When I woke up, I was secretly married

Chapter 228 I Will Not Be With You

When Bai Jiaojiao opened Xiao Shujing's mouth, she immediately raised her hand to cover his mouth.

"I don't want to listen, I don't want to listen to what you say about you, I just want to know that you will be safe and healthy by my side..."

Xiao Shujing felt Bai Jiaojiao's hot palm on his lips, and when he heard her panicked and frightened voice, he was in terrific pain.

Her fear comes from her mother Li Shuya, he understands, he understands.

But apart from his understanding, he can't save her mother who passed away for many years. All he can do is protect her.

But in terms of protecting her well, he still needs to overcome the hurdle of her grandmother Duan Muya, and of course the hurdle of Bai Jiaojiao more.

Because no matter how he strategizes, he will never have confidence in front of Bai Jiaojiao.

He didn't have the confidence that she would stay by his side after telling his physical reasons.

Duanmuya is right, no one is willing to suffer.

How can a dying person hurt others, and how can he love others.

Even if they fell in love, but he died forever, leaving Bai Jiaojiao in the end heartbroken.

He shouldn't have confessed.

He shouldn't have confessed to her about his body, and even more so, he should have confessed to her that it was Yun Han's fault.

It was right for him to switch identities from the very beginning, to abandon Yun Han's identity, and approach her as bodyguard Xiao Shujing. burden.

However, the matter has come to this point, even if he takes back what he said to her that he is going to die, he is very clear that he has left fear in her heart.

If he can't take back what he said, if he leaves her alone, then the final result will be her thinking wildly alone, and new conflicts will definitely arise.

He couldn't take this matter back, and the last result he could do now was to explain it clearly to her.

Then, he waited for fate's final judgment on him, waiting for Bai Jiaojiao's answer to him.

If she finally learns that he will die soon and chooses not to be with him and leave him, even if she is unwilling, he can only accept it calmly.

She doesn't want him, but his heart for her will never change.

She stays away from him, even if he dies, he will arrange everything and protect him for the rest of his life.

He will protect her under his wings, and never let her suffer the days of wandering and helpless after losing her mother.

He is her reliance, he is her harbor, even if he dies, he will protect her forever.

Raising his hand, he took Bai Jiaojiao's hand away with a little force.

"Jiaojiao..." His voice was hoarse and trembling.

"You are not allowed to speak, you are not allowed to speak!" Bai Jiaojiao yelled at Xiao Shujing completely, "Shut up, shut up! You go, you leave my room immediately, I don't want to see you, I don't want to Listen to anything you say!"

Xiao Shujing's heart was bleeding, and Bai Jiaojiao in his arms began to resist pushing him away.

But the next moment he locked her arms and body tightly in his arms, and forced her to face him.

"Jiaojiao, I have never dared to confess these things to you, but I have my reasons, I..."

"Shut up, shut up! I don't want to listen to your nonsense." Bai Jiaojiao yelled at Xiao Shujing, "You are a liar just like my grandma, what a curse, what fate, what a terrible year, be careful, you are all liars You are all liars full of lies, you don't want me at all!"

"You go, you let me go, you go! I know that I am with you in vain, you don't want to be with me at all, you are only with me because I am shameless. looking at you."

"I'm really shameless! I shouldn't be close to you, you are a bodyguard! You are just my husband Yunhan's bodyguard! But I did something wrong to my husband. I cheated and stayed with you immorally. Everything is wrong." It shouldn't have started, nothing should have started..."

When Xiao Shujing heard Bai Jiaojiao yelling hysterically at him with self-reproach and anger, his heart was dripping with blood.

He had known the contradiction in her heart for a long time, and she kept condemning herself in her heart for not being close to him.

However, she didn't cheat, she never did, because the one she fell in love with was her husband, Yun Han, and he was Yun Han.

At this moment, he opened his mouth to tell her all this, but he couldn't say it, and he couldn't say it.

She hasn't accepted his physical affairs yet, if he said something, he would be Yun Han, her Bai Jiaojiao's husband, she didn't cheat, she fell in love with the right person.

She must be even more broken than now, and she will absolutely hate him for the rest of her life.

It's hard to say, he can't say it, and Duanmuya won't let him say it.

Without speaking, he could only hug Bai Jiaojiao tightly, letting him roar at her, let him restrain her, and she was still resisting his constant struggle and writhing in his arms.

"I'm really thick-skinned, I'm really shameless!" Bai Jiaojiao kept blaming herself in Xiao Shujing's arms, "I'm already Yunhan's woman, I'm already his wife, even if he's disabled, disfigured and inhumane, I will I never disliked him, he didn't embarrass me, he even gave me flowers, gifts, and necklaces, just think about how he treats me really well."

"I should guard my heart. I shouldn't have illusions about you. I shouldn't let you, who is Yunhan's bodyguard, approach me. Everyone is right. I should separate the distance between us in a business-like manner. A bodyguard is a bodyguard, never get too close, don't lose your mind, and in the end you can only reap the consequences."

"Xiao Shujing, you are tired of living with me, right? That's why you said such things to me, but you want me to leave you in spite of the difficulties, let you go free, and let you be yours." Bodyguard, this way you won't feel sorry for your master Yun Han, and you don't have to perfuse me anymore."

Xiao Shujing listened to Bai Jiaojiao's words, he didn't speak, he was listening, listening to her inner thoughts that he couldn't know at all when she was in pain.

It turned out that she thought he was tired of being with her, that's why he said dying words to force the separation.

How could he be bored, he wished to be with her every second and every moment, wished to embed her in his body, so that the two of them would never be separated, they would be together forever.

How could he be willing to leave her? He was reluctant and unwilling.

He didn't open his mouth to explain, he just listened to her, and it was only at this time that she realized that Yun Han was good.

But she didn't know that he went to the hospital in person, enduring the pain of wounds and tears on his body, and put her favorite lily of the valley in the vase beside her bed.

He drew the blueprint himself, and asked the world's best jeweler to customize a lily of the valley necklace for her, as well as a lily of the valley bracelet on her wrist, but she has never discovered that his and hers are engraved on the necklace. name.

He gave her all the things she liked, but he used his own Yunhan identity to give her.

He likes her, he wants the best for her, all for her.

"Xiao Shujing, that's enough..." Bai Jiaojiao said heartbroken, "You don't have to let me back down, I promise you whatever you want, from now on I won't be with you, you are free gone."

(End of this chapter)