Acacia, don't be negative

Chapter 347 Just Think I've Betrayed You
"No matter what you have done for so long, whether you do it from the heart, or treat me as a pawn in your hand, to be precise, you have both, those are what you should do, as I said before, I have no right to blame you at all. If it were me, maybe I would get worse.” Ye Song’s eyes were slightly rosy, “It’s just that I’ve been blaming you for hurting my friends, blaming you for hurting my friends. You selfishly want to imprison me in the golden cage of the palace, and blame you for using me in the name of love to achieve your goals."

"But I'm not selfish. I'm a more selfish person than you. I hardly think about it from your standpoint, nor do I think about how lonely and sad you will be, let alone think about it if you don't do that. What will be the consequences. I just start from myself and consider the gains and losses. I don't want supreme power and status, I just want to live a free life. In the end, I am still for freedom, and I am not willing to give up anything for you. I live deep in the palace for you. Therefore, I am a selfish person."

In the end it was a loser.When Su Ruoqing dropped his last son, Ye Song had already suffered a disastrous defeat.Ye Song didn't regard victory or defeat as unimportant, and Su Ruoqing didn't feel the joy of victory at all.His face was pale, his eyes were a little absent-minded, looking at Ye Songyun's calm face, but it seemed to be looking at the very distant past.

Suddenly, the whole chess set was swept away by his black clothes and wide sleeves. He leaned over and hugged Ye Song tightly into his arms. His slender fingers inserted into the hair tied at the back of her head, and he held Ye Song tightly with his palms. The back of her head rubbed against her with red eyes and ears, "Stop talking, don't talk about the rest, I don't want to hear it."

Ye Song leaned quietly on Su Ruoqing's shoulder outside, this embrace that had fascinated her for several years, was still so light, with a faint fragrance on her body, which made her unable to refuse.Well, at this moment, she didn't want to refuse at all.

She just tilted her head and leaned against Su Ruoqing's shoulder silently, the tears in the corners of her eyes fell silently, everything was peaceful.

Ye Song said: "The man I fell in love with is the best man in my opinion. He will not dislike my scars all over my body, and he will not dislike me for being married. Even if he doesn't have time to participate in my past, but my future He will accompany him to the end. Su Ruoqing, I have never regretted falling in love with you, but I can't afford your future, and you can't accompany mine. So, let's stop here. "

"No, I won't..."

Ye Song patted Su Ruoqing's shoulder lightly, and comforted with a wet smile: "Did I say that if one day I don't love you anymore, I will tell you as soon as possible. I'm trying my best to do so. Sweet dreams come to an end When you are sober, you can't trap people for a lifetime. No matter what the future looks like, I should have cut the mess quickly, and I won't regret the decision I made. Su Ruoqing, look at me who is vacillating now, your love Is it still like I am now? You don’t need to be sad, you are the best man in the world in the eyes of the world, and I didn’t stay by your side wholeheartedly, it’s not worth it.”

When she hesitates again and again, she will lose more.She also thought about whether to compromise and stay by his side, but what Su Ruoqing loved was not the compromised her, and in the end that kind of love would become humble and pitiful.Why not stop here?

"Just treat it as my fault for you. I can pay for it with my life. I will protect your favorite Beixia country. I will keep you Su Ruoqing living a long and healthy life. In exchange for my Ye family, I will be a shining lintel."

That day, Ye Song talked a lot back and forth, and she was very clear about what she was talking about and what she was doing from beginning to end.It may be that she has suppressed it for too long, she thought it would be difficult for her to speak out, but in fact it was not as difficult as she imagined; she thought she would be very heartbroken after saying those words, but in fact it was not as painful as imagined.On the contrary, it should be more relieved, because such an ending could not be better for the two of them.

No matter how vigorous the love is, it will eventually be submerged in the long river of time and return to mediocrity.What's more, this kind of love with hurt and purpose.

Ye Song has always believed that he did the right thing. She is Ye Song, the daughter of a general, and Su Ruoqing is the emperor, born in an emperor's family.She is destined to put her heart on herself no matter how hard it is, otherwise she will not be able to take care of the Ye family and protect her relatives.In the end, she will definitely be more pitiful than Li Ruyi.While watching Ye Jiameng's withering and bearing Su Ruoqing's love, maybe Su Ruoqing is used to doing such things, but she can't do it.

As for Su Ruoqing, he was obviously afraid that he and Ye Song would come to this point, but after Ye Song said these words, when it really came to this point, he was also not as hard to accept as he imagined.Perhaps subconsciously, when he did it step by step, he had already expected such an ending.

Proud as Ye Song, she is not a woman who is willing to compromise.He also didn't want that one day, she would become the second Li Ruyi.

He hugged Ye Song for a long time, and snow fell outside the window.Ye Song leaned his head against his shoulder, his black hair like cool silk.He was really afraid that once he let go, he would never have another chance to hug her like this again.Su Ruoqing's warm breath got into Ye Song's neck, and he said: "In this world, the only person who can hold me back is you. Now, you have to leave me too."

Ye Song closed his eyes and took a deep breath, and finally stretched out his arms to gently encircle Su Ruoqing's hand, greedily touching his hair with his fingers, and tremblingly said: "Actually, no one should hold you back. When you do something, you will not be happy inside."

Su Ruoqing thought about it and nodded, "Yes, since I met you, happiness comes from you, and struggle also comes from you. But," he kissed Ye Song gently on the ear, and said to her, "Even if you want to start from If I leave my side, my love for you will not change in any way. Will you marry someone else? "

Ye Song shook his head: "I don't know, maybe when I'm tired, I'll find a good husband, and I only do what a woman who caresses her husband and raises her children should do."

Su Ruoqing smiled slowly, still very gentle, and asked: "If I keep you now, will you not leave?"

Ye Song raised his head, wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes without a trace, and said with a half-smile on his lips, "You know better than me that what you say is like water that is poured out. It's hard to get rid of the water. Why do you still have to worry about that if?"

In Su Ruoqing's eyes, there is an indelible loneliness, with a self-deprecating smile: "That's right."

Tears kept dripping from Ye Song's eyes. She struggled out of Su Ruoqing's embrace, stood up and turned her back, and drank a full cup of tea that had already cooled down. Full of bitterness.When she turned around again, her expression was no different from usual, and she smiled gracefully: "As for the rest, I don't have to tell you to wear more clothes when it's cold, go to bed early at night, eat well and take care of rest, etc. , There are so many women in your harem, they will definitely take good care of you in every possible way."

"What about you?" Su Ruoqing looked at her and asked, "Will you take care of yourself?"

"I've always been fine." Ye Song shrugged meaninglessly, "Su Ruoqing, let's talk about it and break up. From now on, I have nothing to do with you. No matter what you do, you don't have to care about me anymore, and you don't have to worry about me anymore. Pain and entanglement, but whatever you think is meaningful to Beixia Sheji, just let go and do it boldly." She walked over and sat back opposite Su Ruoqing again, the firm look in her eyes shone lightly, clear and clear, "I will not be your burden. Since your position cannot be changed, you have to change mine. And you should and will definitely become the greatest king of Beixia."

While talking, Ye Song slowly tidied up the mess, put the messy chess pieces back into the chess box, raised his eyes to give Su Ruoqing a faint glance, and continued with some playfulness, "But don't think I'm going to You must be so understanding, I am an ordinary woman, I have my family and friends, some things are difficult to be loyal, even if I understand that you have to do that, but I will still be angry, I will be angry, and I will use my own way to protect Someone I care about."

Su Ruoqing said, "This is you."

"Since that's the case, let's skip those lingering words of love." Ye Song pointed to the chessboard and said, "I'll play another game with you, will you come?"

Su Ruoqing didn't say whether it was good or not, but she had already reached into the chess box to get the pieces, and said, "After you leave, will you treat me as your friend and someone you care about?"

Ye Song smiled and said, "I can't do it if I don't become friends with the emperor."

"I promise you a lifetime of glory."

"Sounds good, but if one day you make up your mind to mess with me, wouldn't I be in deep trouble?" After a pause, he continued, "I promised to pay you with my life, and I will do whatever I want. This is more reliable than a friend." Much more."

In the end, neither of them said anything more, as if all their attention was focused on that game of chess.Ye Song played very seriously, and after playing for a long time, she was able to equalize with Su Ruoqing, but she needed to think for a while before making a move, not as fast as Su Ruoqing's layout.

But Su Ruoqing was not so fast at the beginning, he accumulated slowly over time.

Su Ruoqing raised her eyebrows slightly, and waited for a while with a chess piece between her fingers. Seeing that Ye Song was still thinking, she couldn't help but said, "Winning or losing this game is so important? As usual, wouldn't it just be a foil for me?"

"How can this work? It might be the last time I touch this thing. I need a better record." Ye Song hissed as he spoke, "Stop talking nonsense, don't distract me."

Su Ruoqing said as if nothing had happened: "I'm afraid that if you spend too much time on it, you'll have a headache in a while."

"That's not enough."

In the end, Ye Songguo and Su Ruoqing ended up in a deadlock.She looked at Su Ruoqing, and the room fell into a long silence.Ye Song had finally persuaded himself to relax, but because of Su Ruoqing's eyes, it seemed as if he was being held firmly by a hand, and he was pushed into the unfathomable sea of ​​water. Sinking, despairing, suffocating.

?When I was finally able to take a breath, I found that the pain was so painful that I was about to die.

(End of this chapter)