Mr. Quan, please take care

Chapter 1090 Jun is also afraid of old age, she can't escape

When Jin Li heard this, she was stunned.

What is "Can't live without you"?
Is that what she meant?

but……

How can it be?

"You don't love me, you never loved me. You said it yourself. Just after our first time, you left me in bed alone. I had a fever that day. I was dazed, but the tears didn't stop."

Song Jing's heart stabbed, "...I'm sorry. I was the one who walked into a dead end before, and I didn't see my own mind clearly."

Jin Li shook her head: "I don't believe it. Song Jing, I don't believe you."

His voice choked: "Why?"

"You love my mother! Not me! Over the years, you have never forgotten her, and even adopted me for her sake. To you, I am just a tool to swear your faithful love , a way of expressing my memory and nostalgia for my mother.”

She wasn't even a complete person, and when he looked at her face and eyes, he always fell into a daze again and again, as if he was looking at another person through her.

And Jinli hated that kind of gaze since she was a child, but she was also greedy for that kind of staring and concentration.

She also comforted herself deceivingly, it would be fine to be like this for the rest of her life, as long as she could stay by his side...

But now she doesn't think so anymore, "After leaving you, I realized that there is another way to live my life."

Song Jing's heart trembled, and his throat felt dry.

After a while, he regained his voice: "... Ah Li, don't rush to say those hurtful words, give me a chance to explain, okay?"

The woman wondered.

In my impression, he never asked such words as "is it okay?" He seemed gentle, but in fact he was tough. Looking at his Buddhist lineage, he had Shura hidden inside.

"First of all, I have feelings for your mother... I used to think it was love, but I figured it out as early as the fifth year after she passed away ten years ago. It's not love, it's more like a kind of dependence and gratitude."

Ahli's mother was eight years older than Song Jing, and at the most desperate moment in his life, she reached out to him and brought him light and warmth.

But she has a childhood sweetheart, Ahri's father.

At that time, Song Jing was like a younger brother in her eyes, and she was not stingy with caring and loving him, and even her lover took good care of Song Jing.

Later, the husband and wife went to Guangdong and Guangxi to develop, and the business was booming, and within a few years, Xiaojinli was born.

It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. When Jinli was five years old, the couple were killed because they offended someone. When Song Jing arrived, they had passed away, leaving only their frightened daughter hiding in the closet.

Since then, Jinli has been taken by Song Jing's side and raised by himself.

"I hope you are ordinary, at least stable, but you are not ordinary at all."

Marksmanship, fighting, fighting, driving, everything that Song Jing has taught, she can always master it immediately.

She is talented but works harder than others.

This made Song Jing's gaze fall on her countless times silently and vaguely.

But Jin Li didn't notice it, and even he himself didn't know what it meant.

"The first time I had a relationship..." His voice was hoarse, "I was not completely drunk, I knew what I was doing, and I knew the consequences of doing so. But I still became muddled and became a coward after I got sober."

He didn't dare to admit it, and he couldn't face the girl he raised with his own hands, and he was even more ashamed of Ari's mother.

Jin Li's eyes widened in disbelief.

"That was the first time I tortured myself, how do I feel about you."

"So, what's the answer?"

Song Jing: "There is no answer, I can't think of the reason, but the physical reaction is very honest, so there is a second, third time..."

The woman could no longer hold back the tears that were wrapped in her eyes.

It turns out that her love is not unrequited love, and the person she loves is not hard-hearted.

After so many years of infatuation, she has never paid by mistake. She is gratified, but also tired.

"It's late...it's too late...in the end, you pushed me away..."

"Ah Li," he looked at the young woman's face, whether it was sadness or sorrow, "I am 17 years older than you. , do you want to spend the rest of your life with an old man who is not much younger than your father?"

"No," he laughed at himself, "I'm not even qualified to mention 'Yu Sheng', because I'm destined to walk in front of you, and I can't accompany you to the end."

In this relationship, it is not Ari who is humble, but him!
"So, I tried to let go. But after three years of letting go, I realized that I can no longer live without you."

The woman looked shocked.

Such a confession was once her dream scene, but now that it has come true, it feels unspeakably sour and sad.

"Ari, come back to me. I will present the best things in the world to you and your child. Even if I can't accompany you for the rest of my life, I will definitely protect you."

Jinli's eyes were hot.

Yes, she relented.

She couldn't escape, as early as the age of 12, when she was hugged by him through the hail of bullets, she knew that she would never be able to escape this man in this life.

……

"Have you considered it?" On the day when Ahri was sent away, Shen Hou was standing on the pier on the bank of the Zama River.

The wind was strong, engulfed in water vapor, messed up her long hair, and flapped the corners of her clothes.

"Sorry for disappointing you."

Shen Yu cast his eyes into the distance, and the outline of his face showed a touch of coldness: "Everyone has different ideas, so don't force it."

As long as you don't regret it.

(End of this chapter)