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Chapter 28 Replacing Words With Hugs
Cheng Zheng stayed in the hospital for seven days, and the two selves in Su Yunjin's heart fought and fought for seven days.A voice asks: Why are you afraid when you realize he might be in danger?Is the fear and despair of crying out of concern for a person who only has good feelings?On the way to take him to the hospital, why are your hands shaking?Compared with the horror of losing him, is the gap between the two people and those cares about gains and losses really that important?

Another Su Yunjin reminded again: You are making excuses for your weakness and sentimentality.You know it's not that bad and no one is going to die.He had no direct physical contact with the SARS patient, and it was most likely just a minor cold.With his family background and Zhang's relationship, he can get the best care, and you can't do anything.If you let yourself go and take this step, you will never be able to take it back.

Both voices were righteous and argued hard, Su Yunjin was exhausted, as if she had also suffered a serious illness.Cheng Zheng called her every day in the hospital, telling her the grievance and boredom of being "imprisoned".But listening to Su Yunjin's reaction on the phone was always indifferent, and thinking back to how much she cared about him before being admitted to the hospital, she couldn't figure out what went wrong with her.

On the second day after Cheng Zheng was admitted to the hospital, Su Yunjin received a call from her mother.It turned out that some time ago, my uncle was afraid of being affected by SARS and felt that it was not safe in a small county town, so he took the family of three back to his hometown in a nearby rural area. The traffic was blocked there, and there were very few foreigners. It was a good place to take refuge. In addition, Su Yunjin's new younger sister also had cold symptoms, and her mother was too busy to take care of her, so she couldn't contact Su Yunjin in time.

"You don't blame mom for not calling you, do you?" Mom said worriedly.

"How could it be, you're fine."

Su Yunjin is sincere, she doesn't blame her mother, in that situation, there is nothing her mother can do.But she still couldn't control herself to think, if her father was still there and her mother was just her mother, would they forget her for a while?On the day Cheng Zheng was discharged from the hospital, Su Yunjin still went to the hospital, but she didn't enter the ward area, but just waited in front of the rockery at the entrance of the hospital.As she expected, she was not the only one who came to pick up Cheng Zheng from the hospital, someone had already completed all the formalities for him, and among the few people who accompanied him out of the gate of the inpatient department, there were many people she was familiar with.

For example, Su Yunjin had met that beautiful woman who looked less than 40 years old at the parents' meeting in the third year of high school, so she knew that it was Cheng Zheng's mother, Zhang Jinyin. As she walked, she talked softly with a middle-aged man beside her.The outline of the middle-aged man was vaguely similar to Zhang Jinyin, but he seemed much calmer. If he guessed correctly, he was Heng Kai's current person in charge, Cheng Zheng's uncle Zhang Jinmeng.Even the glamorous young girl holding Cheng Zheng's arm had met Su Yunjin once - she would never forget that when Shen Juan held her hand for the first time, that girl had been watching from a distance. them.Su Yunjin was in a daze, she kept avoiding the relationship with Cheng Zheng, but she didn't know when, the lives of the two had so many intersections.

The whole family stood at the entrance of the hospital, not knowing what to say, the girl's light laughter could be heard from such a distance, and no one noticed Su Yunjin in the corner.Su Yunjin also hesitated, not knowing whether to go forward or leave quietly.While hesitating, a car drove out from the underground parking lot and parked beside them, and an unexpected person opened the door and came out, and greeted Cheng Zheng and the others with a smile.

Shen Ju'an?This was the first time Su Yunjin saw him after graduation.He hasn't changed much. Although his clothing image is obviously more mature and stable than when he was a student, there is still an indescribable calmness and appropriateness in his gestures, which makes him look more elegant.

Unexpectedly, it was Shen Ju'an who saw Su Yunjin standing aside first, he didn't show much surprise, as if such a reunion was completely expected by him.He first waved and smiled at Su Yunjin from afar, then turned around and spoke to Cheng Zheng.

Now the people over there looked at Su Yunjin's direction, and Cheng Zheng almost immediately shook off the young girl's arm, and ran to Su Yunjin's side with a look of surprise.Su Yunjin pursed her lips and smiled, his spirit was extremely good, not like a "patient" who had just been discharged from the hospital.

"The hospital is the most unsafe place now, why are you still here?" He deliberately said with a straight face.

Su Yunjin smiled and said: "That's right. If you don't tell me I almost forgot, congratulations on your discharge from the hospital. I'll go back to school first." After saying that, he made a gesture to leave, but Cheng Zheng would not be willing to take a step across her way to block her way, " Once you come, you are not allowed to leave."

While the two were talking, the rest of the people also came over, and their eyes focused on Su Yunjin at the same time.The pretty girl approached Cheng Zheng directly, took his hand affectionately again, tilted her head slightly, and looked at Cheng Zheng and Su Yunjin playfully.

Cheng Zheng shook her off like an electric shock, and said angrily, "Zhang Yue, are you courting death?"

Sure enough, she was the one Shen Juan said.

Zhang Yue frowned: "Hey, little Zhengzheng, how could you treat me like this?" After saying that, he entangled him again, this time deliberately tightening the grip, Cheng Zheng was embarrassed to use force, and couldn't get rid of it for a while, so he said helplessly: " You are addicted to watching soap operas, the acting is too fake."

Having said that, he still glanced at Su Yunjin nervously, and seeing her staring at him with a half-smile, he suddenly lost his mind, and said, "You won't even believe this, this shameful octopus It's my cousin Zhang Yue."

Su Yunjin didn't say anything, just looked at Zhang Yue, it's really puzzling that such an excellent girl needs to use wealth to keep the one she loves.

Cheng Zheng became a little anxious, even Zhang Yue saw that something was wrong, stuck out his tongue, and let go of his hands quietly.I don't know if it was Su Yunjin's illusion, but she felt that the rest of the people, including Shen Ju'an, were all looking forward to seeing the show.

"Su Yunjin, are you angry? She is really my cousin, I won't lie to you, if you don't believe me, you can ask her... Zhang Yue, come here..." Cheng Zheng thought of the indifference in her phone calls over the past few days, He couldn't help but feel uneasy, lest the turning point between himself and her, which was so hard to come by, would be in vain again.He said, pulling Zhang Yue again, "You killed him, tell me clearly." Zhang Yue giggled and hid behind Shen Ju'an, "Look at how stupid he is."

Su Yunjin looked at Cheng Zheng who was trying to defend himself, and suddenly smiled in relief. Before Cheng Zheng could figure out the meaning of the smile, she leaned forward and ended all his words with a hugging gesture.

Cheng Zheng lowered his hands, and for a few seconds his whole body was so stiff that he couldn't react at all. It was her body temperature and heartbeat that proved the authenticity of all this. Responding to her hugs with all my might...

"Tsk tsk, aunt, dad, have you seen it? Is this our little overlord? These two people seem to treat us as a set, young people nowadays... don't keep calling me immoral in the future." Zhang Yue relished Looking at it carefully, and trying to change the angle to observe more carefully.

He hugged him too tightly, and Su Yunjin was a little out of breath. She pushed him and struggled to break free from his embrace. No matter how forgetful she was, she couldn't ignore the undisguised gazes around her, including the elders of their family !Cheng Zheng let go of his embrace, but held her hand eagerly.Su Yunjin lowered her head in embarrassment.

Zhang Jinyin made no secret of her sizing up of Su Yunjin. If she was hesitant before, it disappeared after seeing her son's heartfelt happiness.It's because her son is stupid to think about it for a year or two, but it can't be stopped until now, so it can only be said that it is their fate.Deep down in her heart, she still thought that her son was too passive in falling in love with such a girl, but she could only respect his choice.

It's not that Su Yunjin doesn't know that her extremely ordinary attire is so shabby in the eyes of their family, but her strong self-esteem makes her force herself to raise her head to meet the other party's gaze.She was waiting for his family's judgment. Unexpectedly, his mother looked at it for a while, and suddenly smiled and said: "We met for the second time, can I call you Yunjin... After watching for a long time, I didn't think you were as stupid as our family." As my son said—he is a very cold-blooded person."

"When did I say that?" Cheng Zheng interrupted with strong dissatisfaction.

"In the summer vacation of your third year of high school, after "May [-]st" in your sophomore year, when you were preparing to enter your junior year, and two months ago, you said that you still want to play tricks in front of your mother?"

"It's weird, when people ask you how old you are, you always say you don't remember, but you remember these innocuous things very clearly." Cheng Zheng became a little annoyed after being exposed.

Zhang Jinyin raised her eyebrows, "How can my son's love life be an irrelevant matter?"

Su Yunjin thought, at first glance, Cheng Zheng and his mother didn't look very much alike, but now, there was nothing to doubt whether they were biological mothers or not, because the tone of voice and demeanor of the two were exactly the same.

Zhang Yue laughed out of fear that the world would not be chaotic, and he did not forget to turn to the middle-aged man beside him, adding embellishment and saying: "Dad, this is the poor girl whose head was picked up by Cheng Zheng in the photo. It's so miserable. I can't help but look at it." Fear……"

"Uncle, take them away, don't embarrass yourself by staying here." Cheng Zheng asked the middle-aged man who had been silent for help.Zhang Jinmeng, the man Su Yunjin had only seen photos of in financial magazines before, helplessly patted his nephew on the shoulder, and said, "To be honest, Ah Zheng, you did say that sentence just now, even I remember it. As for the 'cut-out photo', I haven't seen it, so I can't comment on it."

A smile gradually appeared on Su Yunjin's face, and she somewhat let go of her guard.It can be seen that Cheng Zheng was a child who grew up in a happy and tolerant family that was cared by everyone. Perhaps it was because of such a family environment that he had a childlike disregard in his character.

"Yunjin, long time no see." Shen Ju'an who had been watching this scene with a smile greeted Su Yunjin.

Cheng Zheng seemed to have remembered something, and quietly whispered into Su Yunjin's ear, "He is my cousin's boyfriend now."

Shen Ju'an finally surrendered to Zhang Yue's pomegranate skirt. What Su Yunjin wanted to know was whether he surrendered to his feelings, or whether he could not resist the temptation represented by the name "Zhang Yue".Which one is more important, dignity, love or dreams, he must have already reached a conclusion.

"Cheng Zheng, what are you mumbling about? I haven't even opened my mouth yet." Zhang Yue took Shen Ju'an's hand, and smiled at Su Yunjin: "The relationship is a little messy, so I said, life must be like this to be wonderful. "Shen Juan looked at Zhang Yue, with the intimacy unique to lovers in his eyes.

If it is true that life is like a drama, and drama is like life, even the change of characters is so unpredictable.When she and Shen Ju'an walked down the campus path hand in hand, how could they have thought about this scene, they were standing next to different people, laughing and talking Yanyan.However, the strange thing is that Su Yunjin doesn't dislike this young lady named Zhang Yue, and even thinks that her behavior is not artificial at all, and her personality is lively but kind.

"Yes, Ju'an, long time no see." Su Yunjin said.

Zhang Jinyin smiled and nodded to Su Yunjin, which was regarded as a formal greeting, "My stupid son who has no future has talked about you for countless times, my mother's ears have several layers of calluses, he is used to being lawless since he was a child, You should be more patient. Now it's all right, we don't have to suffer from this mental torture anymore."

Su Yunjin hurriedly smiled back.

Zhang Jinyin looked at her son, "You're fine, I'm going back too. Look at you, your hands seem to grow on someone else's body... I know you're impatient, so tell me, are you going back to your uncle's house now or to that small apartment?"

Cheng Zheng immediately expressed that he wanted to go back to the apartment, and Zhang Jinyin didn't force it, so she asked the driver to take them back, and she got into Shen Juan's car with her younger brother and niece.

Before leaving, Zhang Yue told Cheng Zheng maliciously, "Take it easy when you get back, remember to ask your cousin if you don't understand anything." Seeing Cheng Zheng shaking his fist as a warning, Zhang Yue grinned and got into the car.

After returning to the apartment, Cheng Zheng still clung to Su Yunjin tightly, as if she would fly away as soon as he let go, "Don't say it was a misunderstanding this time, even if it was a misunderstanding, I won't let you go." That farewell four years ago The pain left by that kiss is still there to this day, he doesn't want to try again after the ecstasy, and he doesn't want to try again, wishing that a part of his body will grow with her, so that she can never leave.

Su Yunjin asked curiously: "What photos did they say? What did you pick out?"

"Don't listen to their nonsense." Cheng Zheng said vaguely, he would not tell her that the photo is still in his wallet.

Seeing his appearance, Su Yunjin already guessed a bit, it was funny but also moved, and sighed, "Cheng Zheng, what's so good about me, is it really worth it?"

Cheng Zheng curled his lips, and said, "You really know how to put gold on your face. When did I say hello? You look average, but your personality is particularly awkward. You don't deserve to be beaten when you are stubborn. It's really not good... ...But, I just..."

"Why?"

"I saw that you were pitiful, so I accepted you." He was still stubborn.

"Oh..." Su Yunjin suddenly realized.

Cheng Zheng put her hand on his cheek and murmured, "But don't pity me, I don't want your sympathy..."

After saying this, he regretted it again, "No, if only sympathy can keep you by my side, then you can sympathize with me."

What else can Su Yunjin say, besides cuddling with him tightly, body language between lovers is often more soothing to each other's heart than talking.But after a while, she couldn't help pushing him away again, and said worriedly, "Cheng Zheng, I want to discuss something with you."

"What?" Cheng Zheng's breath was unsteady.

"Well... next time... um, next time... can you slow down when you come here... it always hurts me..."

"Is that what you mean?" Cheng Zheng demonstrated.

After a long time, Su Yunjin said helplessly, short of breath: "...Well, I didn't say anything just now."

She leaned into his arms, and for the first time, she didn't have to urge herself to leave.Then let's be together, put aside all worries, even if such a decision is wrong, even if we torture each other in the future, leave tomorrow's things to tomorrow to regret.Su Yunjin thought, dodging all the way, unexpectedly there will be today.Just like in Eileen Chang's writing, Bai Liusu and Fan Liuyuan, who used the fall of the whole of Hong Kong to complete, could it be that the whole country is talking about the chaos of sickness and discoloration in front of them, just to fulfill Su Yunjin and Cheng Zheng, who have been hiding for several years?Don't laugh at her for deceiving herself, in any pair of lovers' hearts, her feelings are enough to win the city.Don't ask her why after resisting for so many years, all her defenses collapsed in an instant, she just decided to be honest with herself once.

(End of this chapter)