Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 76
Sheng Huainan gave up the idea of ​​finding the Dashui method, found a flat big stone by the lake and pulled Luo Zhi to sit down, thought about it, took out all the wine in the schoolbag and stood it on the ground, put the flat empty schoolbag Handed it to her: "Sit on the cushion, just get drunk here and sleep well."

Luo Zhi smiled lightly: "Okay."

He picked up a bottle of Red Star Erguotou, tossed and tossed for a long time before he realized that he couldn't open it, smiled wryly, picked up a can of beer, "snapped" the tab and handed it to Luo Zhi.

They clinked glasses, but they didn't know what to say, they just looked at each other and smiled.Luo Zhi felt cold, but her heart was warm, as if she had lived in the gentle land of the wilderness.

"Do you know when I saw you for the first time?" He raised his head and took a sip of his wine, and when he spoke again, his voice was a little shy.Luo Zhi intuitively felt that what she was about to hear might be some difficult things he said, so she subconsciously grabbed the hem of his clothes, raised her head, and gave him a forgiving look.

Sheng Huainan smiled gratefully.

Luo Zhi remembered that the first time he recognized her face to face was at the entrance of the supermarket, he and Xu Riqing flirted with each other, and she made a rescue, like a magic weapon descended from heaven.

"Actually, speaking of it this way, I'm really glad that I have a photographic memory for people." Sheng Huainan said.

During the summer vacation after the college entrance examination, at the last reunion of the liberal arts class, he went to the hotel to pick up Ye Zhanyan.People had already left sparsely, and Ye Zhanyan was still sitting by the window. When she saw him coming, she suddenly pointed to a girl in a white shirt who was crossing the road outside the window, and said, "Here, that is the legendary Luo Zhi. What do you think?" ?”

Legendary, why don't I know?What is "what do I think"?
Sheng Huainan smelled the alcohol on Ye Zhanyan's body, thinking that she was really confused, so he hurriedly glanced in the direction she pointed.Just at this time someone called "Luo Zhi", the girl turned her head.

He shrugged and said, "It's okay, why ask this?"

Ye Zhanyan suddenly smiled, that smile was completely different from the one he was familiar with before, somehow, it was actually very sad.

"Very good, I think so too." After Ye Zhanyan finished speaking, she burst into tears.

He was confused and forgot to correct her. He just said that it was okay. He couldn't even see his nose and eyes clearly from such a distance. What could he say?Sheng Huainan hurriedly took out a tissue to help her wipe her tears, but she just said over and over again: "It's really good, it's really good...Look, you're going to go so far away, so far away from me. "

That fragile look made him feel strange and distressed.He hugged her from behind, but didn't know what to say, he just rubbed his chin on the top of her head and said, "Fool."

Luo Zhi remained silent, with a solemn heart, a gust of cold wind brushed her face, like the invisible hand of fate, cold but pity.

Sheng Huainan didn't know at the time that it would be the last time he saw Ye Zhanyan.For the next month, they could only be reached by text and phone calls.His mother completely controlled his leisure time, first sent him to Hong Kong for a five-day tour, and then ordered him to accompany his cousin to the Maldives for more than a week, and then his father's friends in Shanghai sent him an invitation to his family. The child tutored the third year of mathematics, and his parents even agreed.He was helpless, but at the same time he also felt that it would be better to follow his parents' wishes before leaving home.However, in a blink of an eye it was time to report to Beijing, and his family members went to the airport to see him off, so it was naturally inconvenient for Ye Zhanyan to show up—it was ridiculous and helpless, because he never saw her again.

They broke up before returning home for the winter vacation in the first semester of freshman year, and they have not contacted since then.

That day, at the entrance of the supermarket, when Sheng Huainan called out Luo Zhi's name to save him, what he thought of was Ye Zhanyan who was inexplicably crying.

Luo Zhi couldn't laugh or cry.

The last time he saw Ye Zhanyan, it seemed that he secretly wanted to introduce Luo Zhi.But when he met Luo Zhi for the first time, his mind was full of Ye Zhanyan.

She has her unknown in her heart, and he also has his sad twists and turns in his mind.

"The first time you drank coffee with me, you could see that I...I'm interested in you, right?"

Luo Zhi still couldn't say the words "I like you", and could only stammer a few times, slurring it with the nondescript "interesting".

Sheng Huainan's beer stopped on his lips: "Do you want to hear the truth or a lie?"

"lie."

"How could I be so self-indulgent."

Luo Zhi laughed out loud.

In all fairness, the first chat with Luo Zhi in the coffee shop made Sheng Huainan very happy.From his point of view, Luo Zhi didn't show the eagerness that bored him and deliberately concealed it with arrogance.Instead, she's natural and unmarked.

"Are you all pretending?"

"Well, mostly," Luo Zhi felt the changes in herself more and more, it seemed that the tempering of this period had taught her true calmness and self-confidence, "Do it again, I will still choose to pretend."

"Amazing," he smiled appreciatively, his eyes lingering on the distant night sky, and asked flatly, "Tell me, does this kind of mentality count as narcissism?"

Luo Zhi shook her head: "But you didn't guess wrong."

Sheng Huainan raised his head and drank the last sip of beer, then picked up another can in a daze.

Back then, he confessed his love with a text message, and then went to find Ye Zhanyan at the door of the liberal arts class.She asked: "How do you know that I will definitely accept your confession?" He smiled and said, "I knew you liked me just by looking at it."

I can tell you like me just by looking at it.This sentence, he has frowned at all kinds of girls looking for excuses to strike up a conversation many times before.Although his emotional experience is blank, just like he can tell which pickpockets are in the train station without stealing things, some things are enough to see at a glance.

But when Ye Zhanyan said this, he was a little unconfident and panicked.The other party blushed suddenly and said, "You...don't be so narcissistic."

At that time, the classmates in their class were lying at the door gossiping and looking at the two of them, sometimes booing, Sheng Huainan was not bored at all for the first time.He has always hated his own affairs being interfered by others. The crowd watching that day, because he was in a good mood, were all regarded as witnesses of happiness.

"Yeah, I almost didn't miss it." He laughed, talking about almost, and thinking about everything in his heart.

Luo Zhi also took the last sip of beer, choked on it, and the beer trickled down a little from the corner of her mouth. Before she raised her hand, Sheng Huainan had already wiped it down with the back of her hand.He seemed a little drunk, his face was very red, his eyes were wandering, and his movements were neither light nor heavy.

Luo Zhi's face was burning hot, and she unconsciously moved to the side.

Sheng Huainan didn't let her ask about Ye Zhanyan, but he kept talking about it himself.She knew that he must be unhappy because of Ye Zhanyan, but she didn't feel jealous at all.

"Hey, let me ask you..." Luo Zhi raised her eyes while speaking, and suddenly saw a white cloud wrapped around the moon in the clear night sky, very high, far away, as thin as a veil.The moonlight is hidden behind the clouds, and the whole body emits glazed brilliance.

Sun halo days will rain, moon halo noon wind.

For a moment, it seemed that everything didn't exist anymore. She stared blankly at the lonely cloud in the sky, as if she had plunged headlong into the past like smoke.

So be it, she promised not to ask, and never asked again.

They drank in silence, and gradually warmed up, until Sheng Huainan lowered his head in a daze, shook his head, and leaned on her shoulder.

Luo Zhi sighed softly in her heart.

How can you be reliable with this amount of alcohol!

She had heard about him a long time ago that he was extremely bad at drinking. She had heard of all the gossip about the class reunion after the college entrance examination, as long as it was related to him, so she laughed in her heart when he wanted to buy hard alcohol.Although he said that he was afraid that he was different from what she heard, but she heard this matter correctly.

Thinking of this, she still took off her scarf and wrapped it around his head a few times, like a nurse who is not good at bandaging, protecting his red ears.

"You don't know how angry I was when I received a text message from that little girl."

His tone was vague, like a child's.

"Everyone, you make me very angry too." She said and drank, thinking of the raincoat, she felt a little gnashed her teeth.

"But," he raised his head to look at her lazily, "I followed you that night, and you said frankly that I really like you under the streetlight. I found out that what you said was true, to me... Interesting," he also avoided the words "like" and "secret love" that often made her furious, raised his hand and tapped his chest gently and repeatedly, "here, here is like pouring warm water directly down."

Luo Zhi didn't know whether to laugh or cry, thinking of his distaste for Chinese lessons, he knew that this kind of description was really difficult for him.However, every word hit her eardrum, and her fingers trembled slightly.

"I thought at the time that although Ye Zhanyan liked to play tricks, she would definitely not lie to harm others."

Luo Zhi listened quietly.

"But I can't bear you," he said bluntly.

In fact, I just don't want to.

He couldn't bear the disappearance of the girl who once looked at him with bright eyes and smiled, and she was as alienated and indifferent as she treated a stranger when she passed by.

Even if she is vicious and cunning, hiding her secrets, even if her methods are despicable, as long as she loves him.

A piece of ice in Luo Zhi's heart disintegrated suddenly, and her eyes suddenly turned red.

She finally understood where she had been wrong all along.It turned out that she had been alone in this protracted silent secret love for too long, and she was familiar with every kind of sadness and pretense, but she never understood that in the emotional world of two people, what made the final decision was not the wisdom of the heart, nor the equal appreciation , let alone looking up desperately.

It is distressed, it is pity.

It is the little bit of helplessness in a dilemma.

Just as she once sarcastically satirized him: "The matter of death without proof has nothing to do with closeness."

"You really don't distinguish between good and evil, narcissist." Her heart was warm, but her voice was cold.

"That's not true," he struggled to get up and corrected with his tongue out, "I am absolutely clear about right and wrong intellectually."

Emotionally, I don't know what is good or bad.

Her tearful laughter was carried away by the wind.

Sheng Huainan slowly fell asleep leaning against her.After all, they didn't find those "unimportant" ruins, and Luo Zhi didn't feel it was a pity.The left shoulder was heavy and precarious, she hesitated for a while, and finally raised her left hand lightly to wrap around his shoulder.

How come it seems to be upside down.She laughed inwardly.

Time whizzed by like the night wind, she hugged him, looked at the cloud at the end of the lake, and felt at ease.

She didn't care about what they talked about and how many knots they hadn't solved yet.

The soul returns to the body.

After an unknown amount of time, Luo Zhi, who had a sore shoulder, heard Sheng Huainan cough twice, tried to sit up straight, and stared at the front in confusion: "What time is it?"

Luo Zhi rubbed her shoulders, stood up with difficulty, picked up the schoolbag under her hips, patted it on and handed it to him: "I don't know, let's go back."

She refused to go through the main entrance, nor was she willing to be scolded by the security guards in the garden, she would rather climb over the wall again.After Sheng Huainan woke up, he woke up a lot. He put his big hand on her shoulder and patted her guiltily.

They returned the same way, and it was still Sheng Huainan who pushed her by the butt and sent her to the fence.

She sat on it securely, like a proud queen, letting the wind mess her hair and ignoring it. Instead, she raised her head and looked at the white belly in the east.Sheng Huainan quickly flipped over and sat next to her. Neither of them spoke, their legs dangling in the air, like a drunk boatman rowing his oars.

The little finger of his left hand touched the back of her hand.Luo Zhi's heart beat suddenly too fast.

In the next second, his aura overwhelmed her overwhelmingly.She laughed as teeth met teeth, looking past his flushed face and furious brow.

The first ray of sunlight reached out from behind her, warming the boy's face.Luo Zhi looked over from the top of his hairy gold-rimmed head, and the western sky was brightly blank.She could no longer find the moon veiled by clouds.

Every cloud is missing.

Every moon has no end.

(End of this chapter)