Secret Love · Orange Raw Huainan

Chapter 98 Beijing, Beijing

When lilacs are swaying throughout the campus, early summer is here.

Jiang Baili often updates her photos with yaks in Qinghai.It is said that the boy she fell in love with returned to Beijing for a job in a big company within a few weeks of arriving there, and has never been heard from since.However, Luo Zhi didn't see that Jiang Baili was too depressed, she said that she could cry to the yak if she had something on her mind.

"I just realized how tragic it was in my freshman year," Jiang Baili wrote in a text message. "You never even put a P, and the yak occasionally responds to me by barking twice."

Luo Zhi would occasionally receive text messages from Ding Shuijing, and as usual, they would be filled with thoughts and complaints just like letters.The difference is that now she will basically reply.She also went to 798 with Xu Riqing and Zhang Mingrui, of course, separately.

She changed to an internship in the legal department of a Fortune [-] company. Since she had not yet graduated and could not take the CPA exam, she had to go to Bengbu, Anhui, where the qualification requirements for registration were not strict, to take the exam, so she basically spent her free time studying. I feel at ease.

Sometimes I exchange e-mails with Zhu Yan and video chat with two children.

But Sheng Huainan was never mentioned.

Everyone said that Luo Zhi had changed.She started having lots of friends, became laughable, and easygoing.

One Saturday afternoon, Luo Zhi was about to finish working overtime when her cell phone rang suddenly.She thought it was a call back from the air ticket agency, so she answered it without even looking at it.

"Hello!"

"Luo Zhi."

White luminescence, 43 unread emails marked next to the inbox, the feeling of high heels sinking into the carpet, the sound of paper being spit out by the printer next to it, the silhouettes of colleagues walking like flying to and fro outside the glass curtain wall of the conference room...

These barriers that paralyzed and protected her collapsed in an instant with the call from the phone.

Before Luo Zhi reached the subway exit, she saw Sheng Huainan.

The fair and clean young man stood beside the credit card machine at the exit, his figure was hidden in the crowd, and green beards appeared on his thin face. When he saw her, he curled the corners of his mouth and smiled like the wind in late spring.

She walked quickly, but had to make a detour along the guardrail.He was right behind the crowd, following her path, separated by guardrails and crowds of heads.They seemed to be walking in step on both sides of the river, and glimpsed each other's figures passing by through the gap.

Luo Zhi finally stood in front of him.

An hour ago, on the phone, Sheng Huainan asked her, "Do you know where I can see Beijing?"

Luo Zhi felt that the voice came from another world.

She looked up at the wall clock on the wall, and said softly, "Yes, I know a place where I can see Beijing."

After such a long time, they did not talk about the recent situation, nor did they greet each other.

They were talking about Beijing.

05:30 in the afternoon, Jingshan.

They are like an ordinary tourist couple who come to visit, but they are not holding hands.They don't talk much, but they are not unfamiliar, as if everything in the middle has been put on hold for the time being, and it doesn't affect them to pick up this moment directly.

It wasn't the first time Luo Zhi came here, so she walked faster and led him through the sparsely populated garden.This park is really not big, there is no particularly beautiful scenery, you can see the mountains when you open the door, and the mountains are surprisingly short.Walking up the stone steps, it only takes 15 minutes to reach the top.

All the mountaintops in China are but pavilions.

"I heard that there is a tree at the foot of this mountain where Chongzhen hanged himself, but I don't know where it is."

"Tell me, what was the emperor thinking when he committed suicide?" Sheng Huainan asked.

"How do I know?" Luo Zhi smiled, "The army is defeated like a mountain, and he is a person who has been aloof all his life. How can we know what is in his heart. No matter what it is, it is nothing more than despair."

Nothing but despair.

She knew she had made a slip of the tongue, and felt that he would not be so vulnerable, so she just kept her mouth shut and didn't say anything to comfort her.

The high-heeled shoes tapped and jammed on the rough granite steps.With a cry of surprise, she leaned back and almost fell down. Fortunately, Sheng Huainan held her waist steadily.

Luo Zhi had lingering fears, Sheng Huainan looked at her clothes thoughtfully: "Are you going to work today?"

"Well, work overtime."

"How do you climb mountains with these shoes?"

"The mountain is not high, and it's all stone steps. I'll just be careful." After Luo Zhi finished speaking, she pulled her left foot back a little, and found that the heel of her heel had been rubbed with blood blisters.

Sheng Huainan frowned, walked up to the next step in silence, and slowly squatted down with his back facing her.

"I'll carry you."

She was stunned in place, and he turned around and smiled at her: "Hurry up, don't dawdle!"

Luo Zhi took off her shoes, walked over with them in her hands, and gently leaned on his back.The boy's body is no longer just the fragrance of washing powder, but also the smell of youthful sweat.The weight of Luo Zhi's whole body was on his back, her chin rested on the socket of his left shoulder, her heart was burning hot.

The narrow stone path winds up until the stone steps become wider and the pavilion can be seen in the distance.The high heels in her hand swayed with his steps.

She began to wear high heels, began to change, began to become peaceful, began to accept different people into her life, made friends, joked, and stopped weighing every gain and loss on the scale of dignity.

This is all good.

But it's not as good as this road can't go to the end.

When we reached the top of the mountain, it was just sunset.

The pavilion has handrails and wooden benches on all sides.He found a random direction, put her on a chair and sat down first, and then sat beside her.There were only the two of them and an uncle who put his legs on the guardrail and hung his voice while pressing down in the whole pavilion.The uncle was wearing a denim half-sleeve shirt tied into his belt, and his self-satisfied look infected Sheng Huainan, and his face suddenly became alive under the afterglow of the setting sun.

"I thought it was only in the morning that it was appropriate to open your voice." He laughed.

"Which direction are we facing?" Luo Zhi ignored him, and was feeling confused all by herself, when the uncle suddenly stopped singing, pointed to the west-slanting sun and said, "Girl, let me tell you something about you."

Luo Zhi hurriedly lowered her head, and Sheng Huainan finally burst out laughing.

Barefoot, she swayed back and forth in the air, with a haughty and innocent posture, leaning on his shoulder, watching the setting sun melt into the tall buildings and clouds, forming an ambiguous cloud of fire.

Already stars lit up on the other side of the sky.

"I've been here before, and I've looked at the map carefully, and I'll tell you about it!" Facing the gorgeous sunlight, with her back against the approaching gray-blue sky, she suddenly became flamboyant, smiling unreservedly.

"Okay." He looked at her with an encouraging smile.

"look.

"To the south is the Forbidden City, and to the south of the Forbidden City, you can see Chang'an Avenue, which is endless from east to west.

"We can see Xidan from the west. If you look hard, you may be able to find me sweating and waiting for the traffic lights in the crowd at the big intersection near the subway. Our school is also in the northwest, too far away to see me here. I Sometimes I doubt whether that large construction site with a fortified wall is really a part of Beijing.

"In the east, you can see the International Trade Center, which is bustling. Many seniors and sisters in our school are busy in that area every day, maybe we can see it.

"There is a Drum Tower Street in the north, and the east-west streets converge in front of you, like a Y shape. The north-south vertical line below is connected with Jingshan where we are, and the Forbidden City and Tiananmen Square in the south."

It's here, it's all here.

She was talking slowly, telling him everything she could recognize.Until the evening wind blew away the setting sun, until the uncle with a hanging voice disappeared at some point, the sky became quiet, and the lights on Chang'an Street lit up one by one.

Tiananmen Square, the Great Hall of the People, and many other majestic and majestic places that she couldn't tell apart, although she had lived in Beijing for two years, she had never seen them.

The place is always overcrowded, filled with countless people who have curiosity and dreams about Beijing, lined up in front of all kinds of unsightly buildings and statues, and made V-sign gestures, leaving evidence of their connection with the city.

Then some people choose to stay, and some people just want to take a look, and they are satisfied.

She didn't know if it was Beijing or not.

The lights of Guomao and Xidan were also turned on, and there were many tall buildings, each doing its own thing, like two groups of indifferent people with their hands behind their backs, facing each other from a distance.The neon lights are flowing with brilliance, I don't know if it is the blood that this city depends on for life.

So does that count as Beijing?

Is Beijing the Forbidden City that is as dark as an ocean under the night in front of you?

Or, the future of Beijing is indeed in the invisible corner of the northwest, because there are countless young people who come to conquer it?

Or in the hutongs that she will never be familiar with, on the coast of Houhai where the uncle of the tricycle shuttles by, or on the Mazha at the foot of the Forbidden City, walking birds, playing the erhu, and talking about current affairs?

Where else can they go to see Beijing.

"My senior brother told me that there is a very tall building near China World Trade Center, and the urinal of the men's toilet on the highest floor there," she paused embarrassedly, continued, "it faces a piece of glass, floor-to-ceiling windows, and you can see Very beautiful night view of Beijing."

Sheng Huainan laughed loudly: "That will really give people the feeling that they pissed on the whole of Beijing."

Luo Zhi clapped her hands and shouted: "Yes, that's the sentence. They often say when they are depressed: 'Let's go, pee in Beijing!'"

This inelegant remark actually made both of them excited.

"I didn't expect that I would leave Beijing like this."

Sheng Huainan looked fascinated by the lights of Wanjia in all directions, his voice was low, but not very sad.

Luo Zhi learned from Zhu Yan's e-mail that they finally managed to complete the formalities.Under the strong request of Sheng Huainan's mother, he obeyed her wish and planned to go to Singapore with Zhu Yan and apply for a university there.

"There's nothing wrong with this. I believe that a loss in a lost horse is a blessing in disguise, especially when the protagonist is you." Luo Zhi said sincerely.

He smiled gratefully.

"What have you been doing this year?" Luo Zhi asked softly.

Sheng Huainan did not answer, but stood up, walked in front of her, and said solemnly: "I came to you today, hoping to replace my parents and say 'sorry' to you and your mother."

Luo Zhi didn't look at him, nor showed a trace of surprise, but just looked into the distance, and asked him gently: "You know everything?"

"At that time, I went home to attend the funeral for my grandfather. I watched my father be taken away from home. There were too many evidences against them. My mother didn't even mention any of them to me. Maybe she didn't want me to see them too much. What an unbearable side. Although I have seen enough."

Luo Zhi didn't know if anyone had seen Sheng Huainan like this before, he was honest but not fragile, as if he was finally going to show everything to her.

"It was only after I asked many uncles and uncles who had a good relationship with my father at the time that I found out about it. Of course, I said that there were many, but in fact I was rejected by them. In the end, only one person saw me."

Sheng Huainan's shoulders have lost a lot of weight. When he was carrying her on his back, Luo Zhi could already feel the shoulder blades pressing against her throat.

"My mother suffered from hyperthyroidism. She was terribly thin, her eyes were protruding, and she was very energetic. She cried at home day and night. I ran to ask all the people who might help, but all were rejected. Dad's business is over, there is no room for it, but I want to save my mother. She is just a doctor. For so many years, she has been trying to stop my dad with these things, but it has not been successful. After all, it is her husband, and Her husband who has not spoken for several years, she... I don't want her to have nothing and pay this price."

Sheng Huainan scratched his head, sighed, and smiled awkwardly.

"But I don't have the skills. I don't even know who to ask for this kind of thing. I was poked in the security room of other people's community and was ridiculed like a fool. The world is cold. Only then did I know that my so-called My excellence and ability are all based on a stable foundation, once it is destroyed, I am just an idiot, and I will not even ask for security to accommodate me."

His voice was still very pleasant, with a youthful high-spirited and clean tone. Even when he talked about embarrassing things, he still had an understatement.

The understatement made Luo Zhi dare not think deeply.

"In the end, I finally grabbed straws and lost my degree. My mother was so angry that she coughed up blood and passed out. Fortunately, the sacrifice of the degree was worth it, and she was fine in the end.

"After she recovered, I mentioned you to her. I said I needed to go to Beijing to give you an explanation. She thought for a while after hearing this, and then passed out again."

Sheng Huainan chuckled and scratched his head.

"Later, it was Zhu Yan who told me later." He also called her Zhu Yan, not aunt.

"I just went to ask my mother. She admitted that my father was responsible for the purchase and received a huge kickback. The problems with those machines were serious, and several of them were almost scrapped. Your father accident, it was the machine's fault, and it was also my father's fault."

However, in the end, the accident was determined to be an operational error, leaving the job without authorization, and the responsibility fell on Luo Zhi's father.

Sheng Huainan paused for a long time, took a deep breath, and said slowly: "It's because he is too greedy and shameless, he despises human life.

"All I can do is say 'sorry' to you and your mother on their behalf."

The boy was serious about his words, and the distant lights were reflected in his eyes, as if they would go out at any moment.

That was his father, no matter how clear the truth was, and no matter how hard the evidence was, it was like reading someone else's story, and then using the greed and shamelessness of the strange man in the story to describe the image of the father in his heart who was still deeply affectionate - in Luo Zhi's heart Mixed feelings.

"Okay, I will accept it for my mother."

She is also very solemn.

"What you should undertake yourself has already been done."

Sheng Huainan gently held her hand, and Luo Zhi found that those hands were no longer as warm and dry as before, like the hands of a drowning man grabbing a life-saving straw.

She could only hold him tighter.

"Until now, I still feel like I'm listening to other people's affairs. Although I know in my heart that those conveniences in life, too easy opportunities, even the car to and from school, are outside the rules, but it is also true. I am used to it. I know that he is not completely upright, and I even appreciate his flexibility in many cases. But I never thought that this kind of thing was actually done by him."

Luo Zhi knew how difficult it was for him to say these simple sentences.She gently stroked his back until his stiff shoulders slowly relaxed, turned his face, and smiled gratefully at her.

"I didn't contact you during the time when I went home and after my degree was canceled. I know you are looking for me, but the last person I don't want to face is you."

"I know."

"I'm afraid you pity me."

"In your heart, sympathy is the same as contempt?"

"I can't look down on you, and I can't sympathize. I don't know how I want you to treat me, especially when I don't know how to treat myself."

Luo Zhi heard the sound of helicopters, and dragonflies in the night sky flew over the dark Forbidden City.

"Especially after Zhu Yan told me about this matter, I couldn't understand it even more. Since you know it all, why are you with me? Sometimes I wonder, are you planning to give to your father?" What about revenge? Of course, my idea is too stupid, but I really don't understand."

"Then you appear now because you have thought clearly?" She didn't answer his question, but asked instead.

Sheng Huainan raised his head in confusion to look at the propeller hovering above his head: "I don't know, I just want to see you all of a sudden."

I just want to see you all of a sudden.

"That's it, I don't have any reason," Luo Zhi smiled, "I'm with you only because I love you."

Sheng Huainan looked dazed, the wind blew up his T-shirt, as if it would fly away in a second.

"Luo Zhi..." He just called her name without saying anything.

Luo Zhi stood up suddenly, stepped on the ground with her bare feet, leaned against the fence, faced Sheng Huainan, and smiled contentedly.

"Be careful of catching a cold."

"It's not that delicate. When I was young, I fought with others, but they choked each other's necks and rolled all the way into the mud."

Hearing this, Sheng Huainan broke away from the emotional swing just now, and said with a smile, "Come on, stop bragging."

"I fight really hard."

"Oh, yes."

"Anyone can disbelieve, only you can't disbelieve."

"why?"

Luo Zhi's long hair faced the wind, and traces of it seeped into the night.She smiled brightly, approached him, and lightly held his shoulders with both hands: "Because if it wasn't for me back then, they would have really pushed your head into the puddle, Your Majesty the Emperor."

Sheng Huainan stared at her blankly for a while, then suddenly stood up, rushed over and hugged her tightly in his arms.It seems that the barriers and defenses, doubts and swings that cannot be eliminated with words can be bridged in the most natural way with primitive and simple hugs.

Luo Zhi knew that the cool poison in each other's bodies would eventually be evaporated little by little by the warmth conveyed by his skin, and become transparent again.Even lust can be clean and peaceful, like a river, what she can't express will eventually flow to him.

"Your Majesty, I can finally speak out."

(End of this chapter)