Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 15 The Secret That Can't Be Said
In the afternoon at Tiffany's house, Luo Zhi politely explained to Tiffany's mother that Sheng Huainan was very busy, but he treated the two children as his own younger siblings and often played with them.

She saw Tiffany's disappointed face, and Jake walked into his room angrily, ignoring her.Suddenly, the body and mind are full of fatigue.

She accompanied them for more than half a year, and he only shared Happy Valley with them for one day.

That's how he frustrates her.Use superiority, affinity, use his excellence and busyness, use his indifference.

And she is not only inferior in every way, but also loves him.He shook her hand, but she didn't even refuse.

The situation was simply dire.

Luo Zhi finally couldn't laugh, and didn't hide her exhaustion, she just sat at the table and didn't speak.

really tired.

"Let's drink some tea. An old friend went to Yunnan to play and brought me some old Pu'er. He was afraid that I would not know how to make tea, so he specially brought me a purple sand pot with a big belly. I will soak it in boiling water first. After a while, I washed the dust and poured it out, then added honey and chilled it. Although it’s autumn, I still prefer cold things, don’t you mind?”

They talked for a long time before Luo Zhi came back to life. "Huh? Oh, don't mind, I like cool things too. Thanks."

She took the glass, the sorrel tea soup was a bit black, she tasted it, it was bitter but not astringent, unexpectedly delicious.

"Do you like tea?"

"I don't know." Luo Zhi shrugged.

"Do you like coffee?"

"do not know either."

Seeing that the other party was looking at her with raised eyebrows and a slight smile, Luo Zhi felt a little embarrassed.

"That's right. If I drink tea, I use Lipton tea bags to heat water; as for coffee, I always drink Nescafe when I stay up late at K (reading), so I don't know if I can make tea and coffee as seriously as you do every day. If so, would I like to drink tea and coffee?"

Tiffany's mother laughed.

"You always look worried and don't like to talk, but sometimes you are so frank, I can't accept it."

Luo Zhi didn't know when she let others see so many secrets, they didn't seem to see each other often, and they rarely chatted.

After all, it is normal for a woman who has lived more than ten years longer than herself and is such an extraordinary woman to see through herself at a glance.

"I have something on my mind?" Luo Zhi held the cup in both hands and took small sips.

"It looks like you have a secret that you can't tell."

Later, when Jay Chou's new film "The Unspeakable Secret" was released, Luo Zhi once again remembered the things she had told her.Although my own secret is not as beautiful as described in Jay Chou's narcissistic movie.

"It should be...well, it's not impossible to say." She didn't refute.

"It's not impossible to say, what is that?"

"No one asked, so I didn't say it." After Luo Zhi finished speaking, she remembered that someone had actually asked.It's just the person who asked the question, one was like a witch holding a wine bottle with red eyes, and the other was stupid and immersed in the sorrow of his girlfriend running away with the handsome guy, how could she speak.

She finished her drink, and the other party asked if she wanted another drink.

"Well, another cup. I can answer your question now, I like tea."

Tiffany's mother smiled, and the sunlight came in through the floor-to-ceiling windows, making her smile golden.Luo Zhi suddenly remembered the photo on the coast again, the short-haired woman in the soft sunshine.Even though her hair is very long now, she still looks like a pure and lovely girl.

"Then let's drink some hot water." She sat down in front of the tea tray and started to boil water.

"By the way...can I not call you 'Auntie' from now on?"

"Oh?"

"Feeling a little guilty. You look only a few years older than me."

"Really?" She blinked, looking younger, "Thank you. Then let's talk about the seniority, the two of them call you 'sister', you can call me 'sister' too .”

"Okay." Luo Zhi felt that if he was a man, he must have fallen in love with her by now.

"But do you know my name and what I do?"

Luo Zhi shook her head.

"You were in Happy Valley, and you made the kids happy, but you never asked them what the hell was going on, did you?"

"I didn't ask, but Tiffany said something, she kept crying, and I didn't understand much."

"Then how did you coax Jake?"

"I didn't coax it. It was the brother he told you about."

"Interesting. The boy didn't ask what was going on from the beginning to the end. You two really reassure me."

She put down the teapot: "Everyone who sees me as a single woman living in such a big house and raising two children will want to know who I am, why I am so rich, and where is my husband. Even if I don't ask in the open, I will ask behind my back. I tell you I'm divorced, do you believe it? You don't seem to be interested at all. "

Luo Zhi smiled frankly: "It's not that I'm not interested at all. If you want to talk, I'm naturally willing to listen. But the interest is not strong enough to ask."

"Only interested in wages?"

She continued to nod frankly.

Tiffany's mother smiled, poured the remaining tea soup on the toad-shaped tea pet, lowered her head and said casually: "But... I know a little about your family. I asked someone to ask a few words. "

"It's okay, my family's background is not shady either."

"If I was as clear-headed as you were when I was young, many things probably wouldn't have happened."

Luo Zhi didn't speak, just laughed.

"Ever wonder why I told you this?"

Luo Zhi thought for a while: "Maybe it's because I see that I'm in a bad mood and help me resolve it, or maybe it's because you want to fire me, or because you... have nothing to do right now."

Just idle.

She didn't know why she was so unscrupulous today, maybe she was really stimulated by Sheng Huainan, so she had no scruples.

"Except for the second point, you guessed everything right. Why should I fire you? And, don't say it so implicitly, just say that I'm boring." The other party was amused.

"Then are you really bored?" Luo Zhi grinned after speaking, she became more and more presumptuous.

"Yeah, I have secrets too, and I don't have any friends." Her voice dropped, "People who have secrets feel lonely, and that's normal."

Luo Zhi was taken aback for a moment, but when she looked up, she saw that she was still smiling calmly, winking playfully at herself.

"Luo Zhi, let's be friends."

Luo Zhi stared blankly at the perfect interplay of light and shadow around her, feeling a little dreamy: "Ah? Why?"

"I'm just asking if you want to."

This time she didn't hesitate. "willing."

"Then... Let's exchange secrets, shall we? Tell your secrets honestly."

Luo Zhi was convinced that the person in front of her must not be a mortal, because she felt that she had been bewitched.

"Good," she said.

"To show my sincerity, let me say it first," Tiffany's mother smiled. "When I was young, I did something that was very shameful in the eyes of others. Jake and Tiffany's father are not the same person. The common point is that they both Can't marry me."

Luo Zhi was a little surprised in her heart, but restrained her expression, not showing the slightest bit, for fear of disturbing this brave confession.

Although brave always after many years.

Tiffany's mother withdrew all names, places and time, and spoke calmly.Luo Zhi felt as if she was at the beginning of a beautiful literary film, and time was like a wide and unhurried river, slowly rinsing through her heart.

"...To this day, Shi Wen's parents still disagree. In their eyes, although I am Tiffany's mother, I am also Jake's mother after all. Whether I was deceived or not, I was a person who had an affair with a married man. It's not that I can't fight for it. It's just that it's boring to see a family being torn apart because of me, looking for a life and death. If Wen is willing to continue, I will stick to it. It doesn't matter if I shrink back. At this age Well, there's nothing to be persistent about."

"Parents shouldn't interfere in their children's lives," Luo Zhi said earnestly, "Whether they approve or not is meaningless."

"Truth is truth, and life is life." Tiffany's mother laughed so that it had nothing to do with her.

"...the elderly will always die."

Luo Zhi didn't know how she could say such a cruel and naive sentence, before she could finish her sentence, the woman on the opposite side was already laughing, there were traces of time in the corners of her eyes, but she was flamboyant and moving.

"That's great," she looked at Luo Zhi, "You are so young. That's great."

It was only at this moment that Luo Zhi realized that even though she thought she was old-fashioned, she still had the courage and sharpness of a young talent.Don't know how to let go, don't want to retreat, don't want to be reconciled.

"Okay, I'm done with my secret. Now for yours."

Luo Zhi raised her head upon hearing this, and saw a pair of eyes with a lingering smile.

The moment I opened my mouth, there was a feeling of heart palpitations like a roller coaster diving down from a high altitude.She tried to say a few words, using the logical relationship of "although but even though" all over, but it was still confusing.

The person opposite smiled: "You can come in chronological order and talk about it one by one."

She scratched the back of her head in embarrassment and nodded.

"My father died when I was five years old," she said.

If her life is really "Symphony of Destiny", the gong that symbolizes a sudden turn of events is not a big persimmon that fell from the sky at all, but the news brought by the shrill ringing of the phone at grandma's house.

When Tiffany went downstairs in the evening, she saw her mother and Juno sitting face to face in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, each holding a cup of maroon Puer, silent for some reason.

Luo Zhi was left for dinner, Jake still didn't know what was awkward, she didn't point it out, but told him: "Don't worry, I will definitely bring your big brother over again."

As for how this big brother views her work, she still feels a little tingling when she thinks about it, but this tingling makes her sober up a lot.

She offered to formulate strict and systematic teaching content in the future. As for the time spent playing with children, it should not be included in wages.She will stay longer each time to play with them.

"It's not that I'm aloof, and it's not that I'm afraid of being despised. I just think that when I get along with my children, I can relax." Luo Zhi explained.

Tiffany's mother also shook her head apologetically: "It's because I didn't think about it properly. You must have felt uncomfortable before, and you felt like pleasing children to make money. I'm sorry."

Luo Zhi found that it was hard for her not to like or trust this ice-snow, smart and beautiful woman.

Of course, Luo Zhi finally knew her name, even though it was the changed name she was using now.

"Goodbye, Zhu Yan, thank you." Before getting into the car, Luo Zhi said goodbye to her who was standing under the wall of roses blooming at the gate.

The jade carving of the carved fence should still be there, only Zhu Yangai.

At night, Luo Zhi lay on the bed, her mood calmed down a lot.It turns out that telling the secret is such an important thing.

In her memory, it seems that only the tail of her senior year had such an impulse.She climbed up to the sixth floor, rushed to the door of Sheng Huainan's class, stood still, gasping for breath, completely ignoring whether the students coming and going around were watching her, they all suddenly became the background, and only the transparent The white-lit doorway.Her breathing slowed down, but so did her courage.

Turning around calmly, I walked to the women's toilet at the corner of the sixth floor, and as soon as I entered the door, I met Ye Zhanyan in line.Ye Zhanyan smiled and said to her, "Are you here too? The water leaks on the fourth floor are scary, and there are so many people on the fifth floor, and you have to climb the stairs to go to the toilet. It's really annoying."

She smiled and said, "Yes, yes."

Those words were still left unsaid.The women's restroom on the sixth floor gently contained her secret.A few years passed, and she became more and more silent and calm, as if she didn't even have the courage for that moment.

It takes courage to speak up, a courage to take responsibility.

Because if you don't say it is regret, you will only regret it if you say it.

(End of this chapter)