Xinyiwu: Originally

Chapter 16 Summer Insects Can't Talk Ice

Su Yunjin's situation is completely different.On the day the acceptance letter was sent home, she was wiping the thin ashes off her father's urn.Unexpectedly, she performed well on the spot in the college entrance examination. She scored above average in mathematics and chemistry, which are usually the weakest, and was admitted by a good university in the south by mistake.

"Dad, I didn't disappoint you too much, did I?" She unfolded the notice to her father's portrait, then lowered her eyes, and murmured, "What should I do next?"

Having experienced his father's serious illness and death, this already struggling family has already been heavily in debt.After the school’s donation settled the hospital’s expenses, there was not much left. The pension and funeral expenses of my father’s death were all used to repay the debt, and only part of it could be repaid.Although her high school alma mater contacted the university she was going to attend for her, considering her family's difficult situation, the fee payment was postponed, and the payment would be made after the student loan was approved.But the current situation at home is that, not to mention living expenses, even the travel expenses to report to school are a problem.The relatives and friends who can borrow money at home have borrowed a round before, and the old debts are still outstanding. Who is willing to lend money to a family that has lost its mainstay and has no ability to repay?
Su Yunjin's mother is a gentle and honest woman who took care of housework for half her life and took care of her husband and daughter. She lost her support all of a sudden, and she had no idea except shed tears.Seeing her daughter's admission letter, she was both happy and sad, thinking of the future road, she didn't know how to go, and even hugged her daughter in the bare house and cried.Su Yunjin in turn reassured her mother not to worry too much, and no matter what the immediate issue of tuition fees was, she did not need to think about it for the time being.The money owed to the bank is paid with interest, which is better than being owed and repaid. The only sad thing is that after going to other provinces to study, there is only my mother left alone at home with my father's ashes, and I don't know what it is like to be sad.

But there was one sentence that Su Yunjin didn't say.She is not someone who doesn't think about her family. No matter how deep she is with her father, she is gone after all, and her mother is still young. Does she have to live alone for the rest of her life?If she is by her side, with her mother's personality, she must grit her teeth and want to guard her daughter for the rest of her life, and she will never think about her own affairs again.Su Yunjin's going away to study may also be a way to help her mother.

Su Yunjin has no time to worry, she can't rely on anyone, she has to think about herself and this family.There is a carton factory near her home. From time to time, some manual work of folding cartons is outsourced to the idle family laborers in the surrounding area. She also takes this job. Her mother works part-time outside, and she stays at home all summer vacation folding cartons.Earn five cents for every stack of ten.Su Yunjin can complete about 1500 pieces from [-]:[-] am to [-]:[-] pm. If she accumulates this meager money, plus the money her mother put together, it is estimated that it will be enough for travel expenses and living expenses for the first two months.

That day, Su Yunjin carried the last batch of completed cartons to the factory to deliver the goods. During the settlement, the person in charge gave her 350 yuan. Su Yunjin was stunned. She had calculated it herself, at least it would not be less than 450 yuan. , Why is it 100 yuan less for nothing?She hesitated to ask if the person made a mistake in the calculation, and the other party replied that because some of the finished products she handed in were defective, the money must be deducted.

It is difficult for Su Yunjin to accept this statement. She has always been very careful in her work. In order to reduce mistakes, she will check it before each delivery. If there are small defects, she will pick them out and redo them. Those who received the goods also said that she did it manually. It was done very meticulously. Besides, even if there are defective products, it will never be deducted as much as 100 yuan. The money is almost enough for her half a month's living needs.She is not a pungent person, but at this time she has to fight with reason, so she repeatedly begged the other party to figure it out, at least tell her which part is defective, let her see it anyway, seeing is believing.

But the other party didn't see the picture of her, a little girl who blushed when she spoke, and directly refused, saying that all the defective products were disposed of, and it was only 350 yuan. Going back, the premise is that the material fee must be deducted.

This is obviously a bully, and seeing that it is impossible for her to take away the finished product that has been folded, it is possible that she can still sell it as scrap.Su Yunjin remembered that she had worked day and night for nearly two months, her hands were cut by those thick cardboards countless times, and she had to suffer from being dumb in the end.But what can she do, she has to bow her head under the eaves, and she can't just turn around and leave for the sake of face. 350 yuan is also very important to her, who made her have no money?

When the other party accepted the money with impatient eyes, Su Yunjin's mouth was full of bitter taste, not a psychological effect, but a real bitter taste, as if bile had flowed back.

Walking back to the teacher's dormitory where her home is located, it seemed that someone downstairs in the unit was bending over to ask Grandma Li, who was enjoying the cool air, and Grandma said something with gestures. refer to.

The man straightened up, he was a tall, thin man with tanned skin, wearing a white baseball cap with the brim pulled down slightly, but Su Yunjin still recognized him at a glance.He walked towards her, taking big strides at first, then slowing down as he got closer.Su Yunjin looked at him at close range, and he hadn't seen him for more than 50 days. He seemed to have grown taller again, with no expression on his face, and his lips were pursed into a somewhat indifferent line.

"You come……"

"I come……"

Su Yunjin lowered her head and let him speak first.

"I came here to practice driving, and I just got my driver's license." Cheng Zheng's voice sounded careless, "There are relatively few cars on the way to your county town, so it's good to go back and forth to practice, by the way... Come and see, it's such a coincidence that I met you when you came back .”

Su Yunjin didn't know how to answer this question. He met her downstairs in her unit and came back. If it hadn't been "such a coincidence", would he have gone straight to the door.Moreover, although the county where she is located is not far from the provincial capital, the expressway is still under construction. The only secondary road is known for its poor road conditions, and the location of the county is even more remote. Come here with "By the way".

Cheng Zheng also seemed to feel that his words were not very tenable, and said irritably, "Okay, I came here on purpose. I just can't swallow this breath, you are too insidious, and you are making fun of me for a fool!"

"You can say whatever you like." Su Yunjin stood under the shade of a tree, avoiding his aggressive gaze like avoiding the scorching sun.

"I'm just so annoying that you wish you could stay as far away from me as possible?" Cheng Zheng's emotions were rarely avoided, and he finally found a way to vent his sulking after a month and a half.

Su Yunjin said: "I don't know what you mean. But all the schools I filled out are the ones I think are ideal."

She was also in a daze, ignoring the suspicion that such rhetoric was obviously trying to cover up.

"Well, you can go to your 'ideal' school, as far as you can go, I really think that no one can live without you!" He got angry, and his words became ugly again, but Su Yunjin was not angry, she was just a little bit Sad, can't tell who it is.

"Congratulations on being admitted to such a good university." She had heard about Cheng Zheng's situation more or less, and it was one of the honors of their high school.

He said coldly: "You don't need to congratulate me...I'm leaving. The road here is broken like shit."

Cheng Zheng said he wanted to leave, but he didn't move. The two stalemate for a while, but he was the first to lose.He took out an envelope from his bag, and thrust it in front of her very rudely, "Here, here you are!" He looked fierce as if what he wanted to give her was a dynamite packet with a ignited fuse.Su Yunjin didn't accept it and couldn't dodge it in time, he stuffed it indiscriminately again, the envelope and the strength of his hand hit her chest like a heavy fist.

Su Yunjin let out a low cry.Cheng Zheng only knew that he had accidentally hit her on the body, and his hand was extremely soft where he touched it. Before he could react, he quickly withdrew his hand and asked in panic, "Are you okay, does it hurt?"

Su Yunjin opened her mouth, but said nothing.His strength didn't matter, this one really hurt, but what was more terrible was not the pain, but the place he hit, she couldn't cover it, she couldn't rub it, she arched her back in pain, and covered it with one hand. His face was so red as if it was about to bleed, and the feeling of wanting to die in front of him returned.

Cheng Zheng also seemed to be aware of what he had just done, and under the weight of shame, the cool and flamboyant look he had put on before had long since disappeared. Looking at her expression with his hand covering his face, he couldn't speak well.

"Wh... how about it, it really... really hurts? Do you want to go see... No, no, I don't mean I want to see, I mean go to the doctor..." He took off his shoes and whipped himself again After seeing what the doctor said, he said that he wanted to give her money, but he hit her... Male doctor or female doctor?What should I do if I get hurt there?Never stick a plaster on it.He was frightened by the lewd picture he had imagined. He really should have taken off both shoes and pumped left and right, and he was afraid that he would get a nosebleed, which would not end well.Su Yunjin tried her best to hold back the idea of ​​rubbing it, and took a few deep breaths, the pain gradually eased, but the thought of dying only increased.She held on to the tree trunk beside her, secretly said to calm down, calm down, and don't argue with him.It took a while to say a word, "I beg you, please stay away from me."

Cheng Zheng really jumped and took a step back. With a blushing face, he finally remembered what he was still holding in his wicked hand, "You hold this."

In fact, Su Yunjin took a look at the envelope, and roughly knew what was inside. Judging by the thickness, it must not be a small amount.She raised her head and said clearly, "I don't want it."

"Don't swell your face to make yourself fat, just take it if I give it to you, even if it is lent to you." Through the old sun, Cheng Zheng learned a lot about Su Yunjin's family situation, and knew that even if she applied for a student loan, it would be inevitable. There are still many places where money is needed.He doesn't have a big idea of ​​money, he doesn't use it much at ordinary times, he has parents for food and clothing, buys game software, has a lot of pocket money, and people who have never stopped coming to congratulate him during the summer vacation, those people All gift money is in his hands.Although he was angry, he felt uncomfortable when he thought of the way she lowered her head and frown when she was worried. He didn't know how to treat her well, but he just wanted to give her what he had.Right now, he didn't care if she refused, grabbed her hand and tried to force her to hold the envelope.

Su Yunjin pulled her hand vigorously, her hand was wounded, and every crack seemed to be torn open again, but she couldn't compromise, and finally became anxious, and cried out in a crying voice: "Cheng Zheng, if you are good for me Just let go!"

It was only then that the hands that clamped her suddenly loosened, and he seemed to have noticed something wrong with her hands, "Your hands were bitten by a dog, how did you do that?"

Su Yunjin subconsciously hid her hands behind her back, not only avoiding to pick up the things he forcibly stuffed, but also unwilling to let Cheng Zheng see her hands clearly, with new wounds on top of old wounds, so ugly and mottled that even she hates it.These injuries were exchanged for 350 yuan. She had a clear conscience, but she didn't want to show it in front of Cheng Zheng.

"I can't ask for any more money from you," she whispered.

Cheng Zheng couldn't understand, "Isn't my money money? How dare you say you don't need it now?"

"I need to, but I'll take care of it myself."

"I'm here to help you out."

"I don't want yours."

He was silent for a while under her words that had no room for change, as if he had thought of something, he said "oh" in a drawn-out voice: "I see, you still don't want to have anything to do with me because you hate me. You're afraid I owe you Mine, are you afraid that I will pester you?"

Cheng Zheng's hurt tone made Su Yunjin's eyes warm, but she held back.

"I wouldn't want it anyway."

Cheng Zheng looked at the things in his hand, turned around and walked towards the parking place.He was so stupid, what was he doing here in such a rush, that he didn't sleep well because of it last night.He was bumped by the shit-like road all morning, and his driving skills were still jerky. He accidentally hit a tree halfway, and he was fine. The bumper was dented. I don’t know how his mother would scold him when he went back.He didn't want Su Yunjin to be moved or thanked for it, he just wanted to see her smile, just like when he said goodbye on the road that day.But she mercilessly drew the line with him.

He opened the car door and saw Su Yunjin still standing under the bush, looking cold, as if he was laughing at him.

Cheng Zheng yelled at her: "You think too much, I just pity you. Since you don't need it, there are beggars on the road!"

He started the car, but the first time he failed, it took a while before he managed to drive away.

Su Yunjin turned her head, this was the first time she saw him leave.In Christian language, it is said that "it is more blessed to give than to receive".In addition to the religious sense of compassion, she thought, it might also be due to the disequilibrium between "giving" and "receiving". "Giving" is easy to do, but "receiving" is often impossible to choose.He said he pity her, whether it is true or not, this is not the first time she has heard this.She is not detached, but if she has to accept alms from others, she doesn't want that person to be Cheng Zheng, she would rather humbly accept kindness from a stranger, but she can't show her cowardice in front of him, just like she hides. Lifted his mottled hands.Why did this happen, she didn't want to think about it, but there was a voice in her heart telling her that it was not allowed.

Grandma Li downstairs was still watching with a smile, as if she couldn't figure out what was going on.Su Yunjin went upstairs and looked at the road in the distance from the half-open railing before opening the door. For a moment she thought, since she has a driver's license, there should be no problem going back, right?For a noble and noble boy like him, in his world, being rejected by a girl he has a slight crush on is probably the biggest setback in his life.Xia Chong can't talk to Bing, he will never understand the world she lives in.

There were no cars on the road that was blanched by the sun, Su Yunjin took another deep breath, and the moment she closed the door, she heard the long chirping of cicadas on the tall trees.

(End of this chapter)