Love in Hancheng

Chapter 11 I finally decided to let him go (1)
Silence, terrible silence, heavy in the dark, so heavy that I could feel my mother's tears slipping down quietly.

Since she married her father, she has been loved deeply, and she has always kept herself clean, how can she bear such grievances and disasters.

How much love can make such a sacrifice.

How strong it is to be able to live proudly like this afterwards.

Suddenly, I felt like a heavy stone was stuck in my chest. In those days, the difficult days, my comfort and thoughtfulness could not solve the actual problem. My mother has been fighting for my father's illness, never complaining, even never complaining. Never shed a single tear in front of me.

What I saw was the pain of my father being tormented by the serious illness, and the lingering love at the end. What I saw was ordinary, but at least the happiness of a family loving each other. But I don’t know what my mother did behind all these How much sacrifice, how much pay.

I don't even dare to think about the price my mother paid, I dare not think about it.

Only at this time did I realize my uselessness, my childishness and innocence, and only then did I realize that money is always so important.

I lived under the protection of my mother, but I didn't know how much she had suffered. I thought that I had a clear conscience for living a straight life all these years.

But now I just feel bad.

"Mom~"

Time seems to have returned to the days when we were dependent on each other, and I always tried my best to make her happy.

"Do you hate Ji Mingchuan?"

But when I couldn't help but want to get closer to my mother, she reminded me with such a calm voice, I don't hate Ji Mingchuan, it's just because there is Han Dongcheng living in my heart, so that no matter how many people there are, I can't leave Just come in.

But now, in my heart, Han Dongcheng has been squeezed into a corner.

I have no right to love myself so selfishly, and I have no right to blame my mother for everything.

"I understand!"

My voice was a little choked, guilt and pain made me unable to face myself.

"Love at first sight may not be as good as long-term love. Love is not the result of one party's attachment to happiness. If you hadn't met Han Dongcheng, if you fell in love with someone else, neither would your mother."

My mother seemed to sigh. Her strength made me feel uncomfortable. For so many years, if it wasn't for my stubbornness and indifference, if it wasn't for my complaints and extremes, she might have kept such a secret in her heart forever.

"Be a woman who loves herself, and someone will love you more!"

My mother turned around, didn't even give me any chance to comfort me, and quickly walked out of the dark room, leaving me with an elegant and noble back.

I was silent for a minute, cleaned up all the mess and humbleness, bid farewell to the past that shouldn't be nostalgic, and resolutely raised my pace.

In the dark room, there seemed to be a glimmer of light flashing the moment I left. When I turned around suddenly, it was still dark and there was nothing unusual.

I went back to the original luxurious private room again, I didn't even look at my mother, let alone see how Han Dongcheng and Huo Lingsha were doing, I just smiled and sat beside Ji Mingchuan.

The reversal of life and the fork in the relationship are always such a twist.

When Han Qinan and Ji Tingkuan set the wedding date for me and Ji Mingchuan, I smiled slightly, met Han Dongcheng's inexplicable gaze, and expressed my wish to the slightly surprised Ji Mingchuan.

My resignation brought everyone happy. This situation made me wonder whether what I insisted on was wrong. When we began to accept the arrangement of reality helplessly, did we lose something, such as throbbing, such as innocence.

There was harmony at the dinner table, only Ji Mingchuan's Aunt Yue was slightly anxious. Seeing her muttering something in Ji Tingkuan's ear, Ji Tingkuan's face became more serious, and he uttered a sentence in a bad tone: "You are used to it."

Aunt Yue's face immediately felt a little unwilling, and she didn't say anything more. I ate the food bit by bit, but I was actually a little numb, and I didn't have the mood to care more.

After dinner, I watched Huo Lingsha waiting at the door for Han Dongcheng to pick up the car to take her home. I felt Ji Mingchuan's silent existence like mine, and heard someone shout: "Mommy~"

That kind of cynical voice makes it hard not to attract attention, especially the owner of the voice, who has a hairstyle that is more trendy than Daoming Temple, absolutely rebellious punk clothes, and the sparkling diamonds on his ears are next to each other. A flamboyant and unruly face, those eyes are like falcons, and there is a deep contempt hidden in the evil, looking at me.

"Where did you go all night, and you didn't eat dinner?"

Aunt Yue's questioning and accusations quickly turned into caring. The man who was about eighteen or nineteen years old showed a look of indifference, and suddenly smiled at me like a grin.

"Hello, future sister-in-law."

When he raised his eyebrows, I even saw the evil in his eyes, like a devil, I was startled, feeling a little ominous, and unconsciously hid under Ji Mingchuan's protection.

"Mingze, you have to be big or small."

When Ji Mingchuan spoke, Aunt Yue's face was slightly displeased, but Ji Mingchuan's father over there had already turned his face with seriousness, and the man named Mingze restrained himself a little, and said in a fearless tone: "I'll go get it." car."

After speaking, he jumped, passed the fence on one side, and went straight to the parking lot.

And I couldn't help but glance at Ji Mingchuan, thinking of the words of the person who prevented me from marrying Ji Mingchuan.

"The person with the most right to inherit the Ji family is not Ji Mingchuan!"

I turned around and saw that Ji Mingchuan was indeed frowning, but he said softly to me: "I'll take you back."

I didn't refute. Ji Mingchuan's driver had already driven over. Han Qinan and his mother were obviously happy to see the result, but the mother added a sentence at the end: "You are going to get married, so don't live outside. Someone will pick you up tomorrow." return."

I didn't speak, but got into Ji Mingchuan's car silently. In the car, I couldn't help attacking Ji Mingchuan: "Ji Mingchuan, did you do it on purpose?"

All this is a bit of a coincidence, he obviously knew that the two elders were married, but he didn't tell me.

"Maybe, if you disagree, it's too late to regret it now."

What responded to me was Ji Mingchuan's slightly lonely handsome face, a trace of indifference and helplessness, and there was only a momentary hesitation in my heart. Change your original intention.

"I do not regret."

When I got back to the residence, I didn't tell Ye Xiaoran the news that shocked her immediately, but I just kept packing my things without stopping.

"Going to move back?"

Meeting Ye Xiaoran's astonishment, I nodded. If I want to marry Ji Mingchuan, I must go back to Han's house, and I can't marry here.

If you move back, you will only live there for a few days.

Last night, I made an appointment with Ji Mingchuan for three chapters. Before we got married, I hoped to keep our relationship low-key, and it would not be too late to disclose it when we got married. Ji Mingchuan readily agreed.

So, I went to the company today without any fluctuations, everything was calm, and my heart seemed to be calm.

When he went back at night, he put some of his favorite clothes and supplies into the car sent by Han Zhai, and looked at Ye Xiaoran with some reluctance.

"Come back if you feel uncomfortable living at home, you are always welcome here!"

Ye Xiaoran watched me leave, somewhat puzzled, I thought I would find time to tell her that I was going to marry Ji Mingchuan.

This time, it seems to be somewhat the same as when I first entered the wealthy family. I always feel that it is not real enough, and I don't believe or accept that this is my home.

It's just that, compared to the past, compared to the past, I calmed down a lot, and even when I knew that Han Dongcheng might meet me at any time, my mood calmed down a lot, and I was no longer so apprehensive and anticipating.

When my mother saw me coming back, she was extremely happy. She was very busy, and ordered someone to add some things to my room. I calmly accepted her arrangement.

"If it's inconvenient to go to work, ask the driver to take you there, or you can drive there by yourself!"

It was rare for my mother to be verbose. I saw fine wrinkles on her forehead even though she was well maintained, and when the gray hair was hidden in her temples, I readily accepted her arrangement.

"Your Uncle Han has gone to Europe, and you won't be here for the past two days!"

Seeing me looking for Han Qinan's shadow, my mother explained my doubts. As for Han Dongcheng, she didn't explain. In fact, he didn't come here most of the time, so my mother couldn't tell when he was here or not.

The dinner is naturally richer than what I usually eat. Obviously, my mother arranged for my aunt to cook all my favorite dishes. Sitting in a restaurant that is more elegant and elegant than the ancient emperors, I still feel like a guest.

"Eat more, add more flesh to your face, and you will be beautiful when you take pictures!"

After my mother sized me up so rarely, her earnest tone revealed an expectation of marrying her daughter.

I didn't say much, I ate quietly, the phone rang halfway, the housekeeper answered it, and passed it to my mother, the person on the other end of the phone was Han Qinan.

"Qinan?"

Mother showed a natural smile, and her voice was gentle, with neither humble nor overbearing elegance.

"Business is important, so there is no need to rush back, Nuan Nuan will accompany me tomorrow!"

Why did Han Qinan come back on a special trip tomorrow? I figured it out after a little thought. Tomorrow is my mother's birthday. Over the years, my mother's birthday has been organized in a decent way. It shows that Han Qinan respects her, and because of my innermost feelings Conflict, how many times I missed my mother's birthday.

Now seeing the happy look on my mother's face, I know my dereliction of duty.

I think I should do something for her.

The next morning, I got up early and specially arranged for the kitchen servants to help me buy a few ingredients before going to work.

The superficial learning from Xu Quan, a master chef, is not enough for me to cook a full banquet, but I think it should be no problem to cook some delicious side dishes for my mother.

I remember that when my mother celebrated her birthday, I liked the birthday noodles made by my father the most, and I always ate them clean.

So during the lunch break, I inquired about the recipe of birthday noodles again, thinking about my mother's hardships, my heart was full, and I couldn't express my sadness.

With me like this, I have no right to blame and resent my mother.

When I got off work, I rushed back immediately. Of course, I chose the most unremarkable Ford car in Hanzhai.

After the third sister of the servant saw me coming back, she immediately reported the preparations, which were complete and well-prepared, so that it was not difficult to make more abundant ones.

It's just that my level is limited. I have learned a little about the appetizers and desserts, and they are not bad, but the main dishes are not good. As for the birthday noodles, I can't make them until my mother comes.

Of course, I also asked about my mother's itinerary last night. She is going to participate in a charity event today, and she won't be back until about seven o'clock.

After being busy for more than an hour, my mother did not come as scheduled. I was really worried that she would come after eating outside. I couldn't help but want to call my mother to ask, but I heard the doorbell ring.

"I'll open the door!"

Being ahead of the third sister, I was even more excited, with a slightly expectant expression on my face.

"Mom~"

When my smiling face saw Han Dongcheng's handsome and indifferent face, I couldn't help being startled, and all the joy was automatically suppressed for a while, but it looked a little unwelcoming, which made Han Dongcheng's face seem unattractive.

"Hehe, Mr. Han has prepared a birthday cake for Madam!"

Only then did I notice that next to Han Dongcheng, there was a man who looked like a young assistant, raising the cake in his hand, wrapped in an exquisite gift box, a little petty, but at least he had a heart.

Based on this, I quickly stepped aside, and Han Dongcheng came in without looking at me, and ordered to hand over the cake to Third Sister's assistant as he went upstairs.

"I'm staying here tonight, you don't have to pick me up tomorrow, I'll drive there by myself!"

The assistant took the order to go, but I was in the mood of anticipation, because of Han Dongcheng's appearance, I was confused. I didn't expect him to come to celebrate my mother's birthday.

Of course, my mother didn't seem to have expected that Han Dongcheng would come back specifically to celebrate her birthday. This was also seen from the slightly surprised expression on her mother's slightly surprised expression when she saw Han Dongcheng coming down with red wine after her return.

"Father specifically told me not to let your birthday be indifferent!"

When Han Dongcheng explained this, he was not particularly kind or alienated, but his mother showed a touch of satisfaction and said: "I told your father, don't worry too much about birthdays, but you can come back for a potluck meal , it's very good!"

My mother is elegant and calm. It seems that no matter what kind of Han Dongcheng she is, she is fearless. When I can train her to be as good as she is, maybe I won't be so embarrassed.

Mom motioned to the third sister, and immediately put them on the dining table. Of course, because of my instructions, she didn't let the third sister tell her mother that I did all these.

Only after my mother took a sip of the soup, her face was slightly surprised.

"This soup is very fresh!"

Faced with her mother's praise, the third sister smiled, and her eyes fell on my face unconsciously, and my mother seemed to be able to see the clues from these dishes.

"Nuan Nuan, what did you do?"

Faced with my mother's rare gentleness and surprise, I just showed a slight smile and said, "It's all made with the help of my third sister. How about you try this appetizer?"

The craftsmanship learned from Xu Quan, in addition to the taste, the appearance of the natural dishes must also be exquisite. Mom tasted the tender bamboo shoots I picked up, and there seemed to be some water vapor in her eyes, and her expression was relieved, and she was more satisfied.

I bowed my head, feeling a little guilty unconsciously. I have long stopped pleasing my mother these years.

At this time, Han Dongcheng, who was called by the housekeeper to answer the phone just after sitting down, had already walked over. I didn't pay too much attention to his appearance as usual, but just calmly ate the meals I made by myself. Strive for well water and not violate river water.

Last night, the night before last, the fact that he and Huo Lingsha, and Ji Mingchuan and I were already completely different made my mind extra sober, so in a very short period of time, I calmed down my mood and stopped doing that for Han Dongcheng Carousel man.

Seeing Han Dongcheng sit down, the third sister quickly served him soup, Han Dongcheng was naturally not polite, when I tasted the soup gracefully, my eyelids still jumped unconsciously, such an accident, is it God? Just kidding, when I had completely given up on that attachment, he ate the meals I cooked with my own hands.

Han Dongcheng didn't have much expression on his face, he just drank the soup quietly.

“Good soup tonight!”

I always thought that Han Dongcheng was stingy with praise, or that I didn't expect his praise at all, so when he seemed to praise objectively, I couldn't help being startled, but I drank the soup quietly and didn't look up, as if the matter Nothing to do with me.

"I think it's good too, try this appetizer, it's sweet but not greasy!"

I don't know if my mother is very happy because of the dishes I made, or because she wants to show Han Dongcheng that my cooking is really good. I am as quiet as always, eating silently.

Until, I saw that Han Dongcheng seemed to really fall in love with that appetizer. When I stretched out the chopsticks a few times, my heart fluctuated for no reason, but it quickly subsided.

"Mom, I'll give you noodles!"

When I said this and got up, Han Dongcheng raised his eyebrows slightly, his eyes flashed, and he seemed to understand immediately. His originally calm face seemed to condense a little bit. I don't know if he has lost his appetite at the moment.

I can't tell whether it's anger or relief, but I actually feel that I have won whether Han Dongcheng has an appetite or not.

"I've prepared noodles, you kid!"

When my mother looked at the not-so-small porcelain bowl and the simple longevity noodles that I brought over, which were almost the same as what my father had made for her, I saw that the expression on my mother's face was obviously more moved than before.

I didn't go to see Han Dongcheng again, but I just watched my mother's seemingly touched expression finally lose her usual elegant demeanor, the way she lowered her head and ate noodles, and felt that everything I had done was worth it.

However, I thought that Han Dongcheng might leave without appetite because the dishes were cooked by me, but it didn't happen.

He actually persevered to the end, accompanied my mother and I to blow out the candles, eat cake, drink red wine, and carry out the mission Han Qinan entrusted to him to the end.

(End of this chapter)