. As I said, you don't have to accept me, you just need to let me keep guarding you like this. Do you understand? Don't cry. "

"Tan Qing, don't be like this all the time, okay? You also scold me occasionally."

"You are so cute, how can I be willing to scold you."

"..."

It is because of you, because you are so good, you never give me any burden, you never give me any harm, all I can get from you is beauty, so I don't feel the importance of you.

Because the hurt is the most profound, but you are never willing to hurt me.

Tan Qing, you are so nice, but I am too cheap.It's because I insist on liking Mo Nianchen, it's because I insist on guarding the feeling of bruises all over my body, it's because I always keep thinking about the past, and I deserve everything.

"Tan Qing, can you wait for me?"

"what?"

"Give me a little time, let me be myself, let me try to like you."

"Don't force yourself."

"It's not forced, I want to like you, I know it may take a while, but let me try, okay?"

"Is this your truth?"

"Ah."

"Okay, I'll wait for you for as long as I want." Tan Qing wiped her tears again, "You can stop crying now."

"Ah."

"Midsummer, I've imagined a thousand scenarios of confessing to you, but I didn't expect you to be the one who finally said such a thing. It's a bit regretful, but I'm very happy. You know my heart and are willing to try. Accept me, whatever the outcome, I'm very happy."

It's me who should thank you Tan Qing, I'm really afraid that I won't be able to do it myself in the end.

Even if that's the case, you will definitely say in the end, don't force yourself, Sheng Xia, follow your inner decision, Sheng Xia.

I don't want to hurt you, Tan Qing... I really want to try to like you, please, let me like you.

please.

"So, where are you going to live tonight?" Tan Qing adjusted her mood and started the engine again.

"I'll go to your house to see Yi Chen and Lemon."

"it is good."

Tan family.

Tan Qing has been living alone in another courtyard, not with her family, and there is no one else in the house except the housekeeper and a few necessary servants.

It was already midnight, and the two children fell asleep early.

There is no difference between Xia Yichen sleeping and waking up, he still looks like a little adult, which makes Li Shengxia feel ashamed, he is right, sometimes he looks more like a child than him.Probably because he had no father since he was a child, Xia Yichen has always matured precociously. He has taken on many things that he should not have taken on, but he has never complained at all.

Looking at Xia Lemon, who was sleeping with a lot of snacks in her arms, Li Shengxia couldn't help laughing, this snack guy, I really don't know who she looks like.However, it is precisely because of such a lovely woman that the past five years have not been so hard.

Looking at these two little guys, Li Shengxia felt that everything was worth it for both of them.

Li Shengxia sat by the bed, dragged his chin, and said to himself, "Yichen, Lemon, if you could have a daddy, what would you want him to be like?"

"Although you have never told me, you are actually longing for your father, right?"

"When Mommy was young, my mother left me very early. I also longed for my mother, and I didn't dare to tell my father. However, I know this kind of incompleteness, and I will be expected to fill it up one day anyway. .”

"But Mommy can't give you your father."

"Uncle Tan is very nice. You also like him very much, and he likes you very much. If we become a family, you will be very happy too. Will you accept him?"

"Mummy..." Xia Yichen suddenly opened his eyes.

Li Shengxia was startled, "You...how did you wake up?"

"I haven't fallen asleep." Xia Yichen said, "Mum, what about you, do you like Uncle Tan?"

This was the second time Li Shengxia asked him this question today, and he felt that it was necessary for him to have a serious conversation with her.

"..." Li Shengxia paused, "Why do you ask that?"

(End of this chapter)