For the rest of my life, please advise

Chapter 1 A Sudden Encounter (1)
You never know what will happen in the next second and who you will meet

Date: 2009.2.28
I was buried in a table of books and materials, calculating the progressive return of stock options.

The desktop vibrated, I dug out my phone from a pile of draft paper, and my mother called.

"Your dad's examination results came out. About two-thirds of the stomach needs to be removed."

I stopped writing: "Our accounting law professor only cuts one-half of his gastric cancer, and Mr. Lin's stomach ulcer needs to be cut by two-thirds?" Although my brain has been messed up by a lot of numbers, but for this new number remains highly sensitive.

"The operation is scheduled for Monday. Go home tomorrow, and I'll text you what you need to bring. On Monday morning, your father's work unit sends a car, and you come with the car."

Amidst my hesitant "oh", my mother hung up the phone neatly.

At that time, I was the same as any senior student revising my graduation thesis, wrapped in a down jacket, with sad and angry eyes and a blank expression.

Mr. Lin is my father, a senior political engineer, and a man who works overtime. He has a history of stomach problems for 25 years. During the Chinese New Year, he was anorexic and ate less.In the previous intermittent contact, the news I got has always been gastric ulcer erosion, accompanied by perforation.

People always have an instinctive intuition about bad things. For example, now, "two-thirds" is like a needle, cutting through all the abnormalities of the parents in the memory.

Date: 2009.3.1
When the car stopped at the gate of the cancer hospital, I felt like my head was blocked by a glass cover.Seven years ago, after the high school entrance examination, I was also taken here, and my grandmother had advanced nasopharyngeal cancer.

The little uncle came out to pick us up and took my shoulders: "I will be in the operating room at eight o'clock. Your mother wanted to hide it from you, but I didn't let you. You always need to know about this. If you feel uncomfortable, you can cry now. Don't let your mother see."

I nodded, lowered my head and quickly wiped away the tears.

The last row in the family waiting area.

I cleared my throat and put my backpack away: "Comrade, you did a good job of keeping it secret. How long have you been hiding it from me?" I sat down and took out a slice of bread from my bag.

"What are you doing?" She obviously couldn't take my calm reaction.

"I haven't finished breakfast." My nerves and heart have been hardened and calmed by years of ups and downs in life, "Do you want a slice?"

Mother observed my facial expression from the side: "You know everything."

"If the car is parked at the gate of the General Hospital of the Military Region, maybe you can cheat for a while longer."

The mother sighed, her eyes were red.

I reached out and stroked her back: "What did Mr. Lin say? Lesbians are generally not mentally well-conditioned, and they panic when they encounter problems."

The mother turned her face away: "You don't know how much pain your father suffered from being stabbed in the stomach."

I handed over a bar of chocolate: "You gave me a caesarean section and cut my stomach, so I'm not doing well now."

Before I finished eating the two slices of bread, I shouted outside: "Surgical bed 39, Lin XX." I ran out.

At the door of the corridor in the operating room, a doctor in surgical gown was holding a stainless steel bowl: "This is the part that was removed."

The mother who came later saw the things in the bowl, said "huh", closed her eyes and turned around.

I carefully looked at the red and white body in the bowl, which was as big as my palm and had just been excised from Teacher Lin.Suddenly feeling inexplicably sad and close, I leaned forward and took a close sniff. There was no smell of blood as I imagined, only the faint smell of disinfectant.

"The location of the tumor is higher, so the resection position was moved up than expected, and about 20% of the stomach was left."

I nod.The other party turned and went in.

That was my first meeting with the doctor.Forgive me for not remembering him well - he was completely covered.

At 12:[-], Mr. Lin was pushed back to the ward and was about to be carried to the hospital bed. The bed nurse stopped our wife and said, "Come on, two gay men, you can't lift it." My mother and I looked at each other, and there were only two of us here. Lesbians, the little uncle's company has something to go back to, where can I find two men?

The nurse looked at us helplessly and said, "Let me do you a favor. You can find another one to see the son of the patient next door."

At that time, the doctor just came back from the operating room without taking off his mask. He was about to change clothes and go to eat. When he passed the door of the ward, he bumped into me and looked up at the ward number: "Bed 39, what's wrong?"

I said, "Doctor, can I ask you a favor?"

The doctor said, Nie Yuan started from here.

Doctor's handwriting: Why do you just come up to smell it when you think of it?I almost thought you were going to hand poke.

Date: 2009.3.3
For 48 hours after the operation, I stayed by Teacher Lin's side without closing my eyes.He frowned and remained silent, and I could only judge his condition by his trembling eyelashes, until he pinched my fingers and opened his mouth: "It hurts."

After the anesthetic passed, my heart finally calmed down, and I kissed his forehead: "It won't hurt soon."

Our teacher Lin is a lucky man.

He grew up in a military compound when he was a child. Although his parents were busy with work, he was taken care of by orderlies in daily life, so he didn't worry about his life.

Afterwards, he left home to go to school, and he was considered a handsome guy. On the weekends, the bed sheets and quilt covers were picked up and cleaned by female classmates with a heart of tigers and wolves, and he hadn't done much.For this period of history, he has been quite intimidated until now.

After work, they will be divided into dormitories, a small apartment of [-] square meters, a set for two people who are single, and a set for a family who have become a family.In this kind of dormitory, the most indispensable is the character of Sister Ma: nagging, but quite caring for the daily life of young people.His roommate is a local, and his mother brings food to nourish his son from time to time. The old lady is kind-hearted, seeing that Mr. Lin is as thin as a bamboo pole, she also brings it to him to nourish him.

Later, he fell in love with my mother. Unfortunately, my mother is also a clean freak who removes the curtains and washes them at least once a week. Now he doesn’t even have to wash his clothes and quilt covers—my mother thinks he doesn’t wash them clean.

After we got married, we shared a house and lived in the same community with my grandparents. The old couple saw that the young couple worked hard, so they took on the work of lunch and dinner. He and my mother took turns making breakfast.

Later, with me, under the cultivation of my mother’s all-round self-care ability and the blind worship of Teacher Lin, I took over the tasks such as making him breakfast, matching clothes, and even drinking water and handing teacups. Since then, Mr. Lin got rid of the last bit of worry, and it lasted for more than 20 years.

My mother always told me that all her patience in this life was wasted on Teacher Lin.

Having said so much, I just want to express a point of view—Ms. Lin has been spoiled by us, and we have become used to it...

This time he used the knife, from walking on the ground to dressing and rinsing, our mother and I did it all.

My first face-to-face contact with the doctor was when Mr. Lin was putting him to sleep on the third night after the operation.At that time, I squatted on the side of the bed in a twisted posture that surpassed Sister Furong's. I put my right elbow on the bed as a point of strength, and my forearm supported his neck and shoulders, letting his head rest on my arm. stroking his back.

Before that, Mr. Lin took off the oxygen, and there were still four tubes left on his body, the gastric tube, nasal feeding tube, urinary catheter, and drainage tube. In this semi-conscious state, he was still able to snuggle into my arms accurately when I held his neck up for massage, and then fell asleep... I was extremely embarrassed, relieved, and resigned to my fate.

Just as I was twisting in such an inelegant posture, the door was pushed open, and the room was checked every two hours within three days after the operation.The doctor on the night shift came in with a low-beam flashlight in his hand. When the light clearly scanned my posture, he was obviously taken aback.I thought I should explain, so I said in a breathless voice: "The incision hurts, I can't sleep."

The doctor pursed his lips and smiled: "Can you help me?"

"No, thank you."

He nodded and left.

At that time, the light was very dim, and my mind was all on Teacher Lin. The first impression the doctor gave me was nothing but a tall and thin back.

Doctor's handwriting: You just ordered me around, and you can forget it when you turn around.

Date: 2009.3.4
On the fourth day after the operation, Mr. Lin's consciousness was clear for many mornings, and doctors big and small came to round the ward.

Director A: "How is the situation today?"

Me: "Except for the flatulence and a little pain, everything else is fine."

The director checked the abdominal belt and the incision: "It's normal to be flatulent. I'm almost going to pass out today. You can start drinking water after you've drained." He raised his head and smiled at our mother and daughter, "Recovering well, both of you have worked hard. gone."

Hearing this sentence, the tall and thin doctor who was lowering his head to record beside the director raised his head and smiled slightly at me.

I don't know how to describe those eyes, they are clear and soft, it reminds me of a poem I read a long time ago, "She walks in the beautiful light and shadow, like a cloudless night sky, full of stars", there is an empty and quiet place in it The world, people almost fell into it.

I was dazed for 0.1 second, and glanced at his badge - Gu Wei.Teacher Lin's bed doctor.

Growing up watching Mr. Lin and other beautiful men, I thought that I was a little bit more resistant to good-looking men than ordinary people, but I still couldn't help but sigh in my heart, these eyes are really sinful.

Date: 2009.3.5
On the fifth day after the operation, after breakfast, my mother came for me to rest.I walked out of the ward with an apple and a knife, leaning on the handrail in the corridor and slowly peeling.

I enjoy peeling the fruit more than eating the fruit.The angle of the blade is constantly adjusted, and watching the thin peel gradually form a complete circle is a good way to soothe your emotions.

I cut it in half, and when Fuzhi raised his head mentally, Dr. Gu was five meters away, walking in my direction, still with thin shoulders, and walked as silently as a cat.

I lifted my wrist, and quickly wanted to finish the work in hand, but in a hurry, the peel broke...God knows what my dull expression was.He stopped in front of me, his eyes wandered between me and the peel on the ground, his mouth was pursed, and he smiled politely: "Peel the apple."

Doctor, you are so polite...

I was caught by his beautiful eyes again, and my head became hot, and I handed out the apple in my hand: "Do you want to eat an apple?"

The other party laughed: "No, thank you. I'm going to check the ward."

After his white coat disappeared behind the door of the next ward, I realized that the apple in my hand hadn't been peeled yet...

At 9:[-] in the morning, the door of the ward was pushed open, and a man in a green surgical suit with a hat and a mask tightly covered walked in.I leaned on my forehead and thought, from such a distance, I can easily recognize a man who has not been in contact with him for two days by his back, footsteps and even sixth sense. What does this mean?
Dr. Gu took a look at Mr. Lin who was sleeping, walked to me, handed over the folder and said in a low voice, "Your father's hanging water has been adjusted today, please take a look."

The names and effects of the medicines are clearly marked on the treatment plan. I read each and every one, confirmed that there is no problem, and signed it.Dr. Gu was watching me sign with downcast eyes, only a pair of eyes were exposed on the whole face, so when I raised my head, I fell into his eyes unpreparedly - it was a feeling of my brain being emptied in an instant, like falling Into a huge suspended bubble.

His eyes blinked twice, I quickly returned to my senses, and handed over the folder: "Thank you."

"You're welcome." He put away the folder and left, took two steps and turned around, "You can also take a little rest when he falls asleep."

After Dr. Gu left, I looked at the sleeping Teacher Lin in distress. Would people think that I was not reserved?
Date: 2009.3.6
On the sixth day after the operation, Mr. Lin started to drink rice soup. The most painful days have passed, and he is now in good spirits.

When Dr. Gu came to make the ward rounds, I was sitting at the end of the bed giving Teacher Lin a Zusanli massage.

Dr. Gu: "How is the complementary food today? Do you have any gastrointestinal discomfort?"

Teacher Lin: "Bloated."

Dr. Gu: "This is normal. If there is no vomiting and nausea, you can increase the amount of rice soup tomorrow. It should not be too thick. Don't add too much at once, just increase the number of times."

He was standing less than 30 centimeters away from me. I was in a conflict between wanting him to leave quickly and wanting him to stay longer, and the back of my neck began to heat up.

With a smile on his face, Dr. Gu turned to Teacher Lin: "Let me ask, do you usually not do housework at home?"

Our mother and I gave a serious "um" subconsciously.

Teacher Lin's old face was a little uneasy: "Working, working."

Mother: "Occasionally stir fry."

Dr. Gu's smile widened, revealing a row of white teeth: "Is it true that my wife has washed and cut it, and you are only responsible for frying?"

I worshiped him at that time, you only had one operation with him, and you can find out that you spend no more than 5 minutes in our ward every day on average.So he said out of nowhere: "Now medical schools offer criminal investigation and reasoning courses..."

After I finished speaking, I was embarrassed, the doctor laughed, and my mother laughed too.I looked back at him in embarrassment, the curve of the jaw is really beautiful.

Dr. Gu said goodbye and left, after a while——

Mom: "What are you smirking at?"

Me: "Huh? Ah... Oh, even the doctors can see that we are too used to Teacher Lin, hahaha."

Doctor's handwriting: I thought at the time that you were too used to him.Then one day, after four surgeries in a row, I was sitting in the office inputting data, and I was so tired that I thought, if only someone was so used to me.

Date: 2009.3.8
Since getting out of bed for the first time three days after the operation, and staggering to start on the fifth day, Teacher Lin has made rapid progress.At the same time, Dr. Gu and us gradually became acquainted. When he saw us in the corridor, he would joke with Mr. Lin: "You follow two VIP special care wherever you go."

On the eighth day after the operation, Mr. Lin had already walked very sloppy, and could walk in a straight line without my help.When I passed the door of the doctor's office while walking, he held my hand and said, "Look quickly."

My heart skipped a beat at that time: "No way, Mr. Lin can see it..." I glanced in rather guiltyly, and there was a young man in a white robe sitting on Dr. Gu's seat.

Teacher Lin: "See that young man? He's quite handsome."

I really want to complain, you have a disease and your interest in life has changed, you actually brought your daughter to pay attention to male sex at the door, could it be that you have been assimilated by so many middle-aged women... I glanced again, white skin, Chinese character face , a pair of glasses.I gave a pertinent evaluation: "General." I supported him and prepared to leave.

Teacher Lin was instantly serious: "It looks like a movie star."

Well, as far as your eyesight, Leung Chiu Wai and Lau Ching Wan can't tell the difference, this comment is too watery.

I didn't say anything, and walked away: "Exaggerate, you are so ordinary." I really felt that if I was caught lying on the door of the doctor's office to look at the handsome guy again, it would be embarrassing, so I dragged and hugged me. The old boy got rid of it: "Let's go, there is nothing to see."

Teacher Lin insisted: "It's really handsome."

I took him in my arms and continued walking: "I don't care about the doctor."

When we got to the elevator, we turned around and walked back.

Teacher Lin began to retort: ​​"Doctor Gu is also very sunny, but this young man's face is more three-dimensional."

Me: "It's not a pile of blocks."

Teacher Lin: "He is younger than Dr. Gu."

Me: "Dr. Gu went to school three years longer than him. In today's world, technology flow is more reliable."

Teacher Lin: "The young man is really good."

Me: "Doctor Gu is better!"

When I said this categorically, a nurse passed by us and gave me a strange look. My heart skipped a beat and I turned my head away——Dr. , black down jacket, gray cashmere sweater, slacks, sneakers, carrying a bag, as tender as a college student.

At that moment, I really wanted to bite my tongue and kill myself...

Dr. Gu was very calm: "Ms. Lin is in good spirits today, how is the incision?"

Teacher Lin: "I slept well last night. The incision hurts a bit."

Dr. Gu: "I'll take a look at the incision in a while. If the recovery is good, the drainage tube can almost be removed." After speaking, he nodded and smiled, and entered the office.

During the entire conversation, my eyes wandered and I tried to stay calm.

Teacher Lin: "Well, Dr. Gu is a good guy."

I swear, who said he is old?It is obvious that the white coat is aging, and it is necessary to create a steady image of a doctor.

(End of this chapter)