The princess thinks and leaves every day

Chapter 468
Fu Xian thought, "Sorry" should be the word that woman Ye Feiwan said to him the most.

He didn't say when he should say it, and when he shouldn't say it, it tormented his mind over and over again.

The first time we met was in the Ruyi Pavilion, she was drunk and had an awkward fight with Feng Qing, and he was injured and was taking medicine in the wing room, so she broke in, drunk, and "molested" him a bit.

That time, she didn't apologize to him.

Later, when he met again on the official road in the capital, he drove his horse forward, but the horse was frightened by her and almost stumbled. At a critical moment, he tightened the reins and prevented a disaster, and she even threw the green onion on his face!
That time, she didn't apologize to him either.

Later, when they met again in the palace, they knew her identity and knew that she was Princess Jingyuan, the concubine of Prince Jingyuan who "pretended to be a pig and eat a tiger". When she found out that she was peeking, she beat him up and called him "Miss Fuxian"!
That time, she didn't even apologize.

But later, when she mentioned half of her feelings, her apology was always so obvious.

In the beginning, it was just for fun with her, because she was Feng Qing's concubine.

But later, looking at her deliberate smile despite her eyes full of loneliness, it only made people feel glaring, wanting to pierce her appearance.

She made a bet with Qu Yan that she wanted a ruby ​​glass cup.She found him.

But he was not reconciled to his uncontrolled approach again and again, and he agreed to give her the glazed cup, but he also designed her - he obviously heard the assassin chasing him outside the door, but he didn't say a word.

However, when she stood in front of him and took the sword for him, he was still shocked after all.

Never had to protect him.

Ye Feiwan was the first.

However, she wanted the red jade glazed cup because she wanted to raise her eyebrows in front of Qu Yan and straighten her waist in front of Feng Qing.

Later, Ye Changlin passed away.

She didn't cry all the time, and she even dealt with everything in such a calm and orderly manner, that is... when she finished everything and stood in front of Ye Changlin's coffin, she didn't shed a single tear.

But it was the first time he knew that... she would be so fragile, like an ice flower, it would shatter at the slightest touch.

So, go up to her and tell her, "You don't have a father."

She was startled, and cried out in his arms.It was also at that moment that he knew that he would play with fire and set himself on fire after all.

But he is not the one who can keep her.

Even every time she leaves, he finds her first.

The first time he left was after Father Ye's affairs were settled, Ye Feiwan left the capital and went to Yancheng.

——She was so confused, the place she wanted to go was Yanyang, but she went to Yancheng instead.

It was such a coincidence that he passed by Yancheng on his way back from work and met her.

What kind of fate is this?

He accompanied her to buy chestnuts and set off lanterns, but after seeing how reluctantly she even smiled, he told her that Feng Qing was looking for her, and told her that Feng Qing had sealed the Ye Mansion.

She returned to Beijing without telling him, and went back to Beijing alone.

The second time she left, she found him and said to him, "Please help me leave."

If he had known earlier that she said leaving in such a tragic way, he would never have agreed.

Above the city gate, she grabbed Feng Qing's hand, pierced the hairpin into her abdomen, and then jumped down from the city gate.

She had never thought about him, never thought about how terrified and desperate he was under the city gate watching her fall.In her eyes, there was only Feng Qing.

But he still followed her begging, picked up her thin body, and went to Qingshan Temple.

However, once again she left without saying goodbye.

This time, two years, two full years.

He watched Feng Qing suffer day by day, and Feng Qing became crazy day by day, but he didn't even have the status or qualifications of being crazy!

It was still Ye Feiwan who he first met in Liu'an City.

At that time, she chose to forget her love for Feng Qing.

After he heard this, he was secretly happy, but that mixed with great fear.However, he didn't want to make himself regret it.

—he wants to marry her.

The wedding banquet in Fengyang City was too hasty, but he still prepared the best. He didn't want people to think that his salt-free girl was a woman who could marry casually.

However... destiny is always so powerful.

Feng Qing appeared and frantically obstructed the wedding banquet.

She looked at Feng Qing, even though she had forgotten the original love, the emotion and despair in her eyes could not be deceived.

He was afraid that after she married him, she would remember her love for Feng Qing, and he was afraid that she would hate him.And that fear reached its peak when Feng Qing arrived.

It's just a pity... After all, he couldn't tell her that the way she put on his wedding dress that day was so beautiful, so breathtakingly beautiful, that it was hard to forget in this lifetime.

But he didn't have time to tell her.

He was welcomed back to Dachen in the name of the national teacher. During the days in Dajin, it was like a dream, but he dreamed back at midnight, and often dreamed of a woman saying "Sorry, Fuxian" to him.

She owed him so many "sorry", but now that she really said it, he just felt like a knife was twisting in his heart, waking up in pain again and again.

He tried his best to fulfill her long-cherished wish: to forget her, to forget her desperately.

Da Chen sent people to Jin Dynasty, and he wanted the three envoys to go, but he was silent for a long time, and finally followed.

He wanted to see her one last time before really forgetting.

But she was not happy in Dajin, she didn't believe in Feng Qing's feelings.

For the first time, he saw how the emperor, who was so high above him, fell into the dust for a woman, and even begged him.

He also saw clearly that no matter how stubborn Ye Feiwan was, the emotion in his eyes could not deceive anyone.

There is only one person who has always involved her thoughts, and that person's name is Feng Qing.

When resolving the conflict between the two of them, Fu Xian mocked himself over and over again: Fu Xian, you must be crazy.

He is indeed crazy.

When leaving the capital, Fu Xian knew that after this farewell and meeting again, it was really impossible for him and her to meet again.

So, before parting, in the tea shed at the gate of the city, he said: "I seem to still..." I love you, and I can't forget you.

The rest of the words were not finished in the end.

Because it's not necessary anymore.

It will only annoy her more.

Waving his sleeves, he turned and left.

But he didn't leave completely, and when he heard that she and Feng Qing were going to get married, he turned back.

He never showed up, he just found a wall, leaned there quietly, and watched her enter the ancestral temple with Feng Qing in her wedding dress.

It's beautiful, as beautiful as a cloud in the sky.

But...not as good-looking as her in Fengyang City, because at that time, she almost became his wife.

That was the moment he was closest to happiness.

Fu Xian thought, that girl without salt should want his blessing.

Since she wanted it, he gave it to her.

A letter was sent to the palace, and a document was added unwillingly.

In the future, if she gets tired of Feng Qing, she can go to him without any hindrance.

What if...

He would never appear in front of her to bless her personally, because she would definitely say, "I'm sorry."

But in fact, she didn't have to say sorry to him.

The one who should say "sorry" is him.

I'm sorry, Ye Feiwan, I didn't get what you wanted, and I forgot you.

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