Bamboo Horse Pianist

Chapter 21

Seven years old
Luo Xi grew up lying on the chair-like swing in the backyard of her house and watching the sky. She was in poor health since she was a child, and she was too well protected by her family. Before she was seven years old, she was like a frog in a well. Does not prevent her from being a happy child.

She was brought up by her mother since she was a child. They live together in a big house with a nanny. Occasionally, her father will come back a few times. A family doctor will help her do a physical examination every week. Most of the time, this big empty house There are only three of them.She also has an older brother who was placed abroad by her father since she was a child.

Luo Xi has been very lively since she was a child. When she couldn't walk, she would crawl all over the ground; when she could walk, she would run around in every room; when she learned to talk, she would hug the baby Barabara and talk non-stop.

In her world, she never knew what unhappiness was.

When she was seven years old, Luo Xi felt that her mother was unhappy, and she hoped that her mother would be as happy as herself, so she planted sunflower seeds in the backyard, which grew into large sunflowers in spring and smiled happily towards the sun.She pointed to the sunflower and said to her mother, "Mom, look how beautiful the sunflower's smile is."

During the day, there was less laughter and laughter in the empty villa, because Luo Xi finally went to elementary school.

That was the first time Rosie knew that there were other people in the world besides mother, nannies, fathers and doctors, other children who were her size.

Luo Xi is naturally lively and cheerful, simple and kind, and is very popular in the eyes of her peers and teachers.

When she was a child, she had long braids, loose hair, and when she wore a bow, she looked beautiful like a princess.

Every time the school has a program, the boys rush to ask Luo Xi to be their little girlfriend; when the class wins any honor, the head teacher also likes to let little Luo Xi go on stage to receive the award on behalf of the students.

The most commendable thing is that Luo Xi has never been proud, and she is still very enthusiastic towards everyone. Her world will always be very beautiful.

Nine years old
When Luo Xi looked at the map for the first time, she couldn't understand anything, but she fell in love with those countries inexplicably. She drew a sunflower in every place she wanted to go, and there was the sunshine she wanted to look up at.

When she was nine years old, her wish was to travel all over the world, but unfortunately she made her ambitious wish, but was suppressed by reality before it could be fulfilled.

When Luo Xi was in the third grade, her grades began to decline, and the math problems were like a tall mountain blocking her way.

When she saw the bright red score of 59 on the test paper for the first time, she was sad all afternoon. When the class teacher who originally wanted to educate her saw her pursed lips in aggrieved look, the lesson she blurted out became comfort.

In fact, what the teacher wants to convey is to hope that she will not be too sad, and that she will spend more time and work harder in her studies in the future.But he didn't want Luo Xi to regain his previous good mood under the comfort of the teacher, completely forget the distress of 59 points, and become the energetic and playful Luo Xi every day.

This situation lasted until the second exam, when Luo Xi got a bright red score of 59 on the math paper.

Maintaining such grades twice in a row is really not something ordinary people can do, but the teacher began to worry, thinking about how to explain such grades to Luo Xi's family. You must know that the little girl has a great background, and the parents hope that she can be accepted. A good education, as can be seen by sending her to the best primary school.

When Roxi grew up, she realized that the thing she disliked the most was facing her father.

Every time he looked at himself with a serious face, which was very unpleasant.

Luo Xi didn't have a deep impression of his father. He only knew that he didn't love his mother very much, because if he loved his mother, he wouldn't come back once or twice a month.During the period, there were also some rumors that the father had other women outside.At that time, Luo Xi was still young and didn't know what other women meant.

That day, when she was picked up by the driver with her schoolbag on her back, she saw her father's car parked in the compound.

Her footsteps slowed down involuntarily, and she walked into the door of the house with some reluctance.

In the living room, she saw a figure sitting there, without looking very carefully, she yelled, "Dad, I'm back."

The mixed-race boy turned his head, a smile appeared on his handsome and gentle face, and he said, "You are Xiaoxi? I ​​am your math teacher."

That was the first time she saw Su Ye, and just that one glance cost her her life.

14 years old

When a girl grows her body, she is like a sprouting sunflower, growing rapidly.

14-year-old Luo Xi is more beautiful than any sunflower in the backyard.

She has long black hair tied high on the back of her head. She shakes it when she walks. With her sunny smile, she not only attracts the attention of boys in the same grade, but even senior brothers write love letters to her. Love letters are full, and her hair is often mentioned in the love letters, asking why she doesn't let it go?That must be more beautiful.

Luo Xi is not unusual, she likes ponytails, because Su Ye once said that she looks best with ponytails.

Yes, Su Ye has been her tutor for four years, but Luo Xi never called him Teacher Su, she always called him Su Ye Su Ye, even though her mother had scolded her for not being too old or young.

Luo Xi, a sophomore in junior high school, still doesn't do well in math. Sometimes she only makes mistakes on a very simple question, and she always falls short by a few points. She can get the first place in the whole grade instead of the second place forever.

Whenever she came home with her report card, she would obediently sit on the sofa and be scolded by her father.

After the training, she would go back to the study and wait for Su Ye to come and make up lessons with her.

Su Ye looked at her report card that day, and didn't start tutoring her like before. She had a dark and deep face that she couldn't see through.

But she is also used to it, it is like this when Su Ye is not talking, it is more esoteric than Mathematical Olympiad questions.

While she was sitting on the sofa and counting her fingers boredly, Su Ye slowly placed the previous report cards on the table one by one, staring at her with beautiful eyes, and said: "Every exam is about the same type of questions. You made a mistake in the past, Luo Xi, tell me, are you really unable to do it, or are you just too lazy to change it?"

Luo Xi blinked and blinked, trying to hide the guilty conscience and nervousness in his heart: "You mean that I did something wrong on purpose? How is it possible? I'm not an idiot. Could it be that I did something wrong on purpose and come back to make my dad scold me?"

"Really?" Su Ye said, "Then tell me what's so difficult about this question? Even the bottom-ranked person in the whole grade can do it. Why did you lose points here?"

"I-I won't do it...what's the reason..."

"No." Su Ye shook his head firmly, "From the first time you made a mistake, I knew you did it on purpose. You are lazy by nature, and you don't bother to even bother with such a small cheat. Xiaoxi, tell me, What is the reason why you deliberately made a wrong question?"

Seeing that he couldn't escape, Luo Xi didn't do anything, and yelled at him directly: "If I didn't do something wrong on purpose, there would be no reason for you to stay as a teacher!"

"..." Shock flickered in Su Ye's eyes. He tried his best not to think badly about a little girl. He paused for a moment before saying, "Xiaoxi, what do you want Recognize it, no matter whether you do wrong questions on purpose or not, I cannot always be your teacher."

"Then don't be a teacher!" After Luo Xi finished speaking, she realized what she said. Maybe it was lack of confidence, or maybe it was for other reasons. Her voice gradually became smaller, but Su Ye heard it clearly. She said: "Anyway, I never regarded you as a teacher."

Su Ye was startled, and his mind was instantly confused. He said, "Xiaoxi, don't talk nonsense. I have tolerated you. I am 15 years older than you. From now on, you will have to call me teacher, and you are not allowed to call me by my name."

But I don't want Luo Xi to refuse stubbornly: "I don't! So what if you are 15 years older than me, I like you, I don't want you to be just my teacher!"

The next day, Su Ye didn't come.

Luo Xi knew that he must have said something to her father, because she saw Su Ye calling her father that night. When she came home from school, a strange and beautiful female teacher was waiting for her at home. She said, "Xiao Xi, right? Starting today, let me be your tutor."

Rosie lost her temper for the first time. She dropped her schoolbag and ran out, bewildering the new teacher.

But she didn't run very far, and she was so painful that she clutched her heart and passed out.

Later, when Su Ye came back, Luo Xi saw him when he opened his eyes.

She took his hand and cried so sadly for the first time, she said: "Su Ye, don't leave, I will never say that I like you again, and I will never make mistakes on purpose again, please don't leave, okay? "

At that time, the naive she didn't know what method to use to keep the person she liked so much, so she only chose the clumsy way of "doing the wrong question".

It's like she simply thought that if she planted sunflowers all over the yard, she would be able to look at the sun happily and carefree like them.

She is a sunflower, but her sun does not want her.

15 years old

When Su Ye was 30 years old, Luo Xi helped him make his sixth birthday cake. Every year in the past, she would make his birthday cake with her own hands, as if his birthday was more positive and happier than his.

When she knocked on the door of Su Ye's house with a cake, a bright and charming girl opened the door and smiled at her: "You must be Xiaoxi! Come in quickly, your Teacher Su is already waiting for you!"

When Su Ye hugged that pretty sister and introduced to her: "Xiaoxi, this is my girlfriend, that is, your little teacher's wife."

Rosie's happiness falters.

When Su Ye went to answer the phone, Luo Xi pulled her pretty sister and asked with a smirk, "Why are you Su Ye's girlfriend?"

The girl was taken aback for a moment before explaining with a smile: "Because everyone at this age has to find a girlfriend. If it weren't for me, there would be other girls who would be his girlfriend."

Rosie, 15, is mature enough to know what it means to have a girlfriend.

That night, when Su Ye sent Luo Xi home, Luo Xi excused that he had something to give to Su Ye and asked him to wait in his study.

Time passed minute by minute, until there was a sound at the door, Su Ye turned around instinctively, but saw a scene that he would never forget in this life.

For a full five seconds, he froze as if unable to move, and then turned around quickly, in such a panic that he seemed to have killed someone by mistake.

"Roxi! What are you doing! Put on your clothes!"

She actually walked in naked like that without any clothes on!

It would be a lie to say that Su Ye has never seen a naked woman in her life for so many years.

But the girl in front of him is only 15 years old. Over the years, he almost watched her grow up. He never thought that her delicate body would be so charming that any man would be driven crazy...

However, it was also this kind of madness that made him loathe himself, how could he have such shameless thoughts about his students?

But Luo Xi stepped forward and hugged him tightly. She said pitifully, "Su Ye, do you hate me? Why don't you dare to look at me? Why would you rather like others than me? I promised After you, I never told you that I like you. That’s because I thought you didn’t have someone you like, but you have one. That person is not me...how could it not be me? Don’t you know that I saw you when I was nine years old? I fell in love with you at first sight? Why don't you like me?"

Su Ye closed his eyes and didn't dare to look down at all. His body was tense due to the touch of her delicate skin, and there was a look of pain between his brows. He said: "Xiaoxi, we can't, you want me to say How many times? I am your teacher, your elder, how can you like your elder? This is incest."

"No, I never regarded you as a teacher, I never called you, because I know I like you, I want to be your woman, not a student."

"Can't……"

"Why not? Why is that woman okay? Is it because of the big age gap between us? You know? My body has been looking forward to growing up since I met you, but no matter what, I can't grow up to the same age." I don't want to be so young at your matching age, is this my fault?"

"You are right. Your only fault is that you fell in love with me. Xiaoxi, you are still young, as young as the sun in the morning. What about me? I am already a 30-year-old uncle. When you grow up a little bit, you will understand. You I like me because you lacked the love of your father since you were a child. If I were really with you, after many years, you would find how beautiful the world is to you. You are left with a tired old man, but you are still full of vigor."

"No, you are my sun. With you, I will live a better life without withering... Don't use age as an excuse. Age aside, you also like me, right?"

"you--"

Her stubbornness made him not know what words to refute.

But she didn't care, she put her arms around his neck, stood on tiptoe, and kissed him with her lips.

Each other's hearts trembled violently.

Su Ye's disguise collapsed in this kiss, yes, he liked her, shamelessly liked her.

The love that was originally thought to be hidden for a lifetime, looked so embarrassed in her helpless kiss.

He kissed her in turn, as if he had finally obtained a treasure, cautiously but impatiently, his heart was full of contradictions.

Until he wants more than that, and more...

Until his hand touched the soft roundness, like an electric shock, he suddenly woke up.

Pushing away the confused Luo Xi, he left in a panic like a thief who has stolen something.

When he opened the door, he saw Luo Zhenhuan standing outside the door.

Facing Luo Xi's father's anger, Su Ye was extraordinarily calm: "I may be a neglected teacher, but I don't think I did anything wrong in the process. The only mistake is probably pampering her too much."

Su Ye stared at him, and then said: "Xiaoxi has lost her father's love since she was a child, even though you gave her a lot of material conditions. You never let her go through wind and rain, step into the mud, you will always be a school donator The person with the most money will guarantee her treatment at school, and if her academic performance drops, you will help her hire a tutor."

"But do you know her hobbies, her thoughts? She likes to draw, but in every family portrait she draws, there are only mother, driver, nanny, and me, and there is never a father. Even if the family cooks delicacies for her every day, But she only likes to eat the bento I bring every day, and she wants to change it with me. I am used to it alone. Every time I bring only vegetables and pickles in the bento, since she likes it, I have added various meats. I know She doesn't think my food is delicious, what she eats is just a feeling."

He was silent for a while, and continued: "One day she came home very disappointed. I asked for a long time before I found out the reason. She said that her mother would help her hold the parent-teacher meeting every year, and many classmates asked her if she No father? From then on, I helped her hold parent-teacher meetings, even if she was misunderstood as her father, it didn’t matter. Xiaoxi’s math is not good, no matter how many times I tell her, I will carefully make her understand. I couldn't sleep well, so I hummed songs and told stories to her every night, and didn't leave until she fell asleep. I admit that I did a little too much for a student, but it was because I felt sorry for her, when she missed her father , but her biological father was beside other women; when she wanted to ride on her father's shoulders like other children, I was the only one by her side."

Luo Zhenhuan said, "I didn't ask you to do this."

Su Ye smiled lightly, "Mayor Luo, not everyone can be as cruel as you, leaving their wives and daughters at home, thinking that money can solve everything, such irresponsibility. Seeing Xiaoxi's lonely appearance, I I can’t do it. Maybe Xiaoxi’s liking for me is just a kind of love for her father, but it doesn’t matter, as long as she is happy, I don’t care.”

"You don't care, what about her? She is still so young, what do you want others to think of her? You want her to bear the incest crime of falling in love with the teacher?"

"..."

"Recently, University B has several professorships. You can listen to me carefully. Everything is fine." Luo Zhenhuan said, "I know that you don't bother with me because of your strength, but as you said, Xiaoxi is so young. , even if you are together now, ten or twenty years later, when you are old and she is still young, do you guarantee that she will not regret it? Have you thought about how you should treat her at that time?"

Love is the hardest kind of meeting in the world, meeting the right person, but at the wrong time.

She is the sunrise in the early morning, and he is the dusk in the afternoon. You can't even look into the distance, and you can only leave regrets in vain.

16 years old

When Su Ye was 31 years old, Luo Xi helped him make the seventh cake.

At this time, Su Ye was already the youngest new professor at University B. He only served for one month, and he was very popular among students.During the period, there were rumors that seemed true and false, saying that he got in by virtue of connections, but Luo Xi didn't take it to heart at all. In her heart, Su Ye had real strength.

When she held the cake and opened the door of Su Ye's apartment with the key, she saw two entangled figures on the bed. The cake fell to the ground with a "bang", and the cream splashed all over the floor, which was uncontrollable.

After half an hour.

Su Ye opened the door of the apartment and walked out.

She didn't leave, her small body was sitting in the corner of the corridor, just sitting there with her knees hugged, not knowing what she was thinking.

Su Ye walked up to her, knelt down, and stroked her hair with one hand hesitantly.

She slowly raised her face, looked into his eyes, and said, "Su Ye, I just like you, and it's not a sinful thing, don't hurt me like this, okay?"

He didn't say anything, just walked into the apartment with her in his arms.

The woman had already left, he hugged her and sat on the bed they had lingered on, Su Ye fetched water and used a towel to help dry the tears on her face, then picked up the cake on the ground, placed it in front of her, and held it with a small spoon Take a bite and put it in your mouth.

Luo Xi stopped his hand and said, "Don't eat, dirty."

Su Ye pushed away her hand, and stubbornly put the cake into his mouth.

After a while, he said: "Xiaoxi, I can do whatever you want, even if the cake falls on the floor, I will eat it if it is dirty because you made it. But so what? No matter how nice I am to you, I will It is impossible to do what I just did on this bed with you. I have never made a birthday wish. If the wish can come true, I am willing to pile up all the wishes of these 31 years into one. I only hope that you can be happy soon Be happy, be the carefree Rosie from before. I like the way your eyes narrow when you smile, like a sunflower."

"What about you?" Luo Xi asked, "Are you happy? You must be unhappy, right? Since I told you that I like you, you have been so unhappy. Before I met you, I was happy, but I didn't know what It's called happiness, you gave me the feeling of happiness. But you are not happy when I am happy. I shouldn't be so selfish and deprive you of the right to be happy, so I have to leave, right? Actually, if it wasn't for me every time You did the math wrong on purpose, you left long ago, right?"

Luo Xi's tears fell and fell into Su Ye's palm. He heard her choked up and said, "Can happiness be saved? One year, two years, three years, four years, five years, six years, I have only been with you for seven years, is seven years of happiness enough for me to spend a lifetime? A lifetime is so long, can I not be so happy for a while, and take it out when I want happiness? "

When Su Ye was sending Luo Xi home, Luo Xi suddenly jumped at the steering wheel. Su Ye, who was driving, was unprepared and instinctively hugged her in his arms. The car rubbed against the road and made a screeching sound.

At that moment, he heard her say, "I'm so selfish, I can't see you happy, so I want you to die with me."

But she didn't die.

In that car accident, she was safe because of Su Ye's protection, but Su Ye was admitted to the intensive care unit.

When the doctor announced that Su Ye might never wake up, the girlfriend whose eyes were red and swollen from crying came over and wanted to slap her, but Luo Zijia stopped her. The woman stared at her red eyes and said, "Luo Xi, this is Do you want it? You are a devil, relying on your family's wealth and power, you can even do things like murder!"

Luo Xi was stunned, until Luo Zijia hugged her who was almost stunned, she broke down and cried, she said: "Brother, I just like him...why can others like him, but mine is so unreasonable?" Tolerated?..."

17 years old

On her 17th birthday, Luo Xi made a birthday wish that as long as Su Ye wakes up, she will bury her love.

Then, Su Ye really woke up, the day before his 32nd birthday.

When she heard the news, she didn't go to see him.

She helped him make his eighth birthday cake at home. This time, instead of delivering it, she lit and blew out the candles herself.Without her, would his girlfriend make him a birthday cake?But will anyone look forward to growing old with him from the age of nine, hoping that one birthday will last for 15 years?

Because I love him so much, even youth becomes so cheap.

That day, she hugged the cake and cried bitterly in the room, then passed out.

She has a bad heart and she always knew it.

It was only a few days ago that I accidentally heard from the doctor that she would not survive.

Maybe God had seen her end a long time ago, that's why he tried his best to prevent her from being with Su Ye.

Fortunately it is.

She only has one year left, how could she be willing to let Su Ye be alone?
For the first time, I was glad that he didn't accept himself.

I'm really glad.

21 years old

Rosie's funeral.

Luo Xi's mother almost fainted from grief, and it was Su Ye who helped her into the lounge.

Mother Luo looked at the person in front of her for a long time before saying, "Su Ye, you are here. Xiaoxi must be very happy, she has been waiting for you for so long."

Luo's mother, who was exhausted, didn't know that Su Ye had met Luo Xi before. She only knew that when Luo Xi was 17 years old, the two had no contact with each other.She held Su Ye's hand, looked at the black and white photo of Luo Xi in the mourning hall, and smiled kindly: "Xiao Xi, look, your Su Ye is here, your favorite Su Ye is so fond that even your mother is compared Go on. It's okay, as long as you're happy, mom won't be jealous at all."

Su Ye looked at Luo Mu, who had white temples, and for a moment, didn't know how to speak.

Luo's mother said to him, "Su Ye, look, is Xiaoxi's photo good-looking? She chose it by herself. She said that you like seeing her smiling brightly with ponytails the most. It turns out that she is very cute. I knew that my life was not long, so I kept this photo, and she was still so young, so she helped herself choose the photo."

"Actually, from the very beginning, I knew she liked you. In this relationship, I was the only one who didn't object. She is my daughter. She has a heart attack since she was a child and couldn't survive."

Luo's mother's voice was very calm, "As a mother, I just want her to be happy, even if she likes a man 15 years older than me, so what? As long as she is happy in the only years she has. But you always If I don’t accept her, I can see her sadness and helplessness. As a mother, I have selfishness, I hope you can make her happy, but this is not fair to you, I can only watch my own My daughter is in pain..."

Her voice was a little trembling, "Later, you were almost killed in that car accident, and she negotiated with God that as long as you could wake up, you would give up your love. Then you woke up, and she really did. Every time When she was heartbroken, she couldn't bear to see you. She always asked me, Mom, if our lives are the same, and I can only watch the person I love with other women from afar , Keep silent? I can't answer her question, because emotionally, I am a failed woman."

"Xiaoxi once said that she is a sunflower, and you are his sun. At the age of 17, she lost your light, but she still grows stubbornly... She really has the memory of being with you, forcing her One day, she ran to me and told me that she met a girl who loved a boy as deeply as she did, and she said that she saw her shadow in her. She said, their The experience is so similar, the only difference is that the boy she loves also loves her deeply. She told me that the girl will be happy forever, and she wants to see her in a wedding dress so much that she can continue the happiness that she didn't get. "

"It's a pity that she didn't see it, and she left." Luo Mu said, "I used to be afraid of losing her. I always dreamed that she was lying in a cold coffin. She said to me, Mom, I am lonely, I am so cold ... And then, really, she was lying there... Su Ye, do you know that Xiaoxi will be cold? In her world, only you have ever warmed her... She is really afraid of the cold... Why do you Can't accept her? Why do you care about those worldly eyes?... Do you know? She really likes you so much that she is not afraid of death."

Luo's mother will never forget what Luo Xi told her before she died. She said: "Mom, actually it's not bad for me to leave like this. Su Ye has always cared about our age. I don't believe that I will always like it so much." He. For the first time, I am glad that my life is so short, and I can tell him that I really liked him all my life."

Then her voice gradually weakened, and she said in frustration, "Why doesn't he believe me? Even if I'm not sick, even if he dies first, as long as I'm still alive, I'll always like him so much until I die."

Su Ye wanted to say that it wasn't that he didn't believe her, but that he didn't want to delay her.

But when he heard about her illness and found her, he could tell at a glance that she was faking it because she rejected him so much, but because he loved her and doted on her, he let her go.

I still remember that on the last day in the hospital, after he helped her tie her ponytail, she asked him seriously: "Su Ye, do you blame me for being so fierce to you all the time?"

"No." He laughed, never giving up, why would he blame him?

"Really?"

"Ah."

She sighed and said, "Actually, I don't want to, but if I don't treat you fiercely, I'm afraid I can't help but tell you that I like you again, and scare you away."

I always remember that there is such a person who is always happy and happy, and everything is transparent, even if he likes someone so transparent.

Roxi, in the days to come, let me love you well.

Many years later, the story of that professor has been circulating in the student group of University B. They said that the most popular and handsome professor in University B was never married until he was old, and there was no sticky woman around him to accompany him. All he has is a sea of ​​sunflowers in the backyard and a tombstone in the sea of ​​flowers.

(End of this chapter)