The Regent's favorite concubine

Chapter 397 So Heavy, To The Bone Marrow
"When the whip in her hand hit me mercilessly, I felt the pain of the whip. The pain was like a pain that penetrated deep into the bone marrow. It was hot and hot. But, I transformed this pain into love and joy. As long as I thought that she had hit me with the whip, I would not feel the pain anymore. All I could think about was her. When she hit me, I didn’t feel the pain at all. Angry, not angry at all, on the contrary, I think she is very cute when she is angry."

"She has always been so obvious about whether she likes or dislikes. When she likes someone, she can dedicate all her enthusiasm and joy, but when she hates someone, just like treating me, she can never hold back Sensibility, completely reject me."

"She thought that as long as she was a little more aggressive and ruthless to me, and the strength of the whip hit me a little harder, and I lost face and suffered a lot at her hands many times, one day I would get over it. Retire, but she was wrong. Not only would I not retreat in the face of difficulties, but when she hit me with a whip that was heavier than a whip, it was like the helplessness that I couldn’t love in my heart, and like a branding iron. Normally, it left a mark on my body, so deep and so heavy, it went down to the bone marrow."

"Brother Shen."

After thinking about it, his voice suddenly became hoarse and low, mixed with deep pain: "In order to get her, I have exhausted all methods, maybe some methods are sorry for my identity, making it difficult for me to hold my head up in the capital, but I don't regret it, I never regret it, even if I almost hurt her, I am willing to use the rest of my life to make up for it, but now."

"Now. After learning the news that she is not alive, I realize that I was wrong, and how wrong I was. It turns out that loving someone means that she is living a good life, instead of blindly trying to get her. In order to get her, Doing so many things that hurt her, self-righteously thinking that in this world, only myself can give her happiness, smoothing out all her favorite fantasies."

"Before, I didn't understand why I was so nice to her and why she still hated me so much. I could tolerate everything about her, whether it was tricky or willful. Even, I saw her with Mo Wushang later. At that time, I felt hatred, I don't understand, I treat her so well, why she still hates me so much, and rejects me, she keeps saying that she is the emperor's woman, and she doesn't want to implicate me, implicate my Shangguan family, but Why can she be with Mo Wushang, that man once wanted to kill her."

"She was willing to follow him and be with him without complaint or regret. At that moment, I couldn't deny the anger and jealousy in my heart. Why could Mo Wushang, why couldn't I, I just wanted to be with him By her side, when she needs it, she can turn her head and see me at any time, but..." "She is being stingy now, so she will take back even this point. Shen Yuechi, tell me, my heart is not iron What I have done, I have paid for so long, for so many years, and suffered so much indifference and discrimination, I can have no regrets, but when other men are accepted by her, I will also feel pain, jealous, and envy."

"Still, my status is not as good as Mo Wushang's or the current emperor's, but my heart is incomparable to anyone else. I am devoted to her, and my heart to her will never change. I will only I have her as a wife, and I will treat her well all my life, but why?"

(End of this chapter)