The male god actually has a crush on me

Chapter 244 No matter how bad it is, I want it too!
Gu Jingqi's words were invisible and sad.

Nan Sheng's heart couldn't help throbbing.

He remembered that before playing Truth or Dare he said that there was a woman by his side!
He is so good, the woman who is with him must be just as good!

There is a huge difference between him and her, no matter in terms of background or education background.

She is an orphan who grew up with low self-esteem and rejection.

In the face of such a superior man, she will subconsciously question herself.

Even if they were together, his family would definitely not agree.

What's more...

He must still love that woman deeply in his heart now, otherwise, he would not have said such a thing.

Although at this time, the distance between her and him has been shortened, she can clearly hear the heartbeat and breathing from his chest, and can clearly see the contours and appearance of his face, but Nan Sheng still feels that she is very interested in him. Very strange, very far away.

The total length of time he and her have known each other is less than a month.

In such a short period of time, how could it be possible for her to fall in love with him with all her heart and soul?

Nan Sheng lowered his head and explained in a low voice, "I didn't distrust you, nor did I feel that you were playing with me. I know that what you did just now is something that every normal man would do. I can't put all the responsibility on you. Because of me, I was also at fault."

"It's my own fault, it's me...not worthy of you!"

"You are a very good, excellent man, you are not bad, you deserve a better woman."

"If it's possible, we... can be friends and family members. I... In short, I won't be boyfriend and girlfriend with you."

How long she can stay in Nancheng, she doesn't know.

If she selfishly agreed to be with him, what if Long Shaoze found her?

If it were someone else, she wouldn't have to worry about so much, but this person is Gu Jingqi.

She didn't want him to have an unclear relationship with the Long family just like her.

She has lived in the Long family for so many years, how painful it will be to be entangled by him, she knows how she has the heart to let him be implicated!
Gu Jingqi's eyes darkened, seeing through Nan Sheng's worries and fears, he straightened her face, and forced her to look at him, "Because of your background, you feel that you are not worthy of me?"

Nan Sheng hesitated for a moment, then replied, "Yes!"

"But I don't mind! I don't care what happened to you before, I just want your present and future, will you agree to be with me!"

I didn't get to know him deeply before, and I didn't know that he was such a stubborn man.

Nan Sheng couldn't bear Gu Jingqi, but she still insisted on her reason and determination, "I said, you and I won't be boyfriend and girlfriend, there are many other things besides life experience, Jing Qi, we It's not as simple as you imagined, maybe the me you see from your eyes is not the real me at all."

"Then what kind of woman should you be?"

Nan Sheng's eyes were moist again, she bit her lower lip lightly with her white teeth, as if she didn't want others to see through her embarrassment, but she still made a weak voice, "It's unbearable, so I'm not worth it at all, You come to pursue."

Nan Sheng's words made Gu Jingqi's heart ache.

He couldn't imagine what she had experienced before.

After getting along for so long, he somewhat understood her temperament.

She has relatively strong self-esteem, and under normal circumstances, she is not willing to reveal this to the outside world.

She told him just now that she was miserable, what did she mean by miserable——

The room suddenly fell silent.

Gu Jingqi looked at her, and it took a long time before he spoke, "I like you, so I have to accept everything about you, no matter how unbearable, I want it too!"

"If I want to bring up the past, then I am too miserable!"

"I'm not clean in body and mind. I loved a woman before and stayed with her for 12 years, but she gave up on me and our children for her own career."

12 years together?
Nan Sheng was startled, and couldn't help raising his head, "Is this woman the one I mentioned in the bar before?"

"Yes!" Gu Jingqi said frankly.

"You, have you ever been married?"

"I originally planned to get married at the end of this year, but we broke up."

Nan Sheng was very surprised by his words, "You have been together for so long, how could..."

It was hard for her to imagine how the two of them who had spent such a long time in love ended up breaking up?

"She betrayed me. My father didn't allow us to be together because she was an actor. She said acting was her dream. So, I went with her despite my family's objections. However, in order to win the actress, she Sleeping with another man!"

"However, there are many unspoken rules in the entertainment industry. It's just that I have been turning a blind eye to it."

"I'm sorry..." She didn't expect that Gu Jingqi would say this to her, "I didn't mean to poke your scar."

"Oh," Gu Jingqi chuckled, "These things are over."

Nan Sheng didn't want to ask this question at first, but the words had already come to his lips, "You love her very much, right?"

Gu Jingqi's Adam's apple slipped, watching Nan Sheng suddenly tighten her waist.

"I used to love it very much, but now, I already have someone I like!"

Nan Sheng's heart was hit hard by his words.

He said he likes...

She didn't dare to guess randomly, and slowly turned her face away.

"So Nan Sheng, do you still feel that you are unbearable now?"

"The reason why I tell you this is not to show how dedicated I am, let alone to tell you that I still love her. I just want to say that everyone has a past, but that past can only be regarded as growing up. , it cannot influence our future!"

"I'm willing to tell you everything about me, are you Willing to trust me?"

"Nan Sheng, do you know?" Gu Jingqi hugged him tighter and tighter, "You are the first woman who will make my heart hurt!"

"I want to know everything about you, I want to know you, I want to bear it for you, I don't want to, you carry everything in your heart alone, if you can, let me protect you in the future, okay? "

Gu Jingqi's words moved Nan Sheng.

Her originally resolute heart has begun to falter and is a little shaken.

Finally, she nodded, "I can tell you, but can you give me some time."

"Okay, I won't force you to tell me right away, wait until one day, you figure it out, you have the courage, and then tell me."

"Ah."

"good."

The two gazed at each other, and in the end, Gu Jingqi couldn't help but bowed his head again and kissed her.

Nan Sheng was taken aback for a moment, instead of resisting and rejecting like she did at the beginning, she slowly closed her eyes and accepted his kiss...

I'm rushing to draft...

(End of this chapter)