Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 106 Extra Story No. 2: Dreaming in the Garden ([-])
She hasn't lost all presence, even when the sun shines.As she thought, her mood gradually improved.

They circled the big lake a few times, and the sun was just right.At the beginning of October, there was still a bit of summer heat in Beijing, and there were still flowers blooming by the lake. Unknown flowers were in full bloom, and clusters of bright pink bloomed all over the branches, and even covered the leaves. It was very crowded. lively.After all, the library still didn't go in. The teacher who checked today was very strict, and stopped Xu Zhian outside with a glance: "Is this your student ID card?"

Standing behind him, Chen Xiaosen glanced at the orange card held in the teacher's hand. The boy with a perfect smile on it was so different from Xu Zhian that there was no room for him to lie or deceive him.

He bowed his head to apologize to the teacher, and the two of them could only leave the entrance.Chen Xiaosen raised his head against the sun, and the tall dark gray building stood quietly in front of him against the blue sky. Xu Zhian kept apologizing, and she smiled easily and said, "I didn't want to go in."

"It's just because it's very famous, but I don't know how to read the huge collection of books in it, so why go in."

Xu Zhian breathed a sigh of relief, and asked her if she wanted to see the Bird's Nest and Water Cube under construction, or Houhai, Liulichang and other old Beijing attractions.She smiled politely and said, "You decide, I don't care."

The sun is very comfortable on the body.She was inexplicably happy, but also inexplicably unhappy.

After a long time, Xu Zhian sighed slowly.Chen Xiaosen looked ahead and yawned slowly.

The hand holding her loosened at some point, Chen Xiaosen stopped, and they had already reached the gate of the school.

"This is?"

"Ximen is the main entrance. Let's take a photo together."

"Oh fine."

Please pass by my schoolmates, they took a bland photo side by side.Xu Zhian showed no expression, the collar of his T-shirt was tilted to one side, and there were beads of sweat on his forehead; Chen Xiaosen's smile was flat, her eyes were a little dark circled by driving all night, and her face was oily.

Xu Zhian stared at the screen of the digital camera for a long time.Chen Xiaosen was surprised that there was something good to study in such photos, but he didn't urge him.

"Xiaosen, are you unhappy?"

She was surprised: "No."

"Then are you happy?"

She paused: "Very happy."

"I'm very happy that you can come. I almost couldn't sleep last night."

Xu Zhian's tone of statement was not happy, but vaguely sad.Chen Xiaosen turned her face away, she didn't want to admit that she felt a little bit of sympathy for Xu Zhian at this moment - sympathy for her boyfriend, who had no qualifications or position, funny and sad sympathy.

How do other people talk about their long-distance relationships?Every day, I use SMS and QQ to tell each other "I love you", "I miss you", "How are you doing", "Be good", "Do you miss me?" Take turns going to each other's location?Or, holding hands, hugging, kissing?
Chen Xiaosen found himself not very clear.

There was some embarrassing estrangement between them, which was obvious, but no one pierced it.Xu Zhian tried his best to be nice to her, waiting on QQ every day, texting her in the morning, noon and evening, asking her about her health, and going back to her hometown to see her at her university on May [-]st and [-]th...

Everyone said: "Your boyfriend is really nice." The roommate on the upper bunk was not fair behind the scenes, thinking that Chen Xiaosen and her were both average scorers, so why is Chen Xiaosen's boyfriend an affectionate and talented student?

Everyone was saying to her: "You are so happy, Xu Zhian is so kind."

This kind of repeated bombing and strengthening made her feel that she should really love him, because he is very good.

After all, it is not an unrealistic and romantic Cinderella.Cinderella is not really Cinderella, she is a princess in distress, perfect in everything except being forced to do coolies.

Therefore, Chen Xiaosen knew better than anyone that he should be safe.She told herself that she lived in peace and contentment, anyway, she had already got too many average marks, her life had already passed, and she didn't have to struggle like others because of the desire to compete or the reality of helplessness, and even her feelings So-so is enviable.

If a person wants to live a good life, he must not toss around and think wildly.How many brides are there in the world who can run away with their wedding dresses at the wedding scene?
When Xu Zhian told her on QQ that the student union in the department had activities on November [-], and he couldn't leave, so he couldn't go to see her, there was a strong sense of guilt in his tone.She obviously even breathed a sigh of relief because of this, but seeing that guilt, her conscience made her unbearable.

"I'll go to Beijing to find you." She said.

It was such an act, which may not be very sincere, that moved him so much that he happily typed a lot of emoticons.Chen Xiaosen was silent, his fingers hung in the air on the keyboard, trembling, but he still put them back.

This cheap care gave her a reason to comfort herself - after all, I have also paid for this relationship, and I am also running it.

After spending a whole day in Beijing, she was so tired that she went to bed early.

The alarm clock was set very early, and she deliberately got up early because she had to put on light makeup.Today's event is very special, she can't be as embarrassed as yesterday.

However, people who are self-aware are often more miserable.Facing the mirror, Chen Xiaosen had to admit that she looked too ordinary: a slightly large forehead, thick pores on both sides of the nose, a square chin, and only the eyes that could be called radiant, but they were far from being called Gu Pan. Brighten.

She hasn't dressed up for a long time, and her fingers trembled when she touched the compact.She tried her best to avoid the reason for her deliberate grooming—every time she thought about it, she felt a sense of guilt in her heart.

Xu Zhian came to pick her up, his eyes lit up, and he kept praising her for her beauty.

Every time he complimented her, she felt sad.

When they took a taxi to Happy Valley, other people had already assembled at the door. She walked past from a distance, and suddenly felt that she was even walking awkwardly.

Today, in addition to Chen Xiaosen and Xu Zhian, there are the fifth and sixth children in the same dormitory, their girlfriends, and Sheng Huainan.

Yesterday, when Xu Zhian's student ID card was taken away by the teacher, she looked at it very carefully, and she could even see clearly the three small words "Sheng Huainan".

"Hurry up and go in when there are enough people," Sheng Huainan greeted the two of them with a smile, "There are a lot of tourists today, everyone should be careful, don't get separated, please stay around me, the light bulb, at all times."

Everyone giggled and followed him towards the ticket gate.Xu Zhian took Chen Xiaosen's hand, and she broke free slightly, like an instinct.

Evil instinct.

All the way around, her silence was not abrupt under the cover of the lively environment and lively companions.Xu Zhian just held her by the hand, and didn't force her to participate in everyone's chat, but he himself had a good time talking.

Chen Xiaosen occasionally raised his head to see Xu Zhian's excited face, compared to the embarrassment of yesterday's silence, he felt a little guilty.

He likes her.She made him sad.

From yesterday to now, Chen Xiaosen hasn't chatted with Xu Zhian about the classmates in the same dormitory he saw yesterday, nor asked them who they are--it was a bit dull on the way to visit, but this is an excellent topic, and you can talk about it without worrying about it. Ask Xu Zhian to introduce her one by one, and talk about the things in the dormitory... But she didn't ask, didn't ask sideways, even if it was just a word.

She doesn't want to do things with impure motives.When she thought that Xu Zhian might try his best to introduce her in detail and make her happy, she felt extremely guilty.

The girlfriends of the fifth and sixth daughters all dressed up very fancy, which set off Chen Xiaosen's simplicity.Queuing up to buy tickets, entering the venue, discussing which project to queue for first... Sheng Huainan, who is single, plays the role of coordinating and directing, but he does not feel assertive. He always discusses the tone and attitude, but what he says naturally makes others I don't think you need to worry about it, just let him decide.The smiling expression was full of affinity, but only Chen Xiaosen noticed that he always stood at a certain distance from them, as if he was not part of a group—or in other words, everything around him, the blazing sun, the bustling tourists, the rockery, the pool, the floating The cheers and screams...including the six of them, all became the background color of Sheng Huainan.

"Are you infatuated?" She laughed at herself.

Just a clean, good-looking, and elegant boy in a white shirt.

But there was a strong sense of presence in him, completely different from Chen Xiaosen's ordinary and lazy life, so she couldn't help but follow him wholeheartedly.

It's not that she hasn't met handsome boys before, and she would be dragged by her roommates to the sports field or cafeteria to peek at the school grass of the Finance and Accounting Department when she was in college. Class: Gentle glasses type, Bingshan black type... But her lazy heart has never been shaken in the slightest; it is not that she has never met a cadre in the student union who looks busy and full of haste, who can direct a group of people around ... However, she never envied or admired either.

If she had longed to be that kind of person, she wouldn't be so willing to settle for mediocrity now.

However, at this moment, Chen Xiaosen realized that she was able to be content with the mediocrity of chaos only because the temptation of light was not strong enough.

To be bewitched, just an instant is enough.

His eyes were glued, and then he went blind like this.

Recalling that short morning after a long time, Chen Xiaosen always felt that those emotions that filled his body in an instant but could not be suppressed - humbleness, envy, throbbing, joy, hopelessness... seemed to be infinite motivation.She no longer felt indifferent, but suddenly understood that those feelings and little actions that appeared in her own roommates and were evaluated by her with a sneer in her heart as the thirteen points of the nasty idiots were not really such nasty idiots Thirteen o'clock.

"That Sheng Huainan seems to be very generous, and he likes to organize in the first place."

She learned to insinuate.

"Huh? School grass? Don't make trouble, there are some people in our school who are prettier than him."

She also learned to hide it.

After holding back for a long time, curiosity still overwhelmed conscience.

She asked Xu Zhian in a soft voice, and occasionally mentioned a few words about Sheng Huainan, interspersed in the large-scale gossip about the fifth, sixth and girlfriends, interspersed with "the spaceship is so naive" and "hey, this project is very cute." Among them, the package was very safe and concealed, but when I asked about it, my throat was slightly astringent.

Knowing that she was dizzy and didn't want to take the pirate ship, Xu Zhian also insisted on staying below to accompany her, but she pushed him up in the end.

"It's only 3 minutes, don't accompany me, it's hard to stand in line for such a long time, hurry up!"

He smirked, and sat down in the chair amidst the laughter of "Look, my sister-in-law loves you so much".She backed out, ran down the stairs, and stood underneath waiting.

The electric bell rang, she turned around, and saw Sheng Huainan standing with his hands in his pockets and his back leaning against the railing of the artificial lake, with his head turned to the lake, looking at something absently.She folded her hands in front of her and stood quietly five steps away, finally able to look at him openly.

Behind it was the wind from the pirate ship, the girls screaming like waves, the cheerful music from the radio, and the talking and laughing of pedestrians, intertwined into a noisy cloud of smoke.Everything is lively, only the two of them are still, and there are two distinct worlds inside, Chen Xiaosen can even see the transparent wall clearly.

3 minutes is both short and long.

Just like when she saw him, it was as short as two scenes, but the aftertaste may last a lifetime.

The gentle autumn wind messed up her forehead hair.Chen Xiaosen felt tenderness in his heart.The blazing sunlight refracted through the lake, revealing a bright hopelessness in her eyes.

she will remember.

I remember how I was holding my boyfriend's hand, always ready to meet his boyfriend's gaze, and making a happy smile, but trying every means to pretend to sit next to him inadvertently when riding every ride.

I remember that she talked a lot of nonsense all morning. It seems that the sum of the words she talked with Xu Zhian in a year is not so much. In fact, it was just to covertly mix a few questions about him.

I remember the 3 minutes when she remained motionless, such intense and turbulent emotions turned into quiet watching and watching, and stretched into a sense of self-existence that no longer sees light and dies, and no longer disappears from chaos.

Remember, that's enough.Following his example, she put her hands in her pockets, leaned against the railing at a corner far away from him, and stared straight at the dazzling water until her vision was blurred.

At noon, they went to the restaurant of "Ant Kingdom" to find a seat. She answered the phone call from her mother and sister outside, and signaled Xu Zhian and the others to go in first without waiting for her.

Her mother is extremely supportive of her daughter's love - a high school classmate, who knows the basics, is a talented student, and is simple and honest... Although she still worriedly told a lot of things about self-protection, she can still hear overflowing joy from her words .

Chen Xiaosen smiled wryly, and he spoke back and forth, twitching the corners of his mouth.When the call reached her sister, she no longer reluctantly responded.

"What's wrong?" My sister felt something strange about her.

"Sister, if... If you find a blind date, everything is suitable, and then you are ready to get married, but at this time, at this time..."

"what happened?"

"At this time, 'Xiandao Akira', whom you have liked since junior high school, suddenly appeared in your life, and then wanted to take you away, would you..."

"Hehe," the sister on the other side of the phone smiled and said, "You're thinking wildly again, what will I do?"

"Will it...will it..."

"I can."

"Ok?"

The elder sister's voice was soft but firm: "I will lift the corner of the wedding dress, throw off the high heels, and run away with 'Xiandao Akira' without looking back."

Never looking back.

Chen Xiaosen's heart suddenly became clear.

"Have you met 'Xiandao Akira'?" Her sister's voice was slightly teasing.

"Yeah." She nodded without hesitation.

"Xiaosen, there is something I didn't say just now...

"I know. It's just an if. In fact, you have waited for so many years, and there is no 'Xiandao Akira' to elope with you.

"It's not that there is no 'Xiandao Zhang' in the world, but he won't take me to elope, so I will still obediently go on a blind date and get married."

"But I'm different." Chen Xiaosen suddenly realized that this was the first time, and she said loudly that she was different.

The point is not whether "Xiandao Akira" will drag you to elope at the wedding.

The point is, Chen Xiaosen discovered that no matter how good the person who wants to marry you is, no matter how lucky you are, once faced with a hypothetical "Xian Dao Zhang", he will still firmly choose to throw off his high heels and run away with this "if" person. To the distance—then, regardless of whether this will become a reality, she will lift the wedding dress and stride out of the wedding scene shrouded in blessings.

Never look back.

She hung up the phone and walked into the restaurant. Those people had already finished eating, and Sheng Huainan was not there.

They joked that Sheng Huainan abandoned the six of them and ran away with the beauty and the child.

Chen Xiaosen also smiled.

Smile and say goodbye to everyone at dusk.

Smiling and telling Xu Zhian, "I'm sorry."

Smiling and boarding the return train.

When it drove into the deep sleep and night again, Chen Xiaosen used his jacket to make a comfortable posture for himself, leaned his head against the glass, and gradually fell asleep.

The boy got up from the bed with a confused look on his face.His appearance and disappearance were equally sudden, without saying goodbye, so short that Chen Xiaosen couldn't remember his outstanding eyebrows.

He only said one word to her, he said: "Hello."

Like a swift light, it dazzled her eyes.

Then he could see the path under his feet.

How would she explain to others that she was not in love with another person.

It's just that I accidentally discovered that it feels so good to lift the wedding dress and run barefoot against the sun.

She will keep running.

(End of this chapter)