Madam not allowed to remarry

Chapter 529 He's a piece of shit
Because of this sympathy, she is no longer so defensive and disgusted. When he comes again, she is still willing to respectfully call King Qin.

What a coincidence that he came today, the lady woke up.

"My lord, madam is awake."

Zhong Yu glanced at the tray in Peony's hand. It was a full bowl of porridge, which hadn't been touched at all. It was covered with a layer of pulp due to the cooling.

"Well, let's cook another bowl of porridge and bring it in later."

"kindness."

Mudan was no longer on guard against Zhong Yu, so when Zhong Yu went into the room, she hesitated for a moment, then went to the kitchen on her own.

A few days ago, Madam didn't wake up, so she had to be on guard.

Now that the lady is awake, what is she still doing.

Pushing the door open, Meng Baiyun knew it was Zhong Yu.

I just heard her talk with Peony.

Zhong Yu walked to the bed and sat down on the stool that Peony had just sat on, but it was a little farther away, but it was not to deliberately distance, but to see that face more clearly.

"Does it hurt?"

Meng Baiyun opened his eyes, with a playful self-mockery at the corner of his mouth: "What do you think?"

"It's not a serious injury."

"Yes, it is not."

"Peony sent a letter to Guigu, when he comes, your injury will heal faster."

"So fast? Have you dug out your heart?"

There was a touch of pity in his eyebrows: "It will get better, you have always been a person who can afford to let go."

"You think too highly of me, he's not you."

Zhong Yu's expression seemed a little hurt.

Meng Baiyun continued: "He is a piece of shit, you are a human being, you may forget someone after seeing someone for a long time, but if you step on a piece of shit, you will be disgusted for the rest of your life."

Zhong Yu was taken aback, she never expected her love to hate to be so distinct, that man who loves vigorously, instantly became so unbearable in her heart.

He suddenly felt a little lucky, at least he was not enough to make her loathe him so far back then.

"I'm here today to tell you good news."

Meng Baiyun turned to look at him: "Is he dead?"

"He's not dead."

"Then what good news can there be in this world?"

She sneered lightly.

Zhong Yu frowned again, and said softly, "Bai Yun, don't do this."

"How, I can't expect him to die?"

"Forget it."

"I can't forget it!" She suddenly became hysterical. "I said I stepped on a pile of dog shit. How can I forget this disgusting feeling? I can't even forget him after he dies."

He finally understood that the resentment, hatred, and hysteria she showed at this moment were not really because of her aversion to Long Aohan, but more because of the deep scars in her heart, and she needed an outlet to vent.
She might not hate Long Aohan.

But at this moment, her heart is more hurt and painful.

This kind of pain will only devour her and make her fall into the boundless darkness day by day.

He didn't want to see her become like that.

He would rather she forget about Long Aohan and live the same life as before, heartless, silly, that ten-year-old girl who chases after his ass is so bright and full of vigor.

"Do you know what I thought of you when I first saw you?"

Meng Baiyun frowned, why did he suddenly bring up such a long time ago.

"I was thinking, why is this girl so thick-skinned, she just watched me commit nympho at a young age, doesn't she have the shame of a girl?"

"Haven't you always thought of me that way?"

"Listen to me, I've been annoying you for a long time. When you climbed over the wall and entered my palace, I wished the steward would kill you as a thief. Anyway, the Meng family wouldn't care too much about it, after all It was you who came in over the wall and killed the Meng family as an assassin. But I saw your tears. It was the first time I saw you cry. You always chased after me like a madman. What I saw was your frivolity, shamelessness, self-contempt and shamelessness, and I saw your sadness that day. You didn't feel scared because you were caught by the housekeeper, but begged the housekeeper to let you see me, saying that you It took a lot of effort to climb that wall. Your hands were torn, your skirt was cut by the eaves, your leg was sprained when you landed, and you walked with a limp. You paid such a high price, but Want to meet me."

"Yeah, silly."

It seems that this story has taken away that long-term memory that does not belong to me.

Suddenly, I felt that those yellowed memories were inexplicably warm.

Persevering, even a bit self-practicing girl.

"I was thinking, in this world, who else loves me like you do? So many women say they love me, but none of them are like you. It seems that you can give up your life just to get me, so , I asked the housekeeper to let you go. You didn’t learn the lesson, and I turned a blind eye to entering the palace several times over the wall. I want to see how far you can do for me.”

"You should know that at that time, the father was seriously ill, the imperial power changed, and the person his elderly family favored was not me. My mother's efforts to fight for it and my behavior of befriending those ministers behind the scenes finally angered his old man. He kept looking for me all night long. Talking, at the beginning, there was a bit of father's kindness, but in the end, it was almost insulting and humiliating, just like me humiliating you, humiliating me for coveting the throne, forming a party for personal gain, and having ulterior motives, and I am worse than a dog on the side of the road For a whole night, he told me to kneel in the outer hall when I was tired. At daybreak, I never came out of the Yanggong Palace. Before dawn, it rained, drizzled, and it was very cold. My legs were almost I can’t walk, and no one dares to help me.”

"I limped out of the palace and went back to Prince Qin's mansion, but I pretended to be nonchalant and changed into my court clothes. My long, wet hair was neatly arranged, and I reappeared in front of him with the admiration of a courtier. Listen He was discussing political affairs with the ministers in the hall, and you were always in his mind over and over again."

"For so many years, I have worked so hard, behaved in a gentle and decent manner, and did not dare to make mistakes for half a day. I just wanted him to see me, see my existence, see that I am also his son, and have the right to have that For countless days and nights, I was even moved by all the things I did to please him, but in his eyes, I was just unscrupulous, coveting the throne, forming a party for personal gain, and having ulterior motives. I am in his eyes , suddenly saw you in my eyes, and suddenly felt that you are so pitiful, and you are so selfish."

"On the second day after that day, my mother was put under house arrest for some inexplicable reasons. I knew that the father and the emperor might want to do something to our mother and son, so in order to survive, I asked myself to go to Shunan to seal the bottom and completely withdraw from this political dispute. When I left, I really wanted to take you away. After that morning, you became me in my heart. Poor, sad, but hardworking, sincere me. I fell in love with you, with sympathy My own mentality is in love with you."

"Don't get me wrong, I'm saying this now without any purpose, no, it doesn't count, maybe it's with a purpose, I have too many things in my heart, I have been suppressing and can't tell anyone, maybe I have always wanted to Find someone to speak out, I want to tell you that the attachment to the throne is not innate, I don't really want to be a rebellious minister, I just don't want to be reconciled, I can't let it go, I can't get angry, and in the end my character is completely distorted. "

"I don't want you to be like this. My father's favoritism filled me with hatred, and I embarked on a road of no return. On this road, I betrayed my relatives and lost my mother. Now I am called a traitor. If my father The emperor is still here, so he will not regret the humiliation he did to me back then, but will only become more sneering, scolding me for being an unfilial son and a traitor who usurped the throne."

"Baiyun, don't get stuck in it. No matter how important something is, one day you will let it go when you feel that it is no longer important. Long Aohan is just a passer-by in your life. He has committed a terrible crime to you. Forgive the sin, but you can live with peace of mind, but you punish yourself with his sin, Baiyun, wake up, you shouldn't be trapped in this relationship."

"..."

There was a long silence in the air.

Meng Baiyun's gaze didn't seem to have any focus, he looked at a point on the tent, the wind leaked in from the window, the rippling curtain fluttered gently, and the sandalwood scented in the room, Meng Baiyun's heart suddenly became very quiet, very quiet.

Or, she is now caught in the memories, those memories with a yellow color, like a movie film, going through scenes in her mind one after another.

Before the age of 16, the time that did not belong to her, she inherited that memory, but only regarded it as someone else's memory, so the King Qin who once loved deeply became someone who was loved by others and had nothing to do with herself.

Then, this memory before the age of 24 can actually be regarded as not belonging to me, but just someone else's memory. Long Aohan is just a nightmare in someone else's memory, isn't it?
Before the age of 16, Meng Baiyun was always insane, without a proper shape, but was hated and disgusted by the whole world, pointing and pointing behind her back. She was sad for a while, but she could still be crazy and heartless the next day.

Why are we unhappy, because we think too much.

Meng Baiyun looked at Zhong Yu, suddenly broke the boundless tranquility, and asked a silly question: "What about you, have you let me go?"

Zhong Yu didn't seem to expect her to ask such a question, but he answered truthfully: "At least, I won't be obsessed with getting you anymore. Maybe I will get married, marry a wife, have children, and live a life that has nothing to do with you. .”

"Let Peony come in with the porridge. I can't just forget everything so freely, but before that, I can't starve myself to death. I'm willing to listen to the last sentence you said. I can't blame him , to punish myself."

In any case, she was willing to eat.

Zhong Yu was still pleased.

Mudan came in with the porridge, and Meng Baiyun's acupoints just happened to be unsealed. After drinking the porridge, Meng Baiyun looked at Zhong Yu: "You just said that there is good news, what good news."

(End of this chapter)