give me years of peace

Chapter 362 Her name is Shen Zhan
"You may not know, but I also have places where I am afraid, such as the seaside." Feng Jing said.

Du Anran looked at him again, the seaside?So, when he said he was looking for a place, he actually reached a place deep in his heart that he didn't want to accept?
"If you have the courage to come here, it means that it is no longer a place you are afraid of. As you said, avoidance is the stupidest way."

"Yeah, I don't want to avoid it anymore." Feng Jing said, "So, I'm here."

"Then you can try to open up, and I can be the best listener."

Before Ouyang Pei left, she had never been able to find out what was in Feng Jing's heart, but now, I hope it's not too late.At least she thought that it was better to share it with others than to bear it alone.

"An Ran, have you ever liked someone to the point that you think you will never forget them for the rest of your life?" Feng Jing asked lightly.

His voice was like the sea water, with saltiness mixed with indescribable mourning.

Du Anran was startled, no one asked her this question for a long time.

She nodded: "Yes... because love is always unforgettable."

"That's right, the words unforgettable are like a sharp sword, making people breathless." Feng Jing's voice was depressing.

"I always thought that time is a universal formula to solve any problem, but in the end I found that there are some things that cannot be solved or dissolved." Du Anran also felt countless bitterness in his heart.

Just like she was with Xin Zimo, no matter how much she escaped, she would never forget it.Because, he is her unforgettable.

"Since there is no solution, sometimes I wonder if it would be better to give up..." Feng Jing said.

"Whether you give up or choose to persevere, as long as you think it's right, or most people think it's right, then choose that one." Du Anran said.

"An Ran, would you like to hear me tell a story..." Feng Jing looked into the distance.

Du Anran nodded: "Of course I would..."

She and Feng Jing were sitting side by side, and at the end of her sight was the distant horizon, where the water and the sky meet, as if the other end is connected to a world that no one knows.

"There used to be two children of the same grade living in a large compound, a girl and a boy. Like all love stories at the beginning, this story also fell into a cliché. The boy fell in love with this girl. At the age of his childhood sweetheart, At the age of ignorance and understanding of love."

Probably because he smoked a lot, Feng Jing's voice was hoarse.But to Du Anran's ears, there was a feeling of choking.

As soon as he opened his mouth, she knew that this boy was him.

"Being together for many years, this boy took it for granted that the girl must also like him. The boy never confessed his love until he graduated from high school. The boy said, how about we go to the same university? But the girl told him that she I want to go abroad. The boy tried to persuade him many times, but the girl was indifferent. So they quarreled, and the quarrel was very serious."

Du Anran listened quietly, she did not interrupt Feng Jing's words.

"Early the next morning, the boy just got up and heard that the girl flew to London that night."

Du Anran was stunned, whether all girls would be extremely thorough if they were hard-hearted.

"The boy was also very angry. He felt that he had been being self-indulgent for so many years. So he applied to the local university. In this way, he did not see this girl again for four years. The number of times this girl returned to China is also very small. After that, their family simply moved abroad."

"That boy hasn't seen her again?" Du Anran asked.

If the answer is "yes", she will feel that this girl is really cruel.

If it were her, would she be able to do it?Barring an explanation, she never loved this boy at all...

Otherwise, if you have loved, how can you leave no trace so easily.Some things are like engraved on stone tablets, which cannot be blown away by wind or scattered by rain.

How many people can really be free and easy...

"Yes...you probably know that this boy is me...and this girl, her name is Shen Zhan. When I was a child, she always told me that her name comes from "Zhanyi wants to wet the apricot blossom rain, blowing Face not cold willow wind', she was born in the season when the apricot blossoms are falling. Many times I almost forget her appearance, but I will wake up in my dreams from time to time, I will dream of her, dream of her smiling. I am afraid Mentioning her name to others seems to make her feel empty..."

Du Anran didn't expect such a past to be buried in Feng Jing's heart, she couldn't help but sigh.

The rain of apricot blossoms wets the clothes, and the wind of willows blows the face.Shen Zhan, probably just like her name, is a very beautiful girl, as if she walked out of the ink and wash Jiangnan...

It's just that the more beautiful the girl, the more ruthless her heart is?

"Why hasn't she seen you for so many years?" Du Anran asked.

Even friends and neighbors can't make such a decision!
"Because she went to another world and left me forever..." Feng Jing finally shed a tear in his eyes when he said this.

As soon as the wind blew, tears flowed down his cheeks.If tears melt into the sea, can he bring his thoughts to heaven...

Du Anran was surprised, it turns out...

She would rather this girl named Shen Zhan ignore Feng Jing, at least that way, she is still living her own life, happy and carefree.

"Do you miss her very much..." Du Anran asked softly.

"I think, I think about her in my dreams. She still owes me an explanation, has she ever loved me..." Feng Jingdao, "But many times, I know, I don't deserve to ask her this question. If I hadn't quarreled with her, If I went abroad with her, maybe, everything that happened later would not happen."

"It's not your fault, if everyone can know their future fate, then what's the point of living." Du Anran said.

"I understand this truth, but I have never been able to convince myself. So later, I devoted myself to my studies and entrepreneurship, forcing myself to be tired and suffer, just to not give myself time to miss her."

Du Anran's heart trembled. It turns out that people are similar. When they can't find a good solution, they will always choose to escape. This is an inherent factor.

"But you should know that she will never come back..." Du Anran said.

"I know, she will never come back, she has gone with the sea. But tell me, how many years it takes to forget a person. Why I have been trying to forget for so many years, but I can't forget..." Feng Jing Qi Qiran was in his voice.

How many years does it take?Du Anran has never tried...

She also told Xin Zimo today that if he tried to forget her, three to five years would be enough.However, Feng Jing now told her that in three to five years, it is impossible to forget a person.

She used to think that men's minds were not delicate enough, and that the so-called "love" was only verbal. It wasn't until she met Xin Zimo and Feng Jing that she realized that men can sometimes be more infatuated than women.

"Then have you ever thought about trying to accept a new relationship." Du Anran asked.

"My heart towards Shen Zhan hasn't turned to ashes yet. I think it would be unfair to another woman to start a new relationship."

Du Anran looked at his profile, the resolute lines showed a little tenderness.

"Then since you came to the beach today, it means that you are willing to say goodbye to the past. Then you might as well give it a try. After letting go of the past completely, you can welcome life with a new state. Try to accept different people, try to stop Take a look around."

Du Anran was persuading Feng Jing. In fact, she knew that it was easy to persuade others with many reasons, but it was difficult to actually do it.

Just like herself, if she was asked to let go of Xin Zimo and accept another man, would she be able to do it?
Life is only enough to love one person, many times, the heart is too small to let go too much...

"In the past, I would reject everything related to the sea, because you know? Last spring, Shen Zhan was swallowed by the waves to save others. Her family searched for her for three days and three nights, but they couldn't find her. At that time For me, I lost my temper because of her ignorance in China. I never thought that I would be separated from her."

Feng Jing's words once again shocked Du Anran, Shen Zhan, what kind of woman is she, she can save people without thinking of herself.

"But today, I suddenly realized that if I have been afraid of everything related to Shen Zhan for the rest of my life, then I will not be able to face myself. My conscience has always been troubled, so I came to the beach today to let her listen As for what I said..."

"If she can hear what you said, she will definitely forgive you. You are not wrong, you just don't know." Du Anran said.

"I hope she is in heaven and can hear what I said." Feng Jing raised his head slightly.

The sky was blue, and it became the same color as the sea water.Seagulls soar in the sky, and a faint fragrance wafts from all directions.

"Speaking out, isn't it a lot easier?" Du Anran looked at him.

Feng Jing nodded: "This matter has always been a knot in my heart. I have liked her for so many years, my childhood sweetheart. It used to be resentment, but until last spring, it became my self-blame and regret. Although the knot is not yet fully resolved. Untie it, but at least it loosened a lot, and it no longer binds me like a shackle."

"So, if you have any sad things in the future, you should tell them in time, and don't keep it in your heart." Du Anran said.

"I've been unhappy all these years. I miss her very much, but I'm angry, and I don't want to take the initiative to find her abroad. As a result, I don't regret it until it's really too late."

"She didn't look for you in those years, you two are really awkward..." Du Anran sighed softly.

In fact, she thought of herself and Xin Zimo. When the two of them were unwilling to bow their heads, they were almost at war.

"Maybe it's because she never liked me, it's always been my wishful thinking." Feng Jing sighed, "Otherwise, she wouldn't have really heard from her for so many years. But it doesn't make much sense to say these things now..."

(End of this chapter)