For the rest of my life, please advise

Chapter 52
Gu Wei: "It's not fair, it's much more painful now than it was then."

Me: "That's because you didn't suffer as much as you did now. I was in the same pain. Well, it's true that the pain is worse now." According to the logic, it should be when you go out when you are in love and you go out thinking like crazy, and you get married. It will be calmer after getting married, but the situation is completely reversed here.

Gu Wei sighed: "I'm sorry."

I was startled: "Hiss—don't tell me what you did to apologize to me when you were abroad."

"What are you thinking?!" Gu Wei raised his head, gritted his white teeth viciously.

I laughed.I'm really not that good at joking.

Gu Wei lowered his head and said in a low voice, "I feel uncomfortable."

I raised my hand to touch his face, turned around, and kissed his lips.Soft, nostalgic, without a trace of lust, pure lingering.

Due to my personality, I didn't flirt with Gu Wei a lot, and I didn't even say any love words to him.I think, the most I can say "I love you" to him when I have a baby, and then tell him on my deathbed, he is the sexiest and most beautiful person I have ever seen, makes me feel old, just look at it like this He can spend every day.

Me: "Don't send me off."

Gu Wei: "Yes."

Then, as usual, I carried my bag and went out without looking back.

It may be that I am not fully awake, or it may be that human emotions always have a little lag, and unfortunately I am good at reflex arcs.I wandered downstairs, still drinking yogurt.Hearing the sound of the wheels of the trailer sliding on the marble, he felt something was wrong, turned around and ran to the elevator.Hearing the sound of my breathing and heartbeat when I returned home, I left all the keys at home and didn't bring them with me, so I reached out and knocked on the door.

The door is opened.

Gu Wei was still the same as when I left, the top three buttons of his shirt were unbuttoned, and he was barefoot.

"Forgot something?"

I blinked, what should I say?Say "honey I haven't kissed you goodbye yet"?
Too hypocritical.

I actually want to bite him!do not know why……

Then I bite.Bit on his lower lip.Leaves a row of neat teeth marks.

〇_〇 Gu Wei was obviously surprised by me.

After playing hooligans, I was afraid that he would retaliate, so my brain began to quickly think about a reason, such as "only such a strong expression can express strong feelings" and the like.

Gu Wei: "Are you still going?"

Me: "Go..."

Gu Wei grabbed me in his arms and bit me.The two of us are indeed two alien creatures...

I licked my lips: "Why are you so violent?"

Gu Wei: "What are you doing back?"

Me: "Well—" I haven't thought about it yet.

Gu Wei: "Didn't you walk very quickly just now?"

Me: "Well..."

Gu Wei: "Huh?"

Me: "Hey." Smirking is omnipotent.

Gu Wei wrapped me in his arms.

Movies and novels are all deceptive. When you are emotional, you can’t speak, let alone "I love you".I lay in his arms and slowly calmed down.Then he got out and stroked his hair: "I'm leaving."

Gu Wei: "Yes."

Before leaving, I poked Gu Wei's chest angrily: "Let me tell you, I've awakened a long time ago! Don't always think that I'm not enlightened!"

Gu Wei grabbed me tightly: "Huh?"

I looked into his beautiful eyes and found that "I love you" is really hard to say, so I said reservedly: "Oh, I'm rather shy, and it's not that I don't understand."

Gu Wei's expression was subtle, his brows were slightly furrowed, but the corners of his mouth were smiling.

This expression... I decided to slip.

He grabbed her back and said, "Don't leave until you make it clear."

"I have to catch a plane!"

"It's early."

"It's getting late!" I was going to take the bus and walk over, so as to get into the mood.

"I'll see you off in a while."

"No! If you send me off, you won't be able to leave!"

Gu Wei didn't care.well……

Later he sent it.

Arrived at the terminal.

Me: "Okay, go back quickly."

Gu Wei gave a "hmm", leaned over and kissed my forehead, then turned and left.

Neither of us ran towards each other this time.

I looked at his back for five seconds, then turned around to change the boarding pass, and I thought I might cry if I had another second.

While waiting for the plane, I wanted to call Gu Wei, but I thought he was driving, so I gave up.Think about it again, if you don't call now, it will be more than ten hours later.But what did you say when you called?In this entanglement, I still dialed the past.

"Are you driving?"

"No."

"Ok?"

"Have you entered the waiting hall?"

"Gu Wei, you don't really stand still, do you?!"

"I'm sitting in the car right now."

"..." Novels and movies are all lies.

"School."

"Ok?"

"Remember to send emails or phone calls every day. Well, if the call is not answered, the email will still be sent."

Gu Wei is acting like a baby?Shocked, I hung up the phone and boarded the plane.

Send a text message to Gu Wei before shutting down: Gu Wei, I have always loved you very much.

You'll never know how much I love you, just as I'll never know how much you love me.

We have all spent so much effort trying to wrap love and make it appear peaceful and calm, so it will slowly transpire and accompany us until we grow old.

The empty mountain does not know how old it is

Arriving in P City, going through various procedures, and getting familiar with the surrounding environment, it was really a hectic few days.

Busy during the day, lying on the bed at night but unable to fall asleep, so I touched my phone and sent a text message: Gu Wei~
Back to two words: sleep.

＞_＜ One dollar a piece, can't you post two more words? !
Before I came out, I took a lot of pictures of Gu Wei, and I read them every day before going to bed.

Me: I'd rather you come out and I'm home.

Gu Wei: I don't want to.

Me: Gu Wei, I miss you so much.

Gu Wei: Concentrate on studying and work.

Me: I don't work anymore, you can support me.

Gu Wei: I can't afford it, but I still have to raise children.

Me: no more.

Gu Wei: Grandpa is beside me.

I:……

Gu Wei: If you have time to miss me, it means you are not busy enough.

Me: Are these two related?Unless I'm dead tired, then I don't want to.

Gu Wei: ...

Me: I gained a lot of weight.

Gu Wei: Of course you can't eat Western food according to the habit of eating Chinese food.

Me: Do I have to start counting calories and eating too?

Gu Wei: Eat more high-quality protein and eat less junk food.

Me: I have a colleague, his wife, she can tell you the calorie content of anything, as long as it is edible, she can glance at your plate and tell you how much you are eating No amount of fat, no amount of protein, no amount of carbohydrates, without blinking, just like a robot.

Gu Wei: Ah...

Me: There is another physics student who is younger than me and has more than 20 papers!
Gu Wei: There are mountains beyond mountains.

Me: It's too much pressure to be a school bully.

Gu Wei: With me, it’s fine.

Me: Some people joked that only idiots use guns in school murders, and that laser poisoning is viral infection, which saves effort and is effective in making alibi. Any one is top-grade.

Gu Wei: Do you usually talk about this?

Me: I chose a non-lethal major.

Gu Wei: I don't think it is such a happy thing to have a wife who studies chemical weapons.

I:……

The weather is getting colder, and there are more surgeries, and Gu Wei's rest time becomes irregular.

I often get text messages from him when I'm having lunch, and it's early in the morning when he's there.

Holding my phone with a bitter face, I persuaded: Go to bed quickly.

Gu Wei said lazily: I can't sleep.

I said: Then you think about me, and then you sleep.

Gu Wei: Then I can't fall asleep!

I want to scratch my face!

In the video with Mr. Lin, he was nestling on the sofa eating kiwi fruit, his whole body was lazy, his calves were swaying.

I looked at it and felt something was wrong: "Dad, take off your socks."

"Ok?"

"Socks, the socks are off."

He took it off innocently, shaking his feet at the camera.

I yelled: "Mom! Come here!"

Mother ran over: "What's wrong?"

Me: "Look at my dad! The entire sole of the foot is deformed."

Teacher Lin's limbs are very slender, narrow from the waist to the legs to the feet, and now the entire base of the toe bone is widened horizontally, and the originally long and thin feet are now like duck feet.

My mother was dumbfounded: "It's not like this in summer..." (Mr. Lin's rhythm of cotton socks and sleeping socks in autumn has never been barefoot.)
Me: "Take him to the hospital. He's deformed too badly."

After a while, the seal came up: "I just saw your parents go out."

Me: "Go to the hospital."

Yin Xi: "Isn't the routine inspection today?"

Me: "The sole of his foot is completely deformed. He doesn't have gout or diabetes, and the deformation is so serious in a short period of time."

Yin Xi: "What time is it? It's time for dinner, have you eaten yet?"

I do not."

Yin Xi: "Then I'll ask my brother to get the number first, and after I finish feeding Guagua, I'll send some food to your parents."

I thought: "OK."

I spent the rest of the time waiting for news, until it was almost early morning on my side, and I received a call.

Gu Wei: "I'm in City Y."

I fell silent for a moment...

(Brother Yin works in the Municipal People's Hospital. When Yin Xi got married, he and Gu Wei exchanged QQ and MSN. When Brother Yin received a call from Yin Xi, he told Gu Wei.)
Gu Wei: "Muscle atrophy and joint degeneration after sudden reduction in exercise."

Me: "Why did you go to City Y?"

Gu Wei: "I was planning to come over this afternoon."

I:"……"

Gu Wei: "Why didn't you notify me as soon as something happened?"

Me: "I'm afraid you're busy."

Gu Wei: "No matter how busy I am, I am still your husband and your father's son-in-law, and I am still his bed doctor!"

When Gu Wei gets angry, he seldom speaks loudly, but always slams out every word in a serious manner.I'm completely muted.

"I'm not only your husband, but also your family, your family's family." Gu Wei breathed out, "I don't want to be the last one to be told every time you have something to do with your family. You Think about how I feel, when others tell me that your wife is sick; when others tell me that there is something wrong with your father-in-law. Lin Zhixiao, you—"

Listening to his ups and downs of breathing, my tears suddenly came out like that: "You were on duty last night...I don't want to disturb you."

Gu Wei calmed down a bit: "When sending grandma away, taking care of grandma and grandpa, and taking care of June, I know you are tired, but I still let you go because you are my wife. I can't be filial, You help me do my best; I will do what you can’t do. We are together, and we have responsibilities to each other’s families.”

The curtains blocked the light from the street lamps, the whole room was gray and dark, and the whole building was very quiet. I curled up in the quilt and sniffed, feeling a little wronged, but he was right.It was an indescribable feeling.

"Gu Wei, I miss you."

Gu Wei remained silent.

"Gu Wei, I miss you."

Gu Wei remained silent.

"Gu Wei, I miss you."

I just repeat it over and over again.

Finally he sighed: "Don't cry."

Mother: "What's the matter with you two?"

I:"……"

Mother: "Just now Gu Wei was on the phone in the car, and when he came back, he went into the room without saying a word."

I:"……"

Mother: "I know you two won't see each other, and you feel uncomfortable—"

Me: "Mom, we're fine."

Mother: "Okay, I've heard what Yin Xi said. I thought Gu Wei was called back by you. I guess I can guess what you two are trying to do."

I:"……"

Mother: "When you are young, you like to be in the wrong, and you two are bored. But how can two people live together, how can they always have a tacit understanding? Husband and wife, if they move and live together, they will be husband and wife. At any time, when you meet any No matter what you think, you must remember to discuss it with the other party, and each other knows what emotions and thoughts are in your heart."

Me: "Mom, we're fine."

Mother: "Oh. We elders feel uncomfortable seeing you two like this."

Me: "I need it for work."

Mother: "Gu Wei will go out at the end of next year."

If two couples work in the same city, do not engage in diplomacy, do not do business, and do not see each other for many years-I am not surprised why the divorce rate in X City is so high.

I hurriedly dialed Gu Wei, and when I heard him say "hmm" on the other end, I became incoherent: "Why are you leaving again..."

Gu Wei was puzzled: "I'm not leaving."

Me: "My mother said you will go out at the end of next year."

Gu Wei: "Hmm..."

I have nothing to say, I flattened my mouth and said "um~~~"

Gu Wei: "Why are you crying?"

Me: "Well~~~"

Gu Wei laughed at the other end: "How do you know the arrangements for the end of next year now. Mom lied to you."

〇_〇This is not my real mother.

Gu Wei: "But no one knows."

Me: "Then...then you stay and leave later."

Gu Wei: "...I won't go to peacekeeping."

I:"……"

Gu Wei didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What time is it for you, go to bed quickly."

Teacher Lin talked with Gu Wei, and what he taught was the parenting scriptures.

"You must listen to music. When Xiaoxiao's mother was pregnant with her, she listened to the piano for four hours a day."

"Nutrition must be well balanced. In addition to fruits, there are also nuts. How many walnuts did Xiaoxiao's mother eat at that time? After Xiaoxiao was born, she continued to eat. After eating for more than [-] years, she only grows her brain but not her heart. "

"You can't use nail clippers when you are just born, but you can't let your child scratch his face. The baby gloves sold in the mall are not good, they are too small, and then we have to buy silk and make them ourselves."

"You have to pinch him, when you have nothing to do, pinch your palms, soles of your feet, pinch more, your bones will become slender and slender when you grow up."

"When you hold him in your arms, you have to touch him from head to toe to stimulate the peripheral nerves. Children also feel safe."

"Wake her up in the morning, and pick her up before she wakes up! Your legs will grow longer."

Etc., etc……

Mother: "There are two hours in every three hours. I really don't know how the two of them can talk about this for so long."

On a rare weekend, I was dragged out of bed by my roommate in a sleepy state: "Lin, hurry up, we're going to the beach."

Early autumn is a good season to go out, the sun is not strong, there is little fog and rain.Wearing a windbreaker, I fell asleep amid the chatter and laughter of a carload of people, and when I woke up, I arrived in City S.

A said: "Young man, get excited!"

I rolled down the car window, the cool breeze poured in, and I squinted and looked at this beautiful city from head to toe.

Roommate: "Miss Mr.?"

I am a little embarrassed: "A little bit."

Gu Wei came back from Berlin and brought me a box of stones.So what should I bring?I just wish he was by my side right now, seeing these beautiful places with me.

My roommate, a biology student, joked: "If you need all kinds of medicine bottles, I can help."

There are many Chinese in City S, and the group ate at a time-honored Chinese restaurant.The roommate finished tasting a dish: "Lin, I think this dish tastes better when you make it."

I laughed: "It's too much, too much, praise and praise (in Chinese)."

My roommate looked at me blankly, and the shop waiter who passed by smiled and said, "It means that we must make delicious food."

When I went back in the evening, I stuck the camera out of the window, and while adjusting the focus, I discussed with the driver A: "Can you drive a little slower?"

The sun was setting, and the sky over the strait was full of sunset glow.Under the dome, a dark golden light shrouded everyone's face, almost plunging into everyone's eyes.

B said with emotion: "The breathtakingly beautiful suicide sanctuary, the bridge of martyrdom."

I keep pressing the shutter.

Roommate: "If possible, I would choose such a beautiful place to die in love with my lover."

Me: "Then I would rather buy a small house next to it, and bid farewell to the world quietly in the afterglow of the setting sun."

Then suddenly realized, what are we talking about!

Life without a bike is pretty healthy, but it's also pretty time-consuming.When my roommate saw that I was going to the store to buy one, he stopped me immediately: "I'm a fool with so much money?" Then he took me to a nearby flea market.

Responded to that sentence: No matter where there is a school, there is a market.

I told my roommate that when I was in school, the most common situation in the school was that car locks were more expensive than cars.

Because the cars are all second-hand (high-end and high-grade new cars can’t live for more than 5 days), the price is cheap. As for how many years you can use it, it depends on your ability.As a result, high-tech locks from all walks of life popped up, and some technical nerds modified them themselves.I once saw a fierce finding notice on the bulletin board: "I don't want the car, give me the lock!"

(End of this chapter)