Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 55 What Does the Truth Matter?

His words were cut off in the middle, and the girl in front of him screamed. It was the first time he saw her lose her composure.However, after she yelled, she stopped talking and just looked at him steadfastly, just like Mrs. Xianglin, only her eyes rolled from time to time, barely proving that she was a living thing.

"I..." She uttered a single word, paused, and laughed again, "Don't worry, I'll just pretend that I didn't hear anything. I just pretended nothing happened."

"Nothing happened?"

"You, you think about it slowly for a month. If you haven't changed your mind, come and tell me... Say what you wanted to say just now, think twice."

This seemed to be the result of what she had considered for a long time just now.

Sheng Huainan became a little angry: "I don't need to think about it."

"No, no, calm down, you have to think about it, you have to think about it," she pulled out her hand vigorously, waving her hand and backing away, "I did the math just now, you basically change your mind once a month, I don't know Do you have such a special few days every month, but I think you should think about it, I'm afraid of you..."

"You only have such a special few days every month..." Sheng Huainan blushed from her anger.

"I do have such a special few days every month." She continued to laugh, but he could clearly see that her smile was like paste, trembling, and about to fall off.He could even see the sadness and fear beneath the smile.

Sheng Huainan took a step forward to pull her, and she stepped back even more.He saw the obvious panic in her eyes - she should be really afraid of him.

He lowered his hands and forced a smile: "I'm sorry."

Luo Zhi no longer hid, and did not tease or taunt him with "I'm sorry" as before, but just stood there and lowered her head, her toes gently rubbed against the snow, drawing scars one after another.

"I'm not someone who heals my scars and forgets the pain." Her voice was very soft, unlike anything she had ever said before, even when he was driven into anger, she could still joke and irony him calmly , Never show weakness to him like now.

"You can be enthusiastic one second, not even send a text message the next second, disappear for days, reject people thousands of miles away, and still look like you haven't seen each other for a long time when you meet again, I can't stand it," She smiled wryly, "But I knew a long time ago. You are sure that I like you. If you hook your hands, I will ignore the past and cooperate with you to act as a good friend."

It also performed flawlessly, and it was as sweet as it was.

"You're too self-righteous, Sheng Huainan."

The voice is soft, but every word seems to be an accusation.

I don't know if it's because the enthusiasm was poured down by a bucket of cold water, the words that she interrupted but didn't utter, were stuck in his chest like steamed buns that couldn't be swallowed, making Sheng Huainan even more uncomfortable.He also stopped smirking, and said with a little displeasure, "You don't think that my previous behavior was insanity, do you?"

Sensing the emotion in his words, Luo Zhi put away her sad expression, raised her face and retorted: "Do you think that I should say long live now that I don't care about my past?"

He was getting more and more embarrassed, and he couldn't hold back his face.

"Let's make it clear today. What did I do wrong, and why are you reluctant to forgive me? I won't thank you for saving you from being so kind."

She looked at him with her hands behind her back.

A trace of fatigue suddenly flashed across Sheng Huainan's face.He had never shown such helplessness and exhaustion on his face when he was talking about such a big mess in the student union.

"The reason why I haven't said anything is that if I can use my own power to prove that you are innocent, then you don't need to know the whole story. Although I can't say that I understand you, at least I know that you will never go low profile. Explain or justify. I blame you, and you are cleared of your guilt, but after this process, your self-esteem and feelings have been hurt. I...I cherish our previous..."

He didn't continue talking, he was annoyed about the central words, then raised his eyes again, looking at Luo Zhi with a troubled look.

Her heart softened for a moment, and she was almost moved by these words, a little snow fell on the tip of her nose, and the slightest wetness reminded her of that rainy day.

"If you really cherished it, you wouldn't have treated me like that before. My relationship has been hurt, my self-esteem has been shattered, and we can't go back to the previous state. What else do you have to say?"

Sheng Huainan was stunned.

"Hehe, yeah," he said with a bit of a crappy grin, shaking his head as he stood with his back against the tree, "I screwed up, didn't I?"

Luo Zhi was noncommittal.

"So, someone told me that you have had a crush on me since high school, is that true?"

Luo Zhi didn't expect him to ask this in the first sentence, her shoulders trembled slightly, her eyes dodged.

"You get to the point."

"You answer me first...is this true?" Sheng Huainan blushed a little.

"So what?"

"You even admitted that you liked me before, why are you dragging your teeth on this issue?"

Luo Zhi smiled wryly, stretched out her hand and tightened her collar: "No. This is different."

"Because I have a girlfriend in high school?" Sheng Huainan showed a sudden expression.

When Luo Zhi heard this, she couldn't help laughing: "What's the relationship between these two things?"

"Then why didn't you answer?"

She fell silent again, her eyes sparkling.Sheng Huainan was about to speak, but saw Luo Zhi turn his face away, as if a tear was falling.He was very surprised, and subconsciously stretched out his hand to help her wipe it off, but was pushed away as soon as his hand touched her face.

"Get to the point." Her voice suddenly became cold.

He withdrew his hand and smiled wryly: "Then are you always...jealous of Ye Zhanyan because...because you have a crush on me?"

Luo Zhi didn't panic or stare innocently as he imagined.Ever since he started asking that question about his secret love, her answering speed became very slow, and she had to think for a long time every time she said a word, as if she was thinking about the countermeasures to answer, Sheng Huainan's disappointment was beyond words.

"I didn't." She still lowered her head, slowly and calmly.

"you have not?"

"I do not have."

"So... what about envy? If you think jealousy is malicious, then envy—"

"Maybe a little bit of envy," she suddenly looked up at the dim lights of the communication center in the distance, "but it's not because she's your girlfriend."

Her slow answer was not an attempt to invent a lie, but an effort to be honest.Sheng Huainan seemed to understand this, so he lowered his voice and asked, as if coaxing a child: "Then what do you envy?"

Luo Zhi smiled like a wayward child, and said, "The crystal is very bright because it refracts the light. I envy the spotlight behind it."

Seeing Sheng Huainan's eyes full of suspicion, Luo Zhi was a little understanding.She didn't know why he was so interested in these minutiae, was it procrastinating not to speak out about the accusations, or was he drifting off track without knowing it, suddenly interested in getting to know her?

learn?Luo Zhi smiled bleakly.In fact, there seemed to be thousands of mountains and rivers between them, he didn't notice it, but Luo Zhi clearly saw it in his eyes, and when he made a serious promise on that small rickety tricycle, she turned away In addition to being moved, his face seemed to have a premonition of sadness a long time ago.

The only use for promises is to slap yourself in the face someday.

"It's so cold, tell me quickly."

"I'm sorry, I was dawdling, but I suddenly feel... embarrassed to be honest with you."

"Even I have the nerve to ask you if I have a crush on you, what's there to be embarrassed about?"

Sheng Huainan was startled.

"After I... broke up with Ye Zhanyan," he said with some difficulty, "did she find you at the end of the winter vacation of the freshman year, that is, before the start of school, and cried to you about the reason for our breakup, and then asked you to help me send a letter to you?" The important letter and a white crystal swan pendant were brought to me after school started? And you didn’t. Instead, you told her that I threw the letter into the trash with the pendant without even reading it. Is that right?”

It took Luo Zhi a while to realize that she should have raised her head suddenly and looked at him with a surprised, innocent and even extremely angry expression.However, her posture and expression remained motionless, she lowered her head quietly, and her mood became more and more calm.

"Could it be...really?"

Luo Zhi raised her head: "Is that the case?"

"You think it's a trivial matter?"

"You mean to say that I got in the way and ruined both of you?"

"Yes."

"When did you find out?"

"...in the middle of the night on the day we skated."

Luo Zhi tilted her head and thought about it, then smiled: "Oh, so I made an appointment to see Tiffany and the others the next day, so you let me go."

Sheng Huainan was a little uncomfortable and didn't respond: "I was told by a witness."

"Witness?" She held back a smile, "Who?"

"Luo Zhi, I just want to hear from you, whether there is or not."

"Who?"

"I can't tell you..."

"Who?" She smiled calmly.

Sheng Huainan tried his best to say to her in a calm tone: "Actually, you don't need to know who said it..."

"Let me ask you one last question, who?"

"Okay," Sheng Huainan shrugged, "She said her name is Ding Shuijing."

Luo Zhi's eyes were like a calm lake, so deep that he could not see the bottom.

"I see. Then, have you already asked Ye Zhanyan for confirmation?" Luo Zhi nodded to herself, then turned around and was about to leave.Sheng Huainan took a few steps forward and grabbed her: "That's it?"

"What should I do? I should say with tears in my eyes, you listen to me explain, it's not like this, it's really not like this, you have to believe me...huh?"

The corners of her mouth turned up in a sarcastic smile.

"But why should I explain? Don't you know the presumption of innocence?" She said while gesticulating, "Whoever accuses, whoever proves. Whether it's text messages or call records, there is no evidence that can be produced. I Why do I want to talk nonsense with you on this matter? Open and close your mouth, any kind of story can be made up, how can you refute the non-existent things? Let me ask you, there is someone like me in Ye Zhanyan’s high school friend list Why? Such an important thing, why did I take the trouble to hand it over? Does she have my mobile phone number? Because she is your girlfriend, and the boys in your class who were admitted to P University together have a good relationship with her, why? Instead of giving it to your good buddy, you want to give the letter to me?"

Luo Zhi's every word was resounding, she shook off his hand and continued walking.

"May I know why you refused to answer me about... about your secret love at first?"

Luo Zhi had already walked a certain distance, and turned around after hearing his question.This question was a fatal point that she couldn't bring up. The anger gathered around her because of the rebuttal just now dissipated in an instant, and the turbulent emotions began to flow in her eyes again.

"Ding Shuijing also said about the secret love?"

"Yes... they all said that."

Luo Zhi half-closed her eyes, her eyes were blurred, and drifted past him to a far away place.

"Then... when you heard about it, were you happy?"

Sheng Huainan moved his lips.is he happy

The real "important" part was ignored by them from the very beginning, going around, he was only obsessed with an answer about secret love, but she was actually concerned about this matter.

"If I didn't hear that you did the following things because of your crush, I think I would be happy."

Luo Zhi was silent for a moment, then suddenly asked, "Why did you bring Ye Zhanyan's raincoat to pick me up?"

"You really know it's Ye Zhanyan's raincoat."

"Many people know that pink raincoat. Ye Zhanyan likes to show off your things in class, every detail is fine." Luo Zhi raised her chin, the corner of her mouth curved slightly upwards, and her eyes actually had a hint of provocation. "I know a raincoat is also guilty?"

Sheng Huainan was stunned: "Does she like talking about these things?"

"Don't you know?" Luo Zhi smiled, and didn't continue the topic, "So you used Ye Zhanyan's raincoat to take revenge on me? To vent your anger on her? It really doesn't matter."

"I... was too impulsive. But it's not revenge, not for her. I can't tell. They all said that you are very good at disguising, but this raincoat can test your real appearance."

what you really are.Luo Zhi almost laughed out loud.

"Actually, even if it's revenge, there's nothing wrong with it. You should trust Ye Zhanyan immediately."

Luo Zhi said lightly, Sheng Huainan was embarrassed by the fact that the matter had nothing to do with him.

"So you did nothing wrong, I understand. If my boyfriend or my mother told me such a thing, I would believe them unconditionally. You can come and ask me, I am very grateful to you gone."

"Luo Zhi, this has nothing to do with closeness."

"There is no proof of death, how can it have nothing to do with closeness?"

She waved her hand, leaving a very understanding smile.

When Luo Zhi walked forward, every step left a creaking sound on the snow, and her furry coat made her back look like a small animal in a fairy tale looking for its way home.

Sheng Huainan's mind suddenly went blank.

"Luo Zhi!" He blurted out, "Actually, if you say that you haven't done anything, maybe I... maybe I can trust you."

"I haven't done anything."

Luo Zhi turned around and said lightly.Sheng Huainan was caught off guard, and her passionate words to persuade her to stay were extinguished by her words.

"So do you believe it? I said it now," she laughed, "You don't believe it. If you trust me, you don't need me to say anything, and you don't need to bother to prove it, because your heart will tell you that this kind of thing , I don't bother to do it."

Sheng Huainan suddenly hated himself.He is obviously the party to crusade, and he is obviously the party to question, why does he now look like a child who is rambunctious and talking nonsense?

"How did you fall in love with me in high school?" He suddenly went all out, grabbing the question he wanted to know and pestering him endlessly.

He no longer cared about the truth.He just really wanted to ask her, if she really liked him all these years—then why did she like him?They don't know each other, why does she like him?And if she really likes him, why does she hold her own memories tightly, but resists the real him so much?It seems that this relationship is known to him, and it is not a joy for her, but a great humiliation and sorrow.

She just paused for a moment, without turning her head or answering, she just stepped forward and continued to move forward.

"You said, if none of this happened, you didn't escape in front of the window sill back then, wouldn't we..."

Sheng Huainan hadn't finished speaking when suddenly his eyes went dark and his forehead became cold.Startled, he supported the dwarf pine next to him, and brushed off the snowball in the middle of his forehead without knowing why.

In the blurred field of vision, Luo Zhi still maintained her throwing posture, as if she had used a lot of strength, but it was a pity that the new snow was soft and could not convey her anger at all.

"you……"

"...Sometimes." Luo Zhi lowered her head, her voice trembling slightly, restraining her turbulent emotions, "Sometimes, I feel that it's useless to say anything to you, and I really want to beat you up."

She felt as if she was about to cry, so she quickly restrained her expression, turned her head and strode away.

Sheng Huainan's mood calmed down a little bit, his stiff back muscles slowly relaxed, he shook his head to shake off the snow from his hair, and gently inserted the frozen hands hanging on both sides of his body back into the pockets of his down jacket.

The back of the girl in front of her is no longer thin and lonely as before.She raised her head slightly, and took every step firmly and vigorously, her steps were stretched and bright.When Sheng Huainan lowered his head, he suddenly found a long hair hanging from the zipper of the down jacket, half of it was twisted in the chain, and the other half was gently blowing with the wind.He reached out to pull, but couldn't pull it out.

(End of this chapter)